Indifference - Black Brothers - @taylorswiftmicrofic - 372 words - AO3
Sirius was furious at his brother, choosing the rest of their family’s side and staying with those people with such disgusting, appalling beliefs. His baby brother, who used to cry when he saw their parents mistreat him or Kreacher or would move worms of the pavement to the grass so people wouldn’t step on and kill it. That sweet, innocent kid with chubby cheeks, who used to follow him around like a puppy, is gone. He chose the wrong side. He chose their so-called family. He chose the dark side. He chose this new ‘Dark Lord’. He didn’t choose him.
But at the end of the day, he’s still his brother. His little brother. Sirius may disprove of his choices, he may not even like him anymore, but no matter what happens, he will always, always love him.
“Reg!” he calls out when walking aimlessly around the castle one evening and runs into his brother.
Regulus takes one look at him before immediately turning on his heels and walking back the way he came.
Sirius runs to catch up with him. “Look. I’m sorry for leaving you behind, but you know I had to get out of that place. I would have died one way or another if I stayed.”
“I don’t care, Sirius,” he replies coldly.
“I get it if you hate me, I just want you to know that I still love you.”
He sighs. “I don’t hate you. I don’t love you either. My feelings towards you…it’s just indifference.”
He deflates at that. That’s worse than being hated. Not caring in any capacity is worse than death being wished upon him.
“I- I love you, Reggie,” Sirius whispers, trying to stop his voice from cracking and the tears welling up in his eyes from spilling over.
“I don’t care, so just leave me alone.”
Since he started Hogwarts and left his brother at Grimmauld Place alone for a year, Regulus has been a brilliant liar, amazing at masking his emotions. And as he walks away from him, Sirius cannot tell whether his apathy is real or feigned. But something deep inside fears that his words were true. He fears that he has well and truly lost his baby brother.















