So This Is Fucked Up Me

..since no one should have to deal with the not so innocent part of me. I used to be the "good" kid but since I turned 21 I've started to wreak havoc and fall in love with alcohol.

[thatdrunkme]

I feel so messed up, it's like I'm back in this world all over again. Where I worry about real life when it all wears off. I smoked and took 3 gummies and now I'm back. Where instead of pills it's gummies, hey at least is safer. But then I'm like let's have another or maybe a pill or have a few drinks. Sleep is probably best for me but part of me wants to keep this going and ride it out. Almost like I like feeling like this again. I can feely heart beating. Think I'll just have another and lay her thinking myself to a deep sleep. And wake up in reality.. until maybe next time.

[madeitthisfar-notgivingupnow]

The thing about this virus thing.

On a side note: I feel myself slipping. It's like I'm going back in time. I'm so fucking high and I feel kinda messed up like when I used to come on here all fucked up.

But anyways, after being someone with OCD who always thinks about wiping things down or going through a chain of what things have touched I've trained myself that those thoughts can be irrational. So after fighting myself so many times that I'm overreacting, I still want to fight myself even now... A time when I should be wiping things down and consider what things come in contact.

On an ending note: I want to take another one or mix and reminisce about this comfort of feeling messed up.

[thatdrunkme]

So yeah that's me right now, but probably better if I post on this one.

[snakelinksonic-deactivated20130]

[imlosingtouchwithreality]

10 Addy’s 20 Kpins for someone I know

[eminovato-deactivated20160711]

[mysticalweedwizard]

[thatdrunkme]

When you're so unmotivated and sad and lost that you don't even have the energy to walk in a store to buy more alcohol.

[untrustyou]

[goodquoteco]

Find more love here!

[the-somnatic-cleansing]

Turnover. Virginia Beach, VA. 9.28.15. Shakas.

© Ethan Hughes

[letsburnthemunicorns-blog]

Everytime my mom tries to tell me something.

[polarts]

let’s get drunk together so i can kiss you and blame it on alcohol

[delusional-psycho]

Speed me up, slow me down; I’ve got the blues. (not roxicodone obviously)

30 60mg vyvanse 25 1mg xanax

[echophon]

[superimagery]

*chases shot with mixed drink*

[meghanmclovin]

If you’re ever curious about how I feel about you get me drunk

[rodrigoseaburre-deactivated2018]

[weakandgay]

wow i really wanna get crunk

[thepastelprince]

This is important

[kohl-yis]

I want a zombie

[professordiggsy]

@astraeavixen Reblogging for future use.

[fedswatching]

pour one out to the neopets we left for dead