As Above, So Below

Once you know better, do better.

[syn888]

It so hard to trust.

[perfectfeelings]

“Time always exposes what you mean to someone.”

— Unknown

[perfectfeelings]

“You gotta show love even when they don’t - or you become one of them.”

— Unknown

[perfectfeelings]

“We are dying from overthinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human mind anyway. It’s a death trap.”

— Anthony Hopkins

[quotefeeling]

“And that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too.”

— Khaled Hosseini

[syn888]

Naturally.

[perfectfeelings]

“I’m going to tell you something: Thoughts are never honest. Emotions are.”

— Albert Camus

[thepersonalquotes]

[syn888]

I need to remember this. Haha

[thepersonalquotes]

[syn888]

I’m trying so hard not to act how I feel.

[candlesoul]

[syn888]

Ooooooof. 🙄

[remanence-of-love]

[closet-keys]

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but if you let something slide because you were too shocked to react in the moment, you can bring it up the next time you talk to that person, you can text them, you can let them know it won’t slide again in the future. you don’t have to just accept that behavior indefinitely because you couldn’t gather your thoughts to say it made you uncomfortable when it first happened. you’re not making anything awkward, you are giving someone an opportunity to show care for you, and telling them you trust them enough to change their behavior. there is literally nothing wrong or bad with voicing discomfort even if the moment has already passed.

[kellymagovern]

"Belief is what we do when we don't know, but we're not comfortable enough to stay there. Then we start believing. Belief is an utter and absolute lack of faith. Often, we got belief and faith as if they're the same thing. 'I believe because I have faith.' No, you believe because you have NO faith. If you have faith, you can sustain, you can stay in the place of not knowing. That takes great trust, great faith, great capacity to stay completely and absolutely honest." —Adyashanti [x]

[zerounwantedvibrations]

[somethingtocallmine]

[syn888]

I needed to see this today after my journal entry. I’m going so crazy inside.

[syn888]

I miss how peaceful I was on the inside.

[inkskinned]

you want them to text back but that's anxious attachment isn't it. it's just that you can feel on the wind when you're not wanted anymore. when they've fallen out of love in any small part of their marrow. you have a hawk's eye for disharmony. you can tell when she has begun packing her things.

don't be annoying. you want to write: i have never experienced unconditional love as an explanation but isn't that pathetic. in adulthood all love is conditional and it should be. you've been to too much therapy. touch grass. how sappy can you be.

but they don't reach for your hand while they're driving. they forget to ask you how you're doing. the call times no longer read 12:34:19. they're 30 minutes and perfunctory before she says baby please, i'm tired. i need to go to sleep. where in her life do you fit. why is it that you never fit into anyone's life very long. oblong creature with so many needs, spilling up and out and over everything. it's a fucking shame the first time she said she loved you it was for your independence. and now look at you.

hollow pit in your stomach, body shaking. fuck, not again. you're not going to ruin another relationship like this, codependent and toxic, spiraling. and in the other half of your brain: if that's your wife, wouldn't she want to hear it? wouldn't it be fine? wouldn't she just comfort you and you can both move on and nobody dies?

but you're crowding her! read another instagram Positive Vibes Only type of post that talks about calming your heart and your brain and your body. try to sit in silence. the thing is that you do have a life outside of her, remember? go back to it.

great news, your parents fucked you up and now you have no idea how to deal with love. you just keep wanting to be chosen. to be real to someone, all the way through. real and kept. held closely. seen as precious to somebody. why even is that? didn't you always swear that people can and should complete themselves? why are you so constantly driven to beg for love, doglike and barking?

it's just the tiny things. it's just that you have to weigh every silence and sentence like bricks on an exposed belly. you have no idea how to shut it off. every alarm bell in your body saying: this isn't safe. start scrambling. she's already going.

[syn888]

Fuckkkkkkkkk.