So i nap in the afternoon sometimes but as far as i remember i hadn't in a while. And i saw posts about SSILD for Lucid dreaming and so i decided to try it cuz it was stupidly simple (WHICH I LOVE) no visualisation, no forcing, no nothing. And i hadn't tried it before cuz I didn't really knew it was this simple.
So i lied in bed and started doing SSILD right away. I didn't do anything else. And sometimes it's hard for me to fall asleep, yk? But while doing this technique i got sleepy so fast and I remember thinking "OMG it's working, i expected it" but then again I went into it with not too much expectations as it says and if a technique says if you don't need to expect it force anything you know it works. Do i was getting sleepy, as i was just doing the first small cycles, and then i felt this really weird yet kinda good sensation of floating like small waves of water 😭 that's the best I can describe it, then I started doing the longer cycles and kept feeling that sensation.
I became aware of a lot hypnagogia thoughts randomly like I was drifting away and then becoming aware like of this is just a thought and not real 😭 cuz it almost felt real but idk how i didn't think it was a dream cuz probably it was but probably it wasn't-
Ig it might have been a dream and i WAS aware it wasn't real cuz I was playing or seeing the game I play these days (gpgp) and i finally ended up getting something I was trynna find even tho it didn't make sense at all 💀 so I was like “oh this is just hypnagogia” and then did nothing about it 😐 so it's on me gng 🙌🏻 but I think I'd have easily done anything like shifting, getting into void, lucid dream through it but ig i was just tired which is fine. I can do this anytime cuz it's that easy.
I hope this inspired you and maybe gave you an idea to try any of these things.
“I make no promises, I can't do golden rings, but I'll give you everything tonight”
Pairing: Mafia Leader!Jaehyun x female reader (bakery/cafe owner)
Genre: Friends to lovers au, fluff, smut and angst
Warnings: gun and violence mention, blood mention, murder, stalking, alcohol mention, Minors DNI!
Smut (unprotected sex, knife play, impregnation kink, rough sex, overstimulation, public sex, car sex)
Word Count: 13k
((A/N: WELL...its been some time, I apologize :( We got two new characters hehe! Also, if you are. jjk fan, the getou version is on our AO3 ;) I hope you enjoy this part, there will be a few more, Im thinking of actually publishing this one so I would love to receive feedback if you have any! Thank youuuu <3)
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[A month later]
“Hey..what do you want to drink?” Your friend taps your shoulder to awaken you from your daze.
With the music booming and the lights flashing, you’d think you’d be wide awake in the club, but the truth was you were thinking about him.
You missed him. You missed his smile, his voice, his comfort. Sure, he was mean when he left, but it didn’t stop your heart from falling in love with him. Although, your mind knew better. He wanted nothing to do with you, so why think about him?
“I’ll take cranberry vodka.” You nod at her.
After a few minutes she hands the drink to you and smiles. “I’m so happy you got a break. Let’s go dance!”
And so you down your drink and head to the dance floor, doing your best to push his image and touch out of your head.
You twirl around, moving your hips freely to the music and feeling your head become heavier by the second.
After nearly 20 minutes you stumble towards the back in search of the bathroom.
“It’s down the hall, honey.” Another bartender points.
You sigh as you relieve yourself. Few things felt as good as peeing while drunk. You look at yourself in the mirror, laughing at how dizzy you felt. But damn were you hot, you went with the perfect dress tonight, how could you not get any attention from the men out there?
Well, you’ll just have to try again, you thought to yourself and stepped out after washing your hands. The only problem with this plan is that you accidentally turned in the opposite direction and left through the back door of the club.
By the time you realized and turned around to get back in, the heavy metal door slammed shut. “Shit.”
You balance yourself on the wall and walk around, and just as you turn the corner you see something familiar.
It’s Jaehyun’s car.
Your eyes widen, your brain immediately pushing away your desire for any male attention other than his. Wait, why are you like this? He doesn’t want you, remember?
But still, it wouldn’t hurt to get a glimpse of him, right?
You walk towards his car and look up at the building it’s parked in front of.
The building is dark, except for one floor with lit up bulbs. Tipsy and without a plan, you head up to it.
The area is sketchy so you really shouldn’t be snooping around, but you text your friends you’ll be back.
As you approach the level, you hear a lot of talking and arguing. You then peek through a hole in a wall separating the hall from the lit up room and see a man tied up in a chair with a bag over his head.
You look to the left to see Jaehyun. The man of your dreams wears a black t-shirt and jeans, and still looks wonderful.
Your eyes widen when you see him wiping a knife with a long blade clean, blood stains the cloth and you breathe heavily as you notice that the man’s arm is dripping in blood.
“It’s a pity you won’t tell us what we need, we’ll find it out anyway..” His familiar voice echoes in the warehouse.
“You can try to drink your problems away but you’ll never escape me.” Jaehyun smiles wickedly at him. It’s a sinister smile that would send anyone running, but not you, of course not. You strangely have the adverse reaction, needing to see that face, one he’d give you as you look over your shoulder to see him ruining you from behind.
Stop.
That’s your drunk mind talking. He was right, no matter how much you drank, you’d never escape him.
Nonetheless, it seems they’d caught the man at the bar you were at right before you got there.
Another henchman brings a crying and tied up woman out from another room and throws her onto the floor in front of the man. The gang member then takes the covering off of the man’s head and the man screams a blood curdling scream as he sees the woman on the floor.
“Your wife has been through a lot already, Leonidas..put her out of her misery now by just telling us the truth..”
Her husband won’t budge, shaking his head and repeating “I’m sorry..I’m sorry I can’t” over and over. You swallow hard. Your hands start to tremble. What is Jaehyun’s plan if he still refuses to cooperate?
And then, one of Jaehyun’s men kicks her in the stomach repeatedly, making her spew out blood. You squint and look away, but the sound of her screams of agony pierce your ears.
You start to cry, covering our mouth to quiet your own sobbing.
“Do you really want to see how ugly this gets?” Jaehyun marches over then stabs her thigh.
You gasp as your eyes widen. No. How could he do this to an innocent woman?
The sight is messy and you turn away again. You shouldn’t be here, you have no business watching this. This can’t be the same man that you daydream about. This can’t be the man that you served pastries and coffee to, or the one that made sure you got home safe every night. You feel sick to your stomach.
The man is still silent, Jaehyun rolls his eyes before leaning down in front of him. “She will suffer because of you, is that really what you want?”
The man looks at his wife who is curled up on the ground and in tears. “Please..forgive me.”
“Leonidas! Please!!” She begs while reaching out for him.
Jaehyun steps back and nods towards another henchman who picks up a gun and shoots the lower part of the woman’s spine before your brain can even comprehend what is happening. The sharp sound nearly deafens you, but you still don’t run away.
Jaehyun looks back at the man as he winces from seeing her writhe like a fish out of water. “Now..she’s paralyzed, was it worth it?”
You step back, but you’re suddenly grabbed up by the collar and dragged into the room by one of the members.
“Hey! Ow!”
He throws you onto the floor, making you jam your knees onto the concrete.
“Look what we got here boss, a snitch.”
Jaehyun turns to you as you curse out. “Shit! Let me go!”
His eyes widen as he breaks his intimidating presence for a moment. “What the hell?!”
“Do you want us to tie her up?” The man grabs you up by your hair as you grunt. You raise your hands in an effort to scratch his strong arms.
“No! Get your hands off her!” Jaehyun hurries over.
The man lets your hair go, making you fall to the floor and grunt.
Jaehyun quickly places the gun down and helps you up. He grabs your wrist, tighter than ever before, nearly crushing your bone as he drags you out and into the hall. “Ow! Jaehyun..you’re hurting me!”
“What the fuck are you doing? Are you crazy?!” He tosses you into a wall, and the fact that you look amazing tonight still doesn’t stop him from being upset about you being there.
