Teardrops on a Rainbow

A balance between sadness and joy

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Posting this here for motivation and to remind myself not to give up xXxX

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This is me right now....

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How lovely is this xXxX

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Confession Time

Honestly I don't think I could be a full-time blogger because it's such a commitment and you have to be on social media every single day...it would just be too much for me. I can't handle it it makes me too anxious but I love to write so I'm just going to do things on my own terms from now on and not worry about anyone else for a change. I'm piecing myself back together and so I've been concentrating mainly on that. I really do hope that things get much brighter for the future because it's scary not knowing what or where I'm going to be at in my life. Gosh this is just a ramble....I guess I'll have to see where life takes me x.

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So I’ve been offline for a while again but I don’t want to dwell on it too much. You guys know what I’m talking about. I had a bad spell…but luckily things are getting better for me again! I threw out the tools I used for cutting myself and as of today I am 12 days self-harm free! However I’m left with horrible-looking scars so I’ve been trying to look after them to make sure they heal. I’ve discovered that Palmer’s cocoa butter is really good for smoothing and healing scars so if you have this problem I’d really recommend this product. Please take care of yourself and be strong when times are tough because it will pass. With love, A.

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A mini-haul/gifts given to me this week! I hope you're all on the path to recovery and remember don't give up! With love, A x.

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How I spend my Saturdays...

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Weekend Treats!

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Here's the harsh reality of a cutter: the urge was so strong that I came so close to doing it but i tried my hardest to fight against it. In order to distract myself from wanting to hurt myself I literally slathered myself with body butter so I was carrying out an act of self-love as opposed to an act of self-hatred. I cannot emphasize enough the pain that it can cause to carry this out, it just hurts so much. You turn into a liar as you try to hide your scars, it becomes your deadliest secret so please if you're considering hurting yourself please don't do it because it just amplifies your problems and it is such an addictive behaviour. It will only add to the pain and you're already suffering so much. I know it sounds like I'm contradicting myself but honestly you deserve better. I don't want others to go through this it's so horrible and I'm feeling so emotional about it right now. 😢

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So I haven't posted in a couple of weeks and honestly that is because mentally I haven't been doing so well but lately I'm starting to become more hopeful and positive again so if you are going through this type of transition I think it's important to realise that it's all part of the recovery process so please don't give up on yourself because you're worth fighting for!

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Here's a delicious treat I made for myself last night! I hope you're all having a great week!

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I bought this yesterday and it's so cute and adorable! It's packed with tips on how to relax your mind and body. Plus it's filled with beautiful illustrations and positive affirmations throughout. This is perfect for anyone who would like something that is accessible and helpful without having to read through difficult jargon and it helps that it is a pretty book to look through! Check it out!

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIu8b-nxkpc)

I love this interview with Gerard Way so much because it just reminds me of how much MCR’s music has helped me through the bad days. This video just gives me so much hope for the future and he inspires me to never give up, even though sometimes it seems to be the easier way to go. 

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Positivity Tip #6: Watch a funny movie! It will make you laugh therefore you will start to feel happier especially if you've had a bad day 😀

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Positivity Tip #5: Take care of yourself! You deserve to be pampered! Schedule some me-time during the week to relax and give yourself some love because you’ll feel so much better for it. We all need a little tlc every once in a while 😊

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God, but life is loneliness, despite all the opiates, despite the shrill tinsel gaiety of “parties” with no purpose, despite the false grinning faces we all wear. And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter - they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long. Yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship - but the loneliness of the soul in it’s appalling self-consciousness, is horrible and overpowering

The Journals of Sylvia Plath: July 1950-July 1953

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Omg look what came in the mail today!!! I'm so excited to read this!