title; you’re to blame (Oscar ‘Spooky’ Diaz x fem!reader)
prompts; 4) doggy, C) wrapping a hand around the column of their throat, E) holding their hips in place, F) giving their ass a soft (or hard) spank and ꒰ 𓆉 ꒱ a spare bedroom — from build an nsfw fic
warnings; established relationship, smut, minors do not interact!!!, p in v, unprotected sex, creampie, some choking (hand around the throat with a light squeeze), 1 spank, but that’s it? (679 words)
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Oscar’s hips rocked into yours, causing the headboard to slam against the wall with every thrust he gave.
you were supposed to be having an early night, or at least that’s what you told your parents.
but Oscar had a different idea.
which of course, resulted in your current position.
tucked away in your parents spare bedroom, your old room, his hips rolled into yours again and again, pulling a moan from your lips.
“shit baby, that’s it”
he’d already wrangled one orgasm from you, and you were quickly heading towards your second.
his lips brushed against the shell of your ear as he leaned over you, thrusts continuing with a desperate need.
“need to be quiet baby”
Oscar murmured against your ear, moving his left hand up your body to wrap around your throat, squeezing softer than either of you had expected him to.
you could only nod in response, earning another sharp thrust from Oscar as the coil began to wind tighter in your belly.
he pressed his lips to the corner of your jaw, keeping his hand firm around your throat as he tilted your head back towards him. his lips trailed along your jaw and towards your lips so he could steal a half kiss, before he was whispering against you lips.
“know it feels good, need you to be quiet though, can you do that for me baby?”
his grip on your throat loosened, but his thrusts seemed to pick up their pace, driving into you ruthlessly and creating a slapping of skin on skin.
“close Osc”
you moaned out, earning another sharp thrust before his hand came down on your ass in a sharp smack.
his touch pulled a whine from your throat, an apology falling from your lips.
“i know baby, but have to be quiet for me”
Oscar pressed another kiss to the corner of your jaw, carefully picking up the pace of his thrusts.
he angled his hips, hitting that one spot with more precision that had your walls clamping down around his cock.
“shit sweetheart”
his pace faltered slightly, taking a second to compose himself before he was driving into you again with more force.
“i’ve got you baby, cum for me, yeah?”
you nodded into the pillows, his thrusts pulling another whine from your lips, and sending you hurtling closer and closer to the edge.
Oscar only had to roll his hips a couple more times before you careened over the edge, a breathy and muffled call of his name leaving you and causing his thrusts to falter again.
as his thrusts continued, chasing his own climax with sloppy thrusts, your walls fluttered around him.
“that’s it, taking it like a good girl”
he drawled lowly against your ear, burying his face in against the nape of your neck as he gave a few more thrusts, rocking closer and closer to the edge after you.
each thrust he gave had you pushing back against him, meeting him thrust for thrust, and pulling a stuttered groan from his lips.
“fuck baby, gonna make me cum”
both of his hands moved to your hips, holding you in place to stop you from pushing back against him.
Oscar rolled his hips again, deeper and more desperate than his original thrusts.
when your cunt fluttered and spasmed around him again, Oscar followed you over the edge of pleasure with a muffled groan. he spilled himself into your warmth, slowly rutting against your ass as his thrusts came to a stop.
“did so good for me baby”
Oscar murmured, keeping himself buried inside your warmth for a minute, his chest flush against your back as his body blanketed yours.
you hummed, tilting your head back to meet his gaze as best you could.
a giggle fell from your lips at the fucked out look on his face, easily leaning in to steal a kiss from him before you whispered against his lips.
“you know, you made more noise than me there. if anyone’s to blame for my parents finding out, you’re to blame”
Summary: Oscar starts acting strange and it triggers your past relationship trauma.
warnings: mentions of cheating, shady!Oscar, emotions 😭, fluff ending!
word count: 1.9K
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There is nothing like the weekend. After a long week of work and people, those two days of relaxation is a thoughtful bliss. And to top it off, Oscar had crawled into you bed with you last night long after you snuggled under the covers.
You’ve been awake for nearly half an hour, cheek pressed against his bareback, mindlessly staring at the ceiling. Oscar can either be up at the crack of dawn or sleeping the day away, either way, it’s the being with him that matters.
He stirs in his sleep and moves to lay on his back. You maneuver yourself to fit into his side. Oscar’s eyes still closed but the corners of his lips curling up into a small smile as you stare up at him. You move up to kiss his cheek, “Mornin’.”
“Hmm, buenos días.” His hand rubs across your back. You could nearly fall asleep again. He leans to peck a kiss on your head as he groans, moving to get out of bed. You non-verbally complain as you admire the way his back muscles contort.
Oscar’s phone rings a moment later. Another huff falls from your lips as you were hoping to have him to yourself just a bit longer. You reach under your pillow to find the source of the buzzing as this man can never put his phone on the charger before getting into the bed.
With his toothbrush hanging out of his mouth, Oscar walks into the room quickly and reaches under the pillow to grab the phone. Without so much as a look your way, he walks back into your room’s bathroom. You don’t think much of it until it happens against at lunch.
He had business to attend to but he promised you lunch as one of your late birthday presents. Both of you equally are hard workers, so when your birthday came around at the beginning of the week and you were both busy with work, he told you you’d celebrate this weekend with a barbecue tomorrow at Geny Martinez’s house.
The best brisket in town and you two showed up at a busy time. Oscar had just finished ordering and sat besides you when his phone chimed. You were never one to try snoop on his phone, but when he swiped it up quickly and then placed his phone with the screen down. You begin to wonder.
Is it happening again?
“They had the churro shakes too. Es bueno.” He says rubbing his hands together. You quirk a smile and let your hand rest on his thigh. You sigh as he looks over the menu, admiring the different items. Meanwhile you mind begins to spin.
The two of you began dating a little over a year ago. Long time friends but something had changed and you suddenly found yourself with him almost everyday. It started off as simply mundane things. Dropping off your abuela’s pozole. Asking him to take a look under you car’s hood. He even taught you a few things by watching him work on his car.
Then came dates, sleepovers, intimacy. You two were together before putting a label on it. Nearly 3 ½ months of hanging out together before calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend. A big part of that had to do with your hesitation to commit to someone again.
Last time you did that, you got played dirty. And after all that, you swore you wouldn’t let that happen again. But Oscar somehow got you to take the chance with him.
It still lingers in the back of your mind. Being cheated on feels so defeating. It makes you question yourself; Was I not enough? Did I do something wrong? It becomes mind eating the longer you stay. Problem for you was it took 5 months to realize it was happening.
However, after finding out and your ex-boyfriend finally confirmed it, you realized you noticed. He always tended to hide his phone. Logically you figured it stemmed from having a big family and little privacy. You were the same, you loved your private moments. But you noticed he started doing it often. Now the same with Oscar.
“Y/N, babe.” Oscar’s voice pulls you from your thoughts. You blink and look at him, noticing that your brisket sandwiches are in front of you. You smile and thank him, turning your mind off to enjoy the sandwich.
Your eyes fall to his phone every now and then. It had to be your mind playing tricks. Trauma will always be there to remind you. “Can you grab me some napkins babe?”
Oscar doesn’t answer as he stands mid-chew. When he is halfway to the napkin dispenser you grab his phone and flip it over to see a text message from an unsaved number.
See u tonight.
Your heart skips and you hurry to place his phone as it was. You scratch the back of your head and look the other way, closing your eyes to stop the quick forming tears. No matter how hard your mind tries to rationalize. It’s like a motion sensor laser in your mind is obliterating the logical reasons. Business, compa, another santo that he didn’t bother to save as a contact? None of that could stick. It’s all cheating, unfaithful, hyna.
He returns and you clear your throat. “I’m not feeling so good. I think I ate too fast.”
“You sure? You barely ate though.” He nods at your sandwich. Your lip trembles a bit but you hold it together. “Can you take me home? I’ll lay down and I’ll be good.”
Oscar doesn’t argue back and agrees.
You have your body turned away from him. He can’t properly rest his hand on your thigh because of how turned away you are. He peers at you a few times but it doesn’t catch your attention. “What’s going on? Stomach ache or something?”
Who are you texting?! Why are you being so shady?! But you aren’t one for confrontation. It’s why it took you as long as it did to realize you were being cheated on.
“Probably my period.” Your gaze is still out of the window when you answer.
He could feel the tension in the air. Oscar being the opposite of you and not afraid to confront a situation head on. It’s a trait to have in the kind of business he is in.
As he pulls up into your driveway, you lean over and peck a chaste kiss to his lips. But before you can get out, his hand is on your wrist and holding you back. You struggle but he gives you a look. “You got something on your mind, bebita. Out with it, you know how I feel when you hold things back.”
“When have I ever held things back?” You joke and he quirked an eyebrow as you lean back into the seat. Oh, here we go.
He sucks in a deep breath, his voice going up a few pitches,“But.. but you didn’t say I love you like you usually do. T-then you half hugged me. Mira, you brought it up a week after that night and had a pouty attitude the whole time since you were on your period.” Oscar mocks you of the time you were convinced that he didn’t love you anymore.
“A ver! I was on my period, it’s how I get. You should know this, we’ve been together for how long now?” You grin, waiting for him to give you a thinking look.
“14 months. So sí, I know it’s not your period because you had it a week and a half ago. So qué pasa?” He asks you, arm on the back rest of the seat and body turned towards you. Damn him for being so attentive. You fight with yourself on bringing it up. What if it upsets him? Oscar can be quite the temperamental type sometimes.
With a deep breath, you ask him. “Are you hiding something from me? You just seem a little shady since this morning and then when we were at lunch too. Everytime your phone goes off you make it a mission to hide it or something.”
Oscar looks to you like you said the stupidest thing in the world. He wipes his hand down his face and around his mouth, looking at you and sighing. Is it a guilty sigh or annoyed sigh?