“I’m-I’m sorry, I just...I saw your car and -I wanted to see what you were up to and..” you start to sob.
“Why?!”
You sniffle, still tipsy, you can’t hold back the truth. “I missed you and I think..I think I love you.”
His brows furrow. “Love? You can’t fucking love me..”
“Those people..Jaehyun, I…I saw what you did, why are you doing this?”
“Did you like what you fucking saw?! Can you still love me after this? This is what I do, y/n. Get that through your thick skull! I’m not a nice fucking person, I hurt people!” He is infuriated, he doesn’t try to calm you down as you cry harder. He should take a moment to remember that you're probably drunk out of your mind right now, but in his anger, he can't seem to think of that fact.
He’s frightening, you can’t help but tremble under him. His face is filled with fury, and it’s the same face you saw the night he saved you from those two men, but you’re not so sure if you’re as lucky as you were last time.
“I’m sorry-it’s just..I didn’t expect you to—“
“To what?! What y/n?!” He steps closer as he yells.
“Kill innocent people!” You finally let out.
He nods. “Innocent?? What- well! Merry fucking Christmas, hope you liked your surprise. This is exactly why you should stay away from me! You don’t know me! You don’t want to know me! And I don’t want to see you again, do you understand?!”
You don’t respond, you only cry into your hands.
He grabs your wrist again to pull you back into the room.
“Hold her still!” He points to two large men who hold your arms up.
“Jaehyun..stop..please..I’ll leave..” You heave. He picks a gun from the table up.
“No!! Don’t do this..you don’t have to! There’s another way..Jaehyun..please!!”
The man and woman beg him as well, pleading loudly as they desperately try to escape the men and rope that keep them in place as well.
He shoots the husband and wife 3 times each, making you jump and turn away.
You push the henchmen away from you and wail while on the floor.
“Look at me!” Jaehyun commands.
He bends down and takes your chin into his hand, forcing you to look into his eyes as his fingers dig into your cheeks. He looks into your wet, red eyes, but not an ounce of regret flows through him. You had to see this, you had to hate him. Only then could you truly want this separation.
He hated to see you cry, but it was necessary. If you saw him as a saint, if you fell in love with who you thought was a “good man” only to find out how evil he is further down the line, it would only hurt more.
“This is who I am..you shouldn’t..you can’t love me..now get out of here.”
He lets you go. You quickly scurry to your feet.
You run as far as you can while crying, a million thoughts run through your head, the loudest being “how could you be so stupid to fall in love with a gang leader?”
Jaehyun turns to one of the men who starts to put their guns away.
“You just killed our lead, boss.”
Jaehyun stares at the dead man who should’ve provided key information as to where enemy shipments were docking.
“The bastard wasn’t going to tell us anything, he even let his wife die..tomorrow, we’ll see if his friend is just as selfish.”
Jaehyun puts his jacket on and heads out without another word.
On his drive back home, he thinks about everything that happened and if he had to do what he did. The truth is he had to kill them. The minute his guy dragged you into the room, this was decided. Should the man and his wife be let free, they would quickly expose your identity to his rivals and put your life at risk, and he couldn’t have that happening. You messed things up and didn’t even know. To make matters worse, based on his reaction everyone in the room could tell you were special to him.
He lays down in bed and tries to sleep, but after tossing and turning, he decides he should just go to the gym to take out his frustrations.
The punching bag becomes his main target. With every punch he thinks of how he felt when he yelled at you. Why was he so rough? You just confessed your love and this is how he reacts? He doesn’t deserve you. He knew that from the very beginning and his greed and lust still pushed it. He knew it because he didn’t want to just say ‘goodbye’ after having sex with you, he wanted to stay and hold you close, hugging you until the sun rose.
He wanted to whisper sweet words as he watched you sleep in his arms. He had never wanted this from any sexual partner before. Thus, he realized he loves you too, he always will and for that reason he cannot put your life at risk.
He sweats large drops of salty water as he pants.
He sits on the bench, wondering if he should call and apologize for being too harsh on you. He plans on leaving you alone, but the least he could do is apologize first.
He picks the phone up and stares at your unsaved number. But after a few seconds, he decides not to call, putting the phone back on the bench beside him and picking up his water bottle instead.
As he gulps it down, and as he does, he remembers how drunk you were and can’t help but wonder if you got home safely. So he picks the phone up and checks your location.
You’re home.
He sighs. He should stop by and see if you’re awake.
No. He shouldn’t
But once again, Jaehyun can’t resist you.
He uses a lock pick to get into your apartment easily, making note of how he should really get you a chain lock for the inside.
He walks in slowly and quietly before pushing your room door open slightly. And there you were, curled up in bed and snoring lightly. It was nice to know you were sleeping soundly, but he knew his words and actions cut deep this time, maybe too deep to recover from.
He observes your cute face, your brows furrowed slightly and your lips pursed. To be with you—no—to even look at you is a privilege, one he did not deserve.
He places a soothing cream for your wrist on your nightstand as well as a hangover cure drink, then turns to leave.
You take in a sharp breath, causing him to turn around swiftly. Did you wake up?
You breathe heavily, your eyes move quickly under your lids.
“No..no..” You mumble and groan. Your breathing quickens. It sounds like you’re on the verge of a panic attack.
Not knowing how else to help you before it’s too late, he quickly lays down in bed beside you and hugs you from behind. “I got you, baby, it’ll be okay shh.”
He holds you in his arms until you start to breathe normally again. Your eyes never open.
I could stay here..just tonight..it wouldn’t hurt, would it? He already knows the answer. He tells himself he is doing this to help you, but he knows he’s doing it for his own selfish reasons. To be able to feel your warmth, to smell your hair, to listen to you breathe in the stillness of the night, that’s why he does it.
Your eyes open slightly but he can’t see, you try to process what exactly is happening while panicking for a moment, but then it clicks. His cologne surrounds you just as his arms do.
Jaehyun.
He was hugging you close as you dreamt.
You decide to close your eyes and enjoy your last moment with him, with the man you could only know now as a cold hearted killer.
After a few minutes, he slowly releases you from his hold and gets out of the bed.
You both needed to be away from each other for now, so he silently leaves your apartment and heads home.
You wake up the next morning alone and with a splitting headache.
You rub your temple, squinting as the sun peers through your window. Then, you feel another aching pain.
You look down at your wrist and it all comes back to you.
“Shit.” You whisper to yourself.
What happened the night before was real..very real actually. Jaehyun made it clear that he wasn’t interested in you anymore, so now the only thing you can do is move on and try to forget him. Try.. at least try. You get up and get ready for work after downing the drink he left for you on your nightstand. That strange bastard. How can he care for you, but hurt you at the same time?
[One Month Later]
Jaehyun mustered up the courage to face you finally. He just couldn’t bear it anymore. Every day he had to watch you travel your usual route from home to work as a little dot on his phone screen. He refused to do it any longer. He had to see you, hear from you, touch you..hold you. It’s the only way he’d feel sane again.
He sits at his usual spot, meanwhile, you didn’t notice he’s even opened the door. Why? You’re too caught up in a conversation with another man. You smile and laugh a bit too much for his liking. How could you? How could you share your happiness with another man while he aches for you?
How and why are you flirting with another customer? And in just a few minutes he hears it.
“Thank you Johnny, I’ll see you next time.”
You even call him by his first name?
The man takes his bag of bread and heads out with a small smile.
Jaehyun looks back at you, only to catch you smiling hard as Johnny leaves.
But then, your smile fades when you see him.
You flinch when you see him at your counter and he notices. He really did scare you that night. He thinks to himself. His heart does hurt when he remembers how badly he messed up, but his mind is enraged with the thought that you may have moved on.
You look away and start to wipe down the counter.
“Do you know all your customer’s first name’s now?” Jaehyun says as he tilts his head. You ignore him.
You look over your shoulder to the back.
