A ray of light illuminating the chaotic internet of today...
Bringing happiness to the nerds floating in this electronic sea!
A promise of future peace,
I'm a little manic and moody, but it's alright!
The internet angel has descended!
I'm here to love and heal all you nerds out there on the internet.
And while I'm at it, I'm going to become the biggest streamer on here! That's a threat AND a promise!
Go big, or go home! So, I'm going to shoot for 1 million followers!
Hi there! I'm vel/lucretius!
I like nicknames! Give me nicknames! Or... you can choose from Luci, Lu, and Luc!
I'm a jiraiblogger who's been banned on tumblr 5 times now, so I'm leeching off of my brother, Jimmy's, email to keep this blog up. I refuse to make another email.
I'm a mentally ill trans guy who uses he/rag/rot/kitty/cat/void/doll/decay pronouns. Do not use they/them to refer to me. I use a lot of labels to describe my identity, but I will not list them all. The main ones are multispec, trans, ashleycharic, deadthing, and pinkcatgender. (Might also be an Ashley Graves fictionkin).
Some fandoms I'm in include Needy Streamer Overload, Creepypasta, Danganronpa, Psychopomp, DoL, The Kid at The Back, and TCOAAL.
As mentioned previously, I am mentally ill. More specifically, I suspect I have NPD, DPDR, APD, and anxiety. I also suspect that I have BPD, sadistic, and ASPD/CD traits. I rarely experience remorse, affective empathy, or sympathy. I'm only diagnosed autistic, and I know I have chronic knee pain and tics. Because of this, I am likely problematic. Normally, I would post vents on this blog, but that's what got me banned last time. So, this blog will not feature discussions surrounding sensitive topics, except for homicidal/suicidal ideation and SA or incest (this specifically because I am a victim of both). I will also joke about being incestuous with my brother, Yae, however, we are not actually related (😢). This is evident because I am white, and he is black.
Note: I go through very long episodes of derealization/depersonalization (shortest one has lasted a year). I am currently recovering from one, so my memory may tend to fail me because of that.
As a disabled person who occassionally struggles with symptoms of associative visual agnosia, I aim to make my content and posts as accessible as possible. Hence, why you'll see image descriptions and alt text under every single post I make.
I love receiving asks! If we're moots (even if you're not), don't be afraid to send me some! You're free to vent, talk about your day, pretty much anything. I'll add boundaries to this section if need be. For now, don't worry too much about what asks you're sending. Parasocial anons have my heart!
I'm a yumeshipper! I love yumeshipping! My list of yumes include... Helen Otis (NS), Jericho Ichabod (NS), Sal Fisher (NS), Ticci Toby (S), Tim Wright (S), Brian Thomas (S), X-Virus (NS), Homicidal Liu (NS), Gwylan (NS), Sydney (SS), Bailey (S), and Whitney (SS).
My personal DNI list will include radqueers (not including people with BIID), TCOAAL haters, ALL bigots, people who justify anything with religion (antitheist here), "narc abuse" believers, people against yumeshipping, TADC and Hazbin fans are on THIN ice, people who are overly sensitive (get off the internet atp), antishippers, pro-contact paraphiles, pro-RAMCOA, anti-self dx, lolicon/shotacon, and a majority of doubles.
If you're none of these, pleaseee be my friend! I love making friends! I love talking to people! I love attention!
Also, @dumfishh fan (gimme that COOCHIE bby 😛😍😍😍)
P.S, I'm bosnian <3
#all angels break down - vents (subtle)
HELLO! JIMMY/YAE HERE! Your local Internet PERVERT.
I'm likely the biggest pervert known to man, I absolutely adore DOL, it's one of my main anchors whenever I'm going through it. I identify with being a Trans man as well as a incubus yay! I use he/him and Slit/Slits, Rot/Rotting, and Slut/Slutself. 🖤
A bit about me, I'm a mentally disabled darkshipper (Non irl condoning) and I absolutely adore Dead Dove which is what I'll be posting a good majority of the time! (Also I love my Big Brother Vel Xoxo <3)
F/o List: Kylar (Ns), Sydney(SS), Eden (NS), Bailey (NS), Jackson + William (the butchery) (NS), Strade & Ren hana (NS), Brian + Tim (NS), Habit (VS), Simon (iron lung) (VS), Neito Monoma (VS), Ticci Toby (NS), Ayano Aishi (NS), Feliciano Vargas (VS), Gammajack (NS), Andrew Graves (VS), HYUGO (tkatb) (NS)
My dni: DOUBLESDOUBLESDOUBLESDOUBLESDOUBLESDOUBLESDOUBLESDOUBLESDOUBLES, Antishippers, Religious nuts, Reality Checkers, BUNGO STRAY DOGS FANS ON THIN ICE!, Narc abuse believers.
