New Liver, Same Eagles

they/them ftm | 🔞 | unfortunately i am both THE richard maxwell fanblog and a ford pines simp :/

[the-maladjustedjester]

I wish I could talk to my family more about my relationship without them assuming I’ve been groomed. Like yes, I’m dating a trans woman. Yes, she’s not the best person. Yes, I started my own transition while we were dating.

IVE BEEN TRANS THE WHOLE TIME, SHE DIDNT BRAINWASH ME

[carlygrace]

Every few years Phil Lollar releases a novelization of a Blackgaard episode, with just a little extra information about a few characters in it, and I eat it up EVERY single time.

[the-maladjustedjester]

RIP Lucy Cunningham-Schultz, winning the “nicest kid in odyssey” poll on fb because you’re easily manipulated and a pushover, and they see that as the ideal child (and specifically the ideal girl)

I’m allowed to make fun of her because I WAS her ok?

Explains some things about my Richard and Blackgaard shit, doesn’t it

[the-maladjustedjester]

Well. Just found out some things about my grandpa. Several of my uncles and aunts have already had ideas about it but a few of them are feeling like their world was shattered. I was never very close to him but… shit.

I wish IBLP/ATI/evangelicalism didn’t just. Destroy every woman’s life by brainwashing them into thinking they don’t deserve to feel betrayed or angry, or that the things that happen might be their fault for not trying harder to prevent it. I wish the shame around sexuality didn’t create a deadly reaction with the belief that men are the heads of the household and spiritual leaders so they can’t do wrong, and I wish the repression from all that shame didn’t lead to addictions. I wish they fucking believed in therapy. I wish a lot of things.

I need to go to bed before I start crying again. Not for myself, not for him, but for his wife and his children who are just barely starting to realize it’s okay to talk about and be angry about this. They’ve been denied an outlet for so long. I hope they all find peace, even if it’s just from discussing it with one another

[the-maladjustedjester]

Me: oh god I hope no one can tell I’m listening to porn

My headphones: edwin blackgaard whining and gritting and grumbling and glowering and pouting ten hours compilation

[the-maladjustedjester]

I guess there IS a worse feeling than realizing a book you’re reading was written by ai. It’s realizing the book you’re reading was written by ai AND the person who generated those prompts was Onision

[the-maladjustedjester]

Oh my god I married RICK in friends of mineral town. Didn’t even question it. THE VOICES

[the-maladjustedjester]

He lives with his younger sister and single mother. This is a common trope. However, I will still connect my red yarn because I am. Insane

[the-maladjustedjester]

I know in my heart of hearts that the DBD ending that’s canon to my Harlequin Dinner Theater Throuple au is Regis getting blown up in the tunnel after Richard claws his way out of the hospital and takes Jack’s place for the final confrontation.

But god damn it my botched murder-suicide au of Another Chance is eating into my already swiss cheese-ified brain. I could always write a oneshot disconnected from my aus altogether, but like…

Would I get burned at the stake for a fevered fantasy fakeout while he’s recovering in the hospital? The thought of dream-Regis saying something that Richard couldn’t know, leading him to be tormented by the possibility that it’s not a fabrication of his sedated mind and is simply a Fact from that night in the hotel that’s just barely out of reach, locked away (possibly forever) in that missing week of memories, and he’ll never get the answers now because he can’t trust his memories and the only other person who knew the truth is dead… absolutely delicious

[the-maladjustedjester]

I do love Cryin’ Bryan Dern manically blowing out his mic with “comPLAIN”. Corey Burton if you’re looking for a controversially young boytoy,

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

wtf this is MY timeloop u can't be in here

[ailithnight]

Yeah, yeah. You said that last loop.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

and I'll say it again get the FUCK OUTTA MY LOOP!!!

[the-maladjustedjester]

Want to listen to all the Edwin episodes -> realize that technically includes the O.T. Action News -> listen to Jephthah’s Vow -> relisten to the Ever by Gail Carson Levine audiobook for the 19th time

Not again

[the-maladjustedjester]

Oh my god I married RICK in friends of mineral town. Didn’t even question it. THE VOICES

[childishrage]

we have a very healthy victim/abuser relationship, actually, thanks for asking

[the-maladjustedjester]

Hold on, have girls actually been defaulting to wearing pants high on their hips this whole time? I was too fat and the sensory issues wouldn’t let anything but a tshirt touch my stomach, I’ve been wearing them on my waist—is that not normal for women’s clothes? Obviously I wear men’s pants now but… was… was that what everyone was doing automatically? How do you wear a belt that high? Does it not feel like you can’t breathe? Am I the crazy one?

[the-maladjustedjester]

I’m sure other Magnus Archives fans have had the idea already, but I’m still pretty proud of choosing the last name “Bradbury” for my oc. Don’t remember what his deal was or what he was touched by but I do remember what author I named him after

[wordfather]

do you fuck with my unwritten story

[wordfather]

do you fuck with the weird guy i made

[the-maladjustedjester]

At the point where I’m getting jittery and anxious because I can’t think of any more richard nonsense to post. Liking things shouldn’t be stressful and Yet.