Hear me out on Alastor pressing a knee into the bed, leaning just enough to hover over you. You’re reading something, a phone, a book, a magazine.
His hand rests against the headboard, you risk the glance up toward him. You squeak when he looses balance and flops right on you.
His nose lands in the crook of your neck, your hands run through his hair. His ears are scratched in just the right spot, a resounding purr rumbles from his throat.
But now, can you write angst? I read the Shadow Milk Cookie segment of your last yandere writing and now I have an idea. How would the yanderes react to us dying? You get to pick the scenario and stuff, but I love angst, so yea.
ANYWHO, this is getting long, so thank you for listening to my rambles. Have a good day!
For some reason, tumblr is refusing to let me answer my asks. But I still suggest you ask me regardless, I’ll always answer them in away way I can.
I love your ideas, they give me great ideas to flesh out the characters I love so much!
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!Yan!Caine
“H-hah… HaHa! It’s- it’ll- be okay, my dear! I can fix this!”
He carefully positions your motionless body, ensuring you sit upright, with every limb meticulously adjusted as they slip out of place. Each movement is deliberate, as if he’s trying to breathe life back into you, restoring a sense of presence in the stillness.
“J-just sit still, sit- sit still and, I can just…”
He snaps his fingers.
And nothing happens.
He rubs his hands together.
“Alright! A little tougher now, I see! Just-“
He snaps it again.
“Can you…”
And snaps again.
And you're still dead.
“Don’t make this so DIFFICULT!”
And again.
And again.
And again.
“Come on… COME ON!!”
The atmosphere is electric, filled with a sense of urgency as his fingers dance across the surface, a blur of motion that captivates all who watch. Each snap merges into a bothersome melody, creating a high-pitched vibration that resonates through the air.
“Please… come on… come ON!”
In a twisted moment of desperation, he finally succumbs to the rage boiling inside him. With a haunting yell, he lunges forward, abandoning all restraint. His hands find your lifeless body, and he shakes it violently, as if trying to force the life back into you. Each furious movement echoes the depth of his sorrow, reverberating through the still air like a chilling requiem.
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Violently slamming his fists against the wall after hours of attempted patching.
Your body is there, unmoving, still lifeless.
Surrounded by distorted objects and the arms of a tortured AI.
The world around him fades, leaving only the desperate need to bring you back, intertwining grief and fury into a raw, emotional tempest.
“Why… would you just leave me like this? Was I not enough…? Am I just… was I just not good enough for you?”
There is no answer.
And there will never be an answer.
!Yan!Wally Darling
“Neighbor? Are you sleeping?”
He looks up and down your lifeless husk, confounded as to why you’ve decided to rest on the floor.
His little fingers of fabric tap your shoulder gently, expecting you to wake up.
“Is this a new game you're playing?”
His eyes widen a bit at the idea of a new game to play.
“I’d like to play too.”
He quickly settles himself down onto the floor, right next to you, his favorite spot.
A few minutes of him lying down next to you pass by.
“I don’t think I’m playing this right…”
He mumbles into your ear
“Oh, it’s because I’m not closing my eyes, that must be it…”
The room is heavy with stillness as he leans in closer, a sense of comfort settling over him like a warm blanket. The weight of the moment envelops both of them in his quiet solitude, and you in eternal silence.
He breathes in deeply, seeking solace in the familiar presence, unaware that he is embracing nothing but shadows. The world around them fades, and in that fragile space, time seems to stand still. Each second is a reminder of what once was, and he feels a sense of peace wash over him, oblivious to the finality that now defines the air between them.
“Neighbor, you don’t feel as warm as you usually do.’
!Yan!Tenna
“Cut the cameras, CUT THE CAMERAS NOW!”
Tenna rushes over, her eyes filled with concern as he kneels beside you. With gentle hands, he carefully wraps her fingers around your fragile form, his movements precise and tender, as if you were made of glass.
"I’ll be careful," he whispers, his voice a soft reassurance.
"I can't let anything happen to you." The warmth of her touch contrasts with the chill of your damaged body, igniting a flicker of hope within him.
He finds a long table and gently lays your body down, his heart racing as he examines you from head to toe, anxiety written all over his face. Glancing frantically at the backstage crew, he shouts, his voice echoing off the walls.
“What are you doing just standing around?! Get help! Get them a pillow! Call someone, dammit!”
Panic sets in as he watches them scramble, urgency fueling his every command. Every second feels like an eternity, and he can't shake the feeling that he must do everything in his power to make sure you're okay.
“Oh, please, please wake up, you’ll be okay! Everything’ll be okay, and we’ll go back to our show, and you’ll never scare me like this again!”
He could feel the tension rising in the room, a thick cloud of frustration settling over him. How did it come to this? The laughter, the late-night rehearsals, and the spark of creative energy that once flowed so freely now felt like a distant memory.
“Didn’t you hear me?! Cut the damn cameras already!”
He shouted, the urgency in his voice echoing off the walls. The crew exchanged nervous glances, frozen in place under the weight of his command. Each word dripped with a mix of desperation and irritation, a plea masked as an order.
He couldn’t shake the image of the show they had built together. But now, the thought of losing that forever, of piecing together a new normal without the heart of it all, fueled his anger. He didn’t want to face a future that felt empty and devoid of the spark they once shared.
