~Welcome to the Splatterpaint Brainmatter Blog~

A "shitpost" collective ran by a straight-edge goth, enjoying life. <3 BlackStar aka Stef

[badendprince]

If only I could kiss you and leave a scar of my lips on your skin...

[yanyah]

being loved with the same intensity i love would fix me

[zmpl]

this is very specific but do any tumblr veterans here remember arial bold italic aesthetic from the mid 2010s. it looked like this

this was basically brat summer but for suicidal people. in this essay i will

[aquar-io]

if you ask me, the guy who put the sword INTO the stone should be king, not the chucklefuck who got it out.

[acekoral]

I assume the guy who put the "sword that makes you the king" into the stone, doesn't really want the position

[monkeychewtoy]

i think the stone should be king since it held the sword the longest

[aquar-io]

[ad-caelestia]

color magic quick reference

red - passion, energy, enthusiasm, courage, romance, power

orange - strength, uplifting, energy, attraction, success, joy

peach -  abundance, attraction, kindness, warmth, comfort, love

yellow - clairvoyance, education, mental clarity, communication, intellect, creativity

green - healing, money, prosperity, luck, wealth

teal - clarity, tranquility, awareness, balance, logic, rationality, meditation, intuition, renewal, cleansing

dark blue - healing, meditation, tranquility, forgiveness

light blue - intuition, dignity, spiritual shield, healing, tranquility

purple - spirituality, wisdom, psychic awareness, divination, royalty

lavender - intuition, spiritual protection, psychic growth, divination

pink - harmony, emotional healing, self-love, friendships, affection

magenta - catalyst, power, energy, manifestation

white - protection, peace, cleansing, harmony

black - absorption/destruction of negative energies, banishing, protection

brown - nature, animals, studies, stability, home and hearth

silver - lunar energy, psychic powers, intuition, meditation, manifestation, cleansing, reflection, divination

gold - solar energy, prosperity, financial matters, attraction, confidence, authority

© 2024 𝚊𝚍-𝚌𝚊𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚊

[moldfucker]

they should invent a uterus that you can remove with your bare hands

[cute-catts]

[rockergiirl]

bro fucking NEEDS to go in the opening and closing hole trembling and shaking bro NEEDS the dark hole

[emilemily]

I’m pulling myself off of all my psychiatric meds one by one and it has been hard, but I’m already feeling the positive effects. I was on an antipsychotic called Rexultifor the last year and successfully cold turkey’d it. Took my last one a month ago.

Now I’m pulling myself off of Trintellix, which is my antidepressant. I’ve gained a lot of weight on it and I’m just not happy with myself. Why am I even on so many meds? My doctor said that after she’s had me on an antipsychotic for a year, she actually doesn’t think I’m bipolar and instead thinks I just have extensive trauma.

Thanks I guess?

Anyway, today is my first day skipping my Trintellix. I’ve spent the last month in hellacious anti psychotic withdrawal, so anything this throws at me will feel like a cakewalk in comparison.

I’ll be staying on my Vyvanse, Guanfacine and Buspar. The Guanfacine works as a heart med for my POTS while also evening out the negative parts of being on a stimulant.

After coming off this anti depressant I will be coming off of gabapentin. That I will need to taper. I tried last summer to come off of it and almost offed myself as a result. I went catatonic and just laid on Stephen’s lap, rocking my body and humming to stop the terrible thoughts I was having.

I didn’t taper it though, so that was my issue.

I’m going to free myself from the shackles of all these medications. I’m 30 years old and I want to enjoy it. I want to feel everything deeply again instead of feeling this fuzzy numb feeling 24/7. I’d rather feel everything and cry than walk around this world letting time pass me by because I feel apathyx1000.

My medication journey started in rehab in 2020. I hadn’t taken meds since I was a child taking stimulants for my adhd. I was put on a cocktail of things and gained an insane amount of weight when all I needed was some fucking therapy and help addressing the death of my father.

Gonna set it all straight now and undo what I thought was just my new norm. It doesn’t have to be.

Here’s to lots of withdrawals coming my way, ha.

Hoping for strength.

[r0zeclawz]

i was watching my girlfriend screenshare nightcore and we did a beautiful dance. this is what true love looks like

[animentality]

[pixelatedjoji777]

Feeling a lot like Joji in Gimme Love MV

[ayy-junipei]

Yarn holder

[ayy-junipei]

The slurperrr...

[aromanticgarbage]

[leebrontide]

Ok so my kid had an ear infection, right? As kids often do.

The doctor scraped out a bit of earwax to have a better look inside.

I was sent a bill for $200 PER EAR for this 5 second procedure which I did not give permission for them to do.

That was key- they did not ASK me if they could do this "procedure". And, as I OWN a medical practice (it's me. The medical practice is me, sitting in my house on video calls) I knew to call them when this bill came in to be like "You did not obtain informed consent for this procedure, and it was not en emergency procedure. You had full ability to gain my consent and didn't. I'm not paying."

And the massive hospital who owned the bill said "yuh-huh you do have to pay."

And I said "I own a practice. I know these laws. I do not owe you money for this."

And they conducted an "internal review" and SURPRISE! Decided I totally owed them money and they had never done anything wrong ever.

And so I called my state's Attorney General office, and explained the situation because, as I mentioned, I know the law. The AG got in touch within a couple days to say they were taking the case and would send the massive hospital conglomerate a knock it off, guys letter.

Lo and Behold, today I have a letter where said hospital graciously has agreed to forfeit the payment.

"How not to get screwed over by companies" should be part of civics class.

Know your rights and know who to call when they're infringed on. This whole process cost me $0 and honestly less effort than I would have expected.

May this knowledge find its way to someone else who can use it.

[necronatural]

Compiled some basic information I know about drawing fat characters for beginners since I've been seeing more talk about absence of really basic traits in a lot of art lately.

Morpho Fat and Skin Folds on Archive.org (for free!)

[buzzfeed]

[spicy-vaginal-tacos]

THIS IS SO FUCKING IMPORTANT! My best friend was turned into a meme on 4chan and 9gag and shit with everyone slut shaming her, and its fucking heartbreaking. People don’t understand the horror of seeing a picture of themselves on the internet with hundreds of thousands of people making fun of them. these people will most likely see these pictures online at some point. Theres no telling how they will react. Theres no telling what personal damage will occur to their self esteem. Do not post pictures of strangers on the internet. Do not reblog/repost these pictures either. Especially if they’re children. That is all.

[loveillusionss]

Someone finally said it

[girlballs-archive]

*trying to call a woman beautiful but i've forgotten how to engage other humans in conversation* girl, you remind me of architecture