Watched the TADC finale > finished my exams (i never wanna see a word of french again in my life) > dipped a bit of my foot back in the pool that is my naruto obsession > rewatched RTC while drawing Jax if she was happy > thought of you and put your sillies in the drawing. Maybeee in that order.. maybe idk.
So have this very rushed bunch of doodles of ur sillies with a big Jax drawing and also rtc lyrics
JAX MY BELOVED SHE LOOKS SO CUTE IN YOUR STYLE !!!!
im ngl I got so excited and focused on Jax that I completely missed the bg doodles, THEY ALSO LOOK SO CUTE I AM SHOVING THEM INTO MY MOUTH TO TRY AND ABSORB THE ARTISTRY THROUGH MY TASTEBUDS
Haru looks so cute and squishy and Tsuki looks so pretty,,, im ngl the title of just "Tsuki ship kid #4" is definitely making me giggle. That guy needs to stop procreating before we hit the double digits
Thank you for sending me this !! I was having a not so great day but getting to witness ur art has in fact made it slightly better. I hope your exams went well!
Jax, realizing he’s starting to actually care about and befriend Pomni, pushes her away because he’s too scared to get attached and go through the pain of losing someone again—yet he also hates pushing her (and everyone) away. he doesn’t really like how people see him now, even though it’s the persona he’s actively trying to project. his panic attack in the bathroom…
at this point, the only thing keeping him from abstracting is his “archetype” mentality. it’s not even real. any pain here—even mine—doesn’t really exist. they are just all cartoon characters, worthless to get attached to.
he’s such a complex character (dude has 89 issues and one coping mechanism & he’s slowly losing it)
perused pinterest for some good caine images :P
idk if this is lwk boring to u guys but trust it'll get good by the end ok
warnings: obsessive caine, making out, love bites
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The marks are still there… and they are very prominent. They’ve gotten darker. For a place with such heavy filtering, it doesn’t seem like it’s saving me from the humiliation.
I rummage through my drawers frantically searching for something to cover up my ravaged neck. As a result, I could only find a thick scarf to wrap around it. With that, I coil the fabric to completely secrete Caine’s claim on my body… and the memories flash back into my head chaotically, making my face heat up instantly.
All I can do now is push my feelings down and be normal in front of the rest of the characters… it can’t be that hard, right?
I walk out to the main room of the circus, suddenly feeling as if the lights were ten times brighter. It stung my eyes. I felt as if I were being watched, though there was nobody there in that empty hallway. They know. Everyone knows. The face of the earth knows.
Anxiety filled my body as I spotted the crew circled around Caine as he floated in the air like always, explaining the next adventure.
As usual, Zooble stood with an exasperated look on their face, Gangle in distress, Jax in complete boredom, Ragatha and Pomni a bit worried. But all their eyes shifted to me for a moment when I stepped in. Then, to my scarf.
Before they could comment, Caine noticed me.
“Oh, hi, Y/N!” His voice was back to its cheery tone once again. It’s like nothing happened. “I have an adventure for all of you crazy corn dogs.” With his announcement, he dramatically pointed his cane at all of us. However, I could see the slight twinge of bashfulness in his face when his large eyeballs flickered onto my scarf. “All of you are going out into a hot desert, where you must search for the haunted pyramid and bring back the treasure."
A blazing hot adventure? In this scarf?
I know what he's doing.
He looks down at me with mischievousness and pure excitement. So, he thinks that some inevitably sweat-inducing adventure would get me to show my marks? I won't fold. Not at the expense of my reputation here at the circus.
He knows he can just snap his gloved fingers and my cover-up would disappear, but no. He wanted to see what I would do.
I shot him a look of anger, to which he winked back at. He's so irritating sometimes...
After the usual lines of protest from Zooble, he spawned a portal in the floor below us and dropped us face-first into a ground of pure sand. I could feel the particles run between my fingers, landing harshly with the weight on my palms. Jax lifted his head, spit sand out of his mouth, and tilted his head to the side, knocking sand out of his ears. Groans of exhaustion filled the air, with everyone standing on their feet. Jax's eyes flickered over to my thick scarf around my neck.
"New look, huh?" He chuckled, his yellow smile widened to his ears. He pointed at the cover, drawing attention from everyone else.
"Isn't that a little hot? I can take it for you if you want," Ragatha offered kindly, gesturing to the large bag hanging from her shoulder. I could tell she thought it was a little tacky, but I had to throw on the best I could find.
"Oh- no thank you," I shook my head, receiving suspicious glances from the rest of the group. Jax only smiled wider, if that was even possible, anyway.
"It's fine, Raggy! Just tell them it's ugly,"
"No, no! I don't think it's ugly! It's just different, that's all!" Defensively, Ragatha turned her body to both of us, hoping not to upset me in any way.
"It's alright, Ragatha," I chuckled. I just needed the attention off of my scarf and back to the adventure.
The red-head doll nodded as we continued to tread slowly through the windy desert. It was a hot breeze, the floor burnt, and the scorching sun poked at my scarf. It seemed like a long journey, especially with Jax poking at us the entire time. Pomni just looked exhausted with everyone fighting around her. We were all exhausted, let's just be honest... and the fact that she's already so tired though she'd been here the least time says a lot. We all want to leave, or at least hope that Pomni would be the last human to arrive in this digital hell.
I feel horrible that I want to leave, especially with how Caine feels about me. But is it real? He's not a real human. He only craves validation. I've given him the slightest bit and he'd fallen head-over-heels for me. If I hadn't done that, would there be any other reason for him to love me? No one had in the real world, so what would make him love me?