“Babe...:” He starts. Guilt! It sounds like guilt. The tears prick in your eyes. How could this be happening again? “No, no, no. I mean yes I have been hiding something but it wasn’t anything like how you are probably thinking.” Oscar tries quickly to explain before you break out into hysterics.
You wipe your eyes and cross your arms, “See u tonight?”
“Monse.”
“Oh my god, your brother's underage girlfriend?”
He groans, closing his eyes for a moment. “Ay, calmáte! Not like that, I said.”
“Then like what?! Hm? You know what I have been through but you are clearly trying to hide it from me!” You didn’t mean to explode but you weren’t getting answers. All you could hear is an excuse being stretched thinly.
“Hold on. You think… Y/n, please tell me you don’t think I am cheating on you? You think that low of me?” His voice drips with irritation now. He opens his car door and pulls out a pack of cigarettes. He puts a stick between his lips and lights it up, “You think I would do what the pinche ex novio of yours did? After all this time?”
You’re leaning against the hood of his car. The guilt begins to eat at you. It wasn’t fair for you to push it onto him. The horrors of your past have nothing to do with him and you two have had a long conversation about what happened with your ex when you started to get closer.
“I know… I’m sorry. If it’s not that then what? Why all the secrecy?” You ask, keeping your gaze to the ground.
He takes a few puffs before flicking the lit end out and placing it behind his ear. “Mírame. I wanted to do something nice for your birthday. So I had help from mi hermanito and his friends, some of the santos to put together a surprise party for tonight. I used the excuse of the carne asada at Geny’s as part of the cover up.”
If you looked at yourself in a mirror right now then you'd see bright white paint and a red ball for a nose. You feel like a clown.
“You wanted to throw a surprise party for me?” You sniff. How is he so thoughtful? How is he so kind? Even with his stoic demeanor and inability to show emotions, he is the entire package on what you’ve wanted and more.
Oscar can see that you are feeling stupid. He steps in between your legs and pushes you to sit on the hood. His hands reach to rub up your thighs and rest on your hips, “You went through some shit with that cabrón. I wouldn’t do that. I would be man enough to tell you that it’s not working out any more. Mamas, that’s not the case, today, tomorrow or the next 20 years.
“When we started talking, I didn’t think I would feel anything like I do now. And when you shared with me what you went through, mixed with how much I fell for you then I made it a point to show you how a real man loves a woman.”
Your heart into a million pieces now at your feet. You grasp his face and pull him into a kiss despite the strong tobacco taste and smell. He moves his hands up your back and to your neck. He snakes his fingers into your hair at the nape of your neck and pulls slightly so you are looking at him.
“Te quiero mucho.”
You wanted this moment to last forever.
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you sat slouched, your foot propped up on the dash board and your head rolled back watching him drive under the streetlights. you'd been to a party and oscar offered to drive you home. you hadn't spoken to him much since you'd gotten into the car but you couldn't look away from him either.
"quit staring," he mumbled, glancing at you out the corner of his eye for only a second.
"i'm not staring," you mumbled defensively, your head darting forward facing the tarmac again. your eyebrows twitched into a soft frown. being caught out you humphed to yourself. you didn't notice the soft smirk on his lips in your effort to not look at him again for the duration of the drive home, as not to inflate his ego anymore.
"'n' get your feet off the dash," his hand gave a nudge to your thigh. "what d'you think this is?"
you sniffed, your foot falling off the dash as you pushed yourself up straight. you could still feel the brush of his fingertips on your thigh though his hand had long been back on the steering wheel. "'jeez, sorry dad," you said in a huff.
you didn't catch the subtle clench of his jaw, rolling your eyes at him. "funny," he mumbled back at you.
"why you always so mean?" you huffed, your eyebrows knitting into a soft frown, arms crossing over your chest. "it's some scary-best-friends-big-brother-macho-tough-guy bullshit."
"you think i'm a scary?" he quirked an eyebrow at you, glancing at you while he continued to drive. that pout forming on your lips was something he was finding hard to pull his attention away from.
"no, but other boys do," you grumbled.
oscar humphed, pleased with himself. "good."
you rolled your eyes again, pushing yourself upright and pointing an accusing finger at him. "you're impossible," you groaned when he reached over and pushed your accusing finger away from him, this only made your frustration with him grow.
he tilted his head to the side for a second, his eyes rolling to the back of his head. "yeah— well you're a brat," he teased with a hum, watching with a small amount of amusement when your mouth hung open.
"if i act like a brat it's because you make me like this," you fought back. "you treat me like a kid, what do you expect?"
his eyebrows knitted, he shook his head. "i don't treat you like a kid."
"yeah, you do!"
"no, i don't," he was standing his ground, his jaw clenching tighter. "why would i treat you like a kid?"
you'd turned in your seat to face him, your hands clinging to your seat belt the more you riled each other up. oscar had pulled up at a red light.
"'cause you saw me grow up with cesar," your eyes locked with his for a second before he pulled away again. "so you think you have to treat me like you do him, but you don't. i can look after myself."
you were both quiet for a while, oscar was absorbing your words and you were regretting ever bringing any of this up.
“i don't treat you like this 'cause i think you're a kid," oscar gulped, pulling away as the traffic light changed to green. "i'm jus' looking out for you. i don't wan' you to feel like you have to look out for yourself. i got you."
"yeah, you sure do,” you huffed. “you know what it’s like trying to get a boyfriend with you hovering over me at parties? you’re like a dog marking it’s territory,” you rolled your eyes again. “and i’m not your territory.”
“no?” he quirked an eyebrow at you, glancing at you only for a second. he could see it plain and simple how badly you were deflecting your true feelings. you’d crushed on him since you were a kid, but wouldn’t ever admit that to him. it’d be like conceding and you were far too competitive for that. still, oscar liked watching you act like your feelings weren’t there.
“no!” you raised your voice a little, eyebrows knitted tighter together now
“so you don’t want me to look out for you?” he clarified, small smirk still lining his lips.
“i don’t want boys too scared to talk to me ‘cause of you,” you were sulking a bit now. even you would admit you were acting kind of childish, but it also felt warranted.
“you wan’ me to leave you alone then?” he saw out the corner of his eye, you glanced over at him after he said this. “say the words an’ i’ll do it.”
“yeah,” you said softer than your voice had been earlier.
“go on and say it then,” he tested you, eyebrows raised waiting for you to say it.
“i just want you to stop being so scary, i don’t want to stop being friends with you,” you spoke, unsure of your own words. you were backtracking.
“you know why i do it?” you were watching him, body turned to face him as he continually stole glances in your direction, trying to focus on the road as best he could. he almost confessed but he stopped himself. “‘cause those guys are assholes. and you don’t want to date an asshole.”
“you know what i want, do you?” you quirked an eyebrow at him this time, humming.
he hummed in response. “i do.”
“what else do you know about me?” you tested him, convinced you had the upper hand on him. oscars lips turned into an amused frown, shrugging his shoulders. your lips cracked into a small smile, eyes unable to move away from him. he was captivating. “go on, mr know-it-all,” you urged, a small laugh escaping your lips and catching oscars attention.
he had to drag his eyes back to the road as he pulled up outside your house. you didn’t even notice the car coming to a halt, you were so invested in what he was going to say next.
“alright, fine,” he rested one arm on the steering wheel, the other on the back of the car seat as he turned halfway to face you. “you totally like me,” he said matter-of-factly.
“yeah, right,” you scoffed. he narrowed his eyes at you, smirk growing on his lips. you glanced away from him for a split second, the eye contact was too much for you.
“you also can’t look anyone in the eyes when you’re nervous,” he was teasing you now and you didn’t really care for it.
“shut up, i can too,” you made a conscious effort to keep eye contact even though your palms were sweating, and your heart was beating out of your chest.
he kept his eyes locked on you to make a point, unblinking. he watched your expression turn, your eyebrows knitting as your frustration grew with him.
you huffed, glancing away as he let out a laugh. “that doesn’t prove anything!” you fought back, annoyed that he’d caught you out. he could be childish himself sometimes, you just seemed to be the only one that caught it.
“it proves everything,” he shrugged, a smug smile on his face now. “just admit it, you don’t have to get defensive.”
“i’m not defensive!” your voice came out a higher pitch than someone who was not acting defensive. you altered your tone, clearing your throat. “i’m not being defensive,” you repeated, calmer this time.
“fine,” he rolled his eyes. “take it to the grave with you and i’ll guess you’ll never know if i felt the same,” he shrugged again.
you couldn’t make out if he was joking anymore or not. you wore a frown, eyes locked on his trying to figure him out. he could be so frustrating sometimes.
“you’re annoying,” you said finally. “and i’m going home,” scared this was all a big joke to him, you unbuckled your seatbelt and pulled on the door handled.
you climbed out the passenger seat, hearing him call after you. “ok, wait— wait,” he climbed out the drivers seats and jogged around the impala to meet you on the other side. you crossed your arms over your chest, closing the door and leaning against it, waiting for him to talk. “i promise i’ll stop scaring these guys off,” you wore a soft frown, you looked over at him with hooded eyes. oscar could’ve melted at your feet with that look.
you weren’t sure you wanted him to stop scaring off these guys anymore, because he was right, they were assholes and you did have feelings for him. feelings you’d buried deep, deep down and rejected them for fear of getting hurt.
“unless you can give me a reason not to?” he took a step closer to you, urging you to say something. you kept your frown, and shook your head.
“no,” you mumbled softly.
“hm? what was that?” his smirk was reappearing, as was yours.
“scare ‘em off if you want,” you pushed yourself off the door, standing inches away from him now. oscars smirk drooped a little. “i’ve only got eyes for one guy,” you shrugged, scrunching up your nose. “he’s kind of an asshole though,”
“i knew it,” he muttered teasingly.