“Mark! There’s someone out here who needs help”
“Ok!”
You resume your chore, scrubbing an already clean surface as you try not to face Jaehyun. He controlled your every thought night and day. He’s no good for you, you know that, and you figured distance and time would help. Yet, here he was. Never allowing that theory to come true as he closes in on distance and takes up your time.
Mark looks around nervously. You hired Mark shortly after that incident so you could 1. Not be alone with any creeps and 2. Get some help in the bakery. There’s no way you can handle all the work yourself.
He clears his throat. “What would you like to order?
Jaehyun chuckles, “A minute with the owner.”
Mark sighs then looks back at you while you place fresh cookies on the display. He turns back to Jaehyun and pouts. “Unfortunately, we don’t have that”
Jaehyun frowns. He feels like an asshole for how he acted. Technically, he had no right to be upset with you, and he only came to apologize. You don’t owe him a word and you’re clearly upset, so there’s no point in making your pain last longer.
Mark sighs and walks away.
“Y/n..how I acted that night..was completely unacceptable. I was..worried about you, but I made a fool of myself and went too far. You don’t deserve that, and I’m so sorry. I understand why you don’t wish to speak with me..but I will never stop hoping that one day you do.” He stands up.
You look him in the eyes, holding back tears as your chest rumbles.
”Please leave if you don’t plan on ordering anything.” You say through thin lips.
You head to the back office as Mark takes over the front.
You try to act like you don’t care but deep down you do. and as you sit at your desk, you lay on your arms and wonder what should you do. Why does your heart feel so heavy with guilt? You’re the one that’s hurt, right? You deserve better, so just wait for it. But no..you want him, you can’t deny it. He was terrifying that night, he went too far.
However, as news surfaced about the couple he killed, mysteriously found dead in the woods, the truth about their wrongdoings came to light. They used money from drug trafficking to start up their own ring of slave trafficking, a completely new level of crime. You remembered enjoying coffee one night while closing. You asked Jaehyun if his job entailed hurting innocent people and he assured you he didn’t, turns out, he was right.
Long story short, he saved a few innocent lives by taking care of those rotten demons. He is an interesting variation of Batman.
He still scared you though, that you wouldn’t deny.
Jaehyun is dissatisfied with you ignoring him, but he leaves you alone.
[The Next Month]
“Happy Birthday Mark!” You and your friends yell out at the busy nightclub.
Mark smiles widely and thanks everyone before putting two soon-to-be-emptied bottles up in the air.
You dance the night away and do some drinking yourself. You bump hips with Mark and throw your hands in the air while having an amazing time. The lights flash, the music is nearly deafening and the floor shakes under your feet. It’s nice to let go.
“Want another shot?” Mark pushes his hair back while leaning towards you.
Feeling quite tipsy, you shake your head. “I’m good!” You didn’t need things to go south like they did the last time you got drunk.
Mark hugs you tightly before running off to the bar. You laugh while watching him prance away without a care in the world.
A few feet away from you sits the club's owner. He takes a long drag from his cigarette and lets it rest inbetween his fingers while leaning back.
“Let’s dance, babe…it’s too boring here!” The girl in a tight hot pink dress sitting beside him runs her hand over his thigh. He brushes her away and scoots further down on the couch.
“I’ll tell you what..go ahead and dance and if I like the way you move, I’ll join you.”
She jumps up and runs to the floor, still oblivious to the fact that his attention has been on someone else the entire time.
“Hey.” You hear a low voice call out from behind. You turn to see a tall man with blue hair gazing down at you with wide eyes.
Why not? You think to yourself. It’s been a while since you’ve felt the embrace of a hot guy.
You start to dance, letting the music flow through your bodies as they grind against each other.
He runs his hand along your throat, tilting your chin so that he can access your lips from behind. You can feel his steamy breath hit your bottom lip, you’re so close and then-
You’re separated.
“What the fuck, dude?” The man lets out when he sees a girl in a tight pink dress walk away after bumping into the two of you hard.
“Sorry about that.” a male voice calls out from behind you. You turn and gasp.
Jaehyun.
“She got a little carried away.” He walks after the girl. Your heart drops. Did he just brush past you like that? Not even a glance or “hi.” Are you really nothing to him?
You shouldn’t be surprised. You’re the one that cut things off. So why does it hurt so bad to see him with someone else?
“You good?” The blue haired man interrupts your thoughts.
You force a smile. “Yeah..yeah for sure! Do you..want to go to the bathroom?”
He smiles widely and takes your hand. The two of you struggle to make your way through the crowd and towards the back to continue your makeout session.
Jaehyun watches you and sends a message to one of his men.
He tells them to lock the bathroom doors. He knew you were less likely to make out with the guy in public like this.
He had to stop it.
“Hey! You said you like the way I move, let’s dance!” The girl grabs his arm.
He pulls away, gently taking her hand off of him. “I’ll be right back.”
He hurries to the back where he sees you both struggling to open the door. Suddenly, the power is cut off. You can’t see anything and now the guy's hand has left yours. Everyone yells and screams. Some screaming out of fear, some screaming out of excitement. It’s chaos, but after just 10 seconds, the flashing lights and music come back on.
Your makeout partner, however, is gone.
You look everywhere for the handsome blueberry, but he’s nowhere to be found.
“Shit.” You say quietly then head back to the dance floor to look for Mark and your friends.
Jaehyun owned the club so it didn’t take long for him to get what he wanted. Power off? Got it. Bathrooms closed? Done. Blue haired guys get kicked out for no reason? Absolutely.
You push your way through the crowd and bump into Jaehyun again. This time, the girl he was with earlier has an arm around his neck while dancing against his chest. He has a cigarette in his mouth, but gives you a sly smile when he sees you watching them.
She grinds on him but his eyes are focused on you. His dark eyes are hard to resist, boring holes into your skull and making your clothes feel even tighter than they were before. You swallow hard then turn away quickly and continue to look for Mark.
The night goes on and you continue to dance with your friends. It’s not until about 3 AM that everyone is ready to leave.
You wait for an UVER outside with a hammered Mark.
“Boss. That was..so..fun..” he slurs out.
“I’m glad you had a great time.” you laugh out as he rests his head on your shoulder.
30 minutes have passed and UVER drivers have either declined the ride or not shown up at all. “What the hell is going on?”
Other people had their designated drivers and were heading home already. The night air starts to feel extra chilly when you realize it’s just the two of you outside now.
“Busy night?..” a man says as he drives up to the front of the club.
You look into the car. “Yeah it seems like-“ your face drops.
“I can drop you guys off if you’d like.” Jaehyun continues.
You step back. “We’re good..thank you.”
“Please y/n..you’re on the way anyway.”
“I said we’re fine! Just leave us-“
Mark stumbles to the ground, falling face flat.
“Shit!” You yell out then try to pick him up.
Jaehyun hops out of the car to help you.
“The UVER should..ugh..be here in a few minutes.”
Jaehyun leans Mark against his car and looks at you with a serious, almost scary expression. “Are you lying to me?”
You roll your eyes. “Why are you talking to me like I’m a child? Just leave us alone.”
“I’ll wait until it gets here.”
“We don’t need you to do that”
“It’s my choice, I won’t go home until everyone else does.”
“Oh, are you pulling a Batman again?”
“Come on y/n, think about the surge rates..”
You look away and cross your arms.
“I was a dick, I know-“
“Was?” You raise an eyebrow.
“But let me make it up to you, I’ll drop you both off, he can get rest and you can get home safely..please.”
You look at your phone and sure enough UVER has boosted the price 5x.
You look at Mark then at Jaehyun. “Fine.”
He helps you put Mark in the car. He sleeps and lays on his side on the backseat.
You then sit in the passenger seat with your hands in your lap. A few minutes pass and Jaehyun can’t help it.
“How are you?”
“I’m fine.”
He nods.
