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7/16/25
People love to say they support people with mental illnesses until they actually start showing signs of said illness.
They love to say “I’m always here” until ‘being there’ requires more than an “aw that’s hard I’m sorry”.
They love to say they support all people with mental illnesses until the symptoms are something other than crying or mild anxiety.
People love to share the suicide hot line number but will never check on their friends.
People love to share posts on #BellLetsTalk but will leave you on read if you reach out.
People love to say they’ll support you and be there for you until you create new boundaries and those boundaries require some change.
People love to say they support people with mental illnesses until showing support requires more effort than lip service.
"Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." — Christopher Robin from Winnie the Pooh
Lobstification- the desire to be placed in hot soup, like a lobster
Hey my love, I'm sorry you had to go through that, it wasn't your fault it never was in first place.. please take a break and look more after yourself :)
Something I wish I had know years ago: there is always time to work it out.
More and more these days it feels like there is pressure to figure out who you are IMMEDIATELY. Right. Now.
What job do you want? Who are you going to settle down with? When are you having kids? How are you going to support yourself? When are you moving out?
Moreover, society will force so many ideas upon you that you can barely see through all the white noise marketing.
But news flash: there is always time.
Eventually things will FINALLY make sense. You just have to be patient. Most importantly, you have to be patient with yourself. Stop beating yourself up because you don't know what you want or how you fit into the world. It will sort itself out in time.
If we all have approximately 80+ years of growth ahead of each of us, why would we speedrun every experience, lesson, and choice in the first 20 years?
It took me 18 years to learn I was dyslexic, 20 to learn I was autistic, and 22 to learn I was aroace.
I still don't know what career I want. I've never had boyfriend. And I definitely don't know when I'm moving out or if I'll ever have a family.
But every day I am learning what I love, and fine-tuning not how I fit into the world but rather how I interact with it, how to read it and how to influence it for the better.
I can't wait to keep learning more about myself, because it is a mystery only I can solve. No one knows the pace of my story except for me.
Today I was diagnosed with Adult Onset ADHD.
Adult Onset ADHD
Adult Onset ADHD
It is 12 hours since I’ve gotten the diagnosis and gotten my medication (my GP is literally so amazing and I am incredibly lucky) and the words are still ringing in my head.
I already have Bipolar Disporder and the ADHD is a result of the BPD.
I don’t feel vindicated, I feel violated. Violated by my own brain from the time I have lost through executive dysfunction and hyper fixation. I feel wounded and raw from my parents who will say that I am just lazy or procrastinating and that I need to rest more if I am tired. I feel so many things rn and I’m not sure when I will feel happy.
I am only 22 though so I can make up for it. What is sad is that because of my BPD meds I have been on somewhat of an even keel with just minor manic episodes which pass within hours and I think my parents are convinced that it was just a phase because I am relatively high-functioning.
They won’t deal with this, or me. But I have to handle the obvious mental disorders they display but deny.
Right now I am tired but I have all my meds and tomorrow is a new day.
The words still ring in my head.
Adult Onset ADHD.
In my own mind... 🤯
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