“i know this is a joke to you but oscar i swear to god,” you paused, making sure he caught your tone. “if you fuck with me—“
“s’not a joke,” he shook his head. “just wanted to hear you say it,” he admitted, losing his smirk this time. he took a step closer, you unable to move away with your back against his car door. “you know i care about you,” he spoke quieter this time, only to you. you tilted your head back to watch him better. “m’not gonna hurt you.”
you could feel his breath against your skin, your own heavy breaths fanning his cheeks. you gave him a slight nod, which he mimicked. “ok?” he mumbled.
“ok,” you mumbled in response, trusting him for now, but wanting to see that he really meant what he said. “i trust you,” your words barely above a whisper.
he gave you a slight nod, lips pulling into a small smile when he saw a similar expression form of your face. he hummed softly, leaning into you just to be closer. you nudged your forehead against his for a second before pulling back.
Part 9 of the Fortification Series (based on this request)
Genre: hurt/comfort, angst, some fluff
Written for a GN!MC, though the partner is written as male.
WC: ~4.4k
TRIGGER WARNING: Each part contains graphic depictions of various types of abuse, please see specific content warnings for each individual part.
CW: sexual abuse/assault, physical abuse, emotional abuse, threats, intimidation, graphic torture, graphic violence and gore, strangulation & hanging via rope, eye mutilation, self-harm via cutting, urination/incontinence, swearing
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Note: Though I do have a masters degree in Psychology and clinical training in treating survivors of abuse, I am not your therapist, nor is this fic intended to take the place of professional help. If you are experiencing any type of abuse, please seek support from a professional. Utilize the Victim Connect Resource Center to get connected to the appropriate helpline.
THIS ONE IS PRETTY GRAPHIC, PLEASE MIND THE WARNINGS. I figured I’d crank out a longer finale to the series because I wanted to end it with a bang, and also because I love Barbatos and haven’t written a lot for him!!!
“Welcome everyone! I am glad you could all join me this evening!” Diavolo beamed, pleased with his gathering of the exchange students for a fun weekend at the castle. “We will be having dinner in about two hours; please take some time to find your respective rooms and explore the castle. Since the brothers wont be joining us until tomorrow evening, you will all have solo rooms for the night!”
You gulp, fidgeting with the hem of your shirt. A “retreat” at the castle with only the other exchange students meant that you would be away from your primary protectors- the ones who vowed to keep you safe from your boyfriend as you figured out a way to end the relationship peacefully. You really thought he would change after coming to Devildom. But in reality, the tense atmosphere and laissez faire rules surrounding interpersonal conduct only enabled him to treat you worse. You had tried your best to work up the courage to end things, but the more violent he became, the harder it was to do.
Mammon was the first to realize something was wrong. You begged him not to tell anyone for fear of retaliation, but he knew you needed more help. Soon enough, each of the brothers were always around you, ensuring your boyfriend couldn’t hurt you (mentally or physically) as long as they were by your side. Lucifer had been trying to make an official report to Diavolo, but it appeared that with their interventions, they didn't have any recent enough evidence to address it. So you went on with their protection; to intimidate him enough to back off...and it worked, too.
Until tonight.
You gulp, feeling your boyfriend’s hand squeeze yours threateningly. You knew that he knew you were going to try to leave, and that the brothers were always there in order for you to avoid his “punishments.” That’s why he suggested this little “retreat” to Divaolo in the first place- to finally get you vulnerable enough to do whatever he wanted.
Diavolo relieved you all to your quarters, and your boyfriend tugs on you aggressively. As he drags you in the direction of the west spire stairs, you hear your name called from behind.
“Mc, I am actually needing you to stay behind with me.”
You and your boyfriend turn, seeing Barbatos approaching from Diavolo’s side. He eyes your boyfriend before turning his attention back to you, a warm smile decorating his face.
“M-me? Why?”
Barbatos stops in front of you, extending his hand for you to take instead of your boyfriends. “Diavolo has requested that the cuisine prepared tonight incorporates some food from the human world, as we have yet to really taste any delicacies from your culture. I know you are quite fond of cooking, so I figured having your aid in this venture would be useful for preparation and tasting.”
Before you could answer, your boyfriend squeezes your hand tightly- so tight, that you feared of your fingers breaking under his grip. You clamp your mouth shut, knowing that this was a sign for you to be quite and let him speak. You try to hold back tears as you feel the joint of your thumb pop- clearly dislocating like it had so many times in the past.
“I don’t know why you would pick them, of all people.” The man scoffs and shakes his head. “The food they make isn’t much better than the slop you all eat here.”
Barbatos’ eye twitches in annoyance, his warm smile quickly dropping into a frown. “I apologize that our food isn’t up to your standards, (name), but I have faith in Mc’s ability to assist in this matter. If you’re standing in opposition, I would like a better reason than you having poor taste in food.”
Your boyfriend continues squeezing your hand, Barbatos’ challenging of his words increasing his anger. After a tense moment of staring each other down, your boyfriend drops your hand and turns away. “Whatever. Do what you want.”
He storms off, pushing one of the little Ds out of the way as he trudged up the stairs. You breathe a sigh of relief, the panic of being alone with him subsiding slightly. You turn to Barbatos, who still has his hand outstretched to you.
Barbatos takes your hand, not missing the wince crossing your features as he gently directs you along. Silently, the two of you walked to the kitchen, and you settled in chopping some vegetables while Barbatos and some of the little Ds worked on the pastries and attended to the pots on the stove. Some of the tension you felt in your muscles released as you focused on your tasks, entranced to the point where you didn’t notice Barbatos’ concerned glances at you between his own tasks.
He was a very perceptive demon, and he could easily see the rage brewing behind your boyfriend’s eyes when he grabbed your hand and dragged you along with him. Barbatos also had enough of a glimpse into your timeline to know of the horrid things this man had done to you, and he had warned Diavolo of having both of you here together for the exchange program, but the prince insisted that the exchange program could somehow resolve or mend these wounds. Barbatos could almost laugh at the naivety of it, if the situation wasn’t clearly life threatening to you.
He found his mind wandering to the incident shortly before you came here- the last thing he had seen in your timeline before having enough of the sickening visuals of the man's behaviors. Forcing you into such obscene acts when your distressed “no’s” could be surely be heard by anyone within a mile radius still haunted his mind when he found his thoughts wandering to you, and he struggled in feeling guilt for not demanding the prince do something about him sooner. While he was glad that the brothers took notice, he couldn’t help but feel as if he enabled the abuse, and Diavolo suggesting such an isolated retreat- under your boyfriend’s suggestion no less- only made him feel worse.
“Barbatos?”
The butler snapped his attention up from the dough he had been kneading, meeting your uncertain eyes. “Hmm?”
“I said I’m finished with the carrots and beets.” You swallow, unsure of why the usually attentive butler had failed to hear you the first time. “Is there anything else you need me to do?”
Barbatos smiled, turning to grab a mixing bowl and some other ingredients. “Yes, I will have you mix these together here. I have the measurements written down here.”
He hands you the open cookbook flipped to a recipe for brown-sugar glazed veggies. As you grab it, you feel the lingering pain from the dislocated thumb jolt through you. You hiss at the sharp pain, dropping the book and sending various ingredients and spices spilling all over the counter and the floor.
“Shit!” You quickly hop off your stool trying to clean up the ingredients as fast as you can despite the throbbing in your hand. Your heart pounds in your ears, completely horrified to what your punishment from the demon would be for your clumsiness. You knew he rivaled Lucifer in his strictness, and his controlled demeanor suggested anything less than perfection would not be tolerated. You yelp as the pain continues up your arm, clutching it to your chest to sooth it.
Barbatos rounds the counter, coming to aid your injury. What he didnt expect, however, was for your to flinch underneath his attempts to console you, and beg for forgiveness for your error. His heart drops as you sob, begging him not to hit you for what you’ve done.
Barbatos slowly sinks down to one knee, gently rubbing your shoulders and reassuring that he had no intentions on harming you. He felt sick, thinking that this is what you had been reduced to as a result of your boyfriend’s abuse. As your tears finally slow, he aided in wrapping your hand, ensuring your thumb would be set into place as you continued to sit with him in the kitchen. There was no way he would send you back out to two straight hours of abuse.
Instead, he let you play some music from the human world, lightening the mood a bit and teaching him things about how various genres sounded in comparison to the Devildom. After the primary dishes were finished and popped into the oven, Barbatos turned to you, reaching across the counter to study your hand injury. You watched him, nervous about what he was thinking as he traced the injury with his index finger.
“He did this...” Barbatos looked up at you, his hardened stare meeting your anxious eyes to confirm what he already knew was the truth.
You gulped. “I...uh...”
“It’s okay.” He cooed, closing his hands around yours and rubbing your wrist gently with his thumb. “I already know... I’m sorry I didn’t help you sooner.”
You blinked at him in surprise. “Wha- I...How...?”
Barbatos gave a short, sad smile, before his lips fell back into a frown. “It isn’t important how I know of the things he’s done to you, Mc. What is important though, is that I will stop at nothing to prevent him from hurting you again.”
You look away, tears slowly sliding down your cheeks. “I...I don’t think you can do anything. I mean, he’s been getting away with it for so long, I-”
Barbatos hushed you, wiping away stray tears from your cheeks. “Let me take care of it. Trust me when I say that he will pay for what he's done.”
You smile weakly as Barbatos pulls you into a gentle hug. Feeling the warmth of his body as he caressed you made you feel safe. You wanted to believe him- to believe there would be an end to this awful, awful nightmare.
It took so long for him to get you alone, but finally, he managed to do it.
After having your fill of socializing for the evening, and you had said your goodnight’s to everyone, you had gone off to bed. Barbatos reminded you to double latch the door- something he had put in place specifically because of your vulnerability- but he didn’t account for the fact that your boyfriend seemingly had more magic affinity than anticipated. He easily bypassed the locks on your door as you readied yourself for bed, slamming the door open and approaching you with pure disdain in his eyes.
“So, what- you’re telling the help all of our private business now too?” He snarled as he approached you, backing you completely into the wall.
“N-no! I didn’t say anything, I swear.” You squeak, trying to hide your exposed body away from him.
