shifty ‼️‼️

i got my pfp from brothdian / brotharts you can just look them up on google surprisingly enough 🧑‍🦼

[thehimguy0]

i cant be the only one who thought green had one eye for a majority of the chapter and just never bothered to look closer why are they merged together like that

it looks so confusing im sorry,,,,,

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seeing oomf lose their shit over deltarune chapter 5s secret boss knowing perfectly well i beat it first try

lowkey kind of humbling i crashed out over so much other random stuff that was easy for some of my oomfs it kind of balances out

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thinking about downloading db legends cause my friends are there but not only would i become the biggest larper in the groupchat of all time i would be so beginner level it wouldnt really matter too much

also it takes up too much storage

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i feel so free

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holy shit im so bored i went back and re-unlocked lucio

its like 11 days into summer break this shit cant possibly be happening this early i thought itd be a nice break not having anything to do over summer no im bored as hell

even if i do manage to find the interest to go and like

binge watch assassination classroom

or jjk

or bfdie

or its time for the

or something else

i gotta have something else im doing in the background because my fuck ass could not possibly be stimulated enough by the moving colors and pictures and stuff on my screen i have to be moving my hands and actively playing a different game entirely

god damn it bruh i have no clue how im gonna live through this

the only shit giving me respite rn is being on call with my friends and limbus company updates every wednesday in my timezone

they sleep in so god damn long that now im in the morning of 11:25 am and only one of them is awake

which is the one who is only capable of waking up before 8

cause he has fuckin summer school

blurgh

blaaaargghhh

[thehimguy0]

so i thought back on the "the key to success is a faith in victory" quote

and yeah that quote does help me in school

it gives me confidence during tests and thats usually what i feel like i need most

besides like

studying

but ive gone through a lot of different stuff across games

grinding for wanted in nullscape

trying to beat rr6 in limbus company

wanting to beat lob corp legit this time (i cheated on day 49 and downloaded a 99999 damage mod to kill binah on the spot)

trying to get all the challenge coins in vibrant venture

and lucio in limbus game

all that shit

and two of them have been successful but the journey i went through for both of them didnt even feel like it was close to that quote at all

those being wanted and rr6

wanted was some horrible fucking experience i barely felt hopeful the whole time i was complaining about it to myself threatening to stop playing over and over again

but the feeling of leaving that unfinished, leaving one thing unfinished when i've done everything else i care about regarding that

i'd gotten every other class in nullscape besides wanted (and prisoner, but i don't care about prisoner)

i'd beaten every other bit of content in limbus company besides the railway (including the 9.5-1 reflectrial) i'd gotten every other challenge coin in vibrant venture besides this last one you get for no-hitting the final boss i hate leaving things i care about unfinished

every time i look at the game i get reminded about what i want from it and suddenly i'm playing it, grinding for that one outcome, that one reward, everything

so im making a new quote

"The key to success is to care enough that nothing will stop you other than victory."

not a faith in victory

but caring enough

that nothing will stop you

from doing what you're doing

other than victory

and i want to highlight one bit

"caring enough"

i managed to get wanted, despite how much i complained about it, and it's a great class

i managed to beat rr6, despite how much i complained about it, and now i'm back to having done everything in the game and i can just rest

i haven't completed lobotomy corporation legit yet but i'm on that path and i haven't quit yet either, i'm just busy doing other stuff

but the other two..

vibrant venture, i just don't care enough about no-hitting the final boss of the whole game that i'll go through that just so i can get every challenge coin

all the other 100% achievements for each world require me to get an S+ rank in every level, and i'm not going through that grind

so now the want to 100% the game no longer exists, and all i have left is this stupid challenge coin grind

.....yeah, no, i'm not 100%ing the game, i might as well just leave that there

it won't bother me as much as anything i care more about would

and then lucio in limbus game

thing is, for a long time, i did have him

but they just moved the game to a different group for some roblox bullshit

and now, since he doesn't have a badge attached, anyone who wants him will have to no-hit the lei heng boss fight with lcb sinner ryoshu

again.

