#ocdwarrior

[melancholicvnt]

can ppl PLS stop treating intrusive thoughts as either as like "ooh i wanna eat this leaf im quirky 🤪" or "since u had this thought it means ur dangerous"/demonizing them??? this was the type of shit that made it so hard for me to open up about my OCD and the intrusive thoughts that came with it. it took me around 8-9 years to say anything, firstly bc i didn't kno what was happening to me (i first had symptoms around 9 years old), but then when i was old enough to kno that what i was feeling wasn't normal, i didn't say anything for a long time bc i was afraid i was a horrible person, that the thoughts were true, and that everyone felt this way and i was just "sensitive" or bad at dealing with it.

the fact that it has become a buzzword/term on the internet for things that r perceived as "cool" or "fun" by those who do not suffer with ocd or other things that cause intrusive thoughts while simultaneously being demonized by these same ppl when a person w a mental illness talks abt what they actually are is so wild to me.

and also, very important thing for fellow ocd-sufferers and other mentally ill ppl: intrusive thoughts DO NOT reflect your true feelings. despite the fact that there is a general (and extremely harmful, imo) belief by many that your thoughts define you, this is not true. this really made my ocd worse, because i thought for sure that since i was having horrible thoughts, i was a bad person. intrusive thoughts are ego-dystonic; in other words they DO NOT REFLECT WHO WE TRULY ARE! i need to remind myself of this each and every day.

[angieisalive]

Me, everytime I don't do a compulsion: Ha! I did it! I beat you at your own game! Me: 1, OCD: 895874474365267378487221780448–

[youhaveocd]

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[princessworldwielder]

You are loving, you are kind, you are not a waste of space, you are spectacular, you are a blessing, and you are wonderful. Don’t let anyone tell you differently, not even yourself. And even if you do tell yourself that, I am here to tell you that you are important and you are all that and more!!!! ❤️

[clauwn]

Y'all for folks with anxiety and intrusive toughts like me, i have a theory:

Do you ever feel like your brain will literally make up excuses to be anxious?, like looks for reasons, and if it can't find it, it will make up one

I feel like our brains need that anxiety, like it needs to be in constant stimulation, and if it cannot find one in life it will make its own, and the anxiety itself is the stimulation the brain craves.

[ocdrabbit]

I’m out here leveraging my compulsions against each other... Like, my need to finish knitting this entire row is greater than my need to scratch/pick. I’m going to call that a net win?

[virginalmusings]

I just did the scariest thing of my life. I have OCD (and at times in my life it has been totally debilitating/disabling). I have a huge obsession with mouse poop and am terrified that every crumb I find is poop. I had a mouse in my apartment a few years ago and I still am afraid to use my kitchen based on that traumatic experience.

I recently bought my first house. My sister and her boyfriend deep cleaned the house for me and found some mouse poop under the refrigerator which is totally freaked me out.

I went back to the house to reclean the kitchen because I was already obsessing that my sister and her boyfriend didn’t do it “right.” I opened the oven warming drawer and it was absolutely filled with mouse poop. I'm talking hundreds. My sister and her boyfriend had forgotten to clean that part. It took me over an hour to get that drawer clean. My paper towels were coming back completely dark brown and soaked in poop. The drawer is low and long and it was dark so I couldn't reach back or see very well. It was terrifying. I had to keep reaching my hand back where I couldn't see and feeling piles of feces. Then I moved the stove and cleaned the floor under it. There was lots of mouse poop too. I had to crouch back in that disgusting space and it was dark and horrible. There is still mouse poop back there that I couldn't get but I did the best I could. I was there for hours and finally had to call it quits. I was crying and felt sick to my stomach. I have an entire kitchen trash bag filled to the brim with poop-soaked Clorox wipes and paper towels. I probably removed close to 1000 droppings. I am so distrurbee and I don’t know how I’m ever going to feel comfortable in my new kitchen. I already have some issues with properly hydrating/feeding myself. Now this is going to be another huge barrier to taking care of myself because the kitchen is so scary to me.

This was truly terrible and my worst nightmare. But I am so proud of myself. If this happened to me a few years ago it would have ended in a huge self-harm episode and maybe hospitalization. I am trying to be a wise-minded about this. I am having an exterminator come Monday and I will get a new oven. I’m just so, so disturbed and upset. It was horrifying.

[namsoftie]

I hate how ocd is constantly making me doubt. Doubt about myself, about the world, about people... It is just so tiring.