#progress blog

[pretending-to-be-fit]

Are you still out there?

If you end up seeing this post, hey hi hello!

This is a PSA, since I've now been in eating disorder treatment for almost 9 months. Turns out the "recovery" I thought I was pursuing, some of which is documented on this "progress blog," wasn't actually what recovery looks like.

I'm leaving this blog up for my own posterity, but if you happen to come across it and start to compare our bodies, or you admire my behaviors as "disciplined", or if you feel like you're chasing a version of yourself you can't ever seem to reach: please use this opportunity to take a breath.

There was so much distress behind these pictures (and the 12 years before them, and the three years after). For me, getting actual help has been key.

If you think maybe there's even a slight chance you're struggling with your relationship with food and your body, seek support. Look into providers who practice intuitive eating and Health At Every Size (HAES). Connect with a therapist and/or dietitian with HAES and IE training. Read Anti-Diet by Christy Harrison. Watch Dr. Jeffery DeSarbo's YouTube series on the neurobiology of eating disorders. Check out NEDA for information and resources. Join support groups IRL or online. Please please please be kind to you.

Believe yourself if you think there's any possibility you need help. As one client in my residential treatment put it, "Healthy people don't spend time wondering if they're sick enough."

Feel your feels and eat your meals y'all!

[andagii-projects]

These Rites of Severance - Progress 2/?

I spent today on a couple of my antagonists.

The thing is, neither of them are really "antagonists" as far as "bad guys" go. They're more like "opposing forces" that go up against Jhana due to their circumstances.

One of them is the first major boss of the game, a monster of a sea serpent called the Anathema of the Abyss.

To understand this Anathema is to understand Jhana, which makes for an even stronger opening act, so I knew I needed to make this deep dive. Why did he become an Anathema? What happened, what went so wrong that he then affected Jhana's development? Did he wish to turn out this way? What did he dream of doing with his life, and what was he actually doing when he succumbed to this curse?

And hoo boy did I figure out a lot.

This is the kind of deep dive that I want to do for every part of this game. Nothing should be meaningless or filler, unless it's meant to be as comedic relief.

I'm going into the script now to draft some lines about shops, locations, and the environment of Irabu Harbor. And then maybe some story too, which should lead to the first dungeon of the game, Deeptide Shrine.

See you for another progress update!

Listening to...

[candygoregame]

hi! i'm finn. i'm a transmasc digital illustrator and i've been drawing for a bit over seven years now i decided to make a progress blog to stay active online. i'm currently working on a vn named candygore, a sugary sweet horror story!

if you're interested in seeing the progress, stay tuned!

[pickmepickmenot]

Hey all, sorry it’s been a little while.

I got a psychiatrist appointment but it’s not until April, but today I started ERP therapy (exposure- response- prevention.)

We had to pick something to begin with and my list seemed never ending. We chose the toilet. I get in and out as quick as I can, don’t look at mirrors, don’t look at arms, don’t look at ingrowns. I think I can do that.

I’m excited to be feeling like I’m making progress, even through I have nothing to show for it. Even if it’s all in the mind, I feel okay.

[samman-an-blog]

Final Unit

Overall, I really enjoyed my research project. I was able to find more information about what my community is about and how they interact. I also found more pages that I like to look at because they provide so much information. I found information to help be a more successful student in my classes. I was also able to introduce other people to the community and now they use it to. They believe its such a useful community because other people talk about what works for them and its also easy for us to relate. I can also find people in my major and how they use different methods to complete assignments. So writing my assignments was to bad as I was able to write about something I enjoy. It was also a good way for me to find more ways to better myself and this assignment was very helpful for me overall. 

[thesavannahwelch-blog]

Somethings Missing

I am doing a photo essay for English and it consists photos mainly of the Ghost Adventures crew. I know that the crew now consists of Zak, Aaron, Billy, and Jay, but after I introduced them I thought at first that someone was missing. Nick was missing. I decided to then put a picture in of the former crew that only consisted Zak, Nick, Aaron and on the side I can’t forget about Billy and Jay. I feel weird leaving out Nick when I knew he was a former member so that’s why I decided to tell what kind of happened since he is not a part of it now. I wanted to inform that there was a former beloved member of the crew  cause he was part of the show at one time. I could tell that many fans were concerned of him leaving and I though that the subject of Nick leaving would be great for explaining parts of the show in my photo essay. 

[augusthillerichulhite205-01]

For this week’s assignment, we had to create a poster design based around a quote.  I chose a custom quote that was not on the original list, one from Lin-Manuel Miranda’s acceptance speech at the Tony’s. My goal for this project going in was to use colors pretty effectively.  I created the crystal heart in Illustrator and then applied color manipulation in Photoshop to give it a nice warm popping effect against the slate background. The photo of the hands was taken by me of a fellow classmate.