“Bullshit.” he spat in your face, quickly grabbing you by the arm and throwing you onto the bed.
You panic, trying to run away, but he grabs you by the arm and jerks you backwards again, this time pinning you against the plush mattress. You feel the ache in your arm as he grips you tighter, hurling accusations and insults at you, and threating to punish you unless you prove your devotion to him. Your heart stops when you feel his posterior press against you, nausea creeping up in your stomach.
Not again.
You beg him to leave you alone, saying you don’t want any of the things he was going to do, but your pleas fall upon deaf ears. He rips what little clothing you have away before making work of his own. You cry in desperation, screaming for help before he silences you with a harsh slap to the face.
“Shut the fuck up.” The man hisses, posturing himself over you.
You whimper, closing your eyes as you prepare for the worst. But the sound of the door slamming open stirs you from your dissociated state.
No words are spoken from your savior, only the growls in anger from your boyfriend, followed by the sounds of a physical struggle.
and then...silence.
You open your eyes, noticing some furniture flipped over in the room and an unfamiliar afghan thrown over the edge of the bed, but other than that no one else was there. There’s a soft nock at your door, followed by Simeon’s voice asking if you were okay. You quickly dress yourself in a robe and shakily greet him, Luke, and Solomon, asking if they can keep you company while you process what had just happened. They each sit around you, Simeon letting you rest your head in his lap, Solomon fixing up your room, and Luke holding your hand while you come down from the panic. You hoped that, where ever he was, your boyfriend would not be returning.
Barbatos forced the door open with ease after hearing your desperate cries for help, requesting that the other concerned exchange students stay back until the room went quiet. He had intended to give you fresh blankets and to teach you a spell to teleport yourself out of your room if you needed to, but he had underestimated that horrid man’s tenacity in exerting his control over you.
Seeing the man attempting to sexually assault you threw him over the edge. Barbatos quickly threw him off you, holding him by the neck with his tails. The man thrashed as he choked for air, but his attempts at freedom were worthless under Barbatos' hold. Barbatos stole a sad, longing glance at your trembling form, feeling immense guilt for you having clearly been hurt again. He made a silent promise to return when he was finished with the scum of a man before disappearing through a portal.
He stepped through to his room, the man kicking and yelling as he dragged his naked body along the brick floor. Barbatos’ mind swarmed with all of the things he wanted to do to him, but he couldn’t settle on just one. Oh- no, no. This man needed to suffer for all he had done.
Barbatos made his way swiftly to the small side room off to the left from his bedchambers. The man squealed as a few bats hissed and flapped around his face, trying his best to shoo them away by flailing his arms. Barbatos scoffed at his trivial fear of a small, harmless animal. He would surely show him what true fear was.
Throwing him into the wall upside down, the man yelped when his back hit the cragged brick. He fell on his neck, groaning at the strain as he tried to right himself. While the man was preoccupied, Barbatos flicked the door shut, 7 locks latching in place at the snap of his fingers. He paced in front of the man, thoughts of how he would make him suffer first racing through his head.
“What the fuck, man?!” the man yelled, trying to find his bearings as he got up off the floor. “You can’t hurt me! I...I’m an exchange student!!”
Once the man was able to adjust his vision to the dark, his heart began to beat faster with anxiety. Seeing Barbatos’ lips curled up into a snarl, his teeth glistening in the moonlight feeding into the room from the large window struck terror into his heart. His serpent-like eyes burned brightly in a viridian hue, piercing the man’s soul. His tail, thrashing behind him, shimmered turquoise, the veins glowing brighter the angrier he seemed to become.
“Just who do you think you are!” He snapped, now standing up to confront the demon. He thought perhaps Barbatos was merely just trying to frighten him, and convinced himself that his status as an exchange student would grant him immunity from harm. “What we do in the bedroom is none of your god damn business!”
Barbatos stopped pacing, fully turning to face the man. His snarl grew, giving the man a better view of his sharp fangs. He felt intense fury flare within his heart as the man tried to assert that you had consented to sexual acts in any way, and he found it difficult to restrain himself from straight-up killing the man. If only this bull-headed man was wise, he would shut his mouth.
“Is that so?” Barbatos hissed. “Because I seem to recall you having no qualms with making it everyone's business in the past. And I don't think screaming for help means anything consensual is going on in that circumstance.”
The man’s eyes widened. “W-what are you talking about?”
Barbatos smirked. “I know much more than you think I do, (name).”
Barbatos stepped forward, now toe-to-toe with the crumbling human before him. Every attempt to back up was met with another forward step, until the man was backed against the wall with no hope for escape.
“At first I was surprised at seeing such despicable behavior from a human.” Barbatos growled, his eyes transfixed on the man’s. He followed his gaze as it darted around the room, searching desperately for some way out. “And I must say, Most demons wouldn’t behave in such a manner toward someone so virtuously innocent. Though, after looking back on human history, it appears that scum like you have done terrible things since the beginning of time.”
The man gulped, trying to side-step the demon and make a run for the door. Barbatos punched the wall next to his head, the brick giving way beneath his fists. Remnants of the brick wall burst from the impact, showering the floor with clay fragments. The man froze, realizing that brick could easily have been his head.
Barbatos cocked his head to the side as the man began to tremble before him. He smirked, knowing he had really begun to strike fear into the man. “I think it’s time your debts came due.”
The man gulped as Barbatos turned away, disappearing into the darkest corner of the room. The man bolted for the door, fumbling with the locks as best he could, though the magic seals rendered them frozen in place.
“Attempting to escape is futile.” Barbatos hissed from the darkness, causing the hairs on the back of the mans neck to stand on end. “Though, it is somewhat amusing that you think you can circumvent justice...”
Before the man could react, a noose fell over his head and he was yanked backwards. A 7-pointed star was painted in black ink on the ground, only barely visible in the low light of the moon. The man was hung in the center, his feet just barely able to touch the ground. He attempted to stand on his toes, desperate to lessen the bite of the rope against his windpipe.
Barbatos approached from the corner, murmuring a spell in a tongue the man didn’t understand. The man tried to speak, but his voice was rendered inaudible over Barbatos’ chants. Barbatos then held up a knife to his own palm, slicing just enough to draw blood and dripping it into a small wooden bowl. After tossing in a few more ingredients, He approached the man.
“I give you the curse of eternal life.” Barbatos remarked, kneeling before the man and dowsing the star in the liquid he created. “It can only be ended by the separation of your brain and heart from your body.”
The man furrowed his brow in confusion, managing to choke out a “W-what?”
Barbatos glanced up, muttering more incompressible words before whispering to the man. “You will soon see.”
The star began to glow a yellowish-green, completely blinding the man for a moment. His skin prickled with electricity for a moment, but it was fleeting as the light faded. He blinked into the dark, finally adjusting enough to see the outline of Barbatos’ figure in front of him.
“Time for a test to see if the curse was successful.” Barbatos noted, a slight curiosity present in his tone, before reaching behind him and yanking down.
Suddenly the man was 5feet off the ground, his ability to breathe completely cut off. He clawed desperately at the rope, trying to free himself, but was unable to get his fingers around the thick fibers that continued to tighten around his neck. He hung there for what seemed like an eternity, praying that death would find him to end the suffering instead after being unable to break free...but death never came.
“Perfect.” Barbatos mused, a nefarious smirk playing on his lips. He dropped the rope that held the man, watching as he fell to the floor.
The man’s body slammed on the ground in a fit of coughs and gulps of air, trying to fill his lungs with as much of it as he could. It wasn’t long before he again felt the pull of the rope on his neck, choking him as he was dragged across the floor.
He wasn’t quite sure when the texture of the floor shifted, but soon enough he felt gritty dirt beneath him rather than the jagged brick of the room he was previously in. He was able to see the remnants of a portal when his eyes focused on the distance, but it quickly dissipated into the low candle light. He could make out some old doors in the dim lighting, but between the tension on his throat and the clouds of dust, his vision could not focus long enough to get any bearings for his surroundings.
Barbatos pulled the man through one of the doors, stopping only to just barely to restrain the man by his arms and neck. Barbatos kicked his knees in from the back, forcing him down in a kneeling position. He gathered his instruments, not caring to ensure they were clean from their previous uses, but being mindful of their sharpness.
Barbatos turned to the man with the long blade he had selected, trailing it across the man’s cheek as observed him. He was eerily silent as he circled his prey, calculating what his first move would be. He felt the ground below wetten as the man soiled himself in fear of what was to come. He scoffed at the cowardice, continuing to trail the blade down the mans bare back to make him tremble in terror.
“I will tell you now, though you may have figured it out- my purpose of giving you eternal life was to prolong your suffering.” He mused, beginning to push the blade a bit harder as he outlined his plan for the man’s torture. “The audacity you have in harming Mc deserves such a punishment.”
Before the man could speak, Barbatos thrust the blade into the left of the man’s upper back. He screamed, begging the butler to end his torture before it had even begun. Barbatos smirked, finding joy in the man’s pain- knowing that he was serving justice for you and what he had put you through for so long.
“Pleading will get you nowhere, you unctuous swine. I have no intent on bringing you mercy,” Barbatos hissed, ripping away the layers of skin and muscles away to expose the bone and organs beneath. He did the same with the right side, relishing in the agonized wails of the man as he skillfully sliced back the flesh.
The man sobbed, trying to thrash against his binds, but giving up when the attempts to flee made the pain worse for him. He even attempted to cast magic to stop Barbatos, not realizing that the butler’s magical affinity was much stronger- especially given the man’s weakened state. Barbatos pinned the tissue back and tethered it magically to the walls of the cell, almost creating a grotesque sculpture of a human with wings.
As he finished pinning the right side, his mind wandered to you, and he found himself longing to return to your aid and ensure you that your safety had been prioritized...but he knew he needed to complete this first. He sighed, finding himself speeding through the last bits of the man’s torment. He aggressively ripped the man’s lungs from their place and pulled them through either side of his spine, producing pained wheezes and coughs as he again struggled to breathe. He stepped back, admiring his work and how he managed to escape with very little blood covering his person, though the cell was coated from top to bottom. He walked around to the front of the man, tilting his chin up with the knife to look him in the eyes.