Of course I felt the same, but I just couldn't help but feel silly... falling in love with an AI. He isn't... real. And I feel horrible for remembering so. But his love is so real. Is it? My mind is in fucking shambles.
"Y/N?" I'm instantly yanked straight out of my thoughts as I hear Ragatha's voice call my name. She knew how I would completely space out. "We're here."
We stood in front of the tall entrance to the pyramid. That was easy... too easy.
Stepping inside, it was even hotter! There was gold scattered along the sides, leaving a narrow path that was one-third of the room wide. But I've seen Aladdin before, I would know not to touch any of the treasure. I hope that goes for the rest of them...
"Ooo, look at this shiny thing-!" Jax exclaimed, with his hands hovering over a large jewel. I instantly rushed over to him, moving his hands away.
"Jax! Have you learned nothing?" I scolded him, as he looked down on me with that stupid, condescending grin. He rolled his eyes and pushed past me, walking further down the halls.
"Jeez, you're so paranoid," He sighed, hoping to push buttons, but I'm only used to it at this point. I take nothing he says to heart anymore. I'll show him how paranoid I can be.
As we walked further and further, I felt the horrible heat almost tugging at my scarf, begging me to expose my marks. We were so close, but this was much too easy... where were the monsters and obstacles keeping us from the treasure? We've gotten much too far for nothing to get in our way...
We finally reach the largest room of the pyramid. There is gold scattered everywhere, jewels sparkling, and one large outstanding platform where a massive jewel stood. It beckoned us to come closer and pick it up. It was square and illuminating, just tempting anyone to take it.
"We should probably find something to swap it with..." Zooble sighed, looking around for an object to match its weight. All of us–except for Jax–nodded, searching around. Then I thought back to that jewel that Jax found... was that what we were supposed to swap it with?
"Jax, please, bring us that other jewel you were messing around with earlier,"
"Ohhh, so now you do want it, huh?" He grinned, to which I just rolled my eyes. "Yeah, I'll get it, but because I want this to be over. Not because you asked." The purple rabbit ran back to get the jewel, and I tugged at my scarf just a tiny bit, for a little bit of air. Ragatha noticed my suffering in the heat once again.
"I'm sorry for prying, but are you sure you don't want to take that off?" She placed her hands on her hips and looked at me in a concerned manner. I shook my head no once again. Damn it, Caine, I'm dying here!
"No thanks, I'm alright,"
"Y/N, is everything okay? You've been a little... odd lately, especially since that previous adventure..." I could see her getting suspicious. "Does any of that have to do with that scarf?"
I sputtered in response, trying my hardest to think of a way out of Ragatha's confrontation. I knew she was just trying to help, but I needed her off my back, at least until I knew for sure that she wouldn't change her thoughts on me. "What? No, why would it? I'm completely fine-"
"I've got the shiny thing!" Jax called out, interrupting the conversation. For the first time, after so many years with him, his presence was actually useful. I took my opportunity to slip out of Ragatha's intervention and jogged over to the purple rabbit.
"Great, now just quickly swap it with the jewel over there!" I pointed breathlessly toward the shining platform. I rushed him quickly and pushed him to the treasure. "Let's just get out of here." Jax slid the treasure out and placed the replacement directly on within milliseconds, finally obtaining the treasure.
I smiled and clapped my hands softly, and the rest of the group sighed with relief... until the walls started shaking. The whole room began to crumble down, shooting out weaponry and rocks onto our heads. "Run! Get out of here!" Pomni screamed.
We dashed out of the room, and Jax shoved the treasure into Ragatha's bag as the pyramid fell down behind us, almost like it was chasing us. So here's the obstacle, huh?
Our legs pumped us out quickly, and we could see daylight ahead! We were just about to make it out... then a large boulder from the ceiling fell directly onto the end of my scarf, sharply pulling me back by the neck.
Ragatha turned back immediately. "Y/N!" Stupidly, I tried my best to tug the scarf out from under the boulder, but it was no use... "What are you doing?!" The doll woman then yanked the scarf off, catching a glimpse of the love bites my neck was covered in. She pulled me out right out of the death zone and the pyramid crumbled to the ground.
My body landed right on top of her, and I took the scarf back once again, but she called me out... well, more whispered. "Y/N, what is that?" She placed both hands on my shoulders as she looked dead into my eyes. Her voice wasn't too loud, but the others looked at us with wondering eyes, having no idea what the hell we were talking about. "Tell me the truth. What are those on your neck? What happened?"
I tried to avoid it, I tried to ignore her but it just slipped out of my mouth. "Caine happened, okay?"
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"Why do you want me to ruin my friendships? Once I finally have people I trust and that can trust me, you decide to jeopardize all of that for what? An adrenaline rush?" I shouted at Caine in his office. Finally back in the circus, my cover was out, at least to Ragatha. He looked at me with pure remorse in his eyes, knowing that was the exact reason.
"My darling, I-"
"Caine, Ragatha knows now! How do I know she didn't tell anyone else?" I cried out. "Putting me on an adventure with crazy heat, you knew damn well what you were doing!"
"Y/N, I'm so sorry, I just thought that-" he sighed, now unable to look at me with those green and blue eyes. His features formed into a sad, remorseful expression. "I thought that I could finally show everyone how much I love you, and how much you love me! I don't want to keep this a secret, it hurts."
I was disarmed by his genuine care. Why was I so easily swayed by him? "I know, Caine, I feel the same way, it's just that..." I didn't know how to explain what the rest of the group truly felt about him. That would break him even more, and that would just break my heart. I didn't want to be the one to tell him. "...they wouldn't like it. They would be upset with me."
His upper jaw contorted to a look similar to slightly furrowed eyebrows. I could hear his tone get darker. "And why would they be upset?"