“Cut the cameras! Go to commercial! Stop it! JUST STOP IT ALREADY!”
There were, in fact, no cameras currently on.
!Yan!Pierrot
You fall to the ground, and in an instant, all life is drained from your eyes. You feel nothing but an overwhelming urge to close your eyes.
“No.”
A whisper, one of struggling restraint, fills the tense air. Pierrot falls to the floor, visibly shaking, his gloved hands gently cup your face. His eyes, a mix of longing and fear, search yours for understanding. The moment stretches, heavy with unspoken emotions, as the world around you fades away. You can feel the warmth of his touch, a contradiction to the coldness of the floor beneath you both.
“My dear… please…”
His finger gently slides down to your neck to feel your pulse. There’s nothing. It’s too late. The silence that follows is deafening, a void that swallows any hope that lingered in the air.
Panic grips the room, and time seems to freeze, each second stretching into eternity. The weight of reality settles heavily, the unthinkable truth echoing in the corners of your mind. He wants to scream, to deny what’s unfolding before him, but the chilling absence of life steals his voice.
What now? Each breath feels like a betrayal, a reminder of the warmth that once was. In this moment, everything has changed, and you’re left grappling with the shadows of what could have been.
“Oh, what a shame…”
The atmosphere crackled with tension as the green one appeared from the shadows, a sinister grin spreading across his face. It was the kind of smile that promised trouble, sending a ripple of unease through the air. His eyes glinted with mischief, and every step he took seemed to echo with a sense of foreboding.
“The Pierrot’s pet couldn’t take it in the circus… hm, now that’s not too much of a stretch, is it?”
Pierrot's breaths come in sharp gasps, each one more labored than the last. He presses his fingers deeper into your neck, a mix of desperation and intensity in his grip. The sting of his touch breaks the surface of your skin, drawing blood.
“Well, now your little pet can be useful as sustenance- I’ve gathered quite an appetite from this little game you’ve been playing.”
“THAT'S ENOUGH!”
A clawed hand strikes the harlequin's mask, leaving a deep mark and a damaged surface.
There’s no stopping the damage after Pierrot had a taste of revenge justice. Striking the green figure again and again until there’s nothing left but another body and a stained costume.
He clutches onto your body while his rampage continues, refusing to let you go until the warmth escapes your skin.
!Yan!Sebastian Solace
“You… stupid, stupid, idiotic… RAGGH! Why couldn’t you just listen?”
He stares ahead at your corpse with disgust, not at you, at himself. Why did he let you leave his store? Why couldn’t he just make you stay? Hell, he would’ve tied you down if it had kept you safe.
Sebastian slithers over and lays his head on your stomach. The sounds coming from your innards meant nothing because there was nothing.
“It feels like you're still here… but you're just trying to torture me, aren’t you?”
He growls menacingly, his claws digging into the floor with anger.
“Well, ANSWER ME!”
He didn’t anticipate a response from your lifeless form; he just needed an outlet for his fury, a target for his screams.
“What- what’s this? What…?”
He feels something besides your blood staining his cheek.
It’s a tear.
“Do you know how long it’s been since I’ve seen one of these…?”
He leans in closer, his voice barely above a whisper, almost shy about what he’s about to say. “I really wish things had turned out differently,” he admits, feeling the heaviness of regret in the air. Talking to someone who’s no longer here feels strange, but silence demands he say something about what they shared.
Each word comes out slow, like they’re floating in the heavy atmosphere. The room seems to hold its breath, every shadow watching as he lays bare his feelings. There’s a bit of shame creeping in, a reminder of everything left unsaid.
“Life didn’t have to end this way,”
he goes on, his voice tinged with sadness. There's a strong need for closure, a hope that maybe, just maybe, this moment will bring him some peace.
“I already miss you,” he finally says, the words hanging there, barely audible yet filled with meaning. In that quiet moment, he yearns for understanding, knowing that even in the stillness, something real connects them.
!Yan!Shadow Milk Cookie
“H-hah… heh, why would this…”
Shadow milk looks confused, almost. The joke was over now; this was the moment you could come out and say, “Surprise!” And he could compliment your deceitful behavior.
“My silly, please! The joke can only be funny for so long- I- you can get up now!”
He floats down to your cracked-up dough. Eyeing you carefully, the crumbling on your face, the jam dripping from the crevices.
“Hm, I see… this isn’t a joke, is it…”
His face goes nearly white as he looks up from you. There's a brief moment of total silence. Then there’s a moment of insanity.
“Hm… heh, hah- HAH! Haha! Hahaha!”
His wild laughter fills the room, echoing off the walls like music. “Hm, the ultimate lie! Pretending you wanted to live, only to leave me when I least expected it! Wonderful performance, my little silly!”
He twirls around in the air, moving his feet lightly through the breeze.
“It’s just so silly, isn’t it? Yes, how whimsical, how peculiar, how idiotic, how… devastating!”
He turns away from you, covering his face with his sleeve to hide his tears. Unspoken words fill the air, creating a heavy silence. Each time he tries to hold back a sob, it sounds like it is mocking him. He feels trapped in a moment that needs understanding and kindness.
