I Love You More Than You’ll Ever Know (Prinxiety)
Virgil knew that this whole thing was a mistake the moment the words left Remus’ mouth. It was supposed to be a fun movie and sleepover with the other sides. This was the first time they would all spent a night just hanging out and playing games together since Roman had changed. Remus had brought the suggestion up out of the blue. Virgil thought about it, remembering the loud interruption to a once relaxing dinner. “WE SHOULD HAVE A SLEEPOVER!” Remus had shouted loudly as he stood up and accidentally knocked over the salt and spilled it all over his plate. Virgil had been startled, jumping almost a mile into the air, his body shaking as he moved his arms to defend himself as a result of his fight or flight reflexes kicking in. He only calmed when Patton patted his shoulder lightly, grounding him once more. Logan had turned his head to look at Remus with a confused look on his face. “I have never seen much reason in calling it a sleepover considering we all live together but I will say that I do miss our movie and game nights,” he said with a hint of fondness in his voice. Ro- L, as Virgil had taken to calling him, perked up at the idea and smiled brightly. Virgil found himself staring unintentionally and blocking out the conversation of those around him. When he smiled like that, his eyes lit up with passion and interest behind his red glasses and he almost looked like Roman, the sweet, kind, and creative man Virgil had known since middle school. Virgil remembered how close they used to be. They used to spend so much time together watching disney and practicing Romans newest lines. Virgil missed those days much more than he cared to admit. He missed the small, knowing smiles and being able to poke fun at each other in a way he had never been able to do with anyone else. He still remembered the night Roman changed. Virgil had been sitting in his room crying for hours that night. Him and Roman had gotten into a huge fight before he left for his newest show. He hadn’t meant to yell at Roman or say all those horrible things and he sure as hell didn’t mean to say that he hated him. He had just been so jealous of Roman’s fellow lead in the play. Roman had been talking about him and how great of an actor he was nonstop, and suddenly Virgil just snapped. He had told Roman to leave him alone and when Roman asked why, he came up with some stupid excuse. Roman of course saw through it and asked for the truth, dwhich made Virgil defensive. When Roman came back he was wearing those strange glasses and he definitely wasn’t himself. Virgil had somewhat adjusted to the change but he still missed his princey and sure as hell wasn’t letting himself get too attached to whatever had seemed to possess Roman. The others may have believed that Roman had just decided to change but Virgil could tell that there was something wrong. He was pretty sure Remus could tell too but he had never worked up the courage to ask. “Like what you see pretty boy.~” L purred as he wrapped his arms around Virgil from the side pressing himself against him in what would be a comforting hug if he wasn’t pressing himself so close to Virgil. Virgil felt his face heat up and knew he was probably bright red right now. Every part of his skin that was touching L’s felt like it was on fire. He knew waiting to wash his laundry till the last hoodie was a horrible idea. “I don’t know what you’re talking about L.” Virgil scoffed, turning his head in a futile attempt to hide his glowing face. L just giggled as he leaned his head against Virgil before stretching up and whispering in his ear. “I know you were staring at me~. It’s ok dear, I was staring at you too. Also I suggest you turn back my way and look at Remus. He's about to eat the mashed potatoes he knocked ten pounds of salt into and as much as I care for my brother and his health, this is gonna be too funny to miss.” L whispered in Virgil's ear, his hot breath sending pleasant shivers up Virgil’s spine. He may not be Roman but he still had his charm and he definitely knew how to use it. Virgil reluctantly turned to look at Remus as L moved his head off of his shoulder. Remus having somehow not noticed that he had spilled a whole bottle of table salt had scooped a big spoonful and was about to put them in his mouth. Janus opened his mouth as if to stop him but Logan leaned over and whispered something to him that made him change his mind. Remus then shoved the mashed potatoes in his mouth and swallowed them before turning to the rest of the table on his right. “What? Why are you guys staring at me?” He said somehow completely clueless to the amount of salt he had just consumed. Suddenly L burst into giggles, his face taking on an adorable rosy hue as he chuckled at his brother’s- correction, friend’s antics. Virgil felt heat rise to his face again as the familiar laugh. It had been so long since he had seen a genuine smile from Ro- no this wasn’t Roman, he had to remember that. Despite his mental protest he soon found himself smiling at how much everyone was enjoying themselves. Before long, dinner had been finished and Virgil found himself in the kitchen washing the dishes with Logan while the others set up the “sleepover” in their living room. It was funny that