#ikes rambles

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I am so desperate for someone to make a cute silly animatic with xisuma's axolotl skin for that "axolotl on the pink stairs" song oh my GOD

I might even do it myself with a speedpaint if I get around to drawing him after all my crises

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more stuff for my former-watcher xisuma headcanon but

when they all thought he was fucking dead and gone where they can't go get him and they're standing around like ???? what do we do now?????? what is the protocol for this???? and suddenly your 10ft tall world equivalent of a deity comes crashing through the void to world barrier clutching your admin like he's a disgruntled wet cat and smashes a massive crater into your shopping district. and it changes to WHAT IS THE PROTOCOL FOR TH IS??????? WHAT DO WE DO HERE??????

anyways the actual moment xisuma gets his life saved is like beautiful and poetic and its the first time he's seen his former companion in years and the first time any of the Hermits have seen her and its Great. but the concept of "we were NOT prepared to meet god today" in response to this situation is equally as great to me

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" Young disabled people are all faking it, there's nothing wrong with them, they just want the attention! "

Me, literally sobbing in union Station because I was so angry about having a mobility aid and not being able to do the same activities as my friends because of it and shaking because I kept getting stared at:

young disabled ppl are valid and if you think otherwise unfollow block whatever this is not the place for your bigotry.

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Found this bad boy while in Chicago for New Years!! I love Lego and Clone Wars, so this combined a major hobby and a special interest together. I couldn't stop wiggling.

getting more confident showing my face and being out with my chair <3 McCoy did not come with because it was my first time in a city the size of Chicago and I was very nervous about public transport etc. I had very good friends there taking care of me, though! They helped me thru two seizures and a very bad chronic pain episode.

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Found this bad boy while in Chicago for New Years!! I love Lego and Clone Wars, so this combined a major hobby and a special interest together. I couldn't stop wiggling.

getting more confident showing my face and being out with my chair <3 McCoy did not come with because it was my first time in a city the size of Chicago and I was very nervous about public transport etc. I had very good friends there taking care of me, though! They helped me thru two seizures and a very bad chronic pain episode.

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I FINALLY GOT A CUSHION THAT FITS MY WHEELCHAIR!!

I am so excited. My wheelchair is an odd sizing, and I had to buy it second hand without a cushion. Getting a cushion that even remotely met my needs was going to be expensive, and I'd resigned myself to using an undersized cushion and a blanket underneath to protect my legs.

My best friend siprised me with a properly fitted cushion for the holidays! It wasn't something i had asked for, but she knew i needed it and got it on top of the other things she got me.

Im so fucking excited to be able to use my chair more comfortably.

Photo of myself and my service dog with my chair after we had adjusted most of it attached

[ID: a redheaded person with purple dye on the underside of their hair with their eyes covered by a white scribble, a red sweater, wide legged jeans, and white crocs sits in a black tilite aero t. Their hand is resting on the back of a black labrador, who is standing next to them and looking at the camera. Her tail is blurry from wagging. They are in a kitchen with white modern-style cabinets. The sink has dishes in it.]

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read a fic where tech was crosshair's spotter and I took that to heart and thus i spawned my headcanon of tech and crosshair being twins...

They were intended to complement each others' abilities (thus why the spotter fic brought this to mind) but they fucked tech up and when they lost his eyes they turned 100% of their focus to his mind instead of the previous 50/50 split

Their separation causes them both a lot of distress because they have been together since their literal tube but neither wavers in their ideals and both refuse to give for the sake of the other

Tech at least has Echo to lean on, with the loss of his own twin, but Crosshair doesn't have that support, and this further drives a wedge between them, as he feels even more betrayed by the one person who was supposed to always be there with him- his complement, his other half. It's a lot of anger on all sides and the strain fucks them up hard.

anyways crosshair tech twins this is my truth

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MY DOCTOR SIGNED OFF FOR MY SERVICE DOG

This is such a massive step for me and I haven't come down off of the high yet. Yesterday was our last ever appointment, she's transferring and I'm moving two hours away and I already had one doctor reject me. I prepared with a three page essay on why it would help me, all of my research, even brought my dad for moral support, and she took one look at it and went "Oh yeah ill sign it no worries"

She told me she was so proud of me for all I've done to keep going, and the work I've already put into care for my dog before she even comes home, and that she's so happy to see all I've done to help myself with my existing aids and-

I gave her a hug and started crying and left with all of my paperwork and all of my anxiety off my shoulders.

I'm gonna miss you, doc. Thanks for being the first person to take me seriously, when I was still a scared sixteen year old frightened of my own mind and too scared to tell anyone.

Jellie and I will never forget all you've done.

Here's to the future.