The Xhaos System

Mixed Origins Plural - Multi Pronouns (She/Any or He/Any) - Intro in pinned - NZ Twitch Streamer - Otherkin, DID, PTSD, Cluster B, AuDHD, Trans, Queer, Disabled, Adult - Syscourse engager, agressively endo friendly - Often special interest heavy - Sometimes NSFW - married to @guardianssystem

[theharbingerofxhaos]

An Introduction

This has been quite a long time coming, but with irl issues, system changes, health difficulties, medication trials, and a lot more, it's been hard to write something up.

We are the Xhaos (Pronounced Chaos) System, a mixed origin (primarily traumagenic) DID system. We are made up primarily of 4 semi seperate sub-systems, with a sprinkle of other headmates thrown in there for fun. We also have autism, adhd, PTSD, C-PTSD, and multiple Cluster B personality disorder traits (ASPD, BPD, NPD cocktail). We also have a cocktail of physical disorders, mostly encompassed under FND and POTS.

We tend to have a, unique perspective on life having dealt with a lot of these issues since childhood, and tend to discuss them often from a personal view, and in educational manners. Our system is heavily science interested, everything from psychology to genetics to quantum physics, and we love to talk about these topics when our body permits us the energy :P

We collectively use mixed pronouns, but for simplicity a mixture of she/any is simplest as we're (currently) a predominantly feminine gendered system, but that does often change and we all prefer our specific pronoun sets whenever possible.

We are a very queer alterhuman system, ranging from a gay demon-angel, to a lesbian floating cat, and then the terrifying… heterosexual geneticist (she's non-binary so it's not too scary). We have vampires, ghosts, nymphs, dragons, eldritch horrors, and a variety of other creatures, so we don't tend to use specific labels other than non-human/otherkin.

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We also have a number of fictives from various sources (OW, AC, Marvel, Arcane/LoL etc.) who are (mostly) quite friendly and willing to meet others from their source! We've had people ask a few times so seems best to note :)

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We're a mixed Puerto Rican american, currently living in NZ, which makes timezones a little bit awkward if we want to have friends in like, a majority of the rest of the world.

Our interests and common post topics:

- Plurality, how it affects us in day to day life, and syscourse related topics

- Personality and Dissociative Disorders

- Psychology, Pharmacology, Quantum Physics, Genetics (especially things that are under researched, or considered “controversial”)

- Overwatch (Also a fictive source)

- Assassins Creed (Another fictive source)

- Marvel/MCU (Another fictive source, again)

- Classical books that we don't have the energy to read

- History and politics

- Photography & Art

- Writing

- Streaming/Content Creation

- Dumb brain thoughts & half hearted half dressed photos

- Otherkin and non-human things, and our day to day life

…And a lot of other things

We're (illegally) married to @guardianssystem and we both tend to be in the background of each others posts somewhere, proof reading and bouncing ideas off of each other. We also work on a lot of our plurality, syscourse, and other sciencey related topics with him :) We also stream together, and are basically a package deal because we're both too clingy and anxious to do anything apart. We also adore them all, and are very grateful to have them as our partner system, in everything. We wouldn't be here to do this, or anything really without them.

We stream on Twitch (have tried on Youtube but rarely), and post on Instagram, Twitter, Bluesky, Tiktok, Youtube, and here of course. Our usernames are currently all over the place, but you can usually find us as XhaosSystem or HarbingerOfXhaos.

(Note: Our twitter/bluesky and instagram are often mature/nsfw)

We don't have any specific DNI, other than minors on specific sites and anti-endos on our twitch. Our twitch is a safe space, and as much as we're willing to engage in syscourse, bigots are not welcome near stream and they will be banned.

