[tallerthanthetwinyards]

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HOLY SHIT????

Neil Josten had a problem, he was a lie.

Neil Josten was fabricated popstar persona Edgar Allan Records crafted so Nathaniel Wesninski could pay off what his mother stole. Now, his debt was paid, and signing with Foxhole records gave him a chance to turn Neil Josten into a real person with a real life, Neil just had to somehow relearn how to write music that actually meant something to him to do it. But he wasn't sure he knew how to make music that wasn't full of lies anymore.

Then he met Andrew Minyard, and his music full of horrific honesty.

[fishcutie]

Sleepy

[exylover32]

we talk a lot about how much of a revelation andrew’s confession is for neil, and not enough about how revelatory neil’s reaction is for andrew. because like. imagine you like this boy. but he doesn’t swing. you know the answer would be “no,” so there’s no point in even asking. then he goes and gets himself needlessly tortured for you, and tells you there’s no amount of suffering he wouldn’t endure for you. not because he thinks you’re weak, but because he thinks you’re worth protecting. he says things that you would interpret as advances if it were literally anyone else. you remind yourself that he doesn’t swing. now you’re at eden’s and he’s asking about your feelings for him in 12 different ways. he really wants to know. so you tell him, in the most casual and crass way you can, thinking that’ll put an end to it. but unfathomably, it doesn’t. he asks you why you didn’t tell him. why would you have? it would have been a “no.” you say that, and instead of confirming it, he just echoes your words, clearly still reeling. you start to leave, and he tells you that he wants to keep playing your game. while the absence of a “no” is obviously not the same thing as a “yes,” you’ve been operating for months and months under the assumption that the answer would be unequivocal. so you keep waiting for that answer, but it never comes. for the first time since you met him, you wonder if maybe it’s not a “no” after all. if maybe you could have this. you can’t remember the last time you were able to have something you wanted. the world tilting on its axis, indeed.

[tallerthanthetwinyards]

no one asked but here are my hcs about what kinds of horror movies the foxes would watch

kevin- he’d be really into horror movies that also incorporate something he’s really interested in. like paranormal ones with accurate historical settings or lore based in real historical events. there’s definitely some niche horror movie that focuses on a high school exy team somehow and everyone expects kevin to hate it but he actually loves it. bc when kevin loves something he LOVES something and as long as that thing is portrayed in a piece of media with clear intention and research and respect, that love would spread to that piece of media no matter the genre. i don’t think he’d like psychological horror or anything to do with cults tho. those are his lines even if it’s connected to a subject he likes.

neil- i don't think neil really likes movies as a medium. if he's watching something that's not exy it's more likely to be a tv show. that being said, so long as the horror movie doesn't feature a subject that is particularly triggering and also portrayed realistically, i think he would find some level of entertainment in it. like an example is he would watch slasher movies and guess the killer and explain what's unrealistic and be perfectly content, but anything featuring realistic dismemberment or psychological horror about being hunted/stalking is a no go bc it does not mesh well with his paranoia.

andrew- he can only watch bad horror movies. in a similar way that neil's paranoia doesn't mesh with certain horror movie premises, i think the same is true with andrew and the specific way suspense is portrayed in horror. good horror movies try to inflict a very specific kind of looming dread on the viewer and, considering how andrew is with control and how a lot of his fears/anxiety/paranoia (whatever you want to call it) is in the series based on looming threats he can't control or doesn't have a full picture of, i think that would pair really poorly with how suspense is done in horror movies. it's the framing not the content tho, like i think he'd be really interested in things like bad horror movies that are clearly absurd and (the total opposite) true crime docs and in canon he likes zombie media which is more thriller-horror than suspence-horror.

aaron- he likes the weird and creepy psychological horror movies. and also thriller ones. aaron is stressed all the time there's no convincing me that he's not considering he's pre-med, plays exy, is trying to maintain some incredibly rocky relationships, and now has the mafia to consider. in the way that a lot of people like horror movies bc its a "safe" way to be scared, aaron likes those sub-genres of horror bc of that and bc it's also a "safe" way to be stressed. i've seen people talk about, and i myself have also talked about, andrew and his relationship with control. i think aaron also has a complicated relationship with control after feeling like his life was ruled by something other than him for so long (tilda, drugs, andrew). this would effect what kinds of media and entertainment he likes. not only would getting to be invested in/sacred of something that will end after an hour and a half allow him to have a break, but he could also be that viewer going "clearly that's not real" or "i'd never do that" which would give him more of a sense of control over that fear. idk if i'm explaining this well i have too many thoughts about this.

nicky- he absolutely loves all horror movies and, unlike some of the other foxes, the more he can see a reflection of his own trauma and experience in it, the more he likes it. anything with religious themes, queer characters or queercoding, toxic and atypical family dynamics is a movie that he will watch a million times over. nicky talks a lot but he never really talks about how his experiences have affected him emotionally so i think he'd find some sort of catharsis in seeing a visceral or horrifying portrayal of something he's tried to bury and not talk about.

dan- will not watch a horror movie. it's not a genre she likes, she finds them boring. while others won't watch horror movies bc they scare easily, dan is the opposite. she does not get scared by horror movies so she finds them pointless. she can be jump scared, but will argue that doesn't count as getting truly scared bc its more so being startled. she has seen a decent amount of horror movies and that's why she refuses to watch any more (she doesn't want to be bored again).

