I want to make angst of cortis so bad... like real angst and teen issues.
Some ideas like; chronic auto immune diseases, accidental drug/alcohol addiction, nic addiction, depression/mental health disorders, more specific - ED, anxiety, avoidant - cancer or like deathly diseases.
Idk. Lmk if that is appropriate for them. I am also a teen that struggles with these things.
EVIE- “Yes, he said he would “think” about it. He won’t do it. He doesn’t understand that I am not like normal girls. I have slowed down, but I am still older than most of the girls in my class.”
AKIRA- “He understands, Evie...it’s just that you didn’t get to be a little girl for very long. It is different, but he does understand. I think he is talking to your grandmother tonight about it. She called him earlier and asked him to come over and he told me he was going to see what she thought about you going to college, here and then transferring later to Windenburg.”
EVIE- “Oh thank goodness...I know she understands.”
AKIRA- “Don’t get your hopes up...just wait until he gets back and then give him a day or two to think about it.”
Synopsis: Juhoon and Lia struggle to place a title on what they are (although they do everything a couple does and most definitely are in love with each other). Juhoon's roommates and friends help him ask her to date him, while Juhoon takes this information- he immediately backs out, causing a bigger shift in their relationship than there was. He ultimately "breaks up" with her over text, then commits a almost irreversible mistake. Will they end up together? Will Juhoon stop wandering and will Lia ever be able to stop wondering?
warning: jealously, avoidance, friendly bulling, cursing, bad use of punctuation, casual speaking, spelling errors? (will add more if I can remember)
pairing: Juhoon x fem oc!
tropes: wondering x wandering, avoidant x eager
- This is based in AU! They are in high school (the story doesn't focus on that too much though), and the guys all live together. (You can check my pinned post for more info on characters before or after reading!)
content: nothing smut, fluff, crack, cursing, kms jokes, touchy, mental issues, s3lf h4rm (I can't think of anything else)
author's note: more tears and shitty writing... Plzz feel free to give me advice!! Enjoyyy!😁
(also, here are songs that go well with the story.)
After everyone was in the car and buckled up, Martin pulled off.
Seonghyeon was in the front with Martin, while James and Keonho were in the back with Juhoon.
Halfway to the hospital, Juhoon's eyes started flickering open. They didn't stay open long enough for him to realize what was happening though.
James seeing that his speaking to Juhoon and lightly slapping his face, was working, he continued; his voice now getting louder. "Juhoon? Stay awake okay?! Open your eyes again..." James spoke softly but loud enough for Juhoon to hear through him slipping away.
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They had made it to the hospital.
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Juhoon's Pov
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I had Just gotten out of the operating room, I was really only half awake.
The nurses roll me into my room and lock my bed to the floor before making sure I'm fine and leaving the room.
My friends couldn't come in all at once so they were deciding who was going in first.
I didn't want to face anyone after what had happened so I quickly closed my eyes as James and Martin came in first.
I heard them speaking to me and about me. I wanted nothing more but to disappear and go to a safe place; a peaceful place. I couldn't imagine how badly I had scared them.
I was so out of it earlier that I had almost forgotten the yelling, screaming, and frantic moving in the air when they found me.
I would never forget. How could I? 'Was I too selfish?', I thought to myself. How could I ever put anyone through this? I should have done it some place else. Maybe they wouldn't have found me then. Maybe the horror they faced could have been avoided.
But someone... Someone would have found me, and my body would have been left to haunt someone else forever.
Why was I being selfish, even now?
And, oh yeah-
The reason why I attempted...
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I usually get insecure at times about myself... and about us- me and Lia; but this time was different. My friend's had been pressuring me lately to tell her how I feel and ask her to date me but- I just couldn't.
I was always a coward when it came to things like this.
Telling someone how I really felt. I liked beating around the bush, softening the blow, making it easier on me and whoever.
I was finally able to do it...
Until my fear got the best of me.
I retracted, and I retracted bad...
I basically said I was done with her over text. Wow, what a loser. That's why I did it.
I couldn't bare looking at her, myself, or anyone for the matter of fact. I was embarrassed, empty (yet so full).
I didn't think I would ever do this. I was too much of a coward. But once I started, I couldn't stop.
I wanted to call for help, but I would have felt like even more of a loser. I can't even die properly.
So I sat there, holding in my pained screams as I cut deeper. It hurt so bad, yet I still couldn't call for help. I mustered up to strength and stumbled out of bed, heading into my bathroom for medicine.
There it was. Pain killers and sleeping pills. I swallowed a handful dry, wanting the pain to stop. I felt the affects within 15 minutes.
I stumbled out of the bathroom and to my room door, locking it shut. I then powered my phone off and flopped into my bed.
My arms and head were throbbing as I slowly shut my eyes, tricking myself mentally. Thinking it was just going to be a nap.
It wasn't until half an hour later I heard banging at my door. I slightly opened my eyes to look around. I faintly heard Martin's voice, telling me to open the door.
I thought I was getting up but my body laid there still. I couldn't find the strength. My mouth was dry, all the way down to my throat. I shut my eyes again. I couldn't focus any longer on all the ruckus outside of my door. Just the sweet sound of nothing as I slipped back into nothing.
You know what happened next. Now I'm here. Half clueless and mostly guilty.
All because I couldn't stop wandering.
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End of Juhoon's Pov
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The next day, Martin calls his girlfriend first, telling her what was happening and what had happened, and why he had been ignoring her texts and calls.