“Did you like the nightclub?”
You don’t respond this time, you only look out of the window as he drives.
A few seconds pass and only Mark’s snoring fills the tense air.
“We worked hard on it, changed the tiles, redid the bar, and-“
“How are you always conveniently popping up?” You ask him angrily.
“You can’t just come to my club and not expect to see me, y/n..” he says smoothly.
You turn to him.
“My..club?”
He can’t contain his laughter “oh you had no idea huh?”
“You never told me you owned a nightclub..”
“I never told you much about my job, baby”
You shiver when he says “baby” in such a low tone.
You scoff. “Job..if that’s what you call it.” You roll your eyes and relax into the seat.
‘And that’s why it didn’t work’ is what you want to say, but you don’t.
“I also didn’t know you started smoking again.”
Jaehyun can’t help but smile. You’re worried about him, and it shows in how much attention you give him. You still care.
“I didn’t..just needed a little something tonight.”
“Good. I hate the smell.”
He looks at you to see if you realized your mistake.
“Does it matter anymore? I’m never near you..” He tilts his head.
“Oh…right.” You say quietly.
He clears his throat. “How have you been though? Is the business doing well?”
“I don’t want to talk, Jaehyun.”
And there it is. You shut him out again. Was what he did that bad? Yeah, he may have killed a person..two people..in front of you..twice, and yeah, he may have yelled and said awful things. But did it warrant this treatment from you? Well..yes. You’re too good for him, he needs to remember that. He swallows hard when he comes to the realization that he will never stop trying to get you back. Whether it takes 1 month, 5 years, or a decade, deep down, he will always want you.
He waits for a few minutes to pass then he tries again.
“Come on sweetheart, we can start over.” He grips the steering wheel tightly with one hand.
The slight airiness in his voice sends you back to the night you had with him. His sweaty skin against your body, his large hands gripping you tightly enough to wring you dry. All while he pants and leans into your ear to call you “sweetheart.”
You close your legs tightly and shake the memory away.
You chuckle. You can’t believe the audacity of this man.
“First of all don’t call me that…and it seems to me you’re already starting something with another girl.”
“Oh?..did that upset you?”
You turn to him. “Seeing a cold killer dance with someone? No..no I’m not upset at all, I feel bad for her.”
he glances at Mark to make sure he’s still sleeping. “A killer? Me?” He chuckles.
“He’s passed out, and even if he wasn’t I’d kill you if you laid a finger on him.”
“Oo a threat?, I’d like to see you try, I wonder if you’d start trembling again?”
“Oh fuck off.” You roll your eyes.
“What about that Johnny guy? What’s his deal?”
You bunch your brows. “Oh did that upset you?”
Jaehyun shakes his head and looks into the road sternly. “You guys just seem close, that’s all.”
“You think I’m sleeping with every customer I know on a first name basis now?”
“No-that’s not-“
“Yes, Jaehyun, you caught me. I’m fucking Johnny and other customers before and after work every day, happy?”
He turns to you, clenching his jaw and narrowing his eyes.
“Don’t do that.”
“Don’t do what?” You turn back to him.
“Don’t get sarcastic with me.”
“Or what?”
Just then Mark snores loudly, so loud you jump in your seat. The two of you burst out into laughter.
The rest of the drive is silent. You both help Mark into his apartment, then Jaehyun drives you to yours.
He lets you out at the loop right in front of the building. “Do you want me to walk you up?”
You turn to him before stepping out of his car. “Since when do I need help to get to my apartment?. Goodbye Jaehyun.”
He takes your hand. “I..I’m sorry.”
“I know you are.” You withdraw it from his hold and walk away.
The night ends just like countless other nights have ended for him, he dreams about you, grasping the sheets on his bed, hoping to feel your skin just once. Eventually, he gives up and either works out or stands in front of his floor to ceiling windows with a cigarette in hand while watching the sun rise.
[Two Weeks Later]
Jaehyun holds your hand gently, helping you into the massive teacup you’re about to ride in together. It’s been a great day at Disney, and now with the sun setting, casting a warm glow onto your lover's face, you enjoy one last ride together.
The cups spin and spin, making you slide up and down the curved bench inside. Jaehyun giggles and reaches out for you to hold you close. You rest in his broad arms, time seems to stand still for a moment. You only feel the peace of the air in between you, the longing gazes, and the golden hue of the sky.
His smile fades into a frown. “I’m sorry sweetheart..”
Your brows bunch together. “Sorry? About what?”
You’re jolted awake by the sound of your vibrating phone.
“Damn it..” you rub your eyes before grabbing your phone. Another stupid dream about your stupid ex-wait, could you even call him that?
You yawn while scratching your head. “I really gotta stop doing that.” But you can’t control your dreams, they manifest from what your heart wants. Nonetheless, you unlock your phone to see what the notification is.
It’s a text
Banker: let’s meet to discuss a few things about your application.
You nod to yourself. “Perfect.”
You knew what the Banker meant when he said he wanted to meet up. In exchange for him tweaking a few things on your loan application, you’ll satisfy his..specific needs. Will this be your proudest moment? Probably not, but you need to do what you need to do.
You swallow hard. Jaehyun’s face of disappointment enters your mind.
“Ugh…” you lay back down in bed. He did have a point. Why should you sell yourself when someone you actually like is willing to give you money for just existing?
Then you remind yourself. Where is that money coming from? It’s blood money, and you want nothing to do with it.
And sure, he’d be disappointed, but what does that change? At the end of the day you still have a stack of bills that are starting to tilt like the tower of Pisa on your dining table.
“Wait..what he thinks doesn’t matter.” You sit back up in bed and laugh to yourself.
You: Okay
[The Next Day]
Jaehyun pours the milk over his cereal before exhaling loudly. He still regrets how he acted with you, he misses you more than anything, but what can he do to fix everything? The truth is he knows he’ll have to let you go, you deserve better anyway. You deserve peace and a partner that can help you run your business. A partner that will bake with you then go over your finances together.
Jaehyun sits down while imagining what he thinks is the life you deserve. You and your partner could eventually offer catering and delivery services for your bakery, you could hire more people so you wouldn’t have to work so hard. And then you’d have time for kids-
Kids..
Jaehyun’s smiles fondly. “She’d be a good mom…”
All of this can and will happen..just not with him. He needs to let you go, for the thought of you being with someone else is just too hurtful. The time is now, he needs to change now. And the first step is deleting the tracker app.
He unlocks his phone and opens the app for the last time. “She’s probably at the bakery right now..”
But no…you’re not at the bakery. You’re in a random parking lot.
He chews slowly and stares with a puzzled expression.
Any plans that you made would likely be in your text or map history, so he decides to take a look at your recent texts.
He puts his spoon down, standing straight up as what he sees shocks him to his core.
“The fucking banker.”
Jaehyun grabs his jacket and runs out.
He’s furious especially since you already tried doing it this way and he stopped it. How could you do this to him? How could you do this to yourself? He speeds to your location.
Meanwhile, you and the banker sit in his car in the middle of a relatively empty parking lot. You sit nervously in the passenger seat.
The banker tells you that he went over your profile and application, and he’d be happy to approve your loan with the minimum interest.
You’re ecstatic and relieved. “Oh my god…that’s amazing, thank you!”
The 50-something year old looks into your eyes and nods. “I made it work for you.”
“I appreciate that..”
He leans forward and stares at your lips. “You are so beautiful, I had to do something to help.”
You take a deep breath and try to accept what’s happening, but you can’t bring yourself to meet him halfway.
He opens his eyes. “Oh..is this too much? I’m sorry, I-“
“Oh no..it’s fine..but I’m..not ready yet..”
He looks defeated, and sits back in his seat.
The guilt starts to rip through you, he isn’t pushy or aggressive. He genuinely is helpful, but the attraction just isn’t there.
You break the silence. “I’d rather let you touch me.”
