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Organic State, 2014
Plant collage on 90g paper, experimenting with composition
from the collection My Name is an Eccho
a meditative tuesday*
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Still searching information for my theories and all. Still finding interesting things. So I’m letting this here, for anyone to stew and philosophing on this... (answer from Aaron Ehasz in a Q&A)
Gucci Spring/Summer 2006 | Sasha Pivovarova
Why do you like walking on the beach but hate cleaning the basement?
There is a phenomenological asymmetry between two kinds of activity. Walking, watching birds, reading, thinking light, absorbing, are joyful. Cleaning the basement, planning, calculating costs are heavy, stressful, aversive
And you are tempted to explain it as functional meaning is unpleasant; and "meaningless" activity is pleasant. That explanation is almost right, but not quite. The stress is not caused by functional meaning itself. It is caused by obligation under constraint.
Every activity "meaningless" activity, even walking aimlessly is still functional in sense (3). It regulates arousal, attention, prediction error, energy, mood, learning. If it weren’t doing that, it would bore you or exhaust you immediately. So the difference is not functional vs non‑functional. The difference is low‑stakes self‑regulation vs high‑stakes constraint management
Walking, observing, reading: – no deadline – no penalty for failure – no external evaluation – no irreversible consequence – reversible attention
Cleaning the basement: – deadline (implicit or explicit) – cost calculation – irreversible effort (once done, energy is gone) – future‑oriented monitoring – responsibility for outcome
Stress arises when error matters. Pleasure arises when error is cheap. It has everything to do with prediction pressure. So‑called “negative meaning” is not meaning at all but a load.
The organism experiences certain tasks as aversive because: – they consume energy now – they bind future time – they reduce optionality – they increase accountability
In other words, they narrow the space of possible action. By contrast, contemplative or exploratory activities expand or suspend that space. That feels like freedom, but it is still functional as it restores the system.
So when you say that necessary activities have no meaning except that I must do them is exactly right and that is not a defect. They are non‑redeemable tasks. They do not justify themselves. They are not supposed to feel meaningful. They are maintenance. Expecting maintenance to feel meaningful is the real category error. This is where most people go wrong when they demand that survival labor feel like self‑expression. It won’t. And if it did, you’d be enslaved even more deeply. Hating this activities is too dramatic. They are pre‑meaning. They keep the system intact so that meaning‑rich states can occur at all.
Cosmic existence does the same thing. Vast stretches of entropy increase, punctuated by local order. No joy there either just structure. Pleasure is not the absence of function; it is function without penalty andtress is not meaning; it is consequence.
Assymetry In Relationships
Relationships are structurally asymmetrical, and that disillusionment turns one partner into an adult and the other into a child. This is not false just incomplete.
Asymmetry is not created by “illusion” versus “truth.” It is created by unequal willingness to be shaped by feedback. In most long relationships, one person adjusts more, tracks more variables, anticipates more friction, and absorbs more entropy. That person becomes the stabilizer. The other becomes the dependent node. Over time, the stabilizer feels parental, not intimate. Libido collapses. Respect erodes. Fatigue accumulates. This is textbook, even if textbooks dress it up in softer language.
Working partnership is something extremely rare in human relationships.