#sp(4)

[m-v-tique]

“Bill” Clinton [ISTJ sp/sx 1w9]

Anyways I wouldn’t give any details about my mbti oc character, since this is just me finally releasing the weight that have been aching my mind for too long.

I actually still like drawing mbti/16 personalities characters, but there’s just a random reason or art block of why I couldn’t draw them much,,, so ❗️undercut.

Disclaimer; [RANT/Ramble]:

P.s. I didn’t mean to join it along with this drawing but I wanted to let out my thoughts for once.

To be honest there’s this aching perfectionism that have been aching me when it comes to thinking about MY style of drawing them. Of course, it’s seems like a normal thing for someone as an enneagram 4 artist, since 4 by growth/in SP instinct acts like that of an Enneagram 1. And the reason why I had to point it out right now is that I feel it, I feel “envy”.

The irritating thing of this “envy” and “perfectionism combined together, is the fact whenever I come across a drawing or mbti artist with their own style of the 16 personality types, I get inspired normally. And by inspiration, there’s an idea and that idea needed to be composed. But the idea is tiresome when you’re too busy with something else.

Which also led to minor insecurities or doubts, which led to the lack of posting since I thought if I didn’t draw the characters in my style, it ended up being bland and just as it’s “original” style (16 personalities avatars).

So as a new and matured me, I’m breaking the zealousy loop. Finally and letting go of incompetence to have confidence and finally draw what I wanted to draw. I knew I’m no professional artist, and I knew art is well, communication, freedom and so much I can say. But that’s all for my ted talk.

Another side note: I wouldn’t consider this a vent, it’s more of a core fear situation that I finally dealt with.

[delphic-dreams]

Enneagram Countertypes

For each type, one of the three subtypes is considered the countertype. These types are most commonly misunderstood and mistyped because their enneagram's nature runs counter to their instinct. The enneagram's motivation is opposed to the following instincts:

Social 9 - very outgoing and energetic in contrast to the more subdued sp and sx 9. Generous, selfless, self sacrificing. Work hard and try to accomplish for the group. Still has a sense of inertia with own needs and wants. Can be workaholics but avoid showing stress and putting burden on others

Social 8 - express lust and aggression in service to others. Protective, loyal. Defend the weak and exploited. Outwardly calmer than sp and sx 8. Rebels against authority to protect the oppressed through power and control. Seeks solidarity. Still out of touch with own need for protection and care.

Social 7 - against instinct of gluttony, consciously avoid exploiting others. Assuage their guilty pleasure in gluttony with altruism, work for a better world in which there is no pain or conflict. Five-ish acetic ideal. Indulgent and generous character. Repressed guilt for unconscious mix up of altruism and self interest. A desire to reach an ideal purity based on social consensus (opposed to 1's internally generated sense of perfection)

Sexual 6 - turns against the passion of fear by taking a stance of strength and intimidation. Best defense is offense. Bold, fierce, assertive as opposed to the more doubtful and deferring sp and so 6. Use ideals of "strength and beauty" to defend against fear. Disconnected from feelings, tend not to acknowledge the intensity of their aggression/intimidation. Contrarian.

Sexual 5 - inhibited and introverted but less removed from emotions than sp and so 5. Avarice expressed through ongoing search for connection that will satisfy need for most perfect idealized union. Reserved and laconic on outside, more romantic and emotionally sensitive inside. Trust is still difficult so confidence is held as a romantic ideal in which one is safe to share secrets, taboo fantasies. Guarded in the face of emotional intensity but have desire for deep intimacy among trusted few.

Self-preservation 4 - stoic, dauntless suffering. Expresses less outward melancholy than so and sx 4. Swallow feelings of shame, envy, sensitivity, suffering. Withstands frustration. More masochistic than melodramatic. Works to get what others have instead of enviously dwelling on what they are missing. Attachment to enduring.

Self-preservation 3 - vanity for having no vanity. Wants to be successful but wants others to know that image isn't important. Self-sufficient, not forthcoming about accomplishments unlike so and sx 3. Developed focus on autonomy and security due to not having enough protection and resources. Need not only to be seen as the ideal model quality in what they do, but to be the ideal. Productive, secure, "in control" with underlying sense of anxiety.

Self-preservation 2 - childlike, youthful as opposed to the overly adult seductive qualities of sx 2 or the so "power 2". Unconscious assertion of childlike priority, being loved for simply being cute and lovable. Want to be seen without showing themselves. Tender and sweet but more guarded than other twos. Don't want to see themselves as dependent but unconsciously engineer situations for people to take care of them.

Sexual 1 - more of a reformer than a perfectionist. Zealous and driven to make changes in others, less focused on perfecting the self. Unlike sp and so 1, is explicitly angry. Intensity of desire fueled by anger. Impatient, invasive, asserts will over others. Avengers, not afraid of confrontation. Brave, strong, impulsive. Repress pain. Need order in relationships.