You’re quiet and shy, a stark contrast to how you are with Jaehyun because deep down, you don’t really want it.
“Oh..really?”
You nod.
He leans forward, biting his bottom lip as he reaches out. He caresses the warm skin of your neck before moving his hand further down to your shoulder.
You swallow hard as the man pushes your strap off your shoulder slowly, then drags his thumb over your bra.
“Is this okay?” He asks. You nod, desperate to have him finish quickly so you can go home and relax. He puts his other hand into his pants.
Yes, finally-just get it over with and-
*crash*
The driver window suddenly shatters as someone punches through it.
You scream as you watch the masked man covered in black attire from head-to-toe punch the banker through the window in seconds. There’s glass everywhere, on the floor, in your lap, and all over the banker’s clothing and hair.
He then grabs him by the collar and drags him out of the car through the space created by the broken window.
The banker screams, but the man holds the banker up by the collar and chokes him until he loses consciousness. Your mouth falls open, he may just kill the banker.
“Stop! Please! He didn’t do anything! We were just-“
The man lets the banker’s limp body drop to the floor. You sit in silence as you watch him look down on his body for a few seconds. Then, a chill attacks your spine. He lifts his head and his focus slowly shifts to your face.
Your eyes widen. The panic sets in and you jump out of the car, running away from the masked man.
He runs after you at an alarming speed. His steps triple that of yours. You can’t out run him. He grabs you by the waist and swings you around.
You flail in his arms. “Please!! Please don’t hurt me!”
He doesn’t say anything, he simply throws you over his shoulder and takes you to his black van. You sob and beg him to let you go.
He only turns back around and walks to the banker. He takes his wallet and watch then walks back to you while shoving them in his pocket. Through the small slit over his eyes you can see a menacing darkness. You have no idea what his intentions are, but you don’t think they’re good. You look around you to see rope, tape, bags of cement, bricks, and a shovel. You start hyperventilating and scurry to the corner of the van to get away from him, but he still gets closer and closer to you.
“Hands behind you.” The man says through a voice changing box. You do as he says and place your arms behind you. He easily spins you around and ties you up with rope. He then spins you back and stares into your eyes.
“Please..let me go..I don’t even know him that well..if he owes you, just take it out on him..”
The man doesn’t say anything, he looks at your exposed shoulder and drooping bra cup now resting slightly above your nipple. He reaches over, a flinch escaping you as a result.
He keeps moving his hand until he grabs the strap and fixes your dress over your bra again. His icy fingers graze your skin.
You swallow hard and start to relax just a bit. “Th-thank you.”
He leaves the back of the van, slamming the door shut before jumping into the driver’s seat.
In a few hours, the banker is hit with the worst headache of his life. He stands up slowly and looks at his broken window. Then, it all starts to come back to him. He sighs. He doesn’t have his wallet or watch, but he’s more than happy to be alive. He heads home like nothing happened. He’s pretty sure you were kidnapped, but what could he do? He can’t tell any one of what happened or call the police because technically he isn’t supposed to be meeting with clients, especially not in sketchy areas like that.
Telling the truth would only make things harder for him. He shrugs his shoulders and turns the radio up.
Once in a secluded area, the man parks and opens the van door.
“Please let me go, I won’t tell anyone about this I-“
He takes his mask off and you gasp.
“Y-you..you fucking bastard.”
Jaehyun doesn’t respond, he unties you and with the van door still open, you dash out of the van and run.
Finally, you’re free. Just keep running and then-
You come to an abrupt halt when you realize you’re at the edge of a cliff.
“Shit.” Your eyes widen.
“Help!!! Help me!!!” You yell but the echo only comes back to you.
“No one can hear you scream out here, sweetheart.” Jaehyun says as he walks towards you at a leisurely pace.
You walk back to him angrily. He smirks slightly.
You slap him hard. “Take me home now! I can’t believe you fucking kidnapped me!” His face swings to the left, and he steps back in surprise. He looks back at you with narrow eyes as he clenches his jaw.
“Saved you. And no, not until you explain what the hell you were doing with that creep.”
“Oh my god…I don’t even know if he’s okay..did you kill him?” Your hands grip your head.
“No, he’ll just be out for a little while.”
“Why the hell would you do that?”
“I could’ve done worse if I wanted to, you already know that.” He steps closer to you. His eyes darken, and that scary, murderous glint in them starts to show through.
“Now..explain what you were doing…or I WILL go back and kill him so there’s no chance of it happening again.”
“You’re crazy! I don’t owe you an explanation! You mean nothing to me!” You say too fast without realizing that it was a lie and mistake.
Jaehyun is shocked, but he chuckles, tilting his head to the side in a sort of ‘well, well, well’ manner.
Is this what he needs to hear to finally let you go?
“I-“ you sigh and your voice lowers slightly. “You know what I mean, Jaehyun. We aren’t married, we aren’t dating, we’re not even friends. Why should I explain my personal life to you?”
“So what? I’m supposed to act like I don’t fucking care?”
Your eyes widen as you walk towards him again with frantically moving hands. “Yes! Yes exactly! Because one second you do care and the next you don’t, it’s driving me crazy! What is it that you want?!”
“You already know that answer.” He tilts his head.
“God, Jaehyun. I’m done with your games.” You wave him off and turn away.
“You didn’t want it, y/n. I saved you.”
You flick your head back to him. “Well, Batman, guess what? I was so close to getting what I needed! But of course, you make it about yourself.” You put your hands on your hips and look back out at the cliff. “Plus, you scared the shit out of me!”
“And I’m sorry about that, but it was necessary.”
You scoff. “Necessary? You always do what you think is necessary without considering how it might affect me…”
“It’s what’s best for you, y/n.”
You close your eyes tightly. “Oh my God, you’re impossible.”
After a few seconds of silence, you pretend to walk by him, but quickly grab his pocket knife from his front pocket. He spins around when he notices, but you press it into his neck quickly.
He chuckles before tilting his mouth into a devious smile. “You never told me you were a spy..” he says sarcastically after seeing you move with such precision.
Truth was, after nearly getting pick pocketed, and possibly worse, on the night he saved you, you took up self-defense classes.
“I’m not playing around, Jaehyun. Take me home.” You press the blade in slightly.
He’s surprised, but he knows you won’t actually hurt him. “Come on y/n..this isn’t you.”
He has to admit that seeing you like this did turn him on slightly. He feels a twitch in his pants as he imagines you holding the knife to his neck, riding him while you cry his name out to the heavens. Then he’d grab it from you and flip you over so he could pound into you from behind, holding the knife to your neck as he smashes his hips into you. You’d be the prettiest broken thing by the time he’s done with you.
“I’m different now, I’ve seen the things you do, I want nothing to do with you.” You were lying, you still love him. You dream about him nearly every night and your heart races when you think of him, even as you try to remember how cruel he is.
He steps forward, forcing you to walk backwards to the van, still looking into your wide eyes.
“W-what are you doing? Stop moving!” You blink rapidly.
“Do it, sweetheart, kill me, if I mean nothing to you…do it.” He smiles.
As turned on as he is right now, he knows that you are heartbroken because of him and now is his chance to be completely honest about his adoration of you. He needed to fix things fast. If you wanted to leave him after this, you should at least know how he feels first.
With the knife still pressed against him, he leans down closer to you.
“I’m sorry..I’m so sorry. But I miss you..” he searches your panicking eyes before continuing. “I need you, I can’t go five minutes without wishing you were near me. You’re the only person I’ve truly..felt something with and I panicked, I don’t know what to do, I’ve never…”
You swallow hard, but don’t lift the knife away. Not yet. You need to hear more.
He pauses and looks away. “I don’t know. I don’t deserve you, I know that. But I’m a greedy bastard, I want you anyway.” His eyes float downward to your lips. Despite trembling like he expected you to, you don’t remove the knife.