"Because... they would feel betrayed," I fidgeted with my hands nervously. I knew my next statement would end with either bullets, or a straight missile. "They don't... like you."
Caine's face grew dark. He was silent for a moment, contemplating this new information. I couldn't tell if he truly picked up on the amount of anger, protest, complaining and groans when he would initiate anything. "I don't care," He stood up tall, now towering over me as I became smaller in contrast. "I already told you, nothing becomes between you, me, and our love." He leaned over the desk and placed his hand firmly on my chin, lifting my head up to make eye contact with me. My heart pounded in my ears and I felt tingling in the tips of my fingers.
"Caine, please calm down," I begged, trembling softly as he traced my lower lip with his thumb.
"I don't give a damn about what they say about me, you're mine. I'm yours. They don't have any control over me, and I couldn't care less about what they want you to think about me," He leaned in to press a heated kiss to my face, his tongue dipping into my mouth and threatening to run down my throat. Our lips separated with a string of saliva between them. "Let me tell you how much I have come to love you since I began to live."
He left new marks on my neck and jawline, nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin. My arms wrapped around his neck as he lifted me and pinned me down to his large desk.
"Caine... please-"
He glitched aggressively, his fingers flying up to compress my cheeks together from both sides. "You can cover up these marks as much as you want, but everyone will see my love for you soon."
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After watching The Amazing Digital Circus, I started thinking that Pomni's ability could be more than just making people feel comfortable enough to open up to her.
What if her real power is the ability to dive into someone's subconscious, like she did with Jax? A place where their truest self exists, stripped away of all the masks they wear.
Imagine Pomni accidentally falling into either Angel Dust's or Alastor's psyche and being forced to experience their memories, buried emotions, and the parts of themselves they desperately try to hide.
Angel would probably make the most sense, especially since he and Jax even shared the same voice actor back in the Hazbin Hotel pilot. Both use humor and sarcasm as armor, but underneath there's a lot of pain. Exploring Angel's subconscious could reveal the contrast between the carefree persona he projects and the deeply traumatized person beneath it.
Alastor, on the other hand, would be an entirely different kind of nightmare. His mind would be full of twisted symbolism, radio static, theatrical performances, and carefully locked-away memories. He prides himself on never showing weakness, so having someone accidentally stumble into the one place where he can't completely control the narrative would probably horrify him more than anything.
Poor Pomni never asked to become everyone's therapist... now she's accidentally becoming everyone's subconscious explorer, too.
YES. She could first get a glimpse of her true power during 'More Than Anything', when she spots a glimpse of little Charlie with her parents. She doesn't understand what that was, and brushes it off as a part of the Musical Magic of Hell.
The ideal (cough dramatic cough) times for her to mind delve with Angel Dust could be during the infamous Danny Do-Bad scene, where she dives in to help Angel with rescuing Husk, and the panic combined with the brief contact could cause her magic to activate.
She sees not only the moment Anthony kills his father, but recklessly murdering several other people (some enemy gangsters, some random civilians in the wrong place at the wrong time) and burying the guilt beneath drugs and parties until he died, how he met and fell in love with Valentino, and how that relationship turned sour, Addict, Use Me Up, Poison, Loser Baby, VoxREDBLACKREDBLACKREDBLA-
She's shaken back to awareness by Husk and sees Vox and Charlie pressuring Angel into revealing his sin... killing his father. Already pissed at Charlie for risking their lives and shaken by what she experienced, Pomni shrieks, "You killed your father to stop him from hurting your sister! That wasn't a sin, Anthony! You saved her life!"
Everyone stares at her slack-jawed- no one noticed Alastor in the background, ears pinned and eyes widening in realisation as he backed away from her and further into the shadows- she continued, "That isn't why you're down here! Yes, you did some bad things, but don't ever regret defen-" Angel interrupts her, his voice shaky.
"How did you know my real name, Pomni? I never told you that."
Her true power discovered, Charlie in her mania (amped up by Caine) immediately tries to get Pomni to use it more to help other sinners... and she tries, but these things didn't really come with instructions. The ideal candidate to help her learn about magic would be Alastor, as Husk would point out, b u t . . .
Yeah, he just quit. Poor Ragatha is devastated when she finds out.
Caine continues to push, pushing random sinners for Pomni to test her gift on. Doesn't work, to both Pomni and the guests' relief as they didn't really volunteer.
Vaggi finally suggests that Lucifer help Pomni learn to use her magic as surely someone as powerful and ancient as him could figure it out, using how Alastor would've done it as 'motivation'. Pomni gets more and more frustrated with Lucifer's dismissive attitude, especially as he is late to their lessons, is always dressed as if he just got out of bed and continues to get her name wrong no matter how many times she corrects him.
Finally, Pomni just snaps- and just like when she baited Caine, she manages to hit Lucifer exactly where it hurts.
seeing the take that monty is nevermore’s jax killlssss me because whatttttt you mean the very clearly repressed queer man who was groomed by a religious extremist cult and made to believe that there was something inherently evil and wrong with him???? something so deeply instilled in him that the church is to this day his greatest fear?????? his cruelness being a product of succumbing to the conditioning of his mother + the church because if everyone thinks he’s evil anyway, he might as well fulfill that prophecy because it’s safest that way????? THATS the man ur comparing to jax?!?!?!?!?
