watanabe haruto’s march ‘20 eval best concept: vixx shangri-la w/ @rkdongmin & @chrxsrk worst concept: b1a4 beautiful target w/ @jkookrk, @rksungmin & @rkxjongsuk
the sooner this month was over and done with, the better.
having to worry about just one performance was usually enough to stress him out completely, but having to think about two in one month? it was surprising that he didn’t just have a complete mental breakdown the moment he heard the news, somehow managing to hold himself together for long enough to actually worry about what he was going to do. the dream concept was easy enough, just something he pulled up from his memory from dancing a bit of it back during the mags.
it was the worst concept which was the problem and in the end, jeongguk ended up dragging him into his group with some other trainees to do a cute concept. at least it was something he could agree with - cute was really not something he was very good at. while a lot of people seemed to think he was a cute person, haruto really didn’t like that notion. he also never acted cute, so at least the group and song choice would actually work out being a concept he really didn’t want to be performing.
the whole month was spent completely focusing on his two groups and trying to get everything to an acceptable level to perform. so, when performance day finally rolled around, haruto was at least confident enough that he wouldn’t end up putting a foot wrong. though he could never completely get rid of his nerves, the wriggling feeling of eels in his stomach as he thought about every little thing that could possibly go wrong. not to mention how he had been roped into being a rapper again for his worst concept.
it seemed he was ending up more and more in groups that needed a rapper and he was the only one to fill that spot. not that he supposed he was really complaining about it, but he could almost see himself completely becoming a rapper more than a vocalist. ideally, he would still want to do both, but there were far fewer rappers out there then there were vocalists and groups were always going to need a rapper. at least he wasn’t going to have to do it by himself and he had sungmin to be a second rapper. because having to do all the rapping by himself would just be a little more than overwhelming.
the best concept was up first to perform and haruto was as relaxed as he could be about the whole thing. he trusted dongmin and chris to do a good job as well and it was rather comforting to be performing in a group instead of solo. that meant everyone wouldn’t just be staring right at him the whole time, which did sort of help with the niggling stage fright and nerves eating away at him from the inside out. they had practiced hard for this performance, going over it over and over again and practicing the steps and the positioning until they were all aching and sweaty.
all in all, he did have to say it went pretty well, every step was careful, making sure that he didn’t accidentally trip over or slap someone in the face with his fan. and while his vocals could have probably been a little better and no doubt he was going to get critiqued on it later, the only thing he really cared about was the fact he had managed to say all the right words in the right order. and now he could worry about the second performance.
at least there were more people for him to hide behind this time. in his opinion, the more people in the performance with him the better off he was going to be about the whole thing. and while the song and the concept were all still completely horrible to even think about performing, he knew they had practiced this and at least they were all in the same boat. not one of them actually liked this concept and they were all struggling through it together. and haruto liked to think that bond they shared helped things run a little smoother.
they were no major slip-ups on his part and he was sure the others had given it their very all as well. no doubt the coaches carefully watching them would have something to complain about (they always did), haruto still felt pretty happy about what he had just done. at least now he knew he could actually manage to learn and perform two different songs with wildly different concepts in only a month.