“You can kill me if you’d like, that will be the only way for my mind and body to rest without you..” He continues to close the distance between you. “..but before you do, just kiss me one last time.”
Your mouth falls open. You’re stunned, still searching his eyes for a sign that he may be joking, but of course, no sign is there. The stone cold man with menacing tattoos just revealed how madly in love he is with you and you can’t do anything but stare in shock.
Your mind is telling you to run, to grab the keys, start the van, and drive home. But your heart..your body..your soul..you can’t leave him.
You stumble and fall into the van. The knife drops out of your hand and Jaehyun leans forward, caging you in between his arms as you lay down. You breathe heavily and stare at each other’s lips.
He wants to taste them so badly, but he waits for you. It could take all night, but he’d wait for you. Just one, that’s all he asks for before this is all over.
And after waiting for a painfully long amount of time, you hold his face with your hand and kiss him. Your heads turn and your tongues explore each other.
He crawls over you, holding himself up with one arm while the other hooks itself under your leg and pushes your knee to your chest. Frantic and steamy breaths cover your bodies.
You lean forward on your elbows, starting to zip your dress down from the back, but he stops you. He picks his pocket knife up and cuts through it easily, causing an embarrassing moan to escape you. You help him take his shirt off too. The look on his face is one of pure hunger and it’s hot.
“I hate you so much.” You say softly then reach for his face again. You kiss harder, so hard your teeth clink against his.
He leans back to get air after a few seconds then pants as he looks down at your body in a gorgeous lilac lingerie set. “You were really about to let that loser see you in this?” He tilts head while carefully dragging the knife against your bare skin.
You take in a sharp breath as goosebumps raise across it. Answer incorrectly and you could just become a kebab right then and there. But part of you wants to push him
You nod. “If you don’t love me right, I may still let him see it after this .”
His eyes narrow as his tone deepens. “Don’t..push it.”
“Don’t disappoint me..” you hold his face in one hand while looking into his eyes, easily maneuvering your way to his thick hair. He blushes then begins to kiss you as your hands run through this locs. He groans at the feeling of your fingertips on his scalp.
You giggle. “Are you blushing?”
“No..” he groans against your chest, ignoring the way his face feels like it is on absolute fire.
“Liar.” You smile and massage his scalp with your fingers. You unhook your bra and throw it to the side.
He caresses your breasts while kissing you then grabs your legs by the crook of your knees and fixes himself between them.
“I want you too, Jaehyun..I’ve never felt this way either..but I can’t take you hurting me anymore.” You whisper. “Promise me you won’t hurt me again.”
He kisses your neck. “I promise..to love you and care for you for as long as you’ll let me, y/n.”
He leans back and takes in the sight once more. You look up at him, staring at his defined abs, impressive chest and rock hard biceps. You should’ve recognized him as the masked man from the beginning. Only he could confidently swing you around like you weigh nothing. He drags the cold tip of the knife along your thigh and then hip. You shiver at the feeling, he loves to see your chest rising and falling.
He uses the knife to tug the fabric covering your pussy. You gasp as you feel the cold object being so close to you.
Then with a quick swipe he cuts through the left strap of your underwear that hugs your hips. “Jaehyun! I love this set! What are you-“
He cuts the other side.
You draw in a sharp breath. “Damn it.”
“Now..no one else will have seen it but me.” He lightly drags the dull side of the knife along your cloth-covered slit to see goosebumps a little bit longer the second time. When he finally cuts the other side, he removes the wet fabric to see your flower dripping and aching for him. He licks his lips and breathes heavily. He feels he might go crazy if he doesn’t fuck you right away.
He leans down to kiss you again.
His fingers find your folds, collecting the essence. You whimper into his mouth, feeling his digits enter you slowly, stretching you out to prepare for him.
He pulls away to speak softly against your lips. “Are you going to listen to me? Are you going to obey me like a good girl?”
And in the golden hue of the setting sun, he is magnificent. You can’t help but moan and nod. You’ll say yes to anything at this point, he could tell you to walk 100 miles with him in the rain or snow and you’d agree to it.
Your eyes roll back, you shut them and bite your lip as he works his fingers, your hips rocking against his palm.
He leans back and grabs your chin with his other hand. He looks into your eyes with a dark, lustful gaze like he can’t wait to tear you apart. “Speak.”
“Yes…I’ll do whatever you say.” Your eyes round as you look up at him, feeling beautiful in (half of) your special set.
The corner of his mouth lifts slightly. “Perfect.” He pushes his pants down in one quick motion.
“Can you close the van door?” You ask innocently, trying not to look down at his long dick, tip red and swollen with pre cum leaking. He strokes it slowly, watching as you swallow hard.
And if he had time, he’d torture you by forcing you to watch him pleasure himself before decorating your belly with all that he’s saved up for you.
He’d lick it up, then kiss you so you could taste it too. He’d lick along your opening until you beg for him to stop, then he’d be hard again and start all over. All while not letting you feel his dick.
You’d be unsatisfied like he’s been all these painful weeks without you. The desperate pleading and whiny noises that would escape you would get him there quickly too. Fortunately for you, your pussy feels so good around his fingers, he knows he’d be a fool not to paint your insides tonight.
He looks back at the quiet woods surrounding the van, no one is there, but the thought of someone actually peaking from behind a tree to watch and listen to him fuck you until you’re a sobbing mess makes it hotter. They can see how good he, only himself, can make you feel. They can grow envious of how well you take him, all while not being able to do a damn thing about it.
Of course, he’s being dramatic. No one is there. But it doesn’t mean he won’t put on a show.
He smirks when he turns back to you.
“Why? Scared someone will see you being a complete slut for me? Scared someone will hear you?”
You shake your head. “N-no, it’s just-”
He enters you quickly, pushing in so deep your body can’t help but clench in an effort to push out the penetrative object. You hold back a loud scream as he takes you suddenly.
You arch your back.
“Fuck..nno..I..” you press your hands against his chest.
“Hmmm what was that?” He pulls out then pushes in again. You feel every ridge, every vein. Even after all this time, you still have each and every inch memorized. It’s like he owns you. Like he’s made you into his own personal fuck toy.
He grabs your waist with both hands and pulls out then pushes all the way back in like he’s trying to beat some world record for deepest penetration.
He goes even deeper than before, knocking the wind out of your chest.
This time, you can’t hold back, you scream loudly and grab his shoulders with both hands. “Jaehyun! I can’t-!”
He chuckles then places both ankles on his shoulders. He places his hand on your stomach. “Relax, my love, have you forgotten how I feel?”
He pulls out completely then pushes in again. He clicks his tongues. “Shame..now this will take more time.”
He stays in and rubs his hand along your stomach while you pant.
You push his pelvis away as your head falls back. “Too much!”
“Nothing is too..” he thrusts. “Much..” he thrusts harder then pulls out. “For..” he thrusts hard enough to shake the entire van.
“You..” he pulls out then pushes completely in again, ruthlessly fucking you to fit him. “I know my good girl can handle it.”
You whine and shake your head. “Jaehyun! Ahhh..I ca-..” he shuts you up with a kiss, licking over your bottom lip and swallowing your tongue as you cry. Your nails dig tiny craters into his back while he drives you insane.
He pulls away and kisses your jaw. “So..tight, my love.” He starts to suck your neck hard.
You feel his hands grip you tightly to hold you still. Tears fall from the sides of your eyes after feeling so stuffed you might break.
But within a few minutes, you’re meeting him halfway, swaying your hips slightly to get him to hit that spot. You can’t stop mewling and telling him how good it feels. Your head falls back, your mouth falls open. He controls your body with every movement he makes, fulfilling every filthy desire you’ve had for him these last few days. How could you ever hope to be satisfied by anyone else? You want to praise him, you need to praise him. And so you do, chanting his name over and over in between faint and breathy yes’.
