Edit: wow ok so I got angry and had a rant about my anger at ai writing and art, and all this just came out. Sorry for the angry rant.
Iām not the best at writing and spelling and grammar, And I feel bad about that because Iām an adult surrounded by so many people who understand these things and I guess I just never took the time to learn and memorize it. But I am trying and every time I learn, I forget. My entire life everyone has treated my ADHD and dyslexia, and although I donāt have a diagnosis everyoneās fairly certain, I have autism as well. And everyoneās just use those as an excuse on my behalf. I do use spellcheck and I have used programs like Grammarly to help me with my spelling and writing, but there are often times where AI spellcheck such as grammarly make the punctuation and grammar wrong and worse. I am trying to get better and so far Iām going through university and I am in my final three semesters and so far Iām actually doing good at writing for my classes, And there are parts of my writing my professors will tell me Iām doing really good at.
There are times when Iām writing for my classes where my words just flow and spill out, and it becomes magnificent. a sentence becomes several sentences or even a full paragraph block of text. but when I try to write for fun and get into that state where my words just flow and spill into art, I freeze and I canāt find my words. I try to write poetry and it doesnāt come out always that great. I forget my words when I want them to come with my motivation when I try to write for fun. I really want to get better. I think thatās why I made this blog was for me to practice.
In a world full of AI bullshit I want to write art and tell stories storytelling is one of my most important skill sets in my opinion. I think it is one of the most beautiful forms of art being able to tell a story, and there are so many mediums for it most art mediums even have a form of storytelling within them. Telling stories in every medium is beautiful and I just want to be able to write well, I donāt want to write mediocre and I love it because itās obviously human. I want to write well and in this world people have stoped pushing me to do better because they can tell my writing isnāt AI, and I just think thatās a horrible offense. For so long humans craved perfection and to automate it and now that we have it, we crave that which is flawed and Wabi Sabi and all of that. Donāt get me wrong I love all of it, and I would never ever ask someone to stop trying, I would never stop asking someone to create even if theyāre bad at it. Art is so good and so important even if your mediocre and struggle with it like I do with my writing, you have to keep going for it. Iām not saying you didnāt have flaws and our art has to be perfect all the time. but when people stop educating you on how to do better and improve upon your art, and when people stop teaching you different ways you can add to or different forms of art that you get to experiment and play around with, then AI has won. I donāt care that my writing is not perfect, I donāt care if people donāt love it, I care that people have stopped, asking me to improve on my writing, and have stopped offering me different forms of writing to try. I care that people look at my writing and say itās human and expect that to be good enough. Art should be with the artist makes it to be, Iām not trying to say it shouldnāt be, all of the flaws and such are good and I recognize that and the imperfections are good and I know that. I just hate that in the world with AI automated art generated all the time that weāve stopped asking how we can improve or weāve stopped offering different forms and mediums to dry or different ways to go about it.
I know this may not be true for everyone, but itās definitely true for me, and I know the only way to get better is to practice and try and go out on it and you can do that on your own without other peopleās feedback. but it starts to get a little harder to learn, at least it does for me when people stop trying to teach you because at least youāre obviously human, and the standard now is āthats good enoughā. This may just be me, but I find that to be the most insulting thing ever! I want to be good at my writing and at my form of art, and I donāt know how to get better without asking other people to share their thoughts and opinions on where I need to improve.ļæ¼
