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23, aroace, he/they. Requests open.

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Profile // About:

I'm Rust (previously Danny). I usually write/ talk about my interests. MINORS AND AGELESS PROFILES DNI. I will block you. Requests/asks currently open. Currently fixated on Transformers. All fics I write will have gender-neutral, non-descript reader inserts, unless specified to be amab or afab in tags. Dark/dead dove and nsfw requests welcome ‼️

Masterlists // Links below.

•Ryan Gosling- (mostly old)

°X-Men-

▪︎Invincible-

▪︎Transformers-

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OKAY SO HELLO. I've been moving. It's been sucky but at least now I can sleep without constantly hearing the Very Loud Neighbors. HOWEVER now that I've settled into the new place, I have a new disc server for transformers with my friend, @shack-pallet . It's not by any means entirely focused on NSFW, but the server is 20 years and up. Feel free to share your fics, art, discuss everything tf related, etc.

Server link, raaaahhhhhg: https://discord.gg/K6wNqdZ4U

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OKAY SO UH. hello Ryan Gosling audience of mine. I have officially seen Project Hail Mary TWICE and I need to write about Ryland. PLEASE God send in ideas for him I love him so much this movie is going up to s tier in terms of goose movies and a fave right next to drive.

For my transformers fans: Rodimus Prime fic in the works and about half or so way done, I will be reworking my overlord fic, and am coming up with ideas for a To Taste p2

Trials audience, I will be making a Franco design, lore, and personality analysis!!!

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So uh. As an 18+ blog. Please do not send me asks involving a minor reader. I will take sfw requests, but I will NOT be writing anything about a child character no matter what the context is. I do not want a minor audience on my blog of any sort.

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Urghhjhhhh dialogue hindering rodimus fic......... time to attempt to rework another wip

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What if. I'm hyperfixated on transformers again.

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Sgt. Leland Coyle// Introspective.

Notes: Part two of my coylemolova rant from a few days ago. It's entirely my look/thoughts on Coyle's background! Beware some speculation and unused content from the games. This is mostly copied from an analysis I already did with my trials discord group but revised, I'll show the original + some silly fanart i did at the end.

Content/Warnings: CSA, Misogyny, racism, abuse, sexual violence, murder, and all other warnings you would associate with The Outlast Trials. Read with caution and mindfulness of yourself if need be.

Outlast as a whole has always really been to me about how one's early environment reflects in who they are as a person later on in life. Not one villain in these games is evil Just Because, and the characters with some of the worst actions/crimes committed are they way they are due to their upbringing, and Coyle is a fantastic representation of someone abused turning into an abuser, I think.

This comic is fairly vague? With whether or not Leland was the one being sexually abused or the one doing it, which makes me think it was actually both. First as a victim, and then as he grew older, again as a perpetrator in retaliation or, as a theme with Coyle, trying to regain control and autonomy in a sense for himself- as cycles of abuse tend to go.

I personally believe it was his mother who abused him in this way, on top of her likely having hit and berated him growing up. He mentions her a lot more frequently than his father- Comparing Gooseberry (Someone he, in Prime Time dialogues, both sexualizes and degrades, which I think is, again, part of his power fantasy and desire for control/revenge) to her; something, something, "Like a corpse playing dress up, reminds me of my own sweet mother". In an unused line, he recalls his mother, 'twisting my fiddles/vittles (slang for male genitalia), forcing me into the water'.

I think this in part plays into how he treated his wives- which is very safely assumedly horribly, based on the whole murdering thing and his second wife trying to run away- as well as just his general attitude towards women. His wives were really just accessories he liked because they were pretty, his attraction was purely physical, of course he killed each of his wives. Not only would he be paranoid about the whole sort of vulnerability thing, where you are tired to someone who'll know all your weaknesses and your flaws and corruption, he largely also did not see them as people*, and no one was seemingly alarmed or questioning too deeply when a woman under his roof would die, because at the end of the day he wasn't finding much trouble in marrying at all.

*A lot of men with absent, violent, etc. Mothers tend to see women less like people and are more aggressive/hold resenting views toward their mothers that never really go away, largely because it doesn't get addressed and God knows Coyle wouldn't get therapy. Men were and still aren't allowed by society to be vulnerable in a meaningful sense, really, ESPECIALLY during this period. The Great Depression and back to back war really spurred that 'us against them'/'pull yourself by your bootstraps' mentality into a lot of people.

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Some of you mother fuckers will hate the kress twins only because they are deformed and the incest you do not look deeper into them as characters because you would rather just make fun of them

And i am tired of it

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Sergeant Leland Coyle and Liliya Bogomolova // Rant

Notes: I do not care if I start a war, I am tired of this weird wave of Coylemolova hate and the way this Fandom- and others- seem to treat people with ships or interpretations of characters that don't coincide with every opinion of theirs.

Content/Warnings: I am at the point in my life I am ranting about a ship I don't even personally like oh my god.. there will be another part to this for just my thoughts on Coyle. Edit because I forgot to add the comic panel I mentioned whoops

I'm going to preface this by saying I, personally, Do Not at all ship Coyle and Liliya. I see her as a lesbian, and I imagine he would only like her based off a physical aspect and not of any emotional or ideological connection. But I'm genuinely so confused.

