Hey, slightly serious post here. I need some advice from other cardiophiles.
I've been dealing with a mental health issue for months now. And it's one that takes a physical toll on my body.
Over the last few months, I've noticed some weird things about my heartbeat.
Early in the morning or after not moving for several hours, my heart tends to skip or pause in its beats. And I can feel occasional skips. Like it beats 3 times, pauses, and corrects itself. And sometimes a double beat is thrown in.
And then, lately, when my heart is under stress (exercise, sexual stimulation, etc), it races. Which is normal, obviously. But when I hold my breath (which... I've done during self pleasure as a kink thing), it skips. Hard and throws multiple PVCs and sometimes doesn't stop for several seconds even after I let my breath out. Which I don't think has ever happened before. I've done stuff like that in the past and it's always been normal.
And sometimes, my heart will beat a steady rhythm but it'll be forceful. Like I'll be laying there and my you can faintly see my chest move with each beat.
I'm genuinely concerned about it because it's never done any of this before. Before this started, I drank caffeine and never experienced it. I've vaped for a year now and never experienced it.
But... I'm terrified I'm overreacting. Because it's probably nothing and I'm just being a hypochondriac or an attention seeker. Not to mention, being a cardiophile complicates this because my heart is a very intimate and sexual thing to me. And some part of me thinks I'm just being a pervert and hoping for something that isn't there.
I don't know what to do. I'm afraid a doctor is going to dismiss me or laugh in my face...