I suffer with BPD, D.I.D, MDD, And Homicidal + Sui ideation, as well as vivid hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. I'm diagnosed autistic and I have C-PTSD
I'm black btw.
Posts will be tagged accordingly as to who is posting...
adhd, exersise enduced asthma, depression and anxietey diagnosed ocd and autism heavily suspected and i get super bad migraines that make me nausious </3
not specifying which are diagnosed and which aren’t ;
autism, somatic symptom disorder, social anhedonia, dissociative amnesia, ‘minor’ OCD [whatever that means [was told this by a psychologist and have never been more confused]], chronic pain, chronic migraines, PTSD, maybe some more idk.
also face blindness and bad depth perception.
can’t tell whether I also have bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder
I was professionally diagnosed with social anxiety but everyone around me disagrees [friends, teachers, etc] so I reject it.
uhh my friends say I have adhd . Yeah.
oh I also consider my allergies a disability bc they effect my life a lot [im allergic to my own sweat, the heat and the cold/srs].
if ydk what some things are feel free to ask ^^
@nico-flo @vinceyintown @samsungalienn @v-wuzhere open tags
Weellll I have diagnosed depression and anxiety , and im suspected to have adhd and ocd (ㅎᴗㅎ ) and my eyesight is super shitty , im very nearsighted lol
I'm not officially diagnosed with anything but I've been hospitalized due to sh from a panic attack so its safe to assume I have anxiety I think....I might also have depression, but who knows ! I MIGHT have smth else too but who knows. . .
@angel-pd @milanlan @snowy-nights-alone @nihilism-archangel + open tags~
haii im diagnosed with depression, anxiety, autism, adhd, ptsd (selfdx cptsd), dyscalculia, scoliosis, in the process of getting an ocd and dpd diagnosis, and self dx npd and hpd, and im near-sighted + i use a cane to walk ^_^
...and probably more i cant think of right now. gulp
Autism, npd, bpd and aspd traits, astigmatism, intermittent chronic pain, intermittent chronic nausea, symptoms of associative visual agnosia, thanatophobia, anxiety, my mom is dyslexic and dyscalculic, my grandfather and great-grandmother were both bipolar.
While I was on the plane, a diamond-shaped blue pill with "pfizer" written on it spawned in my lap. I don't know where it came from, it was just there. I'm pretty sure it's viagra, correct me if I'm wrong.
Maybe it's a sign from the universe that I'm gonna get some
While I was on the plane, a diamond-shaped blue pill with "pfizer" written on it spawned in my lap. I don't know where it came from, it was just there. I'm pretty sure it's viagra, correct me if I'm wrong.
Maybe it's a sign from the universe that I'm gonna get some
It makes me so happy, like, I'm finally being seen as a goddess
More and more, I have people who follows me, who listen to me
Am I... Starting to be a proper goddess?
I know it might not seem goddess-like, to question my status, or am I a proper goddess.
But, I don't think it should matter
Here is another of your goddess teaching!
Questioning oneself is normal, everybody does that from time to time. Doubt and fear is something everybody lives through.
And, it can lead to lack of self confidence, so it can be bad, but, someone, even a goddess, who never doubts themselves and questions anything about themselves, will go down a bad route. They will become cocky, and not willing to be open to new ideas. It's healthy to doubt oneself every once in a while.
But, it has to be done in moderation. Being proud and confident and feeling validated is also healthy and important. Being proud of being recognized, of feeling morally right, of doing something you enjoy is priceless.
So find the right balance people. If even a goddess can doubt themselves, or feel validated, you can too!
I know it can be hard, especially since a few mental health struggles impacts really negatively on one's self esteem, myself, I struggle with feeling confident sometimes (often). But you have to try! Start small, it doesn't have to be a big step. Wear that outfit you enjoy, wear your favorite color colored shoelaces, do that hobby you want to try!
And in no time, you'll feel proud and confident, and maybe people will notice it, and you'll feel validated and seen!
No matter what, I see you all, and appreciate all that you do! If you follow my teaching, if you at least try to do good in this world, even if it's just by making one person happy, yourself, I see you, and I appreciate you.
Alright, that's all for today! Thanks for listening
I should make my own dividers... ah, but I'm so bad at making dividers. No matter! It's better to try yourself than to rely on others! Not that I wouldn't appreciate it if someone made a divider for me... kangel/ame themed or ashley themed!
