Concurrence IV
{ Concurrence IV: Lost • Levi x Reader }
CW: ⊹₊ MDNI ⊹₊ Pregnancy ⊹₊ Mentions of Punishment ⊹₊ Thoughts of Asking Levi to End Oneself ⊹₊ Levi Cares ⊹₊
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Synopsis:
Levi and (y/n) are both starting to get along until insults, blames and harsh rumors started to slowly weigh on her, which ends up to a confrontation with Levi.
PART IV
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"Do you really think the Captain would love someone like you? Someone who is nothing but a piece of trash that he was forced to take care of?"
Upon all the insults, hurtful statements and negativity you heard from the others, that one stood out to you the most.
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You were currently at the mess hall, the same crowded place filled with chatters and lively voices, but then again it is where you are most likely also be targeted by the people who had no entertainment in life but to talk ill of you.
But you didn't mind, since Levi was beside you.
You and Levi were both eating peacefully at a small table, Levi sat down beside you his arms wrapped around you waist, while his warm hand was resting at the top of your now slightly bulging belly.
You were now currently three months in, and you were starting to show, but thanks to the survey corps coat uniform, the thick fabric was doing its best effort to hide your now forming bump.
"You should eat more." Levi stated while looking at you, still the same gaze but his hand was very light and warm on your belly.
It was like a contrast to his demeanor, the way his gestures were very caring and feather light the past few days which was a contrast to his hard and cold gaze that he has been throwing at you and the others.
While lost in your thoughts, you then felt something cold gently pressed to your lips.
Your attention was then brought back by the touch of the spoon with a decent amount of food on it consisting of rice and fish, you then look at Levi.
He was trying spoon feed you which was honestly very surprising and not like him, you thought.
"Huh?" You asked clearly confused, raising an eyebrow.
The impression that Levi honestly gives is someone who would most likely rudely speak and shake your shoulder if you don't agree to what he says,
or at the very least that was how you and the other people see him, but in reality under the walls he had built up that made him appear cold and detached,
He was honestly very caring and gentle, and it was starting to show as he was slowly letting you in.
You opened your mouth and comply, letting him spoon feed you.
Levi stayed silent the whole time, but despite his cold and stern facade, his gestures say otherwise.
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After eating breakfast at the mess hall, Levi went to an important meeting with Hange about the upcoming expeditions and some backup plans incase Titan shifters or the worst case scenario, Marley makes another move.
As you were walking at the hallway towards the room to were your squadmates were staying and currently cleaning just like the Captain ordered.
You were then approached by Floch and two more scouts following him.
"Oh great, he even brought a few audience." you thought.
Despite Levi warning him to back off from his insults with you, he clearly had a tough skull and thick skin not to easily give into it.
"Looks like you're starting to show a bit, if you stare attentively." Floch said, keeping his usual tone of voice.
"Why are you surprised? are you illiterate about human anatomy?" you responded back calmly, you knew he will insult you again which was not new anymore, so you decided to take the first move.
Honestly at this rate your buttons were much more easy to press as your emotions are more heightened due to your progressing pregnancy.
Floch frowns, clearly you pushed a button.
"Stop talking like you're smart, you're just someone who got knocked up, not to mention a traitor." Floch said with a hint of hostility.
"What else are you going to say?" you asked Floch.
at this rate you honestly started to get used to it, as stupid as it may sound you had no choice but to just let it enter your left ear and for his words to leave your other.
"Do you really think the Captain would love someone like you? Someone who is nothing but a piece of trash that he was forced to take care of?" Floch stated laced with firmness, which was below the belt for you.
You felt the statement tug your heartstrings.
"If you have nothing else better to stay then I better get going." you replied, still trying to keep up the calm demeanor that was slowly crumbling.
You then reached the room where your squadmates were very attentively cleaning, making sure every place was spotless just like how the Captain ordered.
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You decided to sweep the floor as Hange told you before when she last checked up on you not to carry too much heavy items and avoid adding too much strain to your body.
Hange has been looking after you, since she was the one knowledgeable with medicine in the regiment, Levi also trusted her a lot than it looks despite them arguing majority of the time about Hange's experiments about titans.
your mind was then again occupied by the insults you heard from the scouts, especially Floch who you sometimes wished Levi really made as Titan feed like he stated, because of his unfiltered mouth.