they all still called it that considering they shared a house and had been rooming with each other for a few years now since it was easier to pay rent and live with friends than to live with a bunch of strangers on campus. Despite the fact that they all lived in the same house, Remus and Roman still had a proclivity to call them sleepovers like they used too when they and Virgil were young. Virgil scrubbed the dishes, loving the repetition that came with doing small chores like these. “So you have feelings for Roman,” Logan stated bluntly, almost causing Virgil to drop the plate he was washing in his initial panic. “Wha-wh-what are you t-tol-talking about?” Virgil said, cursing his stutter for revealing how startled he truly felt about Logan's candid statement. “It’s easy to tell really, you were always close with him and your pupils dilate significantly when you look at him.” Logan began to list off before being interrupted by Remus popping into the room. “Not to mention you look like a tomato every time he even gives you a high five!” He shouted excitedly before Logan shoed him out of the kitchen reminding him of his ban from the place. Logan than came back to Virgil's side by the countertop as he continued to dry dishes he spoke “He’s not wrong though, it’s something everyone but Roman has noticed and I know you two aren’t as close since he changed. But I have to say that I genuinely believe he misses you,” he adjusted his glasses and glanced at Virgil to make sure he wasn’t overwhelming him before continuing. “I know that something’s off with him. We all do. We may pretend like we don’t notice but not even Roman would wear a pair of glasses that often or change his personality so quickly.” Logan turned and placed his hand gently on Virgil’s shoulder whether or comfort himself or Virgil, he couldn’t tell but he believed it did a little bit of both. “I know that you miss the old Roman but if you talk to him, maybe spend some time with him you’ll find that L, as you call him, is still very much Roman. Maybe if you talk to L you can find out what happened to Roman to make him feel as though he had to change himself.” Virgil felt the familair burn of tears in his eyes and the stupid lump in his throat that always seemed to appear when he became emotional. “I - I know I sho- should tro-try to talk to hu-him but I just-s-st feel so over-wh-whelmed. What if he hat-hate-hates me? Logan I did this. I hurt him and now he’s not him, and it aw-all my fa-fo-fault!” Virgil cried letting out all the emotions he had been holding in for a while now as he stretched his arms out, asking for Logan to hold him if he felt comfortable. Logan sighed ‘even when he’s falling apart he’s still so considerate of everyone else,’ he thought as he wrapped his arms around Virgil holding him tightly and rubbing circles on his back like he had seen Patton do many times before. “I know I'm not the best with emotions and I'm not super big on physical touch like Patton is but know if you ever need me, I’m here for you Virg.” Logan whispered to Virgil, getting a nod as a response. Virgil took some deep breaths feeling the tears dry as air once again filled his stressed lungs. “So you don’t think it’s my fault?” Virgil asked, his voice cracking slightly as he worked to keep it steady. “Of course it’s not your fault, everyone fights every once in a while. None of us blame you and I'm positive Roman doesn’t either. If anything, I believe he blames himself,” Logan said soothingly as he separated from Virgil to allow him space to recover. Suddenly L burst into the kitchen wrapping their arms around Virgil practically throwing themselves on the poor man. “Virgil~ Come watch movies with us. I want to cuddle~,” L whispered once again making Virgil flustered. “Ok just give me a second to get a glass of water.” Vigril choked out his voice cracking as he prayed that L didn’t hear and tease him about it. Little did he know that L had noticed and he was pissed that Virgil was hurt. He turned to Logan, his normally bright face darkening as his aura gained an almost visible malice. “What. did. you. do?” L growled out lowly so that Virgil did not hear. Logan, despite being slightly taken aback, answered calmly and collectively “I didn’t do anything, I simply gave him some advice about talking to someone he has interest in and he became overwhelmed.” Logan then left the room heading to his spot on the couch in between Janus and Patton. “Hey slowpokes! Hurry up or we’re going to start the movie without you!” Remus shouted causing Virgil to come barreling around the corner, grabbing L’s hand gently as he dragged him to the living room. “Come on, we’re gonna miss the movie.” Virgil said, grinning from ear to ear as they made their way to the living room. “Ye-yeah don’t wanna miss it.” L said feeling a blush rise to his face. There was something so surreal about seeing Virgil’s smile. It made a heat rise to his face and familiar butterflies flutter in his stomach that seemed to awaken a familiar voice in the back of his head. ‘Virgil,’ the voice whispered, sounding joyful and, for the first time since he had put on his sunglasses, the voice sounded hopeful. L ignored it and the growing headache as he went to sit with Virgil and the others to watch some disney movies.
