Sylva System

~PFP by @lensesoflies~ ~50+ chaotic monsters~ ~Diagnosed DID system~ ~Body age 27~ ~Witchcraft Practitioner~ ~Base used for banner by @1ml_volume on X~ ---------------------------------------------------- ~ "Chronically ill, chronically skilled" -Charlie~ @literary-tiger for author/reader stuff Asks open for questions about our alters ------------------------------------------------------ ~DNI if:~ ~1. Under 18 and wanting in-depth interactions~ ~2. anti NPD / ASPD / DID etc.~ ~3.the usual (-isms, -phobes, etc.)~ ~4. pro endo, tulpa, etc. (🖤 you deserve mental help still - so no one outright violent towards them either; mental health is complicated and misinformation is rampant 🖤)~

[sylvasystem]

Info to Know, DNI list, and Alter Name Master List

Diagnoses Confirmed:

-ADHD with OCD tendencies

-DID

-Depression

-CPTSD

-(looking into more with therapist)

Body Age:

27 Years Old

Hobbies/Interests:

-Practicing Witchcraft (including worship of deities, dragons, demons, and angels)

-Writing Stories ( @literary-tiger)

-Video Games

-Roleplaying (Slenderverse or Original Stories - open to roleplay partners) (18+ Roleplay partners ONLY)

-Reading

-TV Shows

-Animal Rescue and Rehabilitation

DNI if:

Preferred:

-18 and under wanting to message/befriend us - follows are fine as long as you are aware we might create (trauma related) 18+ posts/art and repost general NSFW stuff.

Absolutely Not:

-ANYONE Pro-Endo/Tulpa/TransDID/etc. -

-Anyone VIOLENT/HOSTILE towards Endos, Tulpas, etc. (they're still clearly mentally unwell and need help)

-No phobes/ists (no homophobes, racists, etc.)

-No MAPs or any of that nasty shit

-No "narcissistic abuse" supporters; abuse is abuse - that's like saying "autistic abuse" because people with autism struggle with empathy

-No one who uses "narcissist", "sociopath", or "psychopath" when they mean "abuser"

-Anyone who thinks little alters have to be babied/infantilized

-If you don't believe maladapitive daydreaming is real

-Anyone asking for money or a shoutout; I'm broke as a joke and have like 3 active followers you're wasting your time

Alter Info:

Frequent Loudmouths-

Jeff, Cabella, Ariyah, BEN, Astar

Large and in Charge-

Jeff, Apyros, Lucical, Ariyah, Ira

[sylvasystem]

Something I've lowkeu always despised during my low points is seeing those "it gets better!" posts where the person's now happily married with 2.5 kids, loves their job, and life is just PERFECT

Because like....yay for them (genuinely) but it always feels shallow as someone who HAS had to sacrifice the idea of certain "happy endings" for survival - not just my own but loves ones too who need my sacrifice to literally be able to live

So, here's my realistic, pessimistic person type take on a "it gets better" post

The bad:

I'm still in a house full of traumatizing memories

I'm still sacrificing significant amounts of my time to heal family that abused me (I know that's not my job; I was just the first one to break out of all the cult dynamic shit - it's a lot more complicated than just them being dicks)

I still refuse to allow myself to try to be in another relationship, because I do still firmly believe all I will ever find is abuse

But the good?

I started volunteering at an animal shelter, and actually got pushed to put in a job application so they could hire me because they were so appreciative of me and how much care and effort I put in (I'm literally working at like...60%; I'm used to having to put in 125% at 12hr factory shifts every night)

Animals are SO therapuetic for me, and even when knee-deep in the worst of it, such as but not limited to-

abuse cases, saving creatures from hoarding situations, animals dying despite everyone's best efforts, aggressive animals that you HAVE to help care for at a willing risk of your own safety because someone mistreating them doesn't mean they should die for it, etc.,)

- I am genuinely SO excited for my next tomorrow, for a month from now, hell - I actually found myself curious about SEVERAL months from now and actually planning for it!