And MOST IMPORTANTLY… the man who CONTINUOUSLY reaps the consequences of every cruel and shitty thing he does and is actively hated and never excused by any of the other characters???? (save for will lol) that man????? That’s your jax????? The fuckass rabbit???? I fear we have to accept that even if you actually hate monty with ur whole soul (FAIR enough, he does horrible things throughout the story and this is by no means trying to make you forget that) you CANNOT act like he isn’t an INTEGRAL character to the story, one of the leading antagonists (not to mention an amazing narrative parallel to lenore aka our main character) — obviously he’s gonna have a lot of screen time??? and he’s sooooo well written… so good at being bad. like that’s my dawgs
this is lighthearted btw it was mostly an excuse for me to talk about how much I like Monty’s writing! Pls don’t fight meanly I’ll cry but if u have counter points that’s great I love to chat
But LIEKKKKK:
this is such an underrated moment of character study for monty. like he is CONSTANTLY afraid. the very notion of god HAUNTS him especially because he is DEAD and in the afterlife, he has NO clue what’s going on, and he is deeply afraid and perturbed by HIS OWN INNER DARKNESS. like every day he is afraid first and foremost of himself and whatever is inside of him that makes him evil and twisted and different and unworthy (shown by the way he literally embodies the satanic creature that crawls out his mouth in the nightmare; scratching and choking Will the same way the demon was scratching and choking the worshippers #fire symbolism btw). but at the same time the only internal model he has is to self-fulfil this prophecy that eats him from the inside out. if he is evil he is in control of the distance between him and the rest of the world. FIRE!! FIIIIRE!!!!!!! JAX COULD NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
Caine’s knees were pressed against the side of your bed. As much as he enjoyed watching you sleep, he required stimulation of some kind. A few of his eyes (some invisible) stayed fixed on your face, but several more turned inward, replaying every moment the two of you had shared.
His mind was a glorious disaster of folders, labels, and deeply unnecessary organization. Moments were sorted into some categories like Happy, Sadness, Unknown, and then filed again under titles such as Sleeping, Walking, Spacing Out, Breathing, and Blinking and more. He had favorites inside favorites. The blink you gave him while leaning over the lavender vase was carefully placed beside the blink you gave him during the performance review. Similar angle. Similar softness. Excellent material.
He revisited these files constantly, scanning frames, comparing expressions, running statistics to make sure your “Happy” moments continued to outweigh your “Sad” ones.
The humans barely understood how often he watched them. You most of all. But he watched all of them because he needed to. You weren’t the only one! He had spent several frustrated hours combing through days of Zooble’s observation notes, trying to determine why they avoided adventures. Many more were trying to understand why Jax is the only one here who is fine with violence.
But this was different.
He had to make a decision.
From the outside, he looked perfectly still beside your bed. Inside, however, he was the digital equivalent of a man sprinting through a library, knocking over shelves, opening books at random, and screaming at the shelves for answers.
There were limits to what he allowed himself to examine. Dig too deeply into a human mind and things became… not good.
Besides, this wasn’t just about anyone.
This was about you.
And what he wanted you to remember.
...
He sent a silent message to Bubble. Internal communication in the circus was mostly controlled by Caine. Mostly. Bubble still found ways to squeeze through systems and his mind he absolutely should not have access to.
Caine made a mental note to save brainwashing joke and Bubble washing away a subconscious for later.
‘What should I do??? :(‘
Even while messaging, he kept hold of your hand beneath the blanket, fascinated by the way your avatar’s fingers rested in his own. He had helped designed those hands. Yours and his. Frankly, excellent work.
‘y dont u tel her?! >:D’
‘You know exactly why,’ Caine muttered to himself while sending the message back, rolling his eyes. No sound came out— he had muted himself so he wouldn’t wake you.
‘.•.Typing.•.’
‘Why do you take so long to respond?’
...
‘You’re not ignoring me, are you?’
...
‘.•.Typing.•.’
‘UGH!’
‘i wouldnt tel’
‘But if she finds out I kept it secret, what if she doesn’t trust me?’ he thought back furiously. ‘It seems possible her memories are returning, but I can’t tell how much! I don’t want to push her brain far!’
His grip tightened around your hand before he quickly loosened it again, the bends of your fingers being satisfying to play with.
He still didn’t fully understand why touch mattered so much to him. Somewhere in his code, physical closeness had been filed under trust, approval, safety. When a human let him this close, it meant they liked him. It quieted something restless inside him. He was unable to feel any humans before he made the circus. Unable to feel anyone as alive as he felt.
When a human reached for him first?
That was even better.
‘but u want her 2 remembr?’
‘Imagine how much closer we’d be!’ Caine replied instantly. ‘No one here could compete with our bond then! No one could accidentally pull her away from me. The others don’t hate me— they love me! They’re just… difficultly unsatisfied all the time. And humans copy each other! They reflect each other! What if they rub off on my bee-uty in the wrong ways?’
‘bro ur crazy. chill bruh’
‘You’re not helping…’
He glanced down at you again, then back into his own thoughts.
‘What if I… No... I’ve already said too much. I can’t suddenly pretend I don’t remember.’
Now both of his hands were under the blanket, touching you. Reassuring. Stabilizing.
One hand glided up your arm, softly tracing over your neck before dipping back down to your limbs. His other felt your shape as he traced your waist, finally resting on the back of your thigh, squeezing again. You were becoming a stress toy for the anxious AI.
‘This is vital, Bubble! I saw the way she looked at me last adventure. Those big adorable eyes! Something is surfacing— I know it is. Maybe I should guide her more. If she likes me enough now, then even if she remembers the unpleasant parts later, she’ll still stay my friend! I just need more time. More progress. More positive associations!’
He paused.
‘It hurts every day she looks at me and doesn’t remember... but it’ll be worth it.’
‘so what if she doesnt remember cuz she dont like u :P’
…
‘N what if she hates u?’
