pairing: johnny suh x fem reader
genre: a little angst? // a bit of fluff
warning: hint of isolation
“love, I've noticed something." Johnny said, preparing to lay down beside you. it's been a busy day for you both but it's tolerable, at the least, so you decided to sleep early.
"you're being cranky lately. did something happen?” he asked.
he's been thinking about you since last thursday (today's monday) because he sensed you're feeling distant and every time it happens to you, you try to avoid any conversation and interaction at all. it puts him on a tight spot the first time he experienced how you are when you're in one of those days phase and he admits he had a hard time coping with you but he learned. Johnny's thankful that he was there from start to finish, especially when you needed someone to rely on and you're thankful to him that he stayed after all of that.
“nothing. I don't wanna talk, don’t talk to me. I'm going to sleep.” you said then you turned his back on him, hugging a pillow.
in all honesty, you don't know what's wrong. all of a sudden you just woke up one day then poof, there's sadness all over your body. it's like a timed and set thing, where you feel happy the first time and then sad on the next. the issue is it's not happening just for a day but for a week or so.
“hey, come on. talk to me?” Johnny softly said, tapping your shoulders then caressing it, almost giving you a massage. you would have been happy by the gesture but that's not the case right now.
you shrugged his hands off of you and pulls the blanket over to cover yourself.
“alright, fine. I'll go sleep on the couch,” he stands. “I will be cold.” he reaches for his pillows, hugging them. “I would freeze to death.” then he gets his blanket.
“don’t be so dramatic, you won’t freeze to death. I had the heater fixed on the salas last week.” you said while your back is still facing Johnny. he smiled.
“does that mean it's okay for you to let me sleep on the couch? you don't want me to be beside you? you won't miss me? I'm your human pillow though” he asked in a sad yet teasing way.
“okay then. goodnight.” Johnny was about to leave the room but stopped when he felt you tugging his pajamas, halting him. it was your foot's fingers, trying its best to cling onto him.
he looked at you and he saw your back unturned. you're now facing him but still half of your face is covered with a pillow.
“what? silence means yes, I assume you don’t want me to sleep beside you.” he said, pouting.
no response… it's when Johnny decided to walk out that you whisper.
“hmm??” he turns around one more time to look at you.
“I said don’t go.” you whispered again, toning your voice up a little.
“what are you saying love? I can’t hear you.”
Shocked as he is from your yell, he smiled. he knows his lover really well.
“you don’t need to shout though.” he said, settling on the bed with you. “and just so we’re clear, I don’t intend to sleep outside.”
you looked at him curiously while he moves closer to you. he slowly lift the blanket to cover him too when you feel him reaching for your hand which he successfully claimed.
“then what? what are you going to do?”
“I'll wait for you to fall asleep. then I'll move back in, and give you the bestest hug you’ll ever need.” he said, combing your hair. you really love that gesture of his cause it makes you feel things, like a sense of security or some of the sort.
“i know that these days has been hard, and i've noticed you’re struggling with something. and you don’t need to tell me at all if you’re not fine talking it out yet, i can wait. just know that i’ll be here for you. always,” he slowly put your hand on his lips, giving it a kiss.
“just come to me if you need to be with someone, alright? call me if anything happens, text me if you’re feeling down. You know I always have time for you.” he scoots over and kissed your forehead.
“I love you. so much.” then he hugged you until you fell asleep, making the night the best out of your miserable ones.