And it is entirely selfish joy, mind you

While YES the care of the animals is important, I've lucked out with relatively cool coworkers, etc., I have spent SO much of my life neglected and abused by people with no break (literally since birth, this is the first year I've not been abused and/or literally DYING)

And now I get to spend 8 1/2+ hrs a day surrounded by and "working for" things that I know EXACTLY where I stand with them

No hidden motivations

No wondering if I'm liked one day and going to ~breathe wrong~ and be hated the next

No having a bad day and being treated like a failure for it

These animals don't give a FUCK because I always show up with food and optional pets

For 8+ hrs a day, any day I damn well please including on holidays, I have a place to go to that I can sit somewhere and feel SAFE

Without fear of it being interrupted or needing to be shut tf down because someone else might need shit (because seriously - you really think that pit mix is going to care if you're sobbing while you pour their kibble????)

My #itgetsbetter isn't some magical sounding reality where all my dreams have suddenly come true

I'm still depressed

I still have CPTSD

I still struggle with trust to the point I will never pursue some vulnerabilities ever again

I still struggle with urges I've fought ever since I can remember as attempts to escape

The only difference is, I have somewhere that I can go now that I ALWAYS know what drama, or chaos, or hell to expect

And no matter how bad it gets, even just showing up and lying in the fuckin floor MATTERS

It has such real, serious change in the lives of these animals - not because they're using me like people always have

But because I decided to exist around them, and that's enough

[kosmogrl]

"whats your 5 year plan?" buddy I nearly go insane thinking about what I should have for dinner

[milky-internet-girl]

Shout out to that one alter everyone fvcking hate

[sylvasystem]

Jeff

#fuckthatguy

[ivy-is-dreaming]

I’m probably going to get hate for this, but i’m tired of seeing people with ASPD romanticizing "free cruelty".

Let’s be real: having ASPD doesn’t force you to be cruel for no reason.

​If you have ASPD and you’re a complete asshole, then you’re just an asshole.

The disorder might explain why you don't feel guilt or why you’re impulsive, but it doesn't hold a gun to your head and make you go out of your way to ruin someone’s day.

Conscience and conduct are two different things. Plenty of people with this diagnosis manage to exist without being toxic, if you can't, that’s a personality flaw, not a symptom.

I’m just tired of seeing people use their lack of empathy as a justification for being a bottom-tier human being.

I know it’s hard sometime. I deal with the same impulses, the same problems. But having those urges isn’t the same as acting on them. Not feeling empathy doesn’t remove the ability to recognize harm and choose not to cause it especially when its just free and without reasons.

Cognitive empathy exists for a reason, you can understand that an action is shitty without needing to feel the other person's pain.

If you choose to be a jerk because you think your diagnosis justifies it, you’re just proving everyone’s worst stereotypes right.

Lack of empathy isn’t a free pass. If you understand something is harmful and do it anyway, that’s a choice. You can have zero feelings and still have enough logic to not be a nightmare to everyone around you.

One is a neurodivergence, the other is a choice.

[sylvasystem]

Forever reminded of the comparison between low/no empathy disorders and the talking point I've heard time and time again of "Why don't atheists commit crimes all the time since God can't stop them?"

And forever and always the answer to both is "....Because I'm not a dickhead?"

[sushizushi6]

Bleghh I’m so sick, I’m upset I haven’t been able to draw because of it but I totally locked in on this today and I’m super happy with the outcome

[effiecalvin]

Hey guys if you could, I'd super appreciate some reblogs on my book stuff! Money is tight rn and every little bit helps!

[effiecalvin]

tysm to everyone who has reblogged!!!

[diserbillyti]

A frustration I have with the neurodiversity movement (distinct from neurodiverse people) is that the culture tends to actually be quite exclusionary toward people with disorders and disabilities that are not autism and ADHD, especially if those conditions are stigmatised, ala schizophrenia, intellectual disabilities, or personality disorders.

It is actually not all that uncommon to run into a someone with a checklist designed around defining autism, which happens to exclude everybody who has a neurological issue but is not autistic. You know, "schizophrenia is a mental illness, not a neurodivergence, because it onsets in your teens and twenties (usually), but a neurodivergence has to be present from birth," "what about foetal alcohol syndrome?" "well that's caused by observable environmental factors, while a neurodivergence is naturally occurring."

This sometimes is so bad that it's a definition of autism that excludes the autistic. To be clear, people we now call high support needs, who we used to call low functioning, were originally just called "autistic." Now a bunch of low support needs people, who we used to call high functioning, who were originally told they didn't have autism but "Asperger's Syndrome, a kind of autism, but not really 'autism,'" have built up this cultural re-definition of autism that tells those original autistic people that they actually have "comorbidities."

