You know what’s fun? Fucking bullshit panic attacks. So today, I had an appointment with my GP who, after literally Googling my symptoms in front of me, concluded that I am fine and have I just considered that maybe I haven’t been fainting and maybe I’m actually just depressed? Which would be fine, except I not only have witnesses from fainting, my goddamn smart watch caught the whole event and registered the fact that my heart rate when from 89, to 138, to 40 in less than a minute. She put in a referral to a cardiologist anyway but was more concerned about me being on Lupron and what will I do when I want babies?!?! Even though she herself suggested I go on Lupron years ago. Sorry not sorry, but if I’m too sick to look after myself effectively, why on earth would I consider adding children to that mess? Forget that. So I come home super tired and still have a bunch of housework to do. Don’t get any of it done. Then the wifi crapped out and I cant remember the last time I paid my bill because Lupron brain, and can’t check it because there’s no wifi and I’m out of data, and it’s after nine so I can’t call them. And then I start thinking about that, and the fact that I just took on another pet, and my health is out of control, and everything in the world is out of control and then I started hyperventilating and crying right as my roommate walked in the door. Because of wifi. So now I am eating a lot of Gravol and going to bed because I got roughly 4 hours of sleep last night because insomnia and hormones and everything is hell. But here’s a nice picture of some of my coworkers Puff and Hugo who are nice and only have to worry about hay and jumps. Don’t ever let your prescriptions run out, kids. It ruins you. #luprondepot #lupron #lupronsucks #spoonie #spoonielife #spoonieproblems #endometriosis #endo #endostrong #endostruggles #estradiol https://www.instagram.com/p/BnCxrwmAn7U/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=iiz057nzlpet