...you couldn't convince me to even play that game again unless you offered me 100,000 dollars to go and get lucio back.

anyway

if it matters enough to me, i won't stop until i've finished it

but if i've already done enough and then it forces me to do more to get something i don't really care about

i'll probably just give up on it, or the entire thing, altogether

that's my philosophy

with a lot of things, actually

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this can't keep going on

you've forced me on this shit

for over 250 fucking runs.

why couldn't you just have

done this before the update

that buffed it so much

it's become impossible?

i don't even feel any

determination

unlike any other times

i'm stuck on these types of bosses

no

i just want this to stop

i don't want the weapon

i don't want the badge

i stopped wanting anything

from this fight

at run 5

and how far have you dragged me to?

"bragging rights"

"the weapon's good"

"it's about sending a message"

"we just need good kits"

"we just need to bird up"

how about

staying happy?

have you

considered how hard

it is to stay positive

when you're so goddamn tired

of fighting

the same

boss

over

and over

and over

and over

and over

and over

again?

how long

will you force me

to rely on chance

for a good loadout,

only to be outmaneuvered by pirates?

gunned down by soldiers?

flanked and destroyed by bombers?

shredded to nothing by brawlers?

stunned for eternity by mages?

decimated

by your own

mistakes?

i'm not coming back

i'm never coming back

i don't care

if we're not done

i don't care

if we need 3 people to bird up

i don't care

if i'm a pussy now

you couldn't convince me

with any argument

that going back

to that fight

is

worth

anything

at

all.

[thehimguy0]

okay we won a few days ago and then did weegee and won that too and now the only ones i have left to prun are skeleton and klevprime and i Cannot,,,,, but this time its more just “hell nah bruh” than

“..Fuck, this is impossible, isn’t it..”

turns out the combat king is extremely underwhelming in a one on one fight

its second phase lowkey made it significantly easier to fight

mf fraud your fucking minions were so much stronger

dih

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schools out

summers in

and this time, unlike every other year..

i’m not doing anything but hanging out.

my moms always wanted me to be doing something over the summer so i dont just laze around at my pc every day which is

reasonable

because i remember, vividly, lazing around at my pc almost every day during winter break

so i guess mom doesnt want me to do that for two months straight

and i tried to get onto a couple things but slots were full so now i just get to sit around here

and sometimes i like to think back, look at my year at school, and think about how i did

i did pretty good

had an award ceremony the day before the last day of school where two people got each award (not everyone got one but it was for our freshman class and team and whatnot)

got the “top tiger” award for the 2025-2026 school year

(for clarification the mascot for our entire school is tigers so this is like best student shit)

and i got it

alongside the freshman class president??

lowkey wasnt expecting it but you know what im not complaining this is awesome

and ykw i remember seeing a quote from a historical movie we watched in world history this year that we had to do a whole quote thing on

and it kinda reminds me of “the world isn’t going to be the last one standing” in a way

because the quote itself is

“The key to success is a faith in victory.”

meaning you gotta believe in yourself if you wanna succeed

and me, being my guy who i am, not knowing how to effectively study without giving up and playing limbus company for nine hours

i repeat this quote to myself before tests, before finishing homework due in class, before turning stuff in, and even before the grades are revealed

and lowkey

this shits so effective

it like reinvigorates me i just gotta believe in myself if i wanna get a good grade on a test

and i aced a couple tests after saying it

so its kina like a little ritual i do every now and then when im not the most confident at first

all i gotta do is have faith that ill win

that ill pass the test

that ill get good grades

that ill achieve victory

and thats exactly what i get

……most of the time.