“You are the lowliest human I have ever had the displeasure in meeting. I only wish that your torture could continue on by my hand, but I am pleased to know that your life will only be agony from here on. Perhaps another day I will return and finally offer you the release of death...that is, if the maggots don’t consume you first.”
The man screeched, demanding Barbatos free him at once. The butler frowned, irritated by the man’s bold attempt at ordering him around. With a few flicks of his wrist, the man’s eyes were cut clean from his skull, plopping onto the floor amongst the mixture of urine and blood. With only a grin in response, Barbatos turned on his heel and left the cell, triple locking the door for safe measure. The man’s screams could be heard through the catacombs of the castle, silenced only when Barbatos closed the portal to his room.
A soft knock at the door jolted you from your slumber. The others had returned to their rooms once you insisted you were okay, ensuring you that you could call on them should you need something. You weren't sure why, but the only one you wanted to hold you at that point was Barbatos. You felt comforted by his presence, and after your talk earlier that evening and his assurance that he would protect you, you felt safer with him than any of the others.
You shuddered in the cool night air as you padded toward the door, unlocking and opening it just a crack to greet who was there. Part of you feared it was your boyfriend, back from wherever he was carted off to. To your relief, it was Barbatos, who was holding a tray of tea and sweet rolls.
“How are you doing?” He cooed, rubbing up and down your back gently.
“I'm aware that it’s late, but...may I come in?” Barbatos' voice was saccharine as he spoke, obviously being careful not to cause you much more stress.
You eagerly welcomed him in. He put the tray down on your nightstand, then turned toward you. Before you had a chance to sit on your bed, he gathered you in a tight embrace. You blinked rapidly in surprise, but melted into his arms, squeezing him back just as tightly.
“Mmm...okay, I suppose...” you murmured back, nuzzling your face against his neck. “Is...is he gone now?”
Barbatos pulled away, a shimmer of something sinister passing by his eyes. He assumed you could have guessed it was him who had taken care of the man you once called a boyfriend, but it still made his chest swell with pride that you were able to identify him so easily as your savior. “Yes. He will not be harming anyone anymore.”
You nod once, relief washing over you in waves. Barbatos sat next to you on the bed, giving your shoulders a gentle massage after pouring you some tea. You almost found his light scolding on your posture aggravating, but you knew they came from a place of reassurance that you were now safe- as long as the loyal butler remained by your side.
Warning(s): Language, angsty feels, mentions of cheating, SMUT
Summary: In the aftermath of your night with Ray, you struggle to move on from the Diaz men, but find difficulty in forgetting the man in question. What happens when you reunite?
A/N: This will not be a full-length story, I think it’ll just be a fun little miniseries that I’ll work on between drabbles and oneshots, but so many of you loved the first part that I couldn’t help but post the sequel earlier than anticipated. Enjoy, my little deviants!
Part 1
You huffed, barely making it through your front door before the handfuls of grocery bags collapsed at your feet. You cringed, shaking your head upwards at the thought of how all the fresh fruit you just bought at the corner bodega was now bruised. Shuffling your feet, you prodded the cans of various sauces and whatnot out of your way, casually closing the front door with your foot and tossed your purse on the nearby sofa.
Your new apartment had finally been put together in your hasty move from the Diaz household. The drive was not so bad, it was long enough to put distance between Oscar and yourself so that you two could avoid any awkward/angry confrontations on the street. But you were relieved, as was Cesar, that it was no more than a 15-minute drive, 25-minute to half hour walk in case the youngest Diaz brother and his friends ever wished to stop by. The pang in your chest whenever your thoughts drifted towards Cesar was still an entirely fresh wound. The way he yelled and cried in your arms the night he came home still made your e/c eyes well up with tears. You would never forgive yourself for the role you played in the separation. Oscar was by no means innocent; his actions were unforgiveable. He cheated on you more times than you would ever care to admit. He made a fool out of the one person who held him down, the one constant in his life. And you would be lying if you said you weren’t still bitter.
Cesar knew the breakup was looming, in the months leading up to that fateful night you and Oscar had gone for each other’s throats. Initially he only left the house to take care of ‘’Santo business’’ but the smell of cheap perfume contradicted that immediately. Despite your valiant efforts, Cesar walked in on you once or twice just crying your eyes out until they became so painfully puffy. History certainly repeated itself in the Diaz house. The only difference was that you managed to get out in, mentally exhausted but physically fine, while his mother had overdosed not two years after Ray was locked up. Cesar partially felt betrayed by everyone involved. Oscar, Ray, and even you. But Oscar had been the real target of Cesar’s anger and hurt. Had Oscar not made Cesar join the Santos, Cesar would’ve had a normal life and possible ticket outside of Freeridge. Had Oscar not been a complete jerk to you, Cesar could’ve had some resemblance of a family left. He still had you, he still had Oscar. But it was never going to be the same.
That said, what you and Ray had done was anything but innocent. ‘’Fuck,’’ you huffed, tossing your keys in the dish by the entryway. As much as you probably should’ve forgotten all about that night. As much as you tried to dismiss the reminiscing, you found yourself in a losing battle. About the way Ray had felt filling you. The drag and pull movements of his manhood along your velvety walls. You involuntarily shivered and cursed yourself as your mind clouded over in a haze of lust.
‘’No. . .no, we aren’t going back there,’’ you chided, working to tidy up the place. ‘No matter how much I may long to. . .’ you mentally noted as your actions quickened in a pathetic attempt to block the mental image of Ray hovering over you, filling your tightness. The familiar pitter patter of butterflies in your abdomen alerted you of your arousal. The blush that steadily spread across your cheeks did the same.
Ray and you had seldom spoken in the nearly 40 days it took for you to find an apartment in a safe part of Freeridge (upon Oscar’s insistence, to your shock) and for you to gather your belongings and move out (thanks to the efforts of Sad Eyes and Tito, also upon Oscar’s insistence and your shock). When you had said a quick goodbye to your ex of five years and the boy you practically raised since he was a small fourth grader, the longing look in Ray’s eyes was not lost on you. Whereas Cesar walked you to your car, Oscar hung back on the porch trying his best to seem unbothered, Ray leaned against the side gate of the house. A cigarette hung loosely between his lips as he made sure to stay out of Oscar’s line of vision. You didn’t need to look up at him to know he was watching you. To know that look in his eyes. You had the same look as you drove way, only concealing it as to avoid another fist fight between Oscar and his father.
The apartment itself was nice and homey. Your job in real estate, selling mostly houses in Brentwood, made sure that you could afford nicer furniture, a stocked fridge, and lunch money for Cesar. He would alternate, opting to camp out on your charcoal gray couch while Oscar enjoyed the benefits of a newly single life back home. You feigned ignorance or uncaringness whenever Cesar showed up late at night with a sympathetic look in his deep brown eyes, but every time you thought about the girls drifting in and out of the only home you had truly known the past five years, your heart clenched in your throat.
Sad Eyes had been another figure who graced your doorstep every now and then. He insisted it was because of the friendship you and he had maintained since high school, but something told you he was keeping tabs on you. The one, single one night stand you had partaken in a few nights ago just so happened to be cut short (too short) when Sad Eyes conveniently began pounding on the door. The situation had Oscar’s hypocritical jealous antics written all over it. Nonetheless, Jose was a good friend of yours’ and he along with Tito and the other Santos were a big help in setting up the place to your liking.
As you drifted around the entertainment area, around the balcony, and around the kitchen watering your various plants, your brows furrowed. The one person who hadn’t really visited you, aside from Oscar of course, was the one man you couldn’t stop thinking about.
Your night with Ray was far too passionate, or so you thought, to be just a one-time thing. As sick and twisted it might be, as horrible of a person that made you, you couldn’t help but yearn to have another night with the Diaz patriarch. Subconsciously, your hand drifted to your collarbone, sighing through your nose as visions of his strong, rough hands exploring your flesh resonated within you. Part of you shrunk back into your shell, your subconscious telling you that Oscar had clearly taken after his father when it came to breaking hearts. That Ray probably hadn’t been with a woman since being released from prison. That you were just an easy fix, a convenience for him in the form of an insecure and emotionally exhausted hyna. He didn’t see you anything other than a tight hole to keep his dick warm. You bit your lip, hands clutching the kitchen counter until your knuckles turned nearly pale.
But the other part of you felt in your bones that it was not just an easy fix. That, yes lust fueled and spurred his actions, but there was something about the way he looked at you as you drove away from the house. Something that screamed ‘’more.’’ An enchanting, debauching look. Interest, maybe, but still more all the same. More.
Your fingers danced down the valley of your breasts, down your abdomen, until your fingertips made contact with the top of your leggings. Admittedly, you had forgone wearing underwear this particular day, out of laziness, but you were certainly not complaining as your fingers met the wetness of your tight folds. An airy sigh escaped your lips, eyes closed as those fingers danced along your sensitive folds like little ballerinas.
Your other hand began kneading your still clothed breasts, becoming rougher in an attempt to mirror the way Ray had done. Whether it was the forbidden, sinful nature of that night or not, no other man, not even Oscar had made you feel so erotic the way Ray Diaz had. Your eyelids fluttered shut as your moans steadily flowed past your lips like a gentle choir. The middle finger curled in the depths of your core, your index finger gently rolling the sensitive pearl above. The faster your digits worked, the easier it became to imagine Ray’s touch. The smell of his shampoo with the slight musk of his sweat from working out in the front lawn. The way he grunted every time he slammed into your core. The way his eyes went nearly black from pure lust and primal desire when he looked over your quivering form.
‘’R-Ray,’’ you whimpered to yourself, panting as your fingers worked diligently.
‘’Don’t stop, nena.’’