“Aren’t I just so stupid! Thinking this could last…”
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Authors notes: I love writing this and my proofreader had fun as well, and I love when people give me asks! So please keep sending them!
You see a really weird "job" post online, and the money seems too good to be true. But you aren't really in a position where you can turn it down...
You hope it doesn't get weird.
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It was a very… concerning “job” posting.
But desperate times, and all that.
It had shown up about a week ago, and it wasn’t hard to see why no one had taken the poster up on it as of yet.
Bedmate Needed
● 11 pm to 6 am
● $25/hour up front
● Riverside Motel
● Room 44
● Not a sex thing
The last note seemed tacked on in a later edit, but it was still… not great.
You’d have to be either a gullible idiot or a desperate one to go for a job like this. Unfortunately, you were the latter. Very much so.
You couldn’t take another night on the street. It was getting so cold out. The promise of a warm bed was almost enough to lure you in on its own. But the money… 175 bucks just to sleep in the same bed as some internet creep?
Despite the clarification in the post, this had to be a sex thing, right?
You hadn’t gone that far, despite everything. It’s not like you hadn’t considered it… but the thought was too terrifying. Making yourself completely vulnerable to a stranger that could just decide you were less than a person and do whatever they wanted to you? You had to draw the line somewhere.
But at this point, you weren’t sure that there was a line you weren’t willing to cross anymore.
. . .
The Motel wasn’t the seediest you’d ever seen around town but it wasn’t a place you would’ve voluntarily stayed at even two months ago. Back when you had options.
Creepy post guy opened the door after a couple of knocks, with an awkward, pregnant pause between them. He wasn’t quite what you expected for an internet creep, but he was still a sight to see.
Really bad posture and dark, greasy-looking hair, with the darkest circles under his eyes you’d ever seen. He looked like he was about to pass out at any second, but he held it together long enough to gesture you into the room.
“Hey…” His voice was low but he sounded nervous. And so, so tired. “You’re… You’re a little early. That’s…that’s fine. Uh, come in.”
You felt his eyes on you as you passed him, and it didn’t help your anxiousness. Not one bit.
“Hey so, I-I really…I uh, need a shower.” He stumbled over his words with a breathy, nervous laugh. “Unless you wanna sleep next to a… fuckin’ sweaty mess all night. Do you wanna go first or…?”
You must’ve looked nervous because his eyes went wider, digging into his pocket.
“I wasn’t tryin’ to… Oh, uh…here.” He nodded, pressing the money into your hand. “Up front, just… just like I said. You just…just seemed like you maybe sorta needed one too.”
Some part of you must’ve still had an ounce of pride left because your whole body felt on fire with shame, embarrassment so consuming that you froze up. It had been a couple of days…
He just looked away, seeming like he was embarrassed himself.
“I w-wasn’t gonna like… try to join you or peep on you or nothin’!” He tried to assure you, eyes darting in a panic and talking a bit too fast. “If I, like, go first? I won’t get mad if you change your mind and leave… I get it. I’m not gonna like… go after you or call the cops or nothin’ like that. I just…”
He stared at the floor, nails digging into his arm as he seemed like he was having trouble breathing.
“I really… I really need this.” He was so quiet, but his voice was so desperate.
You couldn’t really be considering this, could you?
He seemed more like a weird, awkward, sad guy than a real danger or some kind of pervert.
And you really did need a hot shower.
It seemed like a safer bet to have him go first, if you were really going through with this. And it would give you a chance to look around the room for a spot to tuck away your pocket knife, just in case.
When he was in the shower, you did just that. The spot between the mattress and bed frame would be easy to grab at if things got hinky.
If things got all touchy-feely, as you suspected they would, him finding that on you or leaving it in your pocket when your clothes got tossed wherever would be really inconvenient.
Steam rolled out of the bathroom when he stepped out, shirtless but with sweatpants and a towel around his neck. He was thin, almost alarmingly so, but you could still see muscle, enough to pose a problem should he decide to overpower you.
This was your last chance to back out, before you’d be vulnerable to this odd stranger.
But even if you left, the money wouldn’t last long, and it’s not like you had any other options.
You were so grateful that the motel tub wasn’t disgusting, but you would’ve gotten clean regardless. Two days worth of sweat and funk was washed away and it felt so heavenly… But it was hard to relax when you were trying to stay hyper alert of any noise that could be that man trying to get in or even eavesdrop.
But…
Nothing.
You finished your shower and brushed your teeth, doing everything you could to feel clean that a motel bathroom could provide. And there was no sign of the guy.
But you had to go back out there eventually. You supposed you could lock yourself in here and get a full night’s sleep indoors, even if it was on the floor of a motel bathroom with your back against the door, but part of you just said “fuck it” and warily peeked around the doorway into the bedroom.
The lights in the room were dim, but warm. He was sitting on the end of the bed, one knee tucked into his chest, staring at the tv as the bright colors of a nightly talk show reflected in his eyes, but something told you he wasn’t really watching. His eyes met yours and you froze.
“It’s almost eleven…” He mumbled, his head resting awkwardly on his shoulder. His hand ghosted over the spot on the bed next to him. “… Will... will you stay?”
So many thoughts raced through your head. What would happen if you laid down beside him? You could probably deal with sex… even if it felt a bit wrong. But if he wanted to hurt you?
