sycamore daydreams

queer teen | writer | bookworm | theater kid

[sycamore-daydreams]

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this blog is original writing and poems & thoughts on books and musical theater. (also queer + mental health stuff <3)

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[sycamore-daydreams]

I performed in my local theater's newsies today and my mom didn't know anything about it beforehand and after the show I asked for her thoughts and she just said "Davey and jack...I like their...chemistry"

so anyway I've won in life

[sycamore-daydreams]

What do I do when

the person I should be,

the person I want to be,

and the person I am

are not the same?

[gayvampyr]

it really pisses me off when adults sit there and drill it into kids’ heads that their youth is fleeting and tell them things like “enjoy your childhood while it lasts because this is the best it’s gonna get”. why are you telling children that adulthood is the worst thing they can experience? seriously what the fuck is wrong with you, why are you trying to make them feel like growing up is a fate worse than death? trying to convince them their life is over before it even begins? i’m tired of that shit. because tell my why my 12 year old cousin told me when she turns 30 she’ll be so depressed she’s just gonna cry all the time. what the fuck. kids don’t need to hear that their already stressful and overwhelming lives are never going to get better, that the abuse and lack of autonomy they face is apparently the highlight of their lives. they need to hear about adults who are happy to be alive and happy to have made it to their age. they need to know that growing up rules, it’s a gift and life does not have to suck for them, that they have a future that’s worth sticking around for. this rhetoric is so damaging mentally and i’m about to start hitting the adults who parrot it. i’m sorry you hate your life but you don’t get to dump your issues on these kids. don’t piss me off and leave these babies alone!

[sycamore-daydreams]

Can I please have a thank you?

After all, you

take, and you

take, and you

take.

I call you a friend, but to you I’m just a

tutor, and a

therapist, and a

machine.

You say I’m great, but you

drain me, and you

demand me, and you are

killing me.

And maybe I would die for you.

But am I asking too much

if in return I just want a

thank you?

[sycamore-daydreams]

I think I have loved you since we met at seven.

I think I loved you when we drew comics at eight.

I think I loved you when we slept over at nine.

I think I loved you when we filmed a movie on my mom's phone at ten.

I think I loved you when we wrote a love story at eleven.

I think I loved you when I hated myself at twelve. 

I think I loved you when I told you I liked someone else at thirteen.

I think I still love you at fourteen

And I think I will love you forever.

I think,

I think,

I think.

But I’ll never tell a soul

So I thought at least my notebook should know

I think it will always be us.

I think it will always be

you.

[sycamore-daydreams]

30 more minutes left of pride month.

Promise me you'll be proud every single other month too?

love you all<3

[sycamore-daydreams]

The red is bleeding out

Into grey.

The sharpness is dulling

Into fuzz.

Time is sucking the pain out of the hope out of my life.

I can feel

the feeling going away.

I would rather have the red and the sharpness and the pain.

[ezra-didntreallyfall]

Gay people can never just say I love you it always has to be some shit like go and look it up the poor guy's head is spinning

[sycamore-daydreams]

He says she's lucky that he loves her.

But it’s easy to love her.

He doesn't understand how

loving him

is killing her

and the person she brought to life.

[mynorthernattitude]

I'm shy at first and then im like donkey from shrek

[lady-st4rdustt]

oh that's who i've been relating to all this time

[meanbuddhist]

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

[jennelikejennay]

turn your attention to The Character

[whimsyrainwriter]

I’m tired of being “okay”.

I’m tired of pretending we’re all fine.

I’m tired of being alone.

So I open my phone.

I open your contact.

And I write.

If we are left to deal with all of this,

Why not deal with it together?

This world has brought

Me to you

And you to me.

If you’re destined to crash,

We’ll do that together too.

It’s not fair.

It’s not right.

But it’s all we have.

And if all we have is each other,

Then let’s stay together through it all.

[sycamore-daydreams]

Bumpy path

Rainy sky

Static radio

Low on gas

I’ll drive for an hour

Then take a turn in the passenger seat

Because sometimes I am weak

And you make that okay.

Someday

There’ll be sun

Until then

I can’t think of a better person to be on this road with.

[sycamore-daydreams]

When you’re older, they say.

It will all work out when you’re older.

When you’re far away from here.

When you’re older, they say,

people will listen to you.

But what they really mean is

you are not worth it

until you’re older.

And to that, I say they are

too old

to speak on behalf of the

young.

[writingdose]

genuine writers getting wrongly accused of using ai because of witch hunt and proper grammar/structure in their works must be what being a woman in the 1600s who is wrongly accused of being a witch because she can read and is intelligent feels like

[sycamore-daydreams]

I am too tired,

too young,

too smart,

too impatient,

too ambitious,

and honestly, too good

to keep having to see myself

a full ten years older when I picture

a life that doesn’t make me want to

die.

[prokopetz]

It's striking how much mental health advice directed at kids and teenagers boils down to saying "you have to be okay with people treating you like you're not fully human because they're right, but it's okay because one day you will be human", then being genuinely surprised when it doesn't help.