We can be very cynical or harsh when engaged in syscourse, we have very little patience for ignorant people who wish hate upon others because they don't understand them, but we love interacting with others, and we are more than willing to chat and discuss anything, and love getting questions on topics we are interested in :) Our dms on everything are open, and we have anon asks set up too, we can be found on discord the easiest @ thexhaossystem

A full headmate introduction is in the works, but a list of the most common fronters include:

-Alice, She/Her

-Artemis, She/Her

-Ashe, She/Her

-Cosmos/Purple, He/They

-Crowley, He/Him

-Erasmus, He/Her

-Jinx, She/Her

-Mary Read, She/They or He/They

-Moira, She/Her

-Moroi, She/They

-Reaper, No/All Pronouns

-Scarlet, They/He/She

-Tora Noir, She/Her

-Varen, They/She

-Victor, They/Them

-Winter, He/Him

& Others will be posted in a full intro, and sign off on each post :)

In the upcoming weeks and months, some tweaks will be done here and there on this post and our socials, getting them more streamlined with each other, and the ever looming headmate introduction post, until then this is us, and we look forward to wherever things take us :)

The Xhaos System Official: TikTok, Instagram, X, Twitch | Linktree

They/He/She NZ Content Creator Queer ND/Disabled Plural & Endo-Friendly

[guardianssystem]

IK we follow you n all so we see your posts a lot, but we never realised until recent that you do a lot of source blogging and rebutting and just. All of it.

Make sure you take care of yourself, what you do is amazing and I know it can be exhausting to go back and forth with some people. Thank you so much for all you do for our community.

It's almost always the same things over and over. We really do copy/paste a lot of responses - we have lists of sources organised by topic. "Definition of ableism" "Theory of Structural Dissociation" "What a system and alters are".

The most exhausting thing about it is that Tumblr, 1. hates paragraphs being copy/pasted, and 2. really likes deleting links when you try to add them. ;-;

And recently, with the anti-willo stuff, we've noticed that most actual conversations/debates have completely stopped. Our responses to most things are straight ignored now. The CDD tags are full of syscourse and "endos/their supporters are horrible ableist people" posts. The only thing this anti-willo shit did was cause harm to everybody, to endogenic systems and disabled folk and those with CDDs and trauma survivors. It's genuinely so, so stupid.

On one hand, there's "there are many problems in the world that are far bigger than a little bit of online discourse among tiny communities". On the other hand, there's "peoples' entire lives are being ridiculed and dismissed, and it's causing real harm to a massive amount of folk."

Like? In the end, we can really only do so much. What's more important is that folk keep living as who they are, and not listen to the judgements of others, who believe their experiences are impossible for no reason. ❤️

We are fine! Life stuff is.. pretty hectic atm. Landlords, amirite /half joke. We take breaks from social media when and where we need! :) We've been working on some BIG posts too, that we're honestly excited for!

[plural-culture-is]

Plural culture is SIMPLY PLURAL IS GONE?!??!!? AFTER ALL OUR HARD WORK IT'S JUST. GONE???? Folks... what do we use now???? /genq

We had actually no idea this was happening, we've been blissfully oblivious for some reason. We still have physical info cards so it's not like we have nothing but if anyone is able to recommend a replacement app / website, it would be greatly appreciated.

- Shay + Vermont of @the-aurora-strikes-a-nerve

There's this document with Simply Plural alternatives:

Plural resources

Please contact @fall3n.f3ath3r on discord or @the-elysium-collective on tumblr for any questions, comments, or other about this document Th

[plushvampie]

I don’t struggle with vampirism, i’m actually very good at it thank you

[guardianssystem]

In addition to this recent "endogenic systems are a hate group" idea, we're also recently seeing the idea that, endogenic systems are proven to not exist, because the sociocognitive model for DID is false, and endogenic systems are the same thing as the sociocognitive model

Would love to hear syscourse peoples ideas about this! 😄

In looking through med literature, we are finding "socio" used. In literature focusing on all plurality, it's referring to sociocognitve in general, and/or sociocultural, and not the sociocognitive model for CDDs.

In one or two pieces of literature, we have found plural identity being called the sociocognitve model for DID. However, this specific claim either has no reference, references other literature that uses "sociocognitive/sociocultural" generally and not the sociocognitive model, or otherwise offers no explanation as to why plurality is being described as the sociocognitive model.

