Short for OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER.
Well, I am interested about this topic because there is lot of people claimed that they have it. OCD is never been considered as a complement to one's life. In fact, it is a mental illness and one of the hardest disorder to live with just like DIABETES.
OCD is a disorder that causes obsessive thoughts and/ or compulsive actions. It is characterized by recurrent, unwanted thoughts, or obsessions, and possible repetitive behaviors, or compulsions. Victims of this disorder have so-called “RITUALS”, and if not followed then a person will feel anxious.
Victims usually feel that they couldn't do anything without rituals. Rituals invaded every aspect of one's life. COUNTING really plays a big role in their life and it really bogged someone's life down.
There are 5 categories of OCD.
WASHERS - afraid of contamination.
CHECKERS - repeatedly check things (when associated with any harm or danger).
DOUBTERS AND SINNERS - afraid that something will happen it isn't perfect or done.
COUNTERS AND ARRANGERS - obsessed with order and symmetry (numbers, colors, and arrangements).
HOARDERS - cannot decide whether to throw something out because something bad might happen.
In the categories above, I think that I possessed all of it but I do not claim that I have OCD.
Normal people do have daily rituals and so am I, and I have these weird behaviors every time I do certain things.
Counting the times I swallow especially when drinking water or any liquids (consecutively; 10-15 times).
I have order to follow when I take a bath and I always clean the rest room first. It makes me feel more comfortable and clean!
I count the times I rinse and comb my hair (5-7 times).
I count the times I scrub my body.
I count how many steps I take on tiled floors.
I am a ZIP LOCK lover, slol. Well I pack my things with zip locks especially when I’m travelling. It looks organize and clean!
I always bring SANITIZER, ALCOHOL and TISSUES.
When I see disorganized cabinet, I try to arrange it in order sometimes even without the owner’s permission.
When eating, I only drink water or liquid when I’m finished eating or choked.
Long and frequent trips to the bathroom especially when drinking liquors.
I have this feeling I need to TELL, ASK or CONFESS.
Blinking or Staring Rituals
Being UNABLE to stop HOARDING
WORST PART – Self Harming to release frustrations. I occasionally (when in the deepest state of depression) slap my face or bit my finger but not to the extent of cutting myself. Its just physical pain replace emotional pain.
There are lot of it but I can't remember all. We are all unique and weird creatures and so we have different rituals and habits. EVEN THOUGH THE COUNTING & SELF-HARMING REALLY BOGGED ME DOWN I AM PROUD TO BE WEIRD AND UNIQUE!! There's nothing to SHAME if you have OC Disorder but if it causes violence or harm to other people then you must see a doctor or therapist.
