look at me..?

•Yanblog/vents(18+)• •MDNI•

[suffocatingtears]

Intro

meow meow meow meow

I am currently 20

not looking.

I go by they/them he/him

My interests vary but its straightforward.

I am not well mentally or physically.

I mostly reblog but sometimes I'll vent

I yearn for mutual things for as long as I breathe

DNI is simple (-17)Minors or Maps

If I post (not reblog) I'm either really drunk or spiraling like crazy

[jiraicatgirlsunny]

My dream?? To look pretty and aesthetic when I eventually end it all.

[trainsandpaperplanes]

I cannot justify still being alive

[nofuckingideawho]

I can't even people please properly anymore

[rotloser]

[whit3lin3ss]

Holy shit I’m fucking disgusting

[dziurawat3tnicaa]

When it’s getting so bad you start imagining how everyone would react if you do it.

[sweetbittersweets]

[morbid-lycoris]

[grotesquex]

woah you’re like awesome as shit let’s get into an abusive, codependent relationship and be miserable together for eternity. ok? awesome.

[suffocatingtears]

will i ever find someone as dedicated as I was?

will someone yearn for me?

crawl back until they can't?

enjoy my rants as much as i enjoy theirs?

love me?

actually commit to me and only me?

[suffocatingtears]

literally hate being used as a backup when everything goes wrong.

I'm not going to grovel at your feet

nor indulge you anymore.

[suffocatingtears]

i just want to be loved properly.

[jupitertears3]

i feel like there’s something missing in me that the rest of the world has and it’s not fair

[shelley654]

how much fucking clearer do i have to make my abandonment issues for people to stop casually abandoning me as simply as one takes out the trash

[yeesiine]

Reassurance hits different when it’s not requested.

[suffocatingtears]

hi :3 are u oki?

Yess i am! thank you for checking in (⁠｡⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠｡⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♡

hopefully you're okay too!!