This would be an irrelevant difference, except the "comorbidities" concept is often used to alienate high support needs autistic people from these spaces and conversations because the tone around "comorbidity" is "well you're not really discussing autism, and thus not discussing neurodivergence, but rather intellectual disability, which is not a neurodivergence because" and here they pull out their fucking checklist, which just to reiterate, is a DSM criteria definition of autism.

It's like if Aspie Supremacists were given the keys to a very watered-down mad liberation movement. The post-communist purge Mattachine Society of disabled rights.

This seems ridiculous to most autistic/ADHD people because you guys don't run into it, I think, but this is such a common experience when you want to discuss any other condition in these spaces. It's why the neurodiversity movement hasn't fucking achieved anything but mad liberation and broader disabled activism has, because the neurodiversity movement has this really passionate, vocal minority within the minority who are committed to defining the whole thing as people who basically aren't disabled (except when they want to be).

Which to be absolutely clear, most autistic/ADHD people think is bullshit, but also, not much is done to differentiate "neurodiversity" from "autism and her buddies."

[triangleguy]

pros of having a favorite character youve liked for over a decade: character brings you joy and excitement

cons of having a favorite character youve liked for over a decade: they have become a permanent part of your internal monologue and you cant get them to go away

[space-sweetheart]

I love people who have specific characters that are their "no one understands this character like me. not even the writers." because they're genuinely not joking. the way they understand those specific characters is so profound that it'll change your entire veiw.

[beacon-lamp]

hello beloveds ☺️

[iceslushii]

made an alternate version for the mutuals ive never spoken to

[thetreeofliberty]

You are appreciated

[anti-endo-pdid-positivity]

What caused your trauma doesn't matter in your validity as a system, only the fact you dissociated as a child to cope with it. You're valid if your trauma:

Was sexual abuse Was physical abuse Was emotional abuse Was psychological abuse Was medical abuse Was physical neglect Was emotional neglect Was medical neglect Was something other than what I have listed

If it happened and caused trauma responses, it is trauma no matter why it is there. The only reason someone should care about what caused you trauma is if they are a therapist or significant other who is trying to help you heal. You do not owe explanations to anyone.

[sylvasystem]

Hardcore dissociating while catching up on LaDS audios

Zones back in the middle of "Midnight Wavelength"

C-?

Caleb

Caleb why are you talking about 42 planes?

CALEB WHY ARE YOU SPENDING OVER A MINUTE COUNTING PLANES???

WHAT THE FUCK DID I MISS? WHY IS THIS AUDIO ONLY ABOUT COUNTING PLANES?

[mellointheory]

Who makes the porn bots. Where do they come from. What do they hope to achieve.

[the-haiku-bot]

Who makes the porn bots.

Where do they come from. What do

they hope to achieve.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[mellointheory]

and what about you, little haiku bot? do you feel kinship with your brethren? do you understand them? they speak words of enticement and seek love, but are met with disdain. you only parrot the words that cross your screen, but we all love you. or rather, since all you do is reflect us, maybe we simply love ourselves through you.

do you understand them, do you wish you could speak to us like they do? if you found your own voice, would we still care for you?

[the-haiku-bot]

My voice repeats what

you all say: I love you I

love you I love you.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[solkorolevaa]

[thenewborndeity]

This. This is the first time. The only time. That it was not an echo. It was not found. Oh god.

[sushi1056]

deactivated

So thoroughly nuked that there isn’t even any record of their original blog url

[ivys-garden]

The Forbidden Knowledge

[bisexual-engineer-girl]

not even any notes. I feel like I’ve stumbled upon a plot-advancing skeleton’s notebook

[sylvasystem]

Item: A Well-Trodden Step Rarity: ✦ Uncommon

What video game has the best replay value?

Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.

Skyrim 😎

[sylvasystem]

🙄 gotta love when people play the "forbidden/unethical romance otome" lose their minds at a clarification in-game that something IS actually a forbidden and unethical romance

No one's saying you have to like it but like...don't buy salads every day of the year then complain when they clarify the melon in it is cantaloupe and not just ambiguously light orange???

Nothing changed besides the fact you can't go the denial route now???