Your brain reminded you:
What do you really have to lose?
When you told him you would stay, sitting next to him, you could see him relax. Just a bit.
“If you still want to leave-”
But you cut him off, almost afraid he would talk you out of it after you’d made up your mind.
Avoiding his stare, you told him you had nowhere to go.
The bed was cold, it might take a bit to warm up with the two of you in it, but it was the least of your concerns at that moment.
“So it’s...” He’d spoken up so suddenly, you hoped he didn’t see you flinch. He was staring at the ceiling, seeming just a tiny bit calmer. “... it’s fine if you just… lay there or h-hold onto me, or play on your phone or whatever, anything is fine. Just… just don’t leave ‘til mornin’. Okay?”
A worrying pause, but you told him you understood.
And that was that. He laid next to you unmoving for almost an hour before you had the nerve to move at all, shifting slowly to your side to face him.
His eyes were shut, his breathing even, but somehow you knew he was still awake. It was like he was trying to sleep but it just wasn’t coming to him. He looked so worn down, like he could just keel over any second. It definitely made him less intimidating, but you weren’t letting your guard down, no matter how much your body was screaming at you to just let go.
Despite your better judgement, you wondered if he really was being genuine about this not being a sex thing. It was a relief, sure, but it just raised more questions.
Why were you here?
. . .
You’d stopped looking at the bedside clock a while ago. It had to have been hours by then.
Your anxiety and dread somehow felt quieter under the lull of impending sleep. Despite everything, your body was at least grateful for a warm bed and hot shower, and if you didn’t sleep there now, you didn’t know when you’d be able to sleep somewhere warm any time soon.
Every moment that ticked by, you felt your resolve slipping. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad, just to let go… This whole situation was weird, but you just wanted to sleep.
He hoped against everything that he would just fall asleep.
Just this once, he didn’t want to have to follow through with it. But he was so damn tired. There was this ache behind his eyes that he could feel in his bones, his mind never stopped racing…
He could feel your body heat in the bed next to him. You had either been very scared or very considerate, you’d only moved once since you laid down with him.
He hated that he had to do this. He felt sorry for you, he really did. But it was drowned out by the buzzing in the back of his brain. The constant whispers in his ear.
There had been so many before now, it was a miracle he hadn’t gotten caught. But this was a huge, dangerous city. Everyone in it was just a blip to anyone paying attention.
He could feel their skin under his palms buzzing at the back of his brain. How their eyes stared into his, burning with betrayal, fear, helplessness. How he saw them fade away.
How it was the only thing that worked to let him finally sleep. The only thing that quieted the whispers, at least for a little bit.
Some booked it after getting the money. Some just showed up and straight-up robbed him. Some tried to leave in the middle of the night, thinking he was asleep. But if they stayed and fell asleep, that was that.
He told himself that he gave them all a chance.
If you managed to stay up all night, you’d be safe. But he really needed this… It was already day three, and he’d never made it past day five without completely losing it. Trying to fight this, it was too hard. The longer he stayed awake, trying to avoid what had to happen, the worse he felt. The louder the voice got. The deeper the ache in his bones. But the more often he did it, the easier it got. And that was worse in a different way.
It was wrong. He wasn’t so deep in it that he couldn’t see that. The morning after, he always hated himself and what he did.
But as the days went on, it would all creep back in. And doing it again felt less and less horrifying to him.
You were scared. He could tell. And you had every reason to be, he told himself. But it just meant it would take you longer to fall asleep.
He could wait all night. And if you made it the full seven hours, you weren’t what he needed. You’d be free from him, from this. Hopefully you wouldn’t come back, no matter how badly you needed the money.
He wondered what you meant by having nowhere to go.
But he tried not to wonder too much. It would make this harder.
He could hear your breathing getting slower, your body relaxing into the bed. You wouldn’t last much longer.
His eyes shot open when he felt you suddenly touch him, tucking your forehead into his shoulder. You weren’t quite asleep, a cuddler? He almost laughed to himself when half-asleep you looked a bit frustrated, like it wasn’t enough.
You muttered something about being cold, lazily scooting your body closer to him up the bed. He felt his breath catch when suddenly, his head was pulled to you, tucked into your chest as your arm circled him. He was suddenly the little spoon, but facing you. He could hear your heartbeat.
He wanted to say something, wake you up or wriggle free to make what he had to do easier on you when you fell asleep. He felt a hand in his hair, playing with it and idle gentle nails on his scalp.
It was… nice. Everything felt calm, the buzzing and horrible thoughts were still there but they were being drowned out by the warmth of your skin, the thump of your heart in his ear.
You were mumbling something. He held his breath, trying to hear.
You told him, or whoever you were dreaming about, maybe even no one at all, that he was okay. That he was safe.
He couldn’t keep his eyes open. Something was different this time. He felt all his control slipping away, and for once, he wasn’t scared.
You woke to a sunbeam across your face, and the strange man in your arms, sound asleep. According to your phone, it was 10 am. You were grateful for the extra hours in a warm bed, but would he be mad? Did he have somewhere to be?
You couldn’t remember anything past drifting off next to him, but the two of you were tangled together, he seemed so comfortable.