Your eyes flew wide open, your mouth following suit as the man of the hour stood in your front door, learning against the frame. That infamous, lopsided Diaz smirk left no room to question where his boys got it from.
‘’Don’t stop on my account,’’ he repeated, uncomfortably shifting his weight to his other leg, a very noticeable bulge catching your attention immediately. You gulped.
‘’How the f-fuc. . .wha. . .why?’’ you screeched, hand quickly retreating from your pulsing, needy pussy much to your discomfort. You were convinced that he could feel the heat of your blush from across the room.
‘’The front door was unlocked. I know it’s a safer neighborhood, but you still need to-‘’
‘’I meant why the hell are you here?’’ you didn’t mean to sound as bitchy as it had came out, but you were slightly jilted from the way he had ignored you the pas several weeks.
No calls. No texts. No surprise visits. Until now.
The smirk faded from his handsome face, becoming more serious although his eyes showed the slightest hint of a mix of shame and sorrow.
‘’Y/n,’’ he sighed, eyes turning to look down at the floor. It was amazing how, for a split second, the father of two and former Santos member had morphed into a nervous young man. You could almost pinpoint what he looked like younger.
You stilled, heart still racing violently in your chest. He had rarely called you by your name before. Even before you two had sex, it had always been ‘’nena’’ or ‘’mamacita.’’ In fact, you were sure he only used your name once. When he came inside you and sealed your fate. You suppressed a shiver, but Ray quickly caught the effect he still had on you. He regained some of his courage, standing up straight. Your eyes quickly surveyed the way his muscles automatically flexed as his arms folded up and crossed his chest. Damn him.
‘’I’m sorry I haven’t called or visited. . .I wasn’t sure if you wanted anything to do with me considering. . .,’’ his thoughts trailed off, not wanting to discuss the way Oscar had blown up after catching you. One thing you admired about Oscar, that despite his temper he never laid a hand on you. He would rage and toss some furniture in the opposite direction and yell like a madman. But his rage was mostly directed at Ray that night.
‘’We need to talk to you, hermano,’’ Oscar’s deep voice cut the silence as you resisted the urge to glare at the Santos’ leader.
‘’Okayyy?’’ Cesar offered an awkward smile, sitting at the dinner table. The same dinner table that just moments prior had been flung on its’ side as Oscar raged throughout the house. You had barely tossed the scattered food into the trash can before Cesar walked in.
Ray cleared his throat and retreated to the side door of the house, probably smoking a cigarette to calm his nerves as the ‘’adults’’ had their talk.
‘’Cesar,’’ you started, reaching across the table to gently grasp his hand. When had he gotten so big? You never once tried to be the mother he had lost to drugs as a five-year-old. You never took away the authority figure that was forcibly bestowed onto Oscar. You were just Y/n; his brother’s girlfriend. But you knew you were the closest thing Cesar ever had to a mother/motherly figure. And you had fucked it all up.
‘’What’s going on?’’ his thick brows knotted in confusion. You hesitantly glanced at Oscar, him biting back a glare towards you as he sighed.
‘’Y/n is moving out,’’ he mumbled and if you didn’t know Oscar any better, you could’ve sworn there was a hint of sadness in his voice.
‘’Wait.. . what?’’ it broke your heart hearing the confusion and panic in Cesar’s voice.
‘’Cesar, it’s ok. I’ll still be here whenever you need me. It’s just,’’ you trailed off, your own voice wavering as you tried to muster up the best way to explain things.
‘’No it’s not ‘ok.’ Why are you leaving us? Leaving me?’’ Cesar’s voice steadily rose, yanking his hand away from you. The gesture made you wince.
‘’Cesar,’’ Oscar’s tone slowly shifted to that of Spooky.
‘’No! Tell me why she’s leaving. Why is she really leaving!’’ Cesar stood up abruptly, nearly knocking the chair to the floor. Somewhere outside Ray coughed on a nicotine coated cloud. The room filled with uncomfortable silence.
‘’Cesar. Sometimes, people just fall out of love. Things happen. Life happens. Sometimes even adults make really shitty decisions and they change on each other,’’ your voice remained soft as you sadly looked up at the boy you helped raise. You resisted the urge to look at Oscar’s gutted expression, knowing that if you did you would surely lose it. It had been that exact moment you regretted not leaving the house as soon as Ray walked in just hours before.
Cesar’s gaze softened as he looked down at you, but once his chocolate brown hues fell upon his brother, they quickly hardened with anger.
‘’You did this. . .you fucking had to get your dick wet that bad that you didn’t even consider her! She did everything for us! For you! She was there for me when you weren’t! You were too busy being Spooky that you couldn’t be fucking bothered!’’ he snarled.
‘’Watch your fucking mouth, Lil Spooky,’’ Oscar steadily rose on his two feet, towering over Cesar. You stood as well, ready to jump into the lion’s den if necessary.
Cesar scoffed, a mocking smile on his lips before it quickly gave way to the coldest glare. He looked nearly identical to Oscar. ‘’You’ve given Ray so much shit for leaving us and abandoning his family. . .in reality you’re no better.’’
Oscar lunged forward, the two brothers tangled up as fists were flying.
‘’Oscar stop!’’ you screamed, throwing yourself into your ex, dodging fists left and right. Ray barged back into the house, getting a grip of Oscar as you shoved Cesar in the opposite way. The sound of Oscar’s fist coming into contact with Ray’s jaw echoed throughout the house.
‘’Get the fuck off of me! Get the fuck off of me!’’ Oscar snarled, desperately trying to shove his father off him to no avail. What Ray lacked in height when it came to Oscar, he made up with in strength. You could see Ray struggling to rein in his anger and maintain his grip on his son. Tears filled your eyes as well as Cesar’s as the two of you fell to the floor, watching the two men struggle.
‘’Had enough?’’ Ray grunted. He still smelled like you, and that more than anything broke Oscar.
Oscar managed to shove the Diaz patriarch off, falling back against the wall as he huffed, tears clouding his vision. His eyes fell on you and for once, he saw the damage his infidelities caused blow up in his face. His baby brother crying into your arms, begging it all to stop as you cried to yourself in the corner. Both of you looked so small, you looked so defeated. He had fucked up. You met his broken gaze, shaking your head as if you could will all of this to evaporate. You had fucked up. The next morning, you began looking around Freeridge for apartments. The next few weeks, Oscar helped you load up your car as you moved twenty-five minutes away from the only home you knew. The day after that? You gathered the rest of your belongings and bit back a sob as you held Cesar in a crushing hug. As you looked over his shoulder, you saw Oscar leaning against the porch’s structure, biting his lip as he looked down at you, fighting the urge to ask you to stay. To work through it. But he quickly realized that was what he had been asking of you throughout all of these years. And that is why he remained silent as you pulled out of the Diaz’s driveway. He didn’t move until your car was out of sight.
You shook your head, leaning against the island in the middle of your kitchen. Your hands rubbed and massaged at your temples, biting down on your bottom lip to prevent the tears from falling. ‘’That was on me,’’ you whispered, voice croaking with emotion. You jumped when you felt Ray’s strong hand on your shoulder. You gasped as a jolt of electricity passed through the two of you. Judging from the quick intake of breath, Ray felt it too.
‘’I’m so sorry,’’ he whispered. You straightened out, looking up at Ray despite still only reaching his collar bone. The inner struggle was clear as day in Ray’s eyes. He was undoubtfully attracted to you. But more than that, he admired you. The way you cared for his sons. The way you managed to handle the lifestyle of the Santos while still obtaining your classy demeanor. You were capable of holding down a family. And although you were insecure thanks to what his eldest son had put you through, Ray wanted nothing more than to reassure you of your worth.
You hesitated for just a moment, before lunging upwards and meeting Ray in a passionate kiss. A kiss that conveyed all the words you wished to say, but didn’t have the strength to voice. His hands clutched your hip and cradled the side of your neck as he returned the kiss tenfold. Whether it was lust, genuine interest, curiosity, or some weird concoction of all three you found it entirely all too easy to throw caution to the wind around this man.
You nipped at Ray’s bottom lip playfully, biting back a grin when you solicited a low moan from him. Pride be damned. Morals be damned. You had no obligation to Oscar anymore. Cesar didn’t need to know about this. It would just be a secret between the two of you.
The whimper that escaped your lips as he forcefully tugged off your top sent shivers down Ray’s spine. He grunted when his eyes feasted on the exposed skin. Without him even asking you, you unclasped your bra and stood topless in front of him. He dove down, expertly taking your nipple into his hot mouth and began twirling his tongue around your hardened bud. You moaned mewled, hands running through his short hair and roaming his broad, muscled back. Your eyes rested on the faded Santos cross on his arm, whimpering when he nipped at your sensitive skin.
‘’R-Ray,’’ you moaned lowly, mouth falling open when his hand made contact with your ass in a playful slap. You had no time to recover before he pulled away from you, gently turning you so that your front was pushed and pinned against the cool surface of the granite island. You hissed as your already hard, sensitive tits pressed against the freezing surface. You rested your cheek against the counter, shivering as Ray yanked down your leggings.
‘’Fuck,’’ he moaned, seeing your wet core fully exposed and presented to him.
‘’You’re going to be the death of me mami,’’ he whispered, pressing his bulge against your gaping hole. You bit your lip at the heat that emitted from his still clothed cock. You knew what was awaiting you and your insides coiled at the anticipation.
Each of his massive hands took a firm hold on the globes of your ass, gripping them and spreading you apart so that you were on full display under him. You let out a shaky breath between panting when his hot saliva met your tightness. His thumb spread it against your folds, teasing your clit before diving two fingers into your awaiting cunt. Ray all but growled at the way you gripped his digits. The delicious way you pulsed and clenched excitedly around his middle and index finger. He found himself constantly thinking, ‘I could get used to this.’
‘’Ray,’’ your needy voice broke him out of his thoughts as he folded over you, you feeling ever muscle of his chest against your bare back as he pressed light kisses against your shoulder before finally meeting your cheek and then your plump lips.