You made a small sound in your sleep, and he froze.
Only then did he realize he’d been holding you a little too tightly, fingers squeezing unconsciously— possessively. He snatched his hands back, waiting to see what you’d do next.
Your brow furrowed. You rolled onto your back, away from him. He loved when your eyebrows scrunched up your face. Humans and their facial expressions— confusing yet fascinating.
Immediately, Caine floated upward and repositioned himself above you, lying perpendicular to you in the air. His legs kicked lazily behind him while his jaw rested in his palms. He stared down at your face.
He blocked Bubble, not wanting to let any more negative thoughts consume him. He was great at his job, worked hard, and was sure eveything would be fine!
...
It was just a mistake.
One mistake. One mistake in the past.
One he never would have made now— not with everything he’d learned, not with how much smarter he’d become.
You understood that... didn’t you?
Because one thing was absolutely, undeniably true.
He hated that you didn’t remember your best friend. He had never forgotten you.
“Caine I think you accidentally blocked me!! We were talking about-“ Caine pops Bubble with extreme haste, the thing spawning in here out of nowhere with that grating voice.
His eyes dart back over to you and you’re-
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Oh. First time you woke up on your own.
Finally. You blearily blinked your eyes open, somehow still feeling tired. Your eyes stung, and you quickly turned to look for the-
Tea, steaming hot and ready. Caine is making it so hard to not be your best friend.
When you went to reach for it, you catch… light bruising on your arm?
Your bee limb is black and yellow, so it’s hard to see, but there’s light purple marks that you might’ve gone your whole day without noticing. Didn’t really hurt much unless you poked it hard.
Huh. Must’ve hit something while cleaning Spudsys.
After you do some stretches, you make you way to the main room, drink in hand. The rest are already there. $&@?!. Why are you always getting left out?
“What could you possibly be doing so late that makes you sleep in? Are you being weird?” Jax leans over the back of the couch as you approach, drawing out the last word in an odd tone and raised eyebrow.
“I’m not really sure what you mean…” You’re genuine, and just dodge whatever he was implying. “…I’m always sleepy.”
“Wait you’re sleepy?” Ragatha is playing tic-tac-toe with Kinger, who decided he’d draw a Q instead of an O or X.
“Yeah why? Don’t tell me… you’re all morning people? I mean I usually am- kind of. But uh… not recently. Ha ha ha…” Your pathetic attempt at humor ended as you slumped on the couch next to Pomni. Gangle gives what you think is a pity giggle. Can’t tell if that makes you feel better or worse.
“Comedic genius here.” Jax kicks his feet up onto a giant die, looking at Pomni while gesturing to you.
You bury the bottom half of your face in your fuzz, wings fluttering in irritation. “Yeah well I don’t see anyone laughing at your jokes.” You mutter mostly to yourself.
“Do you guys hear that? There’s like…” Jax sarcastically looks around the room, his one ear perked up. “…there’s like this annoying buzzing sound.”
“So everyone!” Ragatha claps hers hands loudly “What are the plans for today?”
But Jax doesn’t stop. “I was thinking of buying some bug spray, I think we have an infestation.”
He’s so very clearly trying to get a reaction, but you refuse to go farther than normal, tracing the sewing lines of your clothes.
“Hey! Knock it off!” Ragatha crosses her arms. She “lost” to Kinger as he has wrote Q in every box. Master of his craft.
Pomni shushes both of them. “Please guys. Let’s just enjoy the peace… while we have it...”
You can’t help but glance at Zooble after Pomni alludes to Caine. She seems fine, looking at whatever Gangle is drawing.
“As I was saying…” Ragatha leaves Kinger to sit next to you. “…none of us here get sleepy. We get exhausted, like after running from monsters or something. No sleepiness though. We only go to bed for routine stuff.”
“I guess you have a gimmick.” So Zooble was listening. “Join the club.” They roll their eyes, but they say it with sympathy.
“So I end up in a world where I can be smashed, fall at heights that would kill me, but I’m the only one who actually needs a good eight hours every night?”
“I wish I could feel sleepy. I used to love taking naps all the time. I know I can still do that, but it’s not the same.” Gangle whispers, scribbling something intensely.
Pomni nods. “Yeah maybe it’s a good thing. You feel more human.”
You don’t tell them that you wish you could never sleep— hating the time it takes and the fact that you constantly feel tired without the tea. You just shake your head in agreement, fingers tracing the brim of your cup.
“Nah, it makes her look worse. Those bags under your eyes are more purple than me!”
“What is your deal?” You lock eyes with Jax, whose smirk grows even larger. You know he’s thinking: ‘Mission accomplished’. You don’t care.
Thinking about how ridiculous your sleepy gimmick is gave you a good reminder of where you actually are. A place where nothing matters and you can do whatever you want. Why is this bunny making you feel like a tiny insect? “I’m serious. Everyone here is so nice. You’re just… mean and annoying.” You somehow blabbered out.
“Me? Mean? Annoying?” Jax puts his hand on his chest, mocking. “I’m genuinely so hurt. But if you really wanna know? I think it’s funny! I’m the funny one.”
You could feel your heart speed up. You never speak up for yourself. “Again. I never see anyone laugh.”
“That’s because you’re all a bunch of sour-pus’. Need to liven up! Stop taking everything so seriously.”
Zooble crosses their arms. “Maybe it’s because we’re people? With feelings? You forget that?”
Gangle has stopped drawing, tugging the sketch book closer to her.
“Oh no, that one’s different.” He obnoxiously points at you. “Maybe I should tell them what I saw that one night. That day we had the candy adventure? Seems a littllllle weird.”
