This is very dubcon but Simon falling back on old habits and teachings where he expects violent correction for every slightest misstep and Grace just cannot convince him that he’s not gonna get punished — Simon expects to have food or medical care withheld, to be physically harmed, to be denied SLEEP even when he fucks up — and eventually he like idk breaks something or causes some kind of actual problem, something minor but that requires clean-up and fixing, and he fully shuts down dissociating waiting for the other shoe to drop and Grace has tried Everything to get Simon to check back in so finally he asks like. Okay. Would it help if I did in fact punish you? If I allowed you to… make amends for this, would you feel better?
And Simon is confused as to why what he feels would even matter at all but honestly the answer is kind of. Complicated? Because Grace has been gentle and kind and giving and it’s suspicious as fuck and Simon is terrified of losing these good things now that he has them but he’s also so so so tired of being tense and anxious and paranoid of the day it all comes crumbling down so. Yeah. Yeah he’d probably feel better if they just rip the fucking bandaid off already.
So Grace sets up a painplay scene, having Simon stand naked against the wall, and at first Simon doesn’t think much of it because he’s been whipped before — not often, and it’s been years, but he supposes he’s earned this given how many times he’s managed to avoid punishment so far. Only instead of brutalizing him and then making him crawl off to go heal on his own, Grace is careful and attentive, working up from his hands to his belt, gradually increasing intensity, stroking and soothing Simon’s back in between hits and praising him all the while, telling him how well he’s taking it.
I think I want slightly more fucked-up Grace so instead of Simon getting hard from all of this it’s def Grace who presses up against Simon’s back, his erection huge and obvious against Simon’s ass, and slides a hand down the front of Simon’s pants.
He keeps Simon hard for the full duration of the whipping, works him up to the edge and then holds him there, leaves his body a confused wreck of sensation while he just tries to figure out wtf he’s even experiencing. Simon only realizes this is part of the punishment when he’s not allowed to come after.
He’s expecting this to be the part where he’s sent away, still hard and shaking and confused and overwhelmed, to try and patch up the welts on his back and ass and thighs, but instead Grace cleans him up and gives him water and holds him and praises him more, tells him it’s all better now and that Simon took his punishment so well, he’s forgiven, he’s forgiven.
He finally understands Grace’s question. Yeah, honestly, he does feel a Lot better now.
Aaaand this is how they fall into a bdsm dynamic with heavy orgasm control and steadily escalating levels of sadomasochism.