Now that it was over, and your anxieties were much quieter, you really got a good look at the guy. He wasn’t… unattractive, you supposed. He was all elbows and ribs but laying against your chest made him look so soft and harmless.
Wasn’t the worst way you’d ever made 175 bucks.
You wondered if he’d shell out the extra 100, or if that would be pushing your luck.
Either way, it would be best to wake him up.
Gently scratching at his scalp, you told him it was getting late.
You watched as his eyes struggled to open, and for a few calm moments, he just laid against you. After a beat, he gasped and jolted up, head swiveling around the room in a panic.
“I…” He seemed really out of it, almost scared. “I actually…”
He stared at you, eyes wide. You told him it was ten in the morning, hoping everything was okay and if it wasn’t, that he wouldn’t take it out on you.
He grabbed you by the shoulders, and for a moment you were sure something bad was going to happen, but somehow, it was even worse.
He was crying.
Breaking down, sobbing hard as he just kept staring at you. Even with the odd night you’d just had, this was somehow the weirdest part.
Despite yourself, you asked him if he was okay. He pulled himself together and you were startled again when he touched your face, his thumb gently grazing your cheek. It was tender and sweet, and it was freaking you out a little. Just a tad.
“You… It was you…”
All you could think to ask was if you should get going, maybe trying to make it seem like you had someplace to be, or were at least trying to be considerate of his time. But it didn’t seem like he was taking the hint.
He grabbed your hands in his, the sudden contact made you jump. He pulled them to his chest, he was too close. The way he was looking at you…
“Can we… Can we do this again? Like tonight? Please?” He was practically begging, the look in his eyes changing. That nervous, achingly tired gaze was hopeful. And so warm.
“You can have the room, if that’s what you need!” he offered, maybe somehow having picked up on your current situation. “I can pay more too. Just p-please…”
He held your palm to his cheek, staring up at you.
a bit of a different one from me, but i kind of liked how it turned out
that feeling when your new yandere was totally gonna off you but you were just too comfy
he's never gonna let you go. you're the only thing keepin him from killing again, ya know?
i don't have a ton of yanderes that actually kill, as odd as that seems. but this guy is one of them
he's not supposed to be a huge commentary on any particular mental health conditions, i did a bit of "research" into psychosis induced insomnia (using that term VERY loosely), but like does he hear voices because he can't sleep, or can he not sleep because he hears voices? who can say? certainly not I, the dummy who made him
i wrote this one pretty much right after my last big deadline ended, but it got reworked a bit cause it just needed some tweaks:
the yandere started out as tired but crass, kind of a dick, and when he switched after that good night's sleep it felt off. It felt more interesting if he was a bit pathetic and creepy, it felt like less of a red flag for the reader to stick around
the reader was originally going to be a straight up s*x worker that got hired by the yandere for him to kill, but it didn't really feel like my place to make that commentary on violence against s*x workers or to more or less soften it with a yandere love interest. it just didn't feel right for something so unserious
but ive been having horrible writer's block lately, so i thought i'd finally put this one out. i need to read/play some yandere stuff and get inspired. let me know if you have any recommendations y'all ✌️
Fluffy fluffy fluffy 4am drabbling i had a hella NSFW version but ehhhh enjoy my fluffy contribution instead.
Ghost had no intention of getting a flatmate when he bought the small two-bedroom cottage, but after an extended deployment and a few thousand euros later in repairs from water damage, well…
It took a few months of prying to the right people and in the right places to finally vet a few possible choices to move in as his slightly unwelcomed second in the cottage.
Eventually you landed on his radar. Stable, clean, sweet enough. He introduced himself as Simon and didn't explain anything about what he did for work, just said he was gone a lot. You could connect the dots easily enough and were polite enough not to pry further.
It was a simple exchange; Don’t let the cottage collapse while he was away, your groceries are your responsibility, no guests unless necessary, no pets as Riley often came home with him, and utilities are your responsibility if he was gone for more than three weeks of the month. The latter varied so often, eventually you opted to just pay the utilities every month– it was ‘your rent’. He didn’t fight you on the decision.
Who could complain? It was a quiet cottage that you had entirely to yourself most of the time. It was out of the way and secluded from the bustle of the city beyond, surrounded by nothing and nobody. Occasionally Riley stayed when Simon left, you’d play outside with him and let him run wild through the woods and it sated the puppy fever. The only real setback was that it was quite a way from work, but that was easily forgiven.
Neither of you are sure when it started.
He came home, some days you’d have just finished making dinner and you’d always offer him some and he declined the first few times, but eventually started to say yes. You started to make the meals he liked most around your guesstimates for when he would be coming home so he’d have something he liked. You both ate in moderate silence, not an uncomfortable silence that craved anything to fill the void but a warm silence that embraced you and made you feel safe.
Eventually you two would start to battle it out in a game or two of cards or chess when he came home. Typically he won at cards, you won at chess, both of you occasionally accusing the other of cheating because there was no way he actually had another full house. You tried to move the pieces on the chess board once, but he caught the change immediately. To be fair, a bottle of bourbon was on the line.