Your eyes widen. $&@?!, you should’ve stayed quiet. You guess some things here definitely still matter. Like embarrassment.
He saw Caine take you to your room? After the hang out? “I still don’t know what you’re implying.”
“I’m just letting you know I see more than you think.” Jax’s legs are crossed, one foot tapping in the air slightly— so delighted with himself as he finishes it with, “And I see a freak who’s really into teeth.”
You feel the couch cushion give out underneath you.
You went from sitting in a very saturated playroom, to falling through what looks like a beautiful blue sky. Trees are rushing underneath you, but before you hit them, you’re jerked backwards by a parachute deploying. You didn’t even realize you had it on. How many $&@?! times are you going to be flying through the air like this?
Looking around, taking deep breaths to regulate the intense panic you had, you see endless pine trees with a white bright sun high in the air. You couldn’t help your wings buzzing, even now while gently gliding.
In the distance, you see the others— Ragatha waving. They’re all there, floating down onto a huge, tall grassy field.
Man. Caine really just wanted us to hop right into this adventure. Or uh, fall- not hop.
By the time you touch the ground, your breathing has been somewhat steadied, your antennas going from straight as rulers to being droopy again. You and Pomni have to stand on tippy toes to get a clear view of everyone, the grass so tall.
You do a little head count in your head and… “Where’s Jax?”
“I’m over here bug!” Everyone turns to see a very disheveled bunny emerge from the woods, as he stomps over.
“What happened to you?” Zooble asks, amused.
“$&@?! parachute didn’t deploy…” He pulls off a pinecone that was stuck to his butt, spitting out pine needles.
“Now that’s funny.” You lean over and whisper to Pomni. She rolls her eyes but smiles.
Jax catches it last second, freezing, eyes wide with his fists clenched. With a puffed out harsh sigh, he grumbles turning away. “Can we start this stupid adventure already? Where’s Caine?! Are we just gonna frolic through some fields?”
Kinger does just that, humming in delight as he glides through.
“Nice to see Kinger having fun.” Ragatha smiles melancholy, gliding her plush arms across the tops of the grass. “I miss being in fields like these.”
Before you can ask for more details, Gangle speaks up. “Umm… guys? I think we’re supposed to go this way.” Her ribbon points towards a clearing.
There’s a dirt road, with giant carved arrows in the tree trunks, pointing us where to go.
“Wow. Good thing we didn’t miss that.” Zooble rolls their eyes. You can’t tell if this means Caine wants this part rushed, or he believes you all would not have figured it out on our own. Both reasons you release a puff of amusement from your nose.
The walk was gorgeous. Sun glimmered through the tree tops, birds whistled in a merry tune that almost put a skip in your step.
“This is… really nice.” The jester plucks a flower, playing with the petals as we all continue on our way. “You think he took more of our suggestions? Or did he actually listen to our feedback?”
“Not sure. All I know is that he really wants everyone to have fun.” You shrugged. Did that come off as too defensive? He’s becoming more and more of a touchy subject, especially after Jax’s teeth comment. What does he know? You’re just friends. Weirdo. I bet he’s got some weird kink involving not brushing his teeth.
Okay. You are very defensive about this.
You snap out of your thoughts as Zooble walks along with you and Pomni now. “So what else happened when you were sent to hell?”
You uncomfortably laugh, looking at Pomni with guilt. “I-I didn’t mean to discredit your feelings.”
“It’s fine. You’re not wrong. He’s definitely desperate for approval.” She pulls off the last petal, letting the daisy fall to the ground. You stop yourself from looking sadly back at the discarded flower.
“He just doesn’t understand.” Zooble shakes their head. “I can’t stand his annoying $&@?!, but I don’t know if he can help it. He’s not human. How could he get it?”
You decide to stay very quiet. The more you hang out with everyone, you find that your opinions on the AI are in the minority. Then you feel awful, being besties with who they see as their jailer.
You feel an elbow prodding you.
“You okay?” Pomni asks.
“Don’t let Jax get to you.” Zooble accurately hones in one what’s closing your brain. “I don’t know what’s his problem. But… I have to ask…” They tilt their head, raising an eyebrow.
“No! He just walked me to my room, that’s it.” You shake your head, fluffing up in irritation.
“How… would that even work? Like… do you kiss his teeth or…?” Pomni shudders.
You’ve decided this conversation is too embarrassing, and silently thank Caine for giving you an excuse to end the topic. “Look! A village!”
And there was. Cute little cottages were puffing out smoke on a hill. From what you can see… it’s little tree people? Yeah. Made up of bark and bundles of leaves for hair. They’re all incredibly short, running too quickly for your liking. They look to be in distress, making random sad wails.
“Okay, where’s the quest guy?” Jax huffs, standing by you all now. “Should be coming up any second…”
“Heroes! You came!” Right on cue, and elderly little stump strolls up, black beady eyes blinking up with his giant fluffy mossy eyebrows and mustache.
Oh my god, they’re so cute. Without your knowledge, your pupils dilate intensely.
“Excuse me, do you have a bathroom here? I need to powder my nose.” Noseless Kinger interrupts, needing the restroom for some unknown reason.
The old stump is silent for a few seconds, with us all awkwardly standing around.
…
“Heroes! You came!”
“Oh I guess he’s using a less advanced AI than usual.” Ragatha hums at the repeated dialogue.
“Thank god…” Pomni rubs her arm.
“Can you tell us what you want before I punt you?” Jax moves past everyone, standing before the little guy. Before he does what?!
“Our village leader is sick! He’s located in the main cottage! Please, follow m-“
Jax punts him, the old stump flying into the distance while still running through his dialogue. You gasp in shock, shouting “No!”