So what if it's fucking toxic? The same people denouncing Coylemolova are shipping Waylon and Eddie in the same breath. Coyle and Liliya are consenting adults and from what I can tell far less harmful than a good chunk of the other ships I see on this app. If you are a lesbian, gay man, etc. who headcanons them as the same, then fine, but again those are fucking headcanons, you have a block button, and not everyone is going to think or imagine them the same. It is insufferable to have to share a Fandom with people who take their personal interpretations as Canon when they are not. Respect your peers, and yourself, by moving on.

Yes, Liliya is a sexual assault victim. But as this Fandom seems to confidently forget, Coyle is a CSA victim. It is the first goddamn thing we see in his background comic (At the bottom of rant), and influences his prejudices, his actions and personality, etc. Outlast is about how what happens in your environment changes you as a person. None of these characters are evil just because, and yet Coyle is constantly chalked down to "racist hillbilly cop" while other characters are seen a lot more favorably and even pardoned for their abuses. Considering the gray areas of the characters you like but boiling the ones you don't to static, one sided cardboard cutouts does not make you nuanced.

It's 'incest twins' this, and 'racist cop' that, until the same happens to your favorite and suddenly the characters ARE deep, actually. You're not better than a Coyle, or Franco, or Liliya, or Gooseberry, or Twins fan. They are all murderers, abusers, etc. Their actions aren't excused by their histories, none of their crimes should be swept under the rug, but they ALL deserve introspection. Not just the handful you like.

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I swear I'm alive I'm just knee deep in outlast trials, don't know how to post about it, but am debating writing about Franco

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So I uhhh. Very definitely have the outlast trials brain worms and in the trialscord been doing nothing but 200+ word character analysis on the Primes 😭😭 Would that be smth people on bigger tumblr find interesting at all??

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Joined a big ass server for wesker content and immediately felt lost from how big it is LMAOO

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Franco Barbi who finds out men can lactate and starts either trying to get himself pregnant (??) or pumps his moobs raw. Send tweet

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Genuinely curious. Do you think there's multiple Wesker clones/other Zenos out there?

No; That's probably expensive as hell/etc. reason

Perchance..

Oh, definitely.

Voting ended onApr 12

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Albert Wesker HCs // RE / DBD

Notes : Grace has seemingly won !!! We'll see if the poll changes last minute but for now she's very definitely due for a fic. Enjoy my malewife to sate you.

Content / Warnings: Wesker is a warning of itself, toxic and weird behaviors in the DBD section particularly; manhandling mention, death, injuries, general cruelty/sadism, and power imbalances. Light smut.

•Constantly staring at you. It's lovingly, don't get me wrong- His glowing eyes say murder, but he just likes looking, usually at midnight either standing in a dark corner or in the doorway at midnight. Stare back at him.

•Jots down little habits or quirks you have like a character study; not really to change or fix them or anything, but out of curiosity. He'll never directly ask you anything about yourself, but he genuinely wants to know more about you (while, simultaneously, giving absolutely nothing about himself away. You don't know what his favorite color even is,) and remembers every little throwaway comment/remark you make about yourself.

•DBD Wesker is (slightly) different than his normal re5 iteration in that he is rougher and more cruel because of the assurance you'll come back if you're killed or injured badly. If you met him through trials/the Entity, this is particular evident- His first impression of you is that you're another person to hunt/target, with the added benefit of someone to sleep with, and less of a partner to him. You WILL be targeted during trials, because he's a bastard. Manhandlings via Uroboros tendril are frequent, you are only useful to your team as a distraction, and expect him to drag your pretty, injured ass as far away from hatch/the exit as possible.

°However. If you were in a relationship w/ Wesker before his demise and reunited thanks to the Entity, he's far more lenient. He's going to mostly ignore you- or just hook you and go his separate way, not bothering to give chase. Probably won't help/rescue you, but it's to keep his fondness under wraps and keeps killers from targeting you to get to him.

•I'm honestly stuck between Wesker being overly cold due to being technically dead, and the viruses in his body making his body work overtime and therefore radiating heat, but I think it's a lot funnier if he's extremely cold. You desperately want physical contact, but you have to bundle up every time beforehand. He uses his cold hands for evil- Trailing his fingers along your spine and neck to make you shiver, or cradling your head as he fucks your face and quietly whispers a mix of praise and degradation your way.

•Wesker is in a long standing, emotional and physical relationship with you out of mutual respect. He expects you not to cheat, and so he does not, and wouldn't. Jealousy isn't something you'll see often with Wesker, and he's more quiet and lingering than outright protective. He stands close enough that there is no mistaking your relationship when someone is pushy, and has no fear someone will manage to coax you out of his arms and into theirs. After all, loyalty is a quality he values in his partnerships, and he intends to keep yours.

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"Grace or zeno" meanwhile I've been writing almost entirely wesker

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Okay so. do yall want a grace or Zeno fic first

Grace

Zeno

Voting ended onApr 6