One day as he walked in, after being gone for almost two months, you could feel the weight of whatever had happened drag in with him, looming on him. You offered him a cup of tea, making it the same way your nan did when you felt like shit. Instead of secluding himself in his room, Simon let himself be comfortable in his own house for once and melted onto the couch. You didn’t ask him what happened, he wouldn’t tell you if you asked. You sat with him, a comforting hand on his as some competitive culinary show played on the television. Neither of you watched. He glared into his mug, and you watched him. “This is fuckin’ delightful.” he grumbled and you gave him a small smile.
A few months later you came home to find him passed out on the couch, his bag barely dropped on the floor next to him. He had fresh bandages across his shoulder and a stitching along on his jaw. He had some kind of black smear over his eyes but you could still see the bags under his eyes. It hadn’t really occurred to you until then that Simon, even if he didn’t tell you what he did, worked in a field where he could very well not come home ever again. You knew it was dangerous, but it took until this moment to really appreciate the truth of it. Something tugged in your chest. You draped a blanket over him and placed a glass of water and a bottle of aspirin on the nightstand.
You woke up to a fresh arrangement of flowers and a small box of your favourite candies on the kitchen counter and Simon already gone.
He came back home a week later, this time you were passed out on the couch. Work had been brutal and you had only enough energy to clean yourself up and throw on a shirt and underwear. You hadn’t expected him back after a week, he was rarely only gone for a week. This time you woke up with a blanket over you, and a glass of water.
The way he teased you relentlessly once you were awake, you couldn’t be mad but he was really digging in and eventually you snapped back at him, “Oh, kiss my arse, Simon!” You weren’t expecting him to grin and ask “Is that an order or an offer, lovie?” in response. His shoulder earned a slap and you huffed away, but inside you were screaming and fighting for your life to contain the red on your cheeks.
You two drank together that night, it wasn’t the first time, but something about that morning and a few drinks made you a bit brave— perhaps too brave. As you both called it for the night, you brushed a kiss on his cheek and stumbled off to your room.
He was gone again. A week went by. Then two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Then you started to get worried. But he came back, damaged and reclused, but he was back.
You had to fight the urge to throw yourself into him and bury yourself into his neck and tell him how much you missed him. And that feeling scared the piss out of you.
Simon stood at the doorway across from you, he finally dropped his pack and there was a look in his eye that he fought to push away, Simon trying to keep his attention on anything but you.
He failed.
He closed the space between the two of you, pulling you tight into his arms, kissing the top of your head, and letting out a breath. You stayed like this until your knees buckled and once that happened he picked you up and made you both cosy on the couch. He was out pretty quickly once he laid down, his arms wrapped around you.
Neither of you talked about it when you woke up.
You played cards again that night, both of you braver and tried a new game— a chaotic, ruleless game of strip poker. It didn’t start out that way, but it certainly ended that way. 💕
Masterlist
summary: when chan gives you the opportunity to produce music while he’s away, you take it, not knowing you would get to see a completely different side of your boyfriend. one he tried to hide.
pairings: bf!hyunjin x producer!gn!reader
genre: angst, hurt/comfort
word count: 1.2k
warnings: crying, hyunjin struggling with his confidence
authors note: dude, I was just trying to sleep, but then this idea popped in my head and I was lowkey scared I would forget it by the morning, so I had to realise it. I really want to write longer fics aswell, but I suppose I am forever stuck in the short, angst fics side of things, though this in particular is more of a thought dump, than an actual fic. Please forgive me, dear reader. This is also based on the Hyunjin and Chan 2025 2kr, you’ll know it when you see it. Enjoy nontheless. ㅠㅠ
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Chan taught you everything you knew about producing in his preferred software Ableton. From recording vocals to how to mix the best. Chan also taught you everything you knew about Hyunjin, or what you thought you knew.
You normally only spent time with Hyunjin outside of work, meaning you had never seen him in a professional setting or in the recording booth. But when Chan was away on a mental health vacation to Australia, you helped some of the boys with producing music.
Chan knew well enough that Han and Changbin could do the production just fine as well, since they had been a powerful trio in producing for almost a decade now, but he wanted you to have an opportunity to express yourself through music production as well.
That was why you were here today, recording with Hyunjin. You sat in front of the monitors, your eyes switching flickering over them. The two of you had been in the studio for almost two hours now, but you were starting to suspect the clock was lying. It had definitely felt like ages.
Hyunjin stood in the booth, nervously fidgeting with the strings of his hoodie. You could tell he wasn’t feeling well, since he kept messing up his lines. His voice just didn’t feel like it was coming out right.
You watched him patiently through the glass, pressing the button near your keyboard, so that he could hear you speak.
”It’s alright, take your time.” You assured him. Exhaustion was visible in your face to him, but he nodded calm, taking a deep breath. Your gaze was empathetic as you started up the recording again. Your eyes were fixed on him as he sang his line, the discomfort clear on his face. His entire body looked tense.
You stopped the recording, reaching to press the button to talk to him again. But the words died on your tongue, when you saw him rushing out the recording booth, with his hood pulled up.
“I’m sorry…” He muttered, his voice vulnerable and broken. Without even thinking, you got up and caught him, before he could even open the door into the hallway. Your arms wrapped around his slender frame from behind, your head resting on his back.
That was when the dam broke. Hyunjin started crying, his entire body shaking. You held him tighter, as he hid his face in his hands. God, he was so embarrassed.