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absolute shit at nullscape and trying to get carried up to level 25 for wanted so i can just write this while im waiting for the round to end

i thought about him again

more so

the consequences of him being a part of this at all

and the consequences that would arise from him "suddenly" vanishing

i'm just

worried

i'm worried that

i'd have to confront him over it

i'm worried that

people that don't know what we're planning bring him back

i'm worried that

he finds out before it happens

and most of all

i'm worried that

without him,

roleplaying with anyone else in the server

might be..

awkward

confusing

fine

lonely

postponed

because he's the one

that pesters me into doing a little bit with him

every single day

...

know what

no

i can just

forget about it

my mind's already set

and i'm done

having to tolerate it all.

[thehimguy0]

this can't keep going on

you've forced me on this shit

for over 250 fucking runs.

why couldn't you just have

done this before the update

that buffed it so much

it's become impossible?

i don't even feel any

determination

unlike any other times

i'm stuck on these types of bosses

no

i just want this to stop

i don't want the weapon

i don't want the badge

i stopped wanting anything

from this fight

at run 5

and how far have you dragged me to?

"bragging rights"

"the weapon's good"

"it's about sending a message"

"we just need good kits"

"we just need to bird up"

how about

staying happy?

have you

considered how hard

it is to stay positive

when you're so goddamn tired

of fighting

the same

boss

over

and over

and over

and over

and over

and over

again?

how long

will you force me

to rely on chance

for a good loadout,

only to be outmaneuvered by pirates?

gunned down by soldiers?

flanked and destroyed by bombers?

shredded to nothing by brawlers?

stunned for eternity by mages?

decimated

by your own

mistakes?

i'm not coming back

i'm never coming back

i don't care

if we're not done

i don't care

if we need 3 people to bird up

i don't care

if i'm a pussy now

you couldn't convince me

with any argument

that going back

to that fight

is

worth

anything

at

all.

[thehimguy0]

lowkey thought for a moment about watching the tadc last act thing cause it apparently got completely leaked on twitter or something just like that one avatar movie

and then i decided i dont think i wanna

.....because i doubt opera gx would add picture in picture to a video on twitter

and if i go and look for it now to test my luck ill probably get spoiled by the surroundings

anyway im gonna wait around like a regular guy and

okay i went and looked up a little stuff did not get spoiled

apparently the leak is in a brazilian dub

I don't know brazilian

so it's fine anyway!!!!!! im gonna wait around like a regular guy and

what do you mean the english version is getting leaked on friday

Today is friday

Hold on now

well whatever i cant really watch it anyway i said i wouldnt

im gonna wait around like a regular guy and

watch it in opera gx picture in picture on youtube

when it comes out

separate the art from the artist this shit gon be incredible

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theres this guy in 5/7 of my classes that just aggravates me to no end with just his voice

and how he makes jokes without even trying to look around and see how many people might or might not get it / find it funny

cause no, saying “unfortunate initials, by the way” about a guy with the initials CP during a social studies presentation to the entire class isn’t gonna land the way you think it is

neither is a tf2 joke to a geometry class mostly dominated by people who haven’t played or heard of the game

and when i have chatgpt open to help me actually figure out what the hell im doing in geometry

like having it solve the easiest problem and using the formula and methods it uses to finish the rest of the paper

better than just having it do the whole thing if anything im using it to learn in this context

and no the moment he sees the ui on my phone this guy just asides me saying “urm chatgpt” in the most nerdy and annoying voice ive ever seen come from his goddamn mouth

and he does it Again when he gets closer

one thing i despise more than a lot of other shit is people making me look bad

making me look stupid, dumb, incompetent, bad, evil, anything that isn’t how i really am

so when you reduce my method of learning shit i’m stuck on to me being a dumb dumb idiot who uses chatgpt to solve the homework and everything else it really hits pretty god damn hard doesnt it Kai

and then one day you pull the same fucking urm chatgpt shit

once

twice

three times

four times

five times

on the fifth time i hear that bullshit in the same class period i snap

“yo can you shut the fuck up dude i’m so fuckin tired of hearing that shit”

and i stop myself before i start rambling about other shit because he seems to get the point

he hasn’t said anything about it since

but fuck

his jokes are still horrible

all i can hope is that i never have to see him in any of my classes again in any of these future years

cause school is over in 6 days

and i need to find a way to really stop these annoying ass motherfuckers from continuing to enter my life one after another

before i just give up.