Armin noticed your attention was not really at the wooden floor you were sweeping, it was somewhere else.
"Hey, (y/n) are you alright?" Armin asked with a hint of concern.
you just gave him a nod, clearly a giveaway you weren't.
You have been with them for a long time now in the squad, they knew you quite well to know also when you're really alright or just putting up a facade for their sake or your natural act of defense to keep things to yourself securely.
"You know, I read from a book before that everyone should avoid stress, especially for a woman who is carrying a child. Its not really healthy." Armin stated softly.
You then looked at him, Armin saw your gaze and the emotions held in it, mostly it expressed sorrow and pain.
It was clear that the insults you heard and tried to ignore for the past few days were also affecting you too.
"You should atleast open up to Captain Levi about this (y/n)" Armin once again softly stated as he placed a hand on your shoulder.
and once again you gave him another nod, but not really considering his suggestion,
its not that you don't want to tell Levi.
You were just scared, that maybe it would only be a burden. Afterall carrying his child won't erase the past.
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You were on your way towards your shared quarter with the Captain, you then heard a commotion inside Levi's office, although it was wrong your curiousity got the best of you and you decided to eavesdrop while peeping at the door keyhole.
"Captain, I don't see anything we are doing wrong. we are just stating facts afterall." Floch firmly said, while a few more scouts next to him just nervously nodded in return.
Levi was about to punch his face beating the crap out of him when Hange stopped him, firmly grabbing his arms as an act to restrain him.
"Levi calm down, beating him won't do any good." Hange stated, her voice was still soft trying to calm the atmosphere inside the Captain's office.
"Let me go Hange, and let me beat the crap out of him." Levi stated firmly laced with anger, as his gaze pierced the scout with tousled auburn hair, who talked back to him.
"Levi I said keep it together." Hange stated with a more convincing and firm tone.
Levi then breaks free from Hange, he then looks at her.
"You clearly told me he and these morons were insulting (y/n) and that I should look after her because she shouldn't be exposed by stress and negative emotions caused by this group of shitty assholes." Levi stated, his voice clearly laced with annoyance and frustration about everything.
Hange sighs, as she pushed her glasses upwards fixing it. she was also getting a bit annoyed with the situation.
"Captain, I don't know why you're making yourself worked up over her. She is an enemy, she is from Marley, The same people responsible for Commander Erwin's death." Floch stated, clearly he was trying to knock off a few senses from Levi forcing his opinion by bringing up Commander Erwin.
You froze when you heard that.
You knew how much Commander Erwin meant to Levi.
You then thought about it, how Floch said Marley was responsible for his death, How you are connected to those responsible people.
"Does Levi view me the same?"
That was another question that drove your mind into spirals.
Honestly you respected Commander Erwin, he was a good leader, a fighter. you never wanted for any of that to happen.
You were also not aware it would, or else you could've done something to prevent it.
Around the time before that incident happened you already started to pour every ounce of loyalty to the scout regiment, despite being a traitor to your own nation.
"But who would believe me", you thought.
You then decided to walk back to your shared quarters, but this time you weren't able to shake off the heaviness in your heart and your shoulders.
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{ Levi's POV }
For the next three days, you decided to keep to yourself.
Levi noticed but he thought giving you privacy was what you needed,
not until he noticed how you looked dejected, how your smile and the sparkles bringing life to your orbs were slowly diminishing again.
He was worried, not only for your sake but the child you were carrying.
He saw how you were appearing more lethargic, how your usual demeanor that emitted nothing but warmth was slowly being replaced by the coldness of the walls you have somehow built the past three days.
Levi found it frustrating, how he let it get to this.
Levi was currently drinking his tea like usual, but his attention was not at the pages of his paperwork that he was flickering almost only skimming through it and not really paying attention to any of those inked letters, words and statements formed.
He was thinking of how to talk to you, he knew you well enough that you won't open up to him.
you were used to keeping everything to yourself, just like him.
You were currently cleaning your shared quarters which he finds even more annoying since he told you to avoid putting to much strain to your body.
but then again, its not like he could stop you since he knew you will be using the "I don't want to be a burden to you Captain." card.