Imo this discussion also goes a lot deeper than anyone talking about the sociocognitive model is actually bringing up. Culture and society affect everything and everybody. Mental health and mental illness are influenced by culture in many ways. This includes both dissociative disorders and plurality. It doesn't mean that people's experiences are fake. Even if they're experiencing something because of other people, they're still experiencing it. Obviously, CDDs aren't made up by society. But that doesn't mean society can't influence their development and presentation at all. Likewise, it doesn't mean plurality was only made up by society. Just that society and culture will have an influence on how they're both portrayed.

A therapist we used to engage with would often say, human culture has developed much more quickly than it should. Evolution is meant to take centuries, but think of how far humanity has come in the past thirty years. We are literally not prepared for today's world. It should be expected that mental health and internal experiences are going to get messy.

alternatively, we're high rn and have no idea what we're typing

[theharbingerofxhaos]

It didn't make u high ur fine 🩶

-reaper

[guardianssystem]

As soon as this power blackout's over, the first thing we're switching on is the heater D:

[guardianssystem]

We swear if we see one more person say that the theory of structural dissociation proves endogenic systems can't exist, we're going to stab someone. -_-

/joking. not serious, just annoyed, lol

[theharbingerofxhaos]

We will. We are serious. You will be stabbed if you're a moron.

-Haytham

[berryinnit]

t-shirt with the words “high-functioning corpse” printed on it

[one-in-a-nestillion]

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.

[theharbingerofxhaos]

Sometimes theres collective decisions, and financial discipline. Sometimes, someone really wants curry, and someone the next day really wants pizza. And there's nothing we can do

-Spider

[one-in-a-nestillion]

people always describe the system experience as either the host makes all the decisions with input from their headmates, or the headmates vote and come to a collective decision, but what i experience is more closer to a dictatorship where whoever’s fronting at the moment does whatever the fuck they want until they leave and then it repeats with the next fronter and the one after that too.

[theharbingerofxhaos]

@guardianssystem left the house to get some much needed shopping, and we're staring through the screen door mournfully feeling like an abandoned puppy. We're now going to go play some comp and mope and cry. We've never understood dogs ripping up couches more than now :( If we think about it we're really much more a cat, with severe issues, we bite. a lot. We have issues. Mental ones. -Jinx

[veggieshyperborea67]

PSA: DO NOT USE FLORALITY. THEY THINK THAT ENDOGENIC SYSTEMS ARE DELUSIONS, WHICH IS LITERALLY BIGOTED NOT ONLY TO PEOPLE WITH SPIRITUAL AND OTHERWISE NON-TRAUMA PLURALITY, BUT TO PEOPLE WITH ACTUAL PSYCHOSIS. WHAT THE FUCK?

[kaminarilovesme]

As someone with OSDD-1, I've done an entire research project and understand almost the entierity of psychogology, so yes, all types of plurality is possible.

[emo-orerats]

To all endogenic/non traumagenic systems :

I'm sorry that your existance is boiled down to a stance. You are more than a topic of debate, theres more to you than just your system origins. It's disgusting that so much of the community, sometimes even on the pro endo side boils your entire existance down to if you're real or not.

You are real beings, with real lives. You are more than just "non traumagenic." I wish more people could see that

[the-hadal-zone-sys]

Y'know what?

Genuinely fuck you if you're still spreading that bullshit that plurals can't be happy and that being plural has to be all misery all the time or else you're faking!!!

I'm tired of being nice about this!! I love my headmates and I will never, EVER pretend otherwise!!

[plural-the-way-you-dont-like]

Happy pride month to transfem alters in transmasc bodiess

Happy pride month to transmasc alters in transfem bodies

Happy pride month to systems who cant be openly plural in fear of not being allowed to medically transition

[midnight-showtime]

Normalize not telling people your system’s origin(s)

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