[thehimguy0]

there are a lot of annoying people in my life

some people piss me off through their actions

some people piss me off through their inability to read a room

some people piss me off through their insistence on making me hang with them

there's one guy in my esports team at my school that just doesn't know how to say my name right and i've corrected him a couple times and he has not changed how he says it

and then there's a few people i just hate altogether for personal reasons

but then sometimes i feel a little conflicted

one moment i despise them, i'm on the side of wanting to rip them out of my life forever the next i tolerate them and i just don't do much and i engage in some good conversation with them

they ruin my most comfortable creative space through their nagging want to roleplay every day, their inability to read a goddamn room, whatever random bullshit they do that disrupts our flow

how can one even roleplay when you have someone like them around

they imply with their own self-insert, a concept that never existed in our place before they did, that they would dive-jump into a woman's bed during an argument just cause

they domain clash with a domain meant to be plot-based and have to be (told through parentheses to stop)

the only sign they were being mind controlled during an interaction was them being calm and nice and a normal person

and then they started reading homestuck an interest of mine i uncovered a few years ago that's just stuck around for a bit without being really all too intense.. until they came around started reading it read all of it in about a week loved it started incorporating more homestuck into the roleplay a little

and i was fine with this because now i wasn't the only homestuck reader in the server

but now that i think about it

...why him?

i've never felt more conflicted over keeping a person in my life or not

on one hand he's annoying as shit all the time during roleplay and it makes me wonder if he's like that in real life cause it's his self-insert doing all this

and on the other hand.. he's into homestuck

...

..and yet it feels like such a significant split still.

he gets all political over any roblox drama or any drama in general online he sees that pertains to something he's interested in, and boycotts the shit out of it to all of his friends if he does see anything

no, you can't just fucking apply the term "mecha-hitler" to a pedophile hitler killed millions upon millions of people and a random roblox asym developer who happens to be into children isn't even close to that kind of labeling

i'm so goddamn tired of keeping him around and yet my mind just forgets all this emotion the next morning and i keep him around regardless because i move on so fast from my emotions

i'm no longer afraid of him seeing this shit

if you're who i'm talking about

be better

or i'll rip you out of all our lives myself.

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got a whole lot on my mind right now but im pushing past it yk all that shit

got a whole bunch of school projects

was so nervous about not having done this 20 slide kenya presentation for social studies

wore such an awesome fit and also completely eviscerated the presentation it was so good from my perspective and the joke slide i put in landed perfectly like i wanted it to

was also so nervous cause my japanese 1 class wanted me to do a partner introduction and we were allowed to record a video luckily enough my partner also happened to have recorded a video thank fuck

anyway i end up recording mine and sending it in at 11:50 pm the day its due and i get a good grade for it

fuck yes now all i got left is a biology family tree project and a group-of-3 poster project for english that is completely out of my hands (someone else in our group has it and our next class is the day its due) kinda concerned about the former but ill figure something out we got the biology final test tomorrow but i participated enough to get enough merit points to be top 4 and get exempted from the final test with a guaranteed 100% A so i dont have to take it i can just sit around on my chromebook and play some coolmath games or something

i got some sick ass ryoshu id sharding in 2 days item asylum finally updated made it to level 15 in marvel rivals (i guess) zenith tower release bought a couple new steam games i havent played yet currently rereading homestuck currently replaying lobotomy corporation and school ends in 7 days not counting weekends

ive got a lot to worry about and a lot to look forward to

all i can hope

is that ill have enough time to enjoy all of that

[thehimguy0]

jjks second season is finally on netflix

and the third season

is on netflix in asia

alright free vpn i downloaded on my pc so i could play limbus company modded

you know damn well what were doing here