~time skip till after the movie~
Virigl sat tiredly on the couch curled up in his weighted blanket and comfortable loose pajamas. He yawned as the latest movie finished and for once in his life, he started to feel a bit bored with watching movies. Remus, as if sensing this boredom, got up and ran to the kitchen, slipping on his fuzzy socks and haphazardly catching himself before hitting the floor face first. Virgil of course paid no attention to this as it was a somewhat common occurrence for the sporadic man. That is until Remus came back with a glass bottle in his hand, cackling like a mad man. This made Virgil worried as he sat up a little, raising a brow as to the man's curious behavior. He nudged L before leaning down and whispering, “Hey L do you know what the hell your crackhead brother is doing? Like you got any alerts for me from your twin radar? I dunno if you still have it but like if so should I be worried about his maniac cackling?” L chuckled at Virgil’s jokes about Remus being an absolute maniac when inspired and searched his head for Roman and Remus’ strange twin connection to see if he could understand what the man was planning. ‘Ohohohoho so that’s what he’s up too!’ L thought a smirk rising to his face as he sat up close to Virgil's ear so he could tease him once again “Oh he just wants us to play a little game is all, don’t worry it’ll be fun babey” he purred in Virgil's ear, feeling elated upon seeing how much he had flustered the poor man. He then shimmied his way out of the blankets and made his way to Remus making sure to sway his hips just enough while walking to show off the cute pajamas he had worn that night. “Guys lets play a game!” Remus shouted excitedly as he cleared a circle on the floor closing it off with blankets. “All right I'm down,” Janus said as he made his way to the circle with Patton and Logan not far behind him. “I guess I'll play,” Virgil said as he made his way to the circle with his blanket wrapped tightly around him. He sat down in the circle as Remus began to explain what kind of game they were playing. “So today we will be playing spin the bottle!” Remus exclaimed excitedly and Virgil felt all the blood leave his face in that singular moment in time. ‘This was a horrible idea,’ he thought but he knew it was too late to back down now and if he tried, he’d never hear the end of it from Remus. “We all know the rules to this already Rem,” Janus stated and Remus nodded grinning happily as he joined the circle. “Ok then, I’ll go first!” he said as he spun the bottle, the top part landing on Patton. Remus stood up and walked over placing a chaste kiss on Patton’s lips. Patton giggled as he took his turn spinning the bottle. ‘Poor man’s sleep drunk,’ Virgil thought, looking at how giggly Patton had become. The bottle then landed on Logan whose face became bright red at the thought of kissing his friend and highschool crush. Patton leaned over before pecking Logan on the cheek and falling back in a fit of giggles and nonsensical jokes. Logan shook his head, a small smile coming to his face as he watched the man laugh himself silly. Logan then remembered it was his turn to spin the bottle and leaned forward and spun it. Virgil watched the bottle spin in a seemingly endless loop before it finally slowed and ended on L. Virgil felt a pit form in his stomach as if someone had dropped a giant rock down there. Logan looked at Virgil flashing him an apology with his eyes before making his way over to L. L stood up and Logan leaned down before planting a kiss on the side of L’s face and seeming to whisper something in his ear that made L glow 20 shades of pink. Virgil felt the weight lift from his stomach and he cursed himself for even feeling remotely jealous. He didn’t own Roman, he was his own person with his own thoughts and free will and if he fell for someone else Virgil needed to accept that. Remus, having apparently gotten bored with the lack of playing, started to bounce a bit. “Ok this isn’t dramatic enough so we’re switching things up a bit!” he said as he jumped up excitedly. “Now whoever it lands on has to spend seven minutes with you in the closet! So now it’s spin the bottle and seven minutes crossover!” he announced dramatically before sitting down and gesturing to L. “Your turn brother dearest,” he said as he nodded at L. L then spun the bottle, Virgil watched it spin around and around his anxiety strangely increasing each time. Before he knew it the bottle had begun to slow to an agonizing pace before landing on him. Virgil felt his face heat up as his brain seemed to go on autopilot. He stood walking over to L before picking him up and walking over to the storage closet in the living room. He then set down L who was currently staring at him with half lidded eyes. “Oh now that was hot,” L hummed as he pushed himself off the box he was sitting on before making his way over to Virgil and backing him up against the wall. “You are so hot and you keep all of this attractive body to yourself? Do you even know how long Roman spent pining after you? Begging for you to notice just how much he cared for you? That’s the reason I was able to get to him don’t you know? All because he was too scared to take what he wanted. Well, fortunately for you dear I'm not scared to take what I want, especially when I know you want it too.” L purred as he grabbed the sides of Virgil's shirt and pulled him close before slamming his lips against Virgil’s. Virgil felt the butterflies in his stomach multiply and he was sure his face was as red as a cherry right now. Virgil sank into the kiss. ‘Wait no this is wrong, this isn't Roman, he wouldn’t want this. No, L said he did, he sees Romans every thought, this is want you want let yourself have it,’ his brain fought with itself. L seeming to sense his inner turmoil pulled away. Despite himself Virgil found himself leaning forward as if reaching for L’s warmth. “Do you want this? I need you to answer honestly.” L whispered in a way that contradicted his normal flirty tone, this one was honest and full of yearning. Virgil felt all his fear seemingly melt away, his head seemed clouded and in that moment all that mattered was answering L’s question. “Yes Roman, I just want to be with you, if you're angry or sad or hurt I just want to be by your side. Even if it’s not romantic even if you only see me as a friend I just want to be in your life.” Virgil found the words tumbling out of his mouth before he could even stop them. L smirked before chuckling a little. “Well that’s all either of us needed to hear,” L said as they gave Virgil a chaste kiss on the cheek before reaching up and slowly taking off their ever present shades. Virgil felt the haze lift from his mind instantly as his face once again gained a cherry hue. “So you really don’t hate me?” L, no, Roman said looking up at Virgil with teary innocent eyes. Virgil shook his head as he felt tears spring forth “No I could never,” he whispered before leaning down to kiss Roman. Suddenly the closet door was slammed open with Remus shouting “Times up!” Roman turned and giggled at his brother’s antics before leaning up and giving Virgil a quick kiss and then leaving the closet to go see his family for the first time in awhile. Virgil stood there shocked before slowly raising his hands to lightly brush against his burning lips. “I guess true love does fix all,” he chuckled, smirking slightly before stepping out of the closet to go spend time with his friends and the man he loved.