‘’I need you,’’ you whispered, leaning into his kisses and sighing when you heard him pull himself from his pants.
‘’You have me, princessa,’’ he grunted, working himself with one hand as the other tangled with yours’. ‘’You have me, all of me,’’ he groaned thrusting his hips forward and filling you with a brutal, singular thrust. You cried out, the burn of him stretching your tight canal was familiar and slightly painful, but divine all at once. His hand clenched yours, as if assuring you that you were ok, his lips still kissing the tears that threatened to escape the corners of your eyes.
‘’Fuck y/n,’’ he groaned, savoring the feel of his cock dragging within your tight pussy, pulling you back towards him as bit, only for you to bounce forward as he thrusted back into your core. He set a fast, brutal pace as the sounds of his thrusts echoed off the walls. You were grateful that your neighbors were at work, the wanton mewls and cries that escaped your lips would’ve surely caught their attention. As his hand held yours throughout the entire time he fucked into you, the other had a firm grip on your shoulder. Pinning you down so that you couldn’t slip from his cock and pulling you back to impale yourself on to his thickness.
You attempted to burn the sounds of his grunts and groans, as well as the squelching of your tight core every time his hips snapped against you from behind, but soon became overwhelmed. He was heavy and hot inside of you. You could feel exactly where he was every time he was seated inside of you. Your body bounced in tune with his movements, but the feeling of his heavy, throbbing manhood in your cunt was something you’d always savor.
Before you could even speak, waves of euphoria crashed within you as your release fell over his still hard cock. You could only cry out his name, panting it out as his hold on you tightened. He pressed fully against you, curling over your back as his cock throbbed and pulsed violently, painting your insides with his release.
His arms wrapped around your front, dragging you so that you rested against his chest, impaling you on his still solid dick. With awkward movements he led you past the kitchen, into your bedroom while every step you took resulted in another jolt as you practically balanced yourself on his cock.
Ray only pulled out briefly, laying you on your back on your mattress. He hovered over you, panting as his eyes glazed over at the sight of you. Your hair sprawled out like a crown around you, chest heaving with your labored breath and the post-orgasm tremors that shook you. What really caught his attention was the sight of your pretty pussy, still impossibly tight, dripping with his load onto your sky-blue comforter.
‘’Ray,’’ you whispered, reaching up for him. He laid over you, crashing his lips against your lips, seating himself back inside you. Your hands clawed at the white tank he still had on, only or him to pull away slightly and yank it off, tossing it carelessly into the corner of your room. His sweatpants were next along with any other article of clothing he had previously worn. All that was left was himself, bare and all.
Your leggings had been long abandoned in the kitchen and the moment his bare skin met yours, your fates were sealed. It was hot, passionate, deplorable, mind-blowing, wicked, otherworldly sex. Your nails embedded themselves into his back and shoulders, your legs wrapping around his hips as they crashed into you. Your moans mingled with one another, lips and teeth occasionally clashing against each other as he moved in you.
‘’It’s been too fucking long without this tight pussy, princessa. My pussy,’’ he growled, hammering into you as you struggled to keep up with his thrusts. Your clutched the comforter beneath you as that familiar coil began curling and tightening within you. He was reaching new depths, exploring new parts of you that you didn’t even know existed. And all you could do was lay there, moan out his name, and take it.
‘’Fuck, Ray, yes, fuck it feels so good,’’ you whined, throwing your head back as he began nipping and sucking on the column on your neck.
‘’Cum for me, mi reina,’’ he grunted, every muscle flexing as he moaned and panted above you. His hands were wrapped around your hips, dragging and pulling you upwards to meet his thrusts. The coil was impossibly tight, tears running down your cheeks and falling onto the bed below from the sensation of it all.
But came you did, violently around his manhood. You shook underneath him, mouth warped into an ‘’o’’ shape as you sighed and moaned under him. His thrusts sped up, to your shock, and it all came to a close the moment he pulled you to him, tucking his face into the base of your neck as his hot, thick load filled you once more.
As he pulsed within you, your pussy clenching and unclenching from the aftermath of two mind-blowing orgasms back to back, you simply laid there. You basked in the aftermath of it all, shivering when his load began dripping out of you and pooling onto the blanket, leaving a quarter-sized dark spot in its’ path. Once your breathing returned to normal, Ray met your eyes, a softness in them. His mouth met yours in a comforting, warm kiss. He was still inside you when you closed your eyes and fell into a satisfying, deep sleep.
When you had opened your eyes, it was visibly night-time. The orange glow of the streetlights illuminated your bedroom from your sheer curtains. Ray was knocked out beside you, one muscled arm thrown over your side in a protective manner. A small smile graced your lips, widening when you felt the strangely satisfying soreness between your legs.
You quietly got out of bed, maneuvering around the apartment to get a glass of water while trying not to disturb Ray. You had no idea where this was going to lead you. You weighed the possibilities. To date your ex-boyfriend’s father just seemed so ridiculous and wrong. No matter what Oscar had put you through with his infidelities, to go ahead and enter a relationship with his father just seemed cruel to you. And what would Cesar think if he were to catch you and Ray together? At the same time, you didn’t want to say goodbye to Ray. Aside from great sex, you felt a genuine connection with him. He was older, yes, but he made you feel things that nobody ever had. You huffed, sipping on your water as you felt the beginnings of a headache approaching. A sudden knock and turn of your front door startled you to the point you nearly dropped your glass onto the hardwood floor.
‘’Y/n,’’ Cesar’s voice was muffled, but clear as day through the door.
You gulped, body stiff with shock and fear. From your bedroom, the mattress creaked as Ray sat up, eyes groggy with sleep.
‘’Y/n?’’ he called out, getting up to check what the commotion was.
‘’Fuck me,’’ you sighed, mind racing and heart rising to your throat once more. You were so fucked.
a/n: Let’s normalize period talk. If anyone feels they need someone to talk to, I am here for you seeing as I endure hell with my period/PCOS/endometrial cancer. This was anonymously requested, however their requested contained s4 spoilers which is why I didn’t post their ask. But thank you boo for the request! 😗 Follow, like, comment, reblog, turn on notifs por favooooor!
he is patient and understanding when Aunt Flo comes to town
🍬🍫🍬 all the sweets🍬🍫🍬
once you unexpectedly got your period at work and Oscar stopped by with a change of clothes and hygiene products
not a single f!ck given about going to store for you
“I got you travel flush-able wipes, better cleaning for when you’re on the go and shit.”
Oscar knowing when to give you all the attention as well when to give you space
back rubs, cuddles and him playing with your hair
finding a little care bag in you middle console; extra pad/tampons, wipes, midol etc... “stop leaving this at home, nena.”
❗️ Oscar being educated❗️
“Did you know 11% of women suffer from endometriosis? 1 in 4 have PCOS. Make an appointment, bebe. You were so nauseated from your cramps, shouldn’t be like that.”
you’d be irritable, unable to concentrate but he’s always patient with you
dubbed with a heavy flow, it would be almost always you leak over night, but he would never make it a big deal
“Amor, despierta, wake up. Let me clean the sheet. It’s fine, bebe. Com’n I got the shower running.” 🥺
wearing his big shirts and sweats, staying in to watch movies and binge watch tv shows that you already watched 23 times
it hurts to see you in so much pain from the cramping
he would create makeshift heating pads; a tied sock with uncooked rice that can be reheated in the microwave, endlessly 🤤
never childish or teasing if you happen to leak while in public
giving you his flannel to wrap around your waist
many don’t know that one of your first encounters with Oscar was at a party when he noticed the red stain on your behind and he shrugged off his flannel for you, “Here.” He moved closer to your ear, “you’re leaking.”
you being beyond embarrassed, walking out but he followed and assured you that it was natural. “I’m Oscar by the way, let me walk you home.”
he learned to track your cycles with you
the mood swings would have him groaning and/or laughing
“Hm, no wonder there is a broomstick in the bathroom, la bruja está en camino. The witch is on her way, Ay, cálmate! I’m kidding... maybe.”
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Summary: The relationship with you and Oscars suddenly ends after he gets locked up. Now it’s 4 years later..
warnings: HELLA angst, heartbreak
word count: 1.9K
a/n: I had an itch to write today, thank you for requesting babes! Sorry it took this long to get done. I hope everyone is doing okay these days. PSA: Stop the hate against Asians! Speak up for our brothers and sisters, please. I love you all! Please consider: following, heart/comment/reblog my content! Thank you <)
Requested by @boujee-bitches!
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You can remember the day you realized just how much you were in love with Oscar Diaz. It was a few months into dating, he had been in and out of town on Santo business, and yet still was able to check in with you. He even sent you doordash multiple times. And in that one moment, as the doordash driver stood at your door, carrying a bag of your favorite pastrami sub, you truly felt your heart bleed for Oscar. The feelings entirely mutual with him. You can remember that exact moment you felt it, just as you remember the moment your heart had been ripped away.
The consequence of having such a pristine memory is the ability to remember not only the good days but the hurtful ones as well. Now, after years of being with Oscar, he’s gone. Things had been going so well with the Santos and moving up in the ranks for him. Then in a matter of seconds, all that changed. The moment those handcuffs linked his wrists together behind his back as he was whisked away in the back of the patrol car was the day everything changed.
Change.
They always say that change is a good thing. But whoever they are, they were wrong. Change is malicious, it’s life-consuming and does nothing but harm. In the beginning you were confident everything would be okay. Nothing could break this man, he has been through the highest highs and the lowest lows. He has endured things as a young child that no child should. Even when the judge has sentenced him to 8 years, the look he gave you said: It’ll be okay, mamas.
For the first few months, things were good. The money he would send to you, you’d put on his books regardless of his wishes for you not to do so. The phone calls that didn’t last nearly as long as you wanted it to. And the letters, even if you talked on the phone and visited him often, Oscar still wrote you letters, and he always drew something for you.