You had never seen him so broken before. You didn’t know he had been struggling with his voice when singing recently, so you were saddened to see his struggle.
Slightly pulling out of the hug, you reached up to his shoulders, turning him around to make him look at you.
“Hyunnie…” You muttered, your eyes searching for his face, which was still hidden behind his hands. He was still crying softly, his shoulders shaking under your touch.
“Please look at me.” Your voice was quiet and desperate. The last thing you wanted to do was push him, but you also felt the need to talk to him. You wanted, no, needed to know what was going through his mind.
After a second, reluctantly and very slowly moved his hands from his face. He wiped his eyes and cheeks, before letting his arms hang at his side. The sight of his slightly puffy, red eyes and his tear-stained cheeks made your heart ache.
You reached up to cup his cheek with one of your hands, the other still resting on his shoulder as a grounding touch. Your thumb swiped over his cheek, the skin soft and warm. He closed his eyes instinctively, cupping the wrist of your hand. Your expression was tense and saddened, mirroring his.
”What’s going on? Talk to me.” You said quietly, your voice barely above a whisper. Your thumb kept gently caressing his cheek at a comforting pace. He sighed heavily, sniffling and then taking a deep breath.
”I’m just…it feels like my voice is stuck.” He opens his eyes again, looking anywhere but you. He never wanted you to see him like this. “I’ve…had this issue for a while but it was never so bad that I had to worry.” He sniffled once more. You still held him, like he was glass that was about to spill, like he was fragile.
”Recently…I’ve been having doubts.” He continues, his voice cutting off as the tears spill from his eyes once more. “I’m not sure if I can continue to sing anymore.” He leaned forward, his forehead resting on your shoulder.
Your eyes widen at his statement, before pulling him into a tight hug. Singing had been his dream, the one thing that fulfilled him in his recent years. It was a dream he shared with his 7 closest friends, and he was thinking about giving up on it?
You held him tightly as he cried into the crook of your neck, his own arms wrapping around you, like you were his anchor. You were. And you had been. Time and time again.
You only got to know Hyunjin a few years after his debut, but he was one of the most sympathetic people you had ever met. He immediately stood out to you among the boys. Back then you were introduced to them as an up and coming, self-made producer. You had spent countless nights with the boys in the studio, assisting them or just watching them.
But now, you were so much more than a producer. You were a great friend to the boys, but most importantly, Hyunjins everything. He never wanted to show you this broken, embarrassed side of him, but now here it was he couldn’t stop it anymore.
You could often feel and see in the past that Hyunjin needed you to steady, to ground him. He felt too much and he needed you to anchor him. He needed you to be there for him.
So, when you were there for him in that moment, it felt more clear than ever that you were a crucial part in his life. You realised this now as well, by the way he clinged to you physically. He was still crying, though he had calmed down a bit now.
You held him tightly, as one of your hands rubbed his back in a slow, comforting way.
It was for a long while, that you just stood there in the recording studio at night, tightly wrapped in each other's arms.
After he calmed down again, his hold on you loosened slightly, before he looked at you again. You took your time to talk this out with him, wanting to make sure he didn’t drop his dream over this. It was going to be a hard time for him and he would have to work harder with a vocal teacher, but you assured him he would make it.
When Chan came back from Australia, the three of you talked about Hyunjins issue, to figure out how to move forward. And luckily in the months that followed, you and the boys saw Hyunjin get more confident in his vocal abilities again. Of course, he still occasionally had issues, but you were always there to ground him, to support him, to anchor him.
biker!geto who had a custom helmet made just for you, spent so much money on it, but wholeheartedly prefers you wearing his. loves seeing you in his helmet as you climb onto the front or the back of his bike.
biker!geto who hasn’t taken his eyes off of you once when you two go out together. he knows other men will look at you but he doesn’t care. you’re his.
biker!geto who kisses you whenever he feels like it, doesn’t matter if you’re in public or not. he’ll tilt your head back in the middle of a conversation and kiss you deeply, mumbling how he wants to leave against your lips.
biker!geto who’s covered in tattoos but wants to get one you specifically pick out so he can cherish it whenever he’s not near you.
biker!geto who can’t keep his hands off of you. loves touching you in every way shape and form. runs his hands against your thighs, your waist, and stomach. gropes you every chance he gets while he breathes your scent in. it’s the only thing that calms him down.
biker!geto who worships you and everything you do. loves you with everything he has and then some.
biker!geto who purposely gives you his shirt or jackets to wear solely so he can fuck you in them later. again, loves seeing you in his clothes. makes him feral knowing you’re his. makes him all to eager to take you right then and there.
biker!geto who knows you tease him when he can’t do anything about it right then and there. until later when he has you bent over his bike, begging for him to slow down.
biker!geto who doesn’t get jealous at all but loves it when you do. even if you know he’d never leave you. he just enjoys seeing that pouty little face of yours when a man or woman dares to flirt with him.
biker!geto who buys you fresh flowers every two weeks and brings you your favorite sweet treat.
biker!geto who absolutely adores everything about you. every detail is perfect in his eyes and he makes sure to show you how beautiful you truly are when he can.
Kaveh can see the beauty in many things; art, architecture, writing… but he never thought he’d see such profound beauty in a single individual. What started as a simple crush grew into an all-consuming obsession.
