#si function

[nee-82]

My Si demon manifests in so many ways that it's sometimes impossible to believe that it's in fact a shadow function. It's always working it's way into my daily life. Due to having Si in such a low place and Ni as my dom, it is a real struggle to remember the exact details of things I want to remember but on the other hand, I remember insignificant details and bad memories which I try to make sense of in the most illogical and Ni dom way possible. Having such a drama packed childhood with hardly any memories to look back at without judging myself and my actions, I try to scrounge for the best of them but I don't remember anything. Sometimes I regret being someone with an affinity for the abstract because I literally forget faces, names, places because I want to only think about what it represents. My senses trigger past memories that I like or dislike and then I try to latch onto them or run away as far as possible. I can never learn from my past experiences but I don't like to repeat them. I've never been in one place mentally or physically. I don't know who, what or where to call home so isolating myself is the best and only comforting option. But I forget that I internally hold doors to demons I don't wish to unleash so then my Se Inferior kicks in. Which is great. I have absolutely no discipline and as much as i hate being restricted in that way, I sometimes wish I cared enough about myself and what I do, how i look, my health and what I eat. I am so detached from reality that I cannot make this idealistic version of me turn into reality. I involve myself into watching shows/movies, reading books to substitute my actual feelings with the feelings of fictional characters and stories just so I don't have to think about the trauma of my own life. I feel so overwhelmed by people and their pain that I wish I could take it away from them, while I completely forget that I have my own stuff to deal with. I love the functions that make up INFJs but as a whole its a fucking shit show to be an INFJ when you are unhealthy (I'm speaking for myself not every INFJ out there). God, i can't wait for the day I become healthy.

[perso-next-door]

I wanted ISTJ's crying to be comedic but it ended up being a sweet moment of vulnerability, oops

[slothoughtsw]

Things I heard an istj say: „Going to bed late is the first step of losing control over your life“

[chochote-sijali]

Ne-Si/Ni-Se Exaggeration

Ne-Si: thinks of all the possibilities but doesn’t stick to one, then singles out the ones that actually work because it’s too scared that the other possibilities will kill them; ultimately dies from something else eventually killing them

Ni-Se: thinks of all the possibilities, but singles them out to the few that could work, then proceeds to jump in with the idea that it’s safe to continue; ultimately dies from their own rashness after plans go awry

[the-lone-intp]

The Qualms of Having an Si Function

I hate that I always dwell on the past. I can never truly get over something. Sure, I can detach myself from it and not give a fuck but at the end of the day I don't forget about it. If you hurt me emotionally, I'm going to keep thinking about it years later, even when I try to just let it go. I can never truly let things go, and this is the real qualm of having an Si function.

[im-an-intp-and-what-is-this]

INTP internal monologue

Someone: *expresses an opinion that is ignorant and illogical*

INTP: Oh ffs here we go.

Ti: That person is being ignorant and illogical. We have to correct them.

Ne: Yeah they're so narrow-minded. We have to make them see things from a different perspective.

Si: Yeah and they're just factually WRONG about this one thing as this handy Wikipedia article proves.

Fe: BUT WE'RE GOING TO LOOK LIKE A DICK IF WE ARGUE WITH THEM ESPECIALLY SINCE EVERYONE LIKES THIS PERSON AND ESPECIALLY SINCE LIKE OUR OPINION ON THIS PARTICULAR SUBJECT ISN'T EXACTLY NORMAL LOL

Ti: But

Ne: They're

Si: Wrong?

Fe: DO YOU GUYS WANT US TO LOOK LIKE A DICK

Ti + Ne + Si: ...no?

Someone: Sorry you looked like you were going to say something, INTP?

INTP: ...........nope. Never mind.

[chochote-sijali]

INTP: Why do collard greens smell sooo good?

Tertiary Si: Because you like the smell. Simple as that.

INTP: Oh right, that makes sense.

Tertiary Si: You want to debate people on how great collard greens are just for fun?

INTP: Not really.

Tertiary Si: Too bad.

INTP: Crap. (Proceeds to argue with mother how great collard greens are because they smell so good and are so irresistible and how could anybody hate collard greens? They have no soul)

Mother: (uninterested) Yeah, okay.

Tertiary Si: My work here is done.

[chochote-sijali]

TiNeSiFe

I was originally just going to post separate posts about how I see the functions. But I got lazy and thought it would take too long. So I’m going to do a summary of the functions in two posts instead. Clearly, I’m starting with the functions I am more aware of: Ti, Ne, Si, and Fe. I’m going to get the gist of them, at least. So here goes.

(Oh, and as a side note: I do not feel like stereotyping Si into a function about memory and tradition. I think that’s ludicrous. If you believe I’m wrong, you can always correct me.)

Ti: We as individuals are the proof that the world is almost inconceivable and unreliable. We can only perceive and not judge. So we might as well come up with the solutions ourselves. I won’t force you to do anything, but I expect nothing but the best from you. It’s okay to be wrong, though, as facts can get pretty twisted. So not every single fact matters; only the ones that are important to you. But remember, I have my logic and you have yours. Don’t you dare tell me my logic is somehow wrong. Prove your inner logic and why your logic makes sense, and I won’t have to fight you.

Ne: The many different ideas and patterns out there are proof that the world is a very weird place. Anything can happen. Every idea counts and matters. I won’t turn your perspective down because who knows? You could be right. Hey, if we put our heads together, it might develop into something completely new and undiscovered. I don’t care how weird the idea might get; it doesn’t matter. What matters is that it could happen. I would break down if you prove my ideas won’t work or that they make no sense. But if you can’t prove it and you still try to tell me that it won’t work or make sense, I just might punch you out. *shrugs* Anything could happen.

Si: We as individuals are the proof that the world’s details don’t matter. We are merely perceivers. What matters is what you find important and how you can apply it to make sense of the world. Believing every detail matters makes you lose sight of what’s important. If a dog peed on my leg, should I care that it smells like ammonia? Or should I try to remember how to get pee scent out of my pants? I overlook certain details in exchange for anything that I consider important. What’s important to you isn’t important to me, and I’m cool with that. Unless you want to cross me by forcing me to care about nonsense? Prove why you think you’re practical and you might just find a friend in me.

Fe: We as a group of people are proof that emotions and values are important to the masses. Every individual matters because singling people out shows favoritism. If we add up all the values that humans have conceived, we would end up with a sum of how we should act towards others. My personal feelings matter very little and I don’t know why they ever would; what matters is everyone else’s. How can I determine what matters to individuals if I don’t look at the whole? That is not my place. I would be very hurt if you prove that universal values and morals don’t work in every situation. But if you can’t prove that and you try to tell me your personal feelings matter more than the group’s, I will fight back. And I guarantee you’ll regret it.