“See? You take me so well.” He watches your boobs move up and down with each thrust and even in this dull van, you are vibrant. Your beauty is that of angels that only grace this earth for minutes at a time before returning to heaven. He’s never seen anything like it.
He loves everything about you, from the curve of your top lip to your warm thighs, he can’t get enough.
“My pretty girl..” he runs his hand down the center of your chest as one hand holds your waist. His hand goes all the way down, just to hover over your clit.
You look down and moan, but quickly swallow it as it’d be embarrassingly loud.
He only laughs while rubbing circles onto your clit. “Cum for me, baby..I can feel you holding it in. Remember, no one can hear you out here.”
He moves in and out more easily as your slick coats him. He leans forward, biting a nipple while his fingertips massage your clit. “Come on..give it to me, sweetheart, I missed you.”
And so you do. You shake and hold his arms for stability, crying out his name amongst swear words only nature can hear. “Good girl…” he teasingly flicks his tongue against your nipple while staying inside you.
Your hand caresses his scalp as you start to come down. You breathe heavily, quickly building sweat on your body.
He leans back and pulls out slowly, staring down at your entrance that leaks all over the floor of the van.
“Give me another one sweetheart, you’re so pretty like this.”
You shake your head. “I’m sensitive..I just need-.” But it’s too late, he’s already slid his slender fingers back into you, brushing against your walls so he can coat them with his own slick. “Wait!”
Your fingernails find his back and scratch into him again as he moves faster. “S-slow…please.”
“You said you’d follow my orders..” he pulls out completely, then pushes his fingers into you. He lays on his side while you still lay on your back, trying to regain your composure.
He watches as your eyes and legs close tightly.
“Let me see my pretty girl..” He swats your legs apart then rubs your clit mercilessly with his other hand.
“Hnn..not yet, please..” you gasp as you feel the pressure of his fingertips.
“That’s it, right?” He says as he finds your sweet spot. He kisses your lips, swallowing your whimpers. You start to melt.
You can’t take it anymore, you yell his name out into the night and grab his wrist as you climax again. He chuckles, then removes your hand so he can keep moving. A puddle builds under you as your entire body loses all sense of control. “Good girl..look at the mess you’re making.”
You pant and your mouth falls open.
He places his fingers into it. “Taste yourself.”
You lick around his fingers but his other hand still circles around your clit at a fast pace. Your eyes widen. “Don’t look so shocked.” He gives a sly smile.
You squirm in his arms, picking your body up from the floor, but his toned body won’t let you escape.
“It’s what you want..what you need.” He turns you on your side and hugs you tightly from behind. You reach out for the back of the driver seat to try to pull yourself away from him, but your fingertips just brush the black leather.
Jaehyun chuckles.
“Where are you going? You have to give me more..” he holds you tightly against him, entering you once more.
“No more, please!” you push against his hips, but there’s no use. He continues to hold onto you and make you mush.
He moves repeatedly as you reach out for anything to grab, but only finding the cold metal of the van.
“Jaehyun!” Your head falls back. You shut your eyes tightly, feeling that ache in the pit of your stomach grow stronger. You have no choice but to accept that he won’t let you go. He stimulates you so well, you wonder how you can cry out for release, but desire more at the same time.
“Imagine someone IS out there..imagine they’re watching us and touching themselves right now..you’d like that, wouldn’t you?” he whispers into your ear.
Unfortunately, your pussy betrays you by clenching at the possibility.
He chuckles lowly and it makes goosebumps raise. “That’s my girl..you like people watching you take my seed…it’s gonna be so deep inside, and you’re gonna show them how well you hold it in for me like a good girl, right?”
All you can do is whimper.
He chuckles when seeing how mesmerized you are by him. Your mouth falls open but nothing comes out.
“What if I keep you here? Breed you over and over?” He places his hand on your stomach again. “You’d be even prettier with a swollen belly and big, full tits. What do you say?“
You moan loudly and tremble.
Everything he says pushes you closer, you can’t think straight, you want to feel him everywhere. He’s all you can think about.
“Sweetheart? I need an answer.” He nips the back of your neck.
“Yes..yes!”
You quiver around him. His steamy breath hits the back of your ear while he bends over you.
“Yes that’s it, this pretty pussy wants more and more..it’s never satisfied.” His low voice ruins you.
You clench uncontrollably and cum again, this time you lose your breath and nearly pass out. You’re so weak, all you can focus on is steadying your body.
He turns you over onto your stomach, grabbing your ass before staring at your dripping and swollen entrance.
He slides his dick in between the slit to tease both himself and you, watching as you flinch from the sensation. “You’re so wet today, maybe I’ll fuck you in public more often.”
His hands grip your waist once more, pulling you back onto his cock.
He pushes into you slowly this time. His arms wrap tightly around your chest as if he is afraid you’ll slip away at any moment. His fingers pinch your nipples as he groans.
“You smell so good..” his face rests on the back of your neck, he kisses it and breathes heavily.
You moan as he moves slowly against your aching walls.
“Are you ready to take it all?”
You nod and whimper. “Yes.” There’s no point in telling him you’re still reeling from your last climax and are too sensitive for the next one. He needs you now and he won’t stop for anything.
“Say it.”
“I..l” you close your eyes tightly.
“Come on sweetheart, look at me.” He places a hand to your chin to turn your head towards his. You look over your shoulder and into the eyes of the dark haired man bringing you to the edge with deliciously long strokes. He’s beautiful, a work of art even.
With your eyes locked you lick your lips. “Make me yours…I need you..”
Jaehyun’s movement stutters. He holds himself back from cumming just from your words and glossy eyes alone. He can’t believe this is real, he can’t believe he isn’t dreaming of making love to you right now and is actually doing it.
He kisses you and groans into your mouth, while your fingers still intertwine with his hair. His grip on your hip tightens and he moves faster.
“I need you too, my love..so badly.. keep me in”
“Yes..yes!” You arch your back again. You can’t believe yourself right now. Thirty minutes ago you wanted to kill this man, and yet, here you are allowing him to fuck your brains out and make you so stupid you can only think about being full enough to bear children for him.
His fingers move to your clit again and you see stars, your body tenses and you can’t stop clenching around him.
You feel his abs flex on your back. “You can handle it right? Please..please tell me you can.” He speaks right over your round lips, and his voice is higher now. You gasp at the sound of his suddenly desperate and breathy pleas.
“God yes! I can! I’m your good girl..” you cry out. He feels so good, you can’t take it. You know you sound pathetic, but it doesn’t matter. The idea of being fucked until you’re leaking for days is so hot to you, it’s nothing but embarrassing.
“Tell me..you love me..tell me…please.” His voice cracks slightly in between his groans.
You look into his glossy eyes, searching them for a light that will tell you how he truly feels. You hesitate to tell him the truth. Not for fear that it will break his heart, but that it will break yours.
You love him, however, it’s never enough to make him stay.
“I love you..”
“Again..” he pants.
“I love..you.”
“Again..”
“I love you, Jaehyun.” You whimper.
“Again, sweetheart..” he moves faster, feeling dizzy with how tightly you hold him.
“Jaehyun..please..I love you..Jaehyun.”
His fingertips dig into your skin. “One more.” He could listen to you chant his name in between “I love you’s” all day and night.
“I love you so much..I need you.” You let out as your body grows weaker.
“Yes, that’s it..I’m here for you, my love..take it.” He releases deep inside you, moving slowly to ensure you have every drop. He holds you fast against him until he’s sure your skin will be sore for a few days.
You moan loudly, convulsing around him before your body collapses.
“Fuck...” he lets out breathlessly when he pulls out. He lays down beside you and hugs you from behind for a few minutes.
“I’m sorry..”
You brace yourself, you can’t believe he’s doing this again. “..for what?”
“For ruining your beautiful set..I’ll get you another one.”
You breathe a sigh of relief and smile.
You both get up and try to get dressed with what’s left.