Just as he was about to approach you, you approached him first telling him that you will wash his now empty teacup.
Levi sighs and nods, as he took this opportunity to think about how he will converse with you later on.
He figured he won't let you go to bed or until this was discussed and over.
As you washed the teacup, he decided to continue staring at his paperwork despite his lack of focus to even entertain any of it.
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The peaceful sound of water can be heard coming from the kitchen as you continued to delicately wash Levi's teacup, despite the calm gush of water echoing though the kitchen you mind was a mess, it was very chaotic, it was as if you were stuck in a dark place. Levi was at the living room doing his paperwork.
As you settled the teacup at the wooden cupboard, you saw both yours and Levi's ODM gear located at a wide wooden shelf decorated with a flower vase and colorful books.
It was honestly like a contrast, how can a gear used to eliminate titans and even human's for the sake of the survival of Humanity itself be kept under a vibrant, colorful shelf?
You then thought about the contradicting treatment Levi has gave you, underneath his stern, cold and sometimes harsh demeanor, His gestures and treatment towards you was honestly delicate, caring, and soft.
Despite your reputation.
Your thoughts then wondered back to the conversation you overheard inside Levi's office.
"Captain, I don't know why you're making yourself worked up over her. She is an enemy, she is from Marley, The same people responsible for Commander Erwin's death."
You then thought about the thought that has been consuming you into a pit of darkness for the past three days,
"Does Levi view me the same?"
You knew that until now, that Commander Erwin meant a lot to Levi, he was a close friend to him and Commander Hange.
Before Erwin died, you knew Levi swore he would take down the beast titan, Zeke.
Who was from Marley,
Just like you.
And as if your lost into your own void of nothingness filled with nothing but despair about your very non-idle situation, you took one blade from your ODM gear.
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{ Levi's POV }
(y/n) suddenly approached the Captain whilst holding a blade from her ODM gear which she found was placed across the room a minute ago.
"Captain... please just punish me now... please just end me now..." (y/n) says, her tone devoid of any emotions, only subtle coldness lacing it as she was passing the ODM blade to Levi
He looked at her, his narrowed eyes slightly widens, like it was about to bulge out of his skull.
He had a stunned expression written all over his face.
"What the fuck are you talking about?" He asked, while looking at her, the way he saw her eyes that almost lost the light of hope.
Levi felt something stir in him, it was something foreign to him but at that moment he felt panic, and a feeling of failure.
Failure that he wasn't able to do anything to prevent his partner who was pregnant with his child escape such feelings.
"I know you hate me... I'll always be a traitor in your eyes... even if I- if I try my best to prove my loyalty to you..." (y/n) said in a shaky and downhearted voice as her gaze locks with Levi's gray orbs.
"How did it get to this? wasn't I showing her enough attention and care?" Levi thought to himself as his gaze softens, conveying emotions he never knew existed in him.
Levi shifts his attention towards the growing bump on your belly, you were currently almost in your fourth mark of pregnancy, and Levi felt a storm of emotions starting to explode inside him as he stared at (y/n) who was still holding the ODM blade, pushing it slightly towards him.
He knew everything was probably to much for you.
The rumors, the insults, the blame.
And he wanted nothing more but to reach you with his warmth, pulling you out of the darkness you have secluded yourself into.
not only for your baby, but for your sake.
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Levi accepts the ODM blade but throws it across the room, it made a loud sound as it made contact with the cold floor, enough to snap you out of your thoughts.
"No (y/n) fucking let go of that blade and those bullshit thoughts, look at me. I am not about to kill the mother of my child, do you understand!?"
Levi said sternly, and nothing can mend or break his words.
He then gently wrapped his arms around your body, his warmth enveloping you as a whole, a hint of light returns to your eyes as you realize and thought about what happened. that you reached the peak of bottling everything on your own.
"I'm here (y/n), stop going to a place where I can't reach you." He stated, his voice was soft and very gentle.
Tears started to fall from your eyes as a hint of light and sparkle returned to your orbs, you returned his embrace, and you feel him tighten his.
It was like he was protecting you, from your own thoughts, from your own fears.
That was when you realized he was there all along.
"Levi..." you called out to him, this time without formalities, just his name.
"Yes, I'm here." Levi reassured and stated once more with a firm yet gentle tone.
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