#fighting depression

[pumpking1rl]

Uhm cute centi drawing?? I really try to crawl out of my hole here :,) drawing helps i guess??

Cw: buggy body snd many legs!

[timetravelsong]

𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧.

excerpts from a book I’ll never write

[dntjudgemeweallsin]

[spamtonspammyspamspam]

i'm so fucking strong and brave i successfully did my dishes 💥💥💥💥💥💥 spammy is proud of me and i'm proud of myself too

[shironezuninja]

I really hate fighting depression. I should be smirking with delight during my menstruation.

[rorronoa]

I hope it’s not too late but going to therapy is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made

[squeaknwthconcernburglar]

Change is coming.

Come on, Sam. You know what Bilbo use to say

- " It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step out on to the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to."

I have a lot of changes to come as I move on to the next chapter in my life. I have know really garantee that all my plans will go smoothly and it more than likely won't. I'm taking a road trip 24hr drive to a new state that I have never been before. I won't have a job right away, I won't have a home. I'll be starting college and swicth to reserves with my base in a whole other 2 states over from where I plan to live. The pressure is intense to say the least. Not to mention a guy I was talking to wants to randomly reachout after I broke off things (because my values weren't being met- which maybe I should save that discussion for another post). I don't have anyone to contact there for support or emergency. I'm not good with cars and I don't know roads well and here I am! I would do better if I was going on foot to be real. Might take longer, but I like hikes and I jog a lot. There's so much paperwork and legal docs to keep in check with all this too.

I can say that I'll miss the comfortability that I have here, but staying where I am was never an option in the long all. I know I'm not happy or finding fullfillment in this place. I have to keep developing myself and my values. I'm starting to see what it is that " I " want for myself and I'm determined to move forward and see the person I'll become. As it is inevitable, it is time for the change in my life to come forth. Another unknown adventure ahead of me. With all the challenges to face for my character to show it's high quality.

I'll admit that I'm terrified. I even broke down with a painic attack last week. There's this voice inside me that thinks I don't have enough Took in me to conquer this. But there's no going back. I've set these plans in motion long before when I recongized in myself the urge for change. It's funny how all these threads in life tangle together at the most unexpected time. I can't shake all the preperiations needed and the panic of anticipating the journey. But I have to just keep moving. At the very list one step at a time. Maybe I can find there's more to this little hobbit mind than meets the eye.

POV: Me driving my car on the highway in new territory.🚗↓↓

[douglasbradburyverne]

The serotonin rush of posting something keeps the inner demons away