Next he calls Lia, telling her the same news.
Not even 15 minutes later and Lia was bursting through Juhoon's hospital room door.
Lia let's out a sigh of relief after seeing that he was for sure alive and walks over to his bed.
(Juhoon was now awake. He wasn't really talking though.)
"Love? Oh my God... What did you do...? Why...?" She asks with a heap of held back crys in her throat. Her voice was more than heavy, it sounded hurt and guilty.
"Where are his parents?" Lia asked to any one of them who would answer.
"Getting him something to eat and signing some papers." James replied.
Seonghyeon had left hours ago, no one knew where he went.
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Insert Seonghyeon's Pov
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An hour after we arrived, Juhoon was still in the operating room. I couldn't stand to wait any longer. I wanted all of this to be a bad dream- a simple nightmare.
But it wasn't.
I had to face the harsh reality, and I wasn't ready to do that.
So I got up and left. I didn't even say goodbye to anyone. I just up and walked out of the waiting room. I thought I would come back later, I never did.
I was going to text at least one person, to let them know where I went- but I didn't.
I didn't even go home. I just headed to my girls place. I didn't tell her anything.
I just walked straight into her arms and cried some more.
I don't want to talk about what happened with anyone. It had to have been just a dream anyways.
And just like that, it had been two days with no contact with them. Only my parents.
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End of Seonghyeon's Pov
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Instead of the hospital sending Juhoon to a ward, they gave his parents the choice to take him home, as long as he was checked up weekly by medical professionals.
They agreed and waited a few more days to make sure he was fine, before taking him home.
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Ty for reading this far! Lmk what you like and don't like.
The angst is far from over, but it will get lighter from here. 🥺🫰🏾
CRUZ- “So, Evie I needed to ask you a couple questions...how is school going?”
EVIE- “To be honest dad, it is boring. Everything they are teaching I already have inputted into my knowledge banks of my brain, and I find myself just sitting there. I think maybe I need to take some college entrance exams and see if I can just go ahead and graduate high school and enroll in college.
CRUZ- “The banks of your brain....that is an odd way of saying it...So are you leaving school early?”
EVIE- “Oh, no not at all, I stay and then after school I have been stopping by the Willow Creek Community campus and studying in their library.”
CRUZ- “Oh, okay well that answers my first question, as to why you are coming home late....so is that where you met Nolan?”
EVIE- “Nolan?? Nolan who...I don’t think I know a Nolan.”
CRUZ- “He knows you, said you had a meeting scheduled with him this evening that you didn’t show up for.”
EVIE- “Oh...you mean King. They call him King, I think that is his last name. He was going to find out what classes were available in the evenings for me. I was thinking maybe going in the evening to get all my regular classes out of the way. I forgot he wanted to meet tonight Wait...how do you know King?”
NOLAN- “I am in my second year at Willow Creek Community College. Hoping to be an architect someday. So do you know when she will be home?”
CRUZ- “Well, her last class is at 3:30, but just how old are you, Nolan?
NOLAN- “Nineteen, will be twenty in about two weeks on the 22nd.”
CRUZ- “How well do you know my daughter?”
NOLAN- “Oh, wow, you are here dad?? I thought you were a brother or something...geesh. You must have started young!’
CRUZ- “Yes, she is my daughter, and yes I started very young, but Evie is also very young. Do you know just how old she is?”
NOLAN- “She said she was 18.
CRUZ- “She lied, son. She is fifteen, So i think it would be best if you leave now, and do not continue to pursue my daughter, and if she continues to pursue you, I think you should just walk away. Do we have an understanding?”
CRUZ- “He stopped by here tonight looking for you. I had no idea who he was, and when he told me he was going to the community college...well he thought you were a student there. He also said you told him that you were 18.”
EVIE- “Of course, I did. No one is going to help me get any class info if they think I am kid, they will just think I am some crazy kid. So what did you tell him!?”
CRUZ- “I told him that you were NOT 18 and that you were 15.”
EVIE_ “Seriously!!...I bet he freaked out. He probably won’t talk to me again now. Good thing you didn’t tell him my real age. If he thought I was only seven he would freak out....Why did you tell him that dad???!!”
CRUZ- “Because you ARE NOT eighteen, Evie.”
EVIE- “I’m not fifteen either, but that is what you told me to tell everyone. Have you been to my school, dad? The girls there won’t talk to me. They all look like they haven’t even hit puberty yet. And those that have are so “ganglly” they can barely stand up straight. I know this is hard for you to understand, as this is not human...but I am not all human, remember? I am at least two maybe three years older physically than any other girl in my class. I look older than some of the senior girls. Most people think that I am senior. I am sorry, but I don’t want to go back there. I am not learning ANYTHING...and I just don’t fit in.”
CRUZ- “I am sorry Evie...I had no idea. I don’t know what to do. You need to graduate high school before you go on to...”
EVIE- “I already talked to one of the counselors. I can take the high school equivalency test...she even recommended it. If I pass then I can get my high school certification, and I can enroll at the community college. It’s right here...or I can even enroll in Windenburg College and go to school with Uncle Henry!”
CRUZ- “College?? Wow. This is all happening so fast Evie. I was hoping your age progression would slow down some. I will have to think about this. And if we do this, I think you should go to the community college for a couple years before you go all the way to Windenburg to school.”
EVIE- “I am fine with that, I just do not want to go back to that High School....and please, tell people I am eighteen...okay?”
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