matt- same as dan, he will not watch a horror movie. unlike dan, it is bc he is horrified by them. He doesn't like being scared, but it's not really about the fear its about the other feelings those movies bring up. matt is a very empathetic person and he would get very distressed by horror movies. especially after meeting and becoming close friends with neil. he has learned all about the real life horror that exists in the world and how the people he cares about have suffered bc of it. he would not want to watch anything that reminds him of that for entertainment.

allison- horror movies fanatic and the biggest defender of every final girl ever. allison is an advocate and enjoyer of female rage. there's some horror movies she despises with every ounce of her being for the way they treat women. but she's watched so many that she has a top 20 with elaborate reasoning. i don't really have a reason for why i think this i just believe it.

renee- i don't think she watches horror movies. if she doesn't it's probably only paranormal ones/ones with some sort of creature. renee's mentality is that she's "trying very hard to be good" and i think that, for her, a piece of that would be trying not to engage with subjects that remind her of her past actions (like horror movies that involve killers, violence, and "final girls") for the point of entertainment. and "for entertainment" is the key part. renee is not in denial of her past actions. she is able to acknowledge and process her actions as well as engage with violent subjects. she can even get violent when she needs to. but she is actively trying to move past and grow from her past, which is why i don't think she'd particularly enjoy movies that would be a reminder and would pick something else when she wants to watch something for fun.

[northltdrew]

tshd Andreil au

[fishcutie]

[k-aly-015]

Andrew Minyard can only eat food if its 50% sugar MINIMUM or one flavor only. thus the cheese drawer (entirely made of muenster bc cheddars too sharp) and candy drawer. They are the only two places he will reliably get food from in the dorm. Anything else he consumes has to be pretty much beige in color or an addictive substance

[viiiiiliiiii]

Andrew isn’t tactile? bullshit! at least not when it comes to Neil. I absolutely refuse to believe that the man who, in the very first book, was already brushing his fingers across Neil’s back hard enough to “send goosebumps down his spine,” and who was already fighting the urge to kiss him by the second book, somehow isn’t tactile. I refuse to believe he wouldn’t finish his coffee, toss the mug into the sink, and, on his way past Neil, casually catch him by the waist to steady himself just long enough to press a quick kiss to his cheek. I refuse to believe he wouldn’t stand behind Neil while he washes the dishes, lazily draping an arm around his waist, absentmindedly tapping his fingertips against Neil’s thigh as he waits. or quietly take Neil’s hand into his own, trace the familiar lines of his scars with his thumb, and finish by pressing a few soft kisses against his knuckles. I refuse to believe he wouldn’t pull himself closer before they fall asleep just to bury his face in the crook of Neil’s neck and breathe him in. or idly trace little, meaningless shapes across Neil’s knee with the tip of his finger during yet another team meeting. do I think Andrew is more tactile than Neil? no. not in the way people usually mean it. Neil’s affection is obvious. It’s visible, instinctive, impossible to miss. Andrew’s is quiet. It’s found in barely-there touches, fleeting brushes of his hand, small gestures that almost anyone else would overlook. Neil always notices.

[tallerthanthetwinyards]

this is so correct andrew very much is a tactile person. there’s a difference between discomfort with the unknown (non harmful touch) and genuine dislike. even in series he’s completely fine touching other people (he manhandles people all the time), it’s when others touch him without permission that he has an issue. i’d argue that’s more to do with control and consent than the touch itself.

[prettyboyneil]

Neil noticing Jean was into Renee after a few brief moments at the banquet I know Andrew was sick oh that you noticed but when I, Andrew Minyard….

[saiintval]

[northltdrew]

I love putting andreil into aus

[soyaa19]

Three kittens

[allexaa]

Andrew Minyard

[litenmyraienskog]

Aaron liked dinosaurs when he was a child and Andrew liked sharks

[ronnyly]

Their height difference matches their cars

Nicky: Neil how tf did you convinced them to do it??

Neil: I asked

Nicky: let's say Andrew agreed because you asked. How did you convince Matt to risk his life like that?

Neil, smiling: Dan asked

[queenautavia]

Andrew “Protector but never the protected” Minyard

Vs.

Neil "I can take another hit for you.” Josten who went to the nest for the safety of the Andrew

[allfortherot]

sometimes i wonder if andrew sometimes tests neil. not because he needs to, but to prove to himself that neil will actually listen.

listen i get this compulsion sometimes, to make sure everything is real and what i remember it to be. sometimes its reasonable, sometimes its not. all the same though it has to be proved before i can move on.

so, andrew makes neil sleep on the floor for a week in the summer before his senior year. at the columbia house. neil doesn't complain, doesn't ask why or to switch places. he curls up on the cool wooden floor with a spare blanket and has the nerve to smile up at andrew who's watching him from the safety of the elevated bed.

he smiles like he's grateful for this, to be given a chance to sleep on the floor next to andrew. he smiles like he's been handed a gift the equivalent of the sun incarnated in the form of the hard boards digging into his shoulders.

but andrew needs to prove this, he needs to know that neil's quiet following of his rules won't break at the first crash. so he continues; he lets his apathy shroud his care for the red haired menace.

but at the end of the week, the bags under neil's eyes are just a tad bit deeper; the twitching of his hands a bit more prominent. the hardness of the floor probably reminds him of his time on the run, making sleep harder to find and grasp, andrew thinks.

after this, he'll never make neil sleep on the floor again, even if it means he himself ends up in his place. he refuses to let his choices be the one to hurt neil, even if its willing on neil's part. and he keeps to his self promise

meanwhile neils pov is like: andrew wants me to sleep on the floor for until he says so. he probably wants to keep me in his vision and make sure im safe, he wants me sooooooo bad

(bros too busy being giddy over andrew caring to care really about the floor)