Jaehyun takes his shirt up and drapes it over you. You tie the remnants of your dress around your hips to turn it into a skirt. You then get into the passenger seat as he gets into the driver seat, and head home.
When you’re halfway there, you notice Jaehyun doesn’t head in the direction of your place. “Wait..where-“
“I’m taking you home.” He drives with one hand on the steering wheel.
“Home?” You smile to yourself, hoping he doesn’t look over to see how excited you are.
Once at his ridiculously large apartment, he runs a bath for you and cleans you thoroughly. You relax in the tub after he places epsom beads into the hot water to soothe your aching body. You close your eyes and feel him gently pour water over your back. It’s quiet. You’re too hoarse to speak, meanwhile Jaehyun is too nervous to say the first word.
Jaehyun thinks about how much he loves you as never in his life has he pleaded for anything and especially not during sex. He doesn’t know how you do it, but you’ve got a hold on him unlike anything else. After several minutes, he speaks up.
He sits on the edge of the tub. “If you can give me another chance, I promise not to mess it up. I need you.”
You look into his eyes. “..you scare me.”
He stops moving. “I’m sorry.”
“You change your mind and act differently every day, and with no regard for other people. You have to let me know what you want.”
He leans down and kisses you deeply. When he pulls away he kisses your forehead. “Does that answer it?”
You smile softly and nod.
He then lays you in his bed and after he showers, you fall asleep as he rubs your back and looks onto your soft face.
The truth is, you scare him too. These feelings are all too new to him. He used to live without care for anyone, even himself. Risking his life daily, for he did not care what would happen to him. But now..now he has someone to care for..someone to live for. You are someone he wants to be better for and the power you hold over him for this reason is scary. He felt this longing and care for you even before you let him touch you. Just being your friend was something he was grateful for, but now that you returned his feelings, he truly felt the magnitude of his desire for you.
The next morning, you’re happy to see you’re still in Jaehyun’s arms.
He’s happy to feel you next to him in reality, he doesn’t have to dream about it for once.
[The Next Night]
Johnny loosens his tie as he watches his neighbor pull into his driveway. He sits in his car before heading into his house, sighing while looking out into the night sky. One day, just one day, he’d like to be able to leave work on time. Overtime is his least favorite thing in the world—just in front of gang leaders of course. They make his job incredibly difficult. As the lead detective in his unit, he always has to pick up where the officers slack off at. To make matters worse, he went to his favorite spot for lunch, but the owner wasn’t there for once. He just hopes she’s okay. Maybe she’s getting some well deserved rest finally, he thinks to himself. Although, he finds it odd that you did promise to let him try out a new recipe for an Italian inspired bread. You were so excited when you spoke to him about it two days ago, and yet, you didn’t show.
“And the final touch is oregano! I’m so excited about it, you have to try it on Thursday for me! I trust your opinion.” You said with a wide smile as you sat with him.
“Cute.” He thought to himself as he watched your eyes crinkle.
Suddenly, something catches Johnny’s eye. His neighbor’s front driver window is broken or rather-crumbling apart as he drives in.
He leaves his car and walks over to him.
“What happened?” Johnny’s brows furrow.
His neighbor jumps, startled by the deep voice just behind (and above) his head.
“Oh! UHhh hmmm..well..I work at a bank you know..sometimes people uhhh think I take money home with me haha!” The banker laughs loudly.
Johnny stands there with a stern expression. He doesn’t find it funny.
The banker then clears his throat. “Yeah umm someone broke into it..”
“Did you see them?”
“..kinda.” He shrugs
“Oh that’s terrible..come by tomorrow to submit an official re-“
“No!” The banker raises his voice suddenly, shocking Johnny into stillness.
“I mean..it’s all good, it’s not necessary. I was out on unofficial business anyway!”
Johnny continues. “Are you sure?”
“Yup! I have insurance too so it’ll be fixed within 24 hours! You have a good night!” He waves and starts to walk away.
Johnny watches and wonders why he’d be so nonchalant about the entire thing.
“Quick question..” he calls out and the banker turns hesitantly.
“What did they look like? I’d like to at least know that in case they continue to rob others in the city.”
“Of course! Although..I can’t describe him well..”
“It was a man?”
“Yes..that much I know.. a relatively tall man..he wore all black..a thick black turtleneck and black mask so I couldn’t see anything..”
“What did he use to break into your car?”
The banker chuckles. “You’re not gonna believe this but..he used his fist.”
Johnny’s eyes grow. What kinda maniac breaks through glass like that?
“Anyway! Goodnight!” The banker runs off into his house.
[Two Days Later]
You head back into work like normal, returning after receiving calls from a numerous amount of people asking where you were. It’s unlike you to be missing from your bakery for so long.
Truth is, you and Jaehyun spent A LOT of time together. Each time you tried to recover from your..sessions..Jaehyun would start all over again. It’s clear to see he missed you dearly. Luckily, you knew he didn’t just miss your body. He missed laughing with you too. You watched movies together and he even cooked for you. You couldn’t be happier to be in an official relationship with him.
“I’ll see you later.” You kiss his cheek and pull away. The two of you were leaning against his car, unconcerned about whoever saw you flirting with each other for 15 minutes.
Johnny watches from inside the bakery, sitting at the counter and sipping his coffee.
He looks at Jaehyun who wears a simple black T-shirt and jeans. The tall man looked good, but not as good as he’d look without all those ridiculous drawings in his body. He chuckles, is that jealousy he feels? He could end all of this by just arresting Jaehyun. You’d be safe, he’d be put behind bars finally.. Johnny knows what Jaehyun does, however he doesn’t have enough evidence to put him away for a long time. Jaehyun kept things clean.
What are you doing with him? With a dangerous man that has tattoos covering his neck and arms?
“..covering his neck..” Johnny looks at the counter as he thinks to himself
a thick black turtleneck…
He remembers the banker's description. Who wears a thick black turtleneck in June? Normally, robbers wore a hoodie or thin sweatshirt
His eyes float back up to Jaehyun.
Jaehyun pulls you back for one final kiss and that’s when Johnny sees it.
A bruised right hand with little cuts along his knuckles.
Johnny’s eyes widen, but he quickly becomes calm when you walk in with a wide smile. “Hi! How are you?” You say with a grin.
You’re glowing, and Johnny feels that jealousy tinge in his chest again.
He takes a moment to respond. You put your bags down in the back then come back out while putting your apron on.
“Johnny? Everything okay?”
“Oh! Yes..yes of course…I see you took some time off.”
You smile brightly. “Yes! I needed a little break. I’m glad Mark was able to keep the place in one piece.” You laugh as you look around the somewhat clean bakery.
“Where did you go?”
“Oh..I was here..I mean, in the city..I just spent some time with my..boyfriend.” You smile even harder and giggle to yourself.
He forces a smile. “That’s nice to hear, y/n. I’m glad you’re back.”
“Thanks, Johnny!” You start to load the display with freshly baked cookies and cupcakes as Johnny gets back to drinking his coffee.
If you knew the kind of person Jaehyun was..why would you decide to date him? Jaehyun had to have been hiding his identity from you, Johnny thinks to himself.
And robbing a banker? That’s a low, petty crime for Jaehyun. Why would he do something like that himself? Surely, he’d have one of his minions do it? There were many questions on Johnny’s mind as he sipped quietly. He knows he has to find the answers quickly so he can free you from the deadly man that is Jaehyun.
Proving Day. A vicious event where kobold youth are judged by the clan Elders and Shaman on if they will become useful adults capable of contributing to the survival of the clan.
Gwyndolyn wants no part in it. But she can't leave Krystophyr to face this violent fate alone. How will she and her only friend fare on this dire day? Watch the video to find out~
Art by Sylwielle https://www.instagram.com/sylwielle/
SFX from Pixabay
Everything else (writing, voice, music, editing, etc) by me, Jin
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