With his arms on his hips, the rabbit shrugs at you with that aggravating smirk. “I said I was gonna do it after he told me. His fault.”
tadc ep 9 spoilers — live blogging my thoughts while watching. this is so fucking long be aware LMAO
i understood none of that brain scan thing dawg what why r they freaking out over that
WHAT is happeningbro. jax got abstracted ???? forever ??? but then who r these copies of him ?????? WHHY IS ONE CHAINED ???????
THETHE THE PLACE IN THE FLASHBACKS ( ??? IF I REMEMBER IGHT ). I THINK JAX'S MEMORIES ??????? THAT IRL NEIGHBOUR HOOD OR MSTH OMG AND THE CARRR
and insects chirping ???????? A HAND ???? JAX ???????I CANT TELL WHAT MIM LOOKING AT AND I CANT BRIGHTEN MY SCREEN RN UGHHH FUCK
YEAH THATS AHAND FUCK THATS A HAND
oh woah jax's actual hands now OH OH FLASHBACK TO JAX\S FIRSTTIME IN CIRCUS OHHHH MY GODS IM GONNA EXPLODE BRO
OH fhes freaking out oh thats angst of my favorite character FCUK YES SSS FUCK YES FUCK YES IVEBEEN WAITING FOR THIS
ribbit n kaufma oh my gods im gonna throw upor smthOH KAUFMO N RIBBIT N JAX FRIENDSHIP YOU MIGHT ASWELL JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD BROOOOOO
HOMELESS ???? JAX WHAT R GU GONNA REVEAL IM SCARED IM SO SCARED WHY R U SO NERVOUS ABT THIS
OH HES OPENING UP OY H FUCK
OH F~UCK IM GONNA THROW UP I WAS SO LOCKED IN AND,,, WDYM SHE DIDNT GET UP ?????JAX WHAT DID YOU DO JAX BBBAYY NOOOOOOOOO OMG OMG BRO HE'LL NEVER KNOW
i THNINK he told her he's transfem. i THINK. we'll see,, but in the 2 weeks of the theater release,, i got ONE spoiler and i dindt even read throuhggh it properly,, i clicked it off so fast BUT i read the word transfem i think. but im unsure so letssee
also hes sm more,, anxious and nervous and all that in the past bro im gonna dieAND CRYING HES CRYING BROOOOO
THEBOOOW THE BOW THE BOW OHHMYGODS I WAS RIGHT THE BOOOOOOOOOOOW HES TRANSFEM SHES TRANSFEM ???? SHE ????? WAIT MAN BRO WAIT
I'll SAY HE UNTIL I KNOW FORSURE BUT HES ALSO FORSUE INLOVE ISNT HE AGGGAHHHH NOOOOO CMOOONN BROO COMONNN
OK KAUFMO GOODJOB KAUFMO WHAT A TIMING KAUFMO NOW HE SFREKING OUT ( not complaining though i LOVE angst )
jax bro WHAT R U DOING DONT AVOID HERRR WDYM WHAT BRO JAX BE NICE BRO U GONNA REGRET THAT SO HARD
yeah. yeah jax goodjob jax goodjob.
idiot bro urs such an idiot i wanna strangle him bro wtf bro wtf wtf wtf
YEHA GOODJOB JAX NOW SHE'S ABSTRACTED GOODJOOOOB LITTLE MAN GOODJOB
jax freaking out infront of a mirror this certainly what ive been waiting for. thank you gooseworks or however its spelled for feeding me jax ansgt yesyes yippie yay time tokms
"youre gonna cry" dawg ur already crying wdym
jax under a red lamp call that jax in the red distrinct. hwat is bro doing
pomni save him i swear to gods\
WHY IS HIS HAND STATIC
OH FUCK HIS MOM IS TSATIC TOOOh fuck ok time to play a pausing game to see al his fits
orange,, either pjs or prison lol. his usual attire okok. THATS WHT HE USED TO LOOK LIKE ????? BRO OH MY GODS oh nvm theres a thousand diff fits idk which one is the realh him. or i think 3 and 4 are both his irl self. idk.
JAX BABY DONT CRYYYY ILY DONT CRYY MY LIL BBABY CMON NOW YEHAHHH POMNI HUG HIS ASS BRO GET HIM SOME LOVE
jax n pomni friendship foreva
ISNT SHE LOVELY ????? YEAH YEAH JAX IS A GIRL BRO HE S HE SHE? SH E??? SHES A GIRL BRO SHE IS INDEED WONDERFUL N PRECIOUS N OHH MY GOD S MY FAVORITE GIRL EVER
AWWW THEY MADE JAX A LITTLE TENT TO STAY IN
we'll now im confused cause they still call jax a he. bro. is jax trans or NOT CMON IM BAD WITH SUBTLE HINTS
oh hello there caine why r u here caine werent u deleted caine
weirdspace. heh. get it ? headspace weirdspace. or iguess whitespace purplespace
oh caine's eyes r different colors ? i never realized wtf
wAIT WHAT HAPPENS TO JAX THOUGH ????? R THEY JUST MOCING ON ???
"they tried to delete me" yeah and didnt they succeed or smth why r u still alive bro. curling up into a
DAMN i can hear the birds,,, its almost 5 am
hlello red dot. oh ok lets just build blocks now ok
why the red dot got abody now. im lowk skipping through these parts bc i dont really care,, as long as i get the context and basics of it iguess
WHOS MIKE DOBBY. D ADOG >???????? WHO R U NAMES ???
