I turned out to be okay! My city and my neighborhood not so much though.
I don't feel okay mentally right now so I'll be brief: on the night between the 18th and the 19th of July there was a massive ballistic air raid on Kyiv, my city. I think a total of 50 ballistic missiles were launched towards my city and, as you may know, there are no ways to defend ourselves against them at the moment. There are Patriot air defense complexes, but we don't have any ammunition for them.
With ballistic missiles there's only 1-3 minutes from the moment they're launched to the moment they hit the target. Tonight's targets were shopping malls and civil apartment blocks. Including my very neighborhood and my very street.
We had no time to run to the shelter (an underground parking lot of the building next door) so we huddled in the hallway of our flat, away from the windows. The explosions were so so loud, I heard the glass in the windows shake from the explosion wave. For a second I thought the missiles hit our building directly or broke the windows.
I made my family run in our pajamas in the SHORT break of 2 minutes between the missile launches. That's how bad it was. I noticed my mom, my dog and my sibling getting ahead and thought to myself that if I died and they got to safety first, I would be happy. We all got to the shelter and could barely handle the shock.
I felt like I would never ever ever sleep or eat again, that I never wanted to do anything in my life ever again.
My street is a short one, around 20 buildings in total. A missile landed 300 meters away from our home and all apartment blocks except ours got their windows blown out. A newly reconstructed historical building burned down. Our building was okay only because other buildings took the shockwave on themselves.
My street, my home, the place I love so so much...