#my why

[why-i]

[arichka-xoxo]

I’ve been gone for quite a while, and I wanted to explain a little bit why.

Life has been incredibly overwhelming these past months. I was sick for a while, then I spent some time travelling. During that time, I fell in love, but unfortunately the relationship turned out to be very unhealthy and abusive, which affected me deeply especially since that’s the first time in a long time that I felt like I loved someone. I have been out of the relationship for almost 2 months.

After everything that happened, I struggled a lot with my mental health and needed to step away from social media and focus on healing. Over the past week, though, I’ve finally started to feel more like myself again, and things are slowly getting better.

I won’t be online all the time, and I may still be a bit quiet here and there, but I do want to start being more active again as I continue to heal❤️

[fortheloveofcows]

It’s been warm and cold here. We had a pretty good cold snap for a little while then back up to the 50s a few days around thanksgiving. Now we’re getting cold again.

I’ve been walking a lot. Indoors and outdoors as the days allow. I’ve been sneaking the tiniest bit of running in there as I feel better. But no more than really 0.1-0.2 miles at a time for less than half a mile. I’ve been feeling much better with my back since not doing a job that constantly requires twisting and bending with weight.

I actually don’t miss large animal as much as I thought. Is it because I mourned that part of me for over a year? Possibly. Or is it because I don’t leave work in constant tears because my back hurts so bad? More than likely that is a big factor.

My schedule is so much better. I have lots of days off. The 12 hours some days can be long. Then other days it flys by so fast I don’t even know what happened. I enjoy the people I work with a lot. I got told that they hire people carefully where as the last two jobs I’ve had, I’ve felt like I was just a warm body with a DVM. I could work and did fine so they hired me. Here I feel like part of a team and people actually try and build you up rather than knock you down. It’s a different world.

I’ve been working a ton on myself and my mental game about weight loss. I’ve never worked on that part before. I’ve lost almost 20lbs since June and I think that has helped a ton with my back as well. I had some hiccups September-November and I’ve been stalled since then but haven’t gained anything back.

I think this page may get more dedication to weight loss again. That’s why I started this tumblr long ago. I didn’t do it the right way though. This time is different. I’m making sure if that.

So here’s to a new Sam for the rest of my life. Lots more posts about this stuff coming. It’s more so a journal to myself to look back on. There will hopefully be lots more triathlon and running involved as well.

[irrelevant-to-anything]

Cover Letter

Thought I’d utilize all my resources and put myself out there.

Always looking for new artists, speakers, and teachers to work with.

Dear ...,

I think the future of education is in mentorships and online classes rather than the desk lecture format we still use today. This shift is already happening especially with students who are growing up with the COVID 19 pandemic and younger generations’ increasing disenchantment with traditional academic settings, especially in regards to college and university. There are a number of schools that pride themselves in their hands-on approach to learning, but this seems limiting as well. Classrooms can be great environments for discussions and engaging with different points of view in a controlled manner, but classrooms are not effective at teaching critical thinking skills or problem solving in the field. For many people, the best way to learn is on the job with a mentor or mentors to help them while doing their own research on what specifics they want to expand on. With Masterclass and Skillshare becoming well known and the internet giving each person with WiFi the ability to learn almost any skill, I like to think we're heading into an age of virtual apprenticeships where everyone has the means to figure out what they want to do and how they can get there if they have the drive.

I currently work as a ghost writer for an author who wants to document her self love journey and I see writing content for Yellowbrick as an extension of this process since every successful person in their field has had to practice their own version of self love to overcome their doubts and persevere in their field. Successful people usually pride themselves on their mindset, and mindset is not taught in a classroom. It’s taught through being willing to consistently try and fail and self discipline, which is a type of intelligent self love that accounts for your future self rather than only resorting to instant gratification. 

 My big "Why," as in, "why I do what I do," is to validate each person's individuality, including my own, so each person feels seen. This is one reason why I think art is so important. It articulates the emotional realm and the realm of human experience. It validates our thoughts and emotions and gives us a sense of community and belonging, both of which are necessary in maintaining individual and communal mental health. People tend to see themselves in other people, which is why we latch onto our favorite songs, movies, books, TV shows, our favorite fashion designers, etc. Through these mediums we see ourselves or who we could be reflected back to us. It inspires us to make positive connections with others while also exploring our own internal worlds, which is especially important for developing children who want to build positively toward their futures. 

I believe I would be an asset to ... as I am passionate about encouraging others to follow their dreams and am skilled in articulating abstract thoughts and ideas. Do not hesitate to contact me with any questions you may have regarding my resume or this cover letter. I look forward to hearing from you.

Thank you for your consideration,

Rose Lederer

[fromfareastandsouth]

They said I was too much and I don’t understand them.

[sheree-e-pinard]

𝗪𝗵𝘆?? Why on earth would I want to make sure I had a side hustle strong enough to allow me to stay home and away from the confines of a 9-5.... 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝘄𝗵𝘆... 𝗟𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 😍😍 I don't want to miss these precious moments while they are young... I will miss enough of their life when they are grown and move out!

[mywaytoonederland]