But it began to get difficult. When school started up in the fall, your full-time job and now taking care of his younger brother, you started to miss calls, needed to reschedule visits. And when you would answer, Oscar would give you the cold shoulder. He realized that you were beating yourself up for trying to juggle everything. He hated himself for making you so stressed just to make it to him. So on a surprise call that you weren’t expecting, he broke it to you that dating while he is incarcerated is foolish of you. It’s a waste of your time. Please take care of yourself and Cesar, we’ll see where we are when I’m out. But for now, it’ll be just me.
That day replays in your mind. No more calls, rejected visits, ghost letters. It felt like he died, though you would have been notified of it if that was the case. But that was 4 years ago, everything had changed and according to Cesar, it’s about to change again.
“I’m sorry, what did you say?” You ask, after holding your breath. Spooky gets out tomorrow.
Cesar shovels the rest of his cereal in his mouth and gulps down the remaining milk, rushing around the kitchen and gathering his school things, “Oscar. He gets out tomorrow. His sentence reduced to half the time, remember the hearing they had last week?”
Whenever Cesar would talk about his older brother, you would tune it out. Oscar breaking up with you over the phone without a thorough reason, then dropping you as a person all together really broke you beyond repair. But you had no choice but dust off your shoulders and keep going.
You hum and nod, packing your lunch.Without saying anything else, you head back to your room to get your things ready for work. As you pass by the room that Cesar had taken residency in, you notice the packed bags. “Cesar!”
But by the time you make it back to the kitchen, he has already left out the door. Was he about to leave? Did he want out now that Oscar will be out? Though the idea was to care for Cesar while his brother was locked up, to know he is already ready to up and leave, hurts you. But you shake it off, Oscar is coming home, shit.
Your day goes by painstakingly slow. All you could think about is how it would go when you’d see him again, how will you feel? What about him, what will he feel?
“Y/N, did you hear me?” Cesars voice sounds from across the table, the two of you enjoying some take-out. The day has gone from slower than a sloth to as quick as sonic the hedgehog.
He stares at you, waiting for you to respond. “Now that Oscar is getting out, it’s time for you to head on back home. Yeah, I heard you. Just sucks is all, I feel like my daily routine will be all messed up.” You joke to which he grins at.
The next day comes by in a blink of an eye. Here you are leaning against your car that is parked in front of Oscars house. You can’t bring yourself to walk up those stairs and face him. But he hasn’t exited the house yet, you wonder if he even will. After Cesar gets the last bag is when you hear the front door. He makes his way towards you, your breath getting stuck in your airways.
Cesar hugs you and thanks you again, you squeeze him and ask that he doesn’t be a stranger. Then there stood, you and Oscar. He stares at you for a long moment, studying you. It’s been nearly 4 years since he’s seen you. You are the same with little differences here and there, “You finally pierced your nose.” He points out.
You purse your lips and nod, scoffing and looking him in the eyes, “Almost 1,300 days of not talking to me and seeing me…. And my nose ring is the first thing you say to me?”
It wasn’t the plan to argue, you wanted to ask him to be kind to Cesar and take care of him then be on your merry way. But being in his physical presence now, it’s made your blood boil. How could he stand there like nothing had happened between you? The history you two have was an epic love and heartbreak but by the look on his face, it’s as if you are a stranger in passing.
He licks his bottom lip and digs his hands into his shorts pockets, “What you want me to say? I said all I needed to that day on the phone.”
Your arms uncross from over your chest and your mouth falls slightly open. But before you can let out the rage that’s been building up continuously over the years, “I miss you, querida.” He watches your face contort to confusion then back to anger. He nearly smiles to see that you are still the hot head you’ve always been.
The words weren’t coming out as you wanted them to. All you could do was stomp past him to leave but he grabs your upper arm to stop you. You look down to where his hand wraps around your arm then up to his eyes, the look you give him is loud enough for him to let go.
“Can you just listen to me? You think I wanted to break things off? That it didn’t hurt me just as much as it hurt you?” Oscar begins, standing directly in front of you and slightly craning his head down. “I fucking hated that I did that to you, mami. The last thing I want in this world is not being with you, to cause you pain and to have done that when I was locked up? I hated it. Every single day. But I needed to do it because all I was doing was holding you back. I couldn’t bare knowing that I was making your life hard.”
An eruption of laughter sounds from you, you hold your stomach and one hand clamped over your mouth, hunching over from how hilarious you find his last sentence. Though anyone else hearing it wouldn’t really laugh, seeing as it wasn’t a funny statement. “I’m sorry, I don’t mean to laugh. But do you hear yourself? You thought breaking up would be better. I don’t know if there was ever a time during our relationship prior that I made you feel I couldn’t handle something like you being locked up, I am terribly sorry if I had but I thought I proved to you that I was more than in love with you, I was hopelessly devoted to you, I was willing to endure it all, every call or visit. I was ready to work hard to make sure you could make tienda… but what did I do or what did I say to make you think otherwise?”
Oscar feels the chains on his heart tighten with every word you say. He doesn’t know what hurts him more, the break-up or now knowing how worthless it made you feel. He knows you are an understanding person, but his intentions didn’t settle as he hoped it would.
It takes all his might to resist pulling you into a hug, With how you reacted to his touch just moments ago, he knows a hug would only result in profanities being spewed out. As if a hug could magically glue the pieces back together and fix it all. “You didn’t do shit wrong, Y/N. You were the epitome of a down ass girl. But all I could see was the tiredness in your face when you would visit me because you were playing mother to Cesar meanwhile trying to juggle everything else. Trying to make sure you would always come to see me… so I thought ending everything would be better, I thought you would be better off.”
The rage and ache in your heart fights against each other. He is saying one thing but to you its processing as nothing but an excuse. You want to yell and thrash your fists against his chest so he can feel just a sliver of what you went through.
“I was better off with you. It didn’t matter to me what we were going through Oscar… If it was something joyous or something scrutinizing, as long it was with you and we were together, I wanted it all with you. I was ready to go through this journey with you. But you just gave up on us like that.” You snap your fingers and blink away the tears that had begun pooling for sometime now. His shoulders cave in and he dips his head down, unable to keep his eyes locked onto yours.
“Give me a chance to prove that I haven’t given up on you or us.”
You wanted to laugh again. To point and scream how silly he sounds and to catch the circus act before they leave town but the way he says it is the reason you didn’t. How low his voice is, how soft his eyes are and his walls had dropped to below sea level is what made you stand so incredibly still.
Do you take the chance? Should push aside all the vines and roots that have grown over the chest labeled: Oscar, to let him in again?
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“And this little piggy picked up a 40 for her papa!”
You laugh to yourself hearing Oscar switch up the nursery rhymes lyrics like he always does. As he has said before, he has to adjust the mainstream stuff to his lifestyle for his children. He said that tradition doesn’t run in his family so forget the cute sappy lyrics!
He continues on with singing to his baby.
Today marks two months since you welcomed your daughter into the world. She is the center of both yours and Oscar’s crazy world. The pregnancy came as a shock to you both but nonetheless you welcomed her with open arms. And since that very day she came, she knocked you off the throne of being Oscar Diaz’s number 1 girl.
The only downfall about celebrating today is that she had a check-up today. And today’s check up includes a variation of shots she needs to get. And though most would think it is you dreading it, people would be surprised to know that it’s Oscar who is having a hard time. He laid awake last night, going on and on about how he wished there was a better way to give it to her.
“Why can’t it be an oral medication?”
“Why didn’t they give her all the medicines when she was born?
“Why couldn’t they do all that when you were pregnant with her so you could get it all then since she was connected to you like that she would get it?”
It was question after question to nearly 2AM. He tried his hardest to not worry and think of his baby girl screaming in pain. That’s why he has her glued to him as you get ready. “And even though you can’t have ice cream yet, if you could then we would go get some after your appointment! A couple more months, mamas.”
The sound of him smooching her on the cheek makes you feel all warm insides. You peer out of the bathroom to catch a glimpse of them two. She’s laying on her back and Oscar is hovering over her to get her to smile for him. She coos at him, communicating in the only way she knows how. Her papa smiled heavenly at her.
You broke the moment to tell him you were ready. Oscar groans but buckles her in his car seat. He even went as far as having you drive to the doctors office so he could sit in back with her. These are the moments that you live for.
“Okay, so four total today. We’ll administer two at a time to make it quicker for her.” The doctor tells you as he steps out with the nurse. Oscar lays her down in just her diaper like they asked. He sighs once more as caresses her cheek, “Be brave, my little mariposa.”
“You too, my big baby.” You squeeze his cheek as he groans, pulling away. He knows you find it amusing on how much it stresses him. Oscar sticks out his tongue at you before bringing his attention back to his little girl.
Her pediatrician and nurse return with her shots. Oscar stands behind the examination table, letting your daughter hold onto one of his fingers. It’s the cutest thing to see her little hand wrapped around his finger. You both watch the doctor and nurse prepare the syringes.
“Here we go, one, two, three..” Oscar immediately looks away and squeezes his eyes shut. The shrill of her scream makes him reach out for your hand. He grasps it tightly as you focus on your daughter’s cries. “And again, last ones. All done!”
“Good job baby, all done, no more!” You try to comfort her but she continues to scream. After the doctors give you the okay to pick her up, Oscar does so immediately. He carefully pulls her up to his shoulder, grabbing her blanket to cover her.
He rocks her back and forth to calm her cries, “Papa is right here. I’m sorry they had to poke you like that. It’s okay, it’s all done now.” You step behind Oscar to get a look at your little girl. She is beginning to settle and some hiccups have set in. It’s then you notice that Oscar’s cheeks are wet as well. His eyes red. You wipe your daughter's cheeks and then his.
Oscar moves away, trying to deny before you can say anything, “It’s her tears, not mine.” He uses his free hand to wipe his face dry. He sniffles as well as quietly as he could but you giggle hearing him do so.
A smug look on your face makes him roll his eyes. He kisses your daughter's temple, “Yeah, yeah whatever. Eh, real foos cry too!”
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