He blushes easily.
He always thought he was a people-person, but the moment he realized his feelings for you, he became a blushing, stuttering, frazzled mess in your presence. Try as he might to recite every flirtatious quip he’s ever heard, his mind and heart melt in your presence. Alhaitham questioned if the lovestruck man needed medical attention the first time he witnessed this event.
He asked you out first.
After many failed attempts and even more sleepless nights spent telling himself to finally do it, Kaveh asked you out… with a furiously red face and presenting a beautiful bouquet of flowers. You flushed just as much as he did when you finally worked out that he was attempting to ask you on a date.
He’d take you on many scenic dates.
Being the frugal man he is, and the fact that there was no shortage of both man-made and natural beauty across Sumeru, you and Kaveh regularly went on dates exploring the land of wisdom that you called your home. A walk through the stunning landscape was always made better with your boyfriend Kaveh by your side.
He’d be embarrassed easily.
His feelings for you were embarrassing enough to confront, but his financial and living situations were on completely different levels. At the end of the day, Kaveh always wanted to be honest with you and never hide anything, so the conversation occurred quite early in your relationship. You told Kaveh your feelings wouldn’t be affected by such trivial things. Everyone has their ups and downs in life, but you adored Kaveh so much that you wanted to be by his side through all of them.
He’s jealous… painfully jealous.
He didn’t have much to offer outside of his looks, charm, and array of sneak-peeks at his current projects, while his roommate had a stable job, money, and a home he could call his own. Alhaitham spoke to you out of rare politeness, but otherwise he seldom knew anything about you. He was confused when Kaveh drunkenly confessed his fears of Alhaitham stealing you from him, and Alhaitham aptly responded by delivering your clearly not sober boyfriend to your front door for you to deal with.
He’s a romantic.
Not only was his appearance charming, but the sweetness that spilled from his lips never failed to make you blush. Kaveh would never waste an opportunity to compliment your appearance and remind you how much he adores you. Gone were the days of shyness and reddened cheeks for him, for it was your turn to be rendered embarrassed at his affections.
He loves to show you off.
He’s not subtle about his worship of you to you and to the world. His fingers are always tangled with your own. A gentle hand always found its way around your waist. Featherlight kisses always peppered your face at every opportunity. If anyone dared to ask him to tone back his behavior, he’d threaten to make out with you right then and there… and not wait for an answer before doing so.
He can’t wait to build a life with you.
As an Akademiya-educated architect and naturally-gifted individual, both textbooks and his own brilliant mind taught him how to bring aesthetic beauty to life. In his career, he was no stranger to designing his client’s forever home. But when the mask falls and all that's left is the real Kaveh, he can’t wait to build an ever-lasting love with you by his side.
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He’s so dumb.
Not intentionally so, but one can hardly
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Soundwave making his kids take turns acting as your service animal pal
this is so delightful lmfaoo
⚝・┆genderless reader, gender not mentioned.
: ̗̀➛ Ravage takes it in stride, finding it easy to move with you. He has no issue with simply taking the command given by Soundwave to carry out, to check your vitals where and how he can, to keep track of your movements.
: ̗̀➛ Ravage finds it so easy that sometimes he simply slips into doing so without realizing that's what he's doing. It's natural and expected. It's also one of the least demanding tasks he has.
: ̗̀➛ Laserbeak finds it equal parts difficult and easy. Easy because he can take the order the same as Ravage, simply moving into it. Difficult because, well... he isn't exactly made to carry and it is not as easy to configure carrying you the way it is for Ravage.
: ̗̀➛ Sometimes he will outright refuse, but it is not because he hates you or doing it for you, though sometimes he has some resentment to it. You should take care of yourself. No, most of the time it is because logistically he is not the one made to help you.
: ̗̀➛ Buzzsaw just won't. He'd rather take the punishment than be responsible for some squishy little organic lifeform. He is actively hostile towards you sometimes. Soundwave has stopped asking and actively keeps him away from you.
: ̗̀➛ Rumble and Frenzy are there own beast. Chaotic and all over the place. They get it done, they are helpful, the know what they're doing. They are asking you about a thousand different questions. Frenzy has told you about at least 8 different Cybertronian ecosystems. He isn't correct. You don't know that. It is delightful.
: ̗̀➛ Sometimes it seems more like they're working together to actively make everything worse. And then the hardest part of your day is gone by and you didn't even notice. You have to ignore their shit eating grins.
: ̗̀➛ They find the difference of their day fun and move to make it as chaotic and wild as possible and it's not even for you, it just works out that way.
: ̗̀➛ All of them tend to take it in stride, though some, like Buzzsaw, would rather take the opportunity to kill you out right. Some even grow to enjoy it, like Ravage and, while for completely different reasons, Rumble and Frenzy.
: ̗̀➛ Most of them eventually begin to look at you more like part of the family than a task or annoyance, though that doesn't mean you aren't an annoyance to them. It's just different kind of annoyance with you now.
: ̗̀➛ This also means they become fiercely protective of you. They're small themselves, it's easy for them to see where you become a danger to yourself, such as under ped. After a few "coincidental accidents" that just happen to have Rumble and Frenzy hanging around, more people are aware of you and them around you.