NAME SR THEY THEIR NAMES WHOS WHO WHOS WHO WHOWS HWO
i hope jax is riley bc riley is sometimes used a male nname pLEASEE LET IT BE RILEY
zoey gotta be zooble. grant maybe kinger ? abigail as pomni,, suzie as gangle,, leeroy as kaufmo. but what abt ribbit then. and kinger's wife
WHOS WHOO ALL THESE POSTS WHO DO THEY BELONG TO
ZOEY IS GANGLE ZOEY IS GANGLE I KNWO FOR SURE CAUSE ARTIST RIGHT ??
riley is NOT jax thats for sure
caine goodjob im proud of you littlw guy OH SHIT NO WHYS HE RED AND BLUE caine get yo self bac k together man
alterego coree. EW EW WHYS HE DIGGING HIS HANDS IN HIS TEETHGUM. caine eat that pelase eat that aw nooo he let go fo itA WW HES SO CUTE WAVING IT GOODBYE AWW W
THE MOON THE MOOON
stop i feel so bad for caine he looks litle so anxious my lil guy
OMGG THEIR ACCOUNTS OK LET SS EWHOS WHO
pomni is abigail. HELL YEAH I GOT THAT ONE RIGHT !!!
OH I FORGOT ABT RAGATHI SIHIT LMAOOO. shes suzie. but inknow gangle is zoey anyway so
YES gangle is zoey i kNEW IT,, took me a second try but whatever/
oooh zooble is riley okok
kinger his grant hell yeah. got that one right too AND HIS WIFE DESTINY !!! AND HE HAS DAUGHTERS. but r we surprised ? ofc not
JAXJAX JAX IS LEEROY. OHH MY GODS HE LOOKS SO COOL. leeroy mateo. it does suit him lowke
AWW HE SEEMS LIKE A GENTLEMAN BROO
AWW THE WALL OF ALL THE ABSTRACTED PEOPLE
THT WAS SO CUTE. i love it. i think the ending's good enough,, but i still dont get if jax is trans or not
im kind of sad that it ended though. plus i'll probably rewatch jax's scenes during daytime bc its,, 5 am rn and i didnot process everything right LOL
i gotta make a pinned post so i can let everyone know i am a multishipper freak right off the bat... but for now im just gonna make a post about all my tadc ships idk
i basically ship anything if its drawn or written well enough 😭 but i mostly fixate on ships involving jax lol
ok but here is a masterlist of what i do ship in no particular order:
ribbitrabbit (jax/ribbit) - this is probably my biggest one for a variety of reasons. i see them as each other's compliment but i feel they would be very codependent and toxic at times. to the outside world they label themselves as best friends but there is a tension that simmers underneath that.. they possibly explore this in private but are terrible at communicating what it means to each other hence the toxicity. everyone sees them constantly flirting with each other and assumes theyre dating. ribbit likes to play into this as a half-joke but jax will vehemently deny it and get flustered about it lol. i could go on but yes idk im obsessed with them i think they were in love but never fully admitted it and had lots of fun together before things turned for the worse due to them both having kinda volatile personailites
abstrabbit (jax/zooble) - this is also a big one idk for some reason the way they banter with each other has me like "ok now kiss" lmao. i feel like they know things about each other that others dont from private convos after finding one or the other isolating. and have messed around bc they are both lonely and bored and horny. jax gets off on being a brat and zooble gets off on putting him in his place and turning him pathetic theres really no romance involved tho just frenemies situationship type shit. they both signed nda's
abstragedy (zooble/gangle) - duh no explanation needed. this is my romantic wholesome ship chaser after i've thought too much about all my toxic ones. theyre in love. theyre both switches. yeah.
abstribbun (zooble/gangle/jax) - my holy polycule trinity.... abstribbun my beloved.... im still working on developing my hcs for them but idk its basically abstragedy but jax inserts himself LOL. i almost feel like this dynamic would develop naturally because of jax's jealousy and codependency. like jax is attached to gangle (canonically) and has history of messing around with zooble (hc) so when them & gangle start dating he's like hey wait what about me u guys... and then they both femdom him crazy style.
ribbun (jax/gangle) - its hard to describe what draws me to ribbun bc also i know it can be seen as kinda problematic to ship someone with their bully but i think a lot goes on behind the scenes that we dont know about. like its almost like a consensual bullying type situation. on the streets jax is bullying this unassuming character but behind closed doors he is whimpering for the strap(s) and like we all have come to the consensus that gangle is freaky so. idk it just makes so much sense to me without saying. plus i just like toxic ships unfortunately 😵💫 "she likes when im mean to her" true fact as stated by jax. and he likes it when she gets her revenge lmao.
funnybunny - ok yall. im sorry. i hate fanon funnybunny most of the time. but sommeeeetimes if i see art or a fic that actually portrays their characters accurately and keeps the edge and the flavor and complexity of their dynamic then im like ok cool 👍 but its still not my favorite even then..... i see them very platonic maybe fwb... but itd be mostly pomni flirting with jax bc she likes to see him flustered... (which is very ribbit parallel to me)
ragapom (pomni/ragatha) - theyre the lesbians that will wait 10 million years waiting for the other to make the first move. theyd be fully living domestically with each other holding hands and shit and still be like "wait is this romantic??? does she like like me???" and i love it i love them but just not in a hyperfixated way (probably bc jax is not involved sorry)
zooble/gangle/jax/ribbit (ship name tbd)- doomed polycule save me 💔 this is one of my newer ones so idk how it all works out yet but i just . idk u guys.🧎just trust
crookedteeth (caine/zooble) - i think thats their ship name someone correct me if im wrong. not huge on this but ive seen some good art i like the unrequited-ness of it and caine being pathetic lol.
and yeah thats about it my head hurts after writing this thanks for reading 👍
