The introvert academic

Just another introvert girl who studies medicine, loves books and psychology and struggled with mental health. INFP.

[theintrovertacademic]

Setbacks In an ideal World things would always go accordingly to plan, planning wouldn’t just be useful and comforting, it would also be the key for the perfect life. This is not a perfect world though, is it? This past week has been quite challenging, I was supposed to be only studying for the first anatomy exam, happy after the first two exams as a medical student done, instead I ended up having to reorganise it all after things didn’t go accordingly to plan. I’d lie if I said I just accepted this quickly and started studying again, failure is an important part of life but it’s not easy to accept and use there and then. I got anxious and I tend to get stuck when I’m anxious, the more I have to do the more I find myself staring at nothing and wasting time. Today I’m here to say that it’s okay, setbacks hurt but they’re only momentary, we’re still on the right track, we still deserve this place we fought for, we’re still good enough. Let’s all breathe, learn from them and move forward! Q. How do you deal with setbacks?

[theintrovertacademic]

16th April 2019 - 1720

Studying in the park. My life is so messed up, I am so messed up, but even if I sometimes feel like giving up I’m not giving up yet, I’m too young and my dreams are too big to give up!

[theintrovertacademic]

10th March 2019 - 15.31

Coordinating working full time, studying and taking care of the house with mental health and bad things happening in everyday life is just so so hard and tiring.

I’d honestly just relax today and I feel like I deserve it a bit but I wouldn’t be able to relax anyway because I have the studying deadline stuck in my head, I’m afraid I’m going to fail.

I’m also having issues with my boyfriend which I wish were not as distracting and just moved in this new place because I had issues in the previous one.

Can I get a break? Ugh.

[theintrovertacademic]

26th February 2019 - 12.36

Having a look at biology and chemistry programs is overwhelming and scary BUT nothing is impossible and I truly deeply want this so I’ll manage, somehow, I hope!

[vin-studies]

Crash Course aka. our saviours.  (other crash course masterposts coming soon!)

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Biology 

That’s Why Carbon Is A Tramp: Crash Course

Water - Liquid Awesome: Crash Course Biology

Biological Molecules - You Are What You Eat

Eukaryopolis - The City of Animal Cells

In Da Club - Membranes & Transport

Plant Cells: Crash Course Biology

ATP & Respiration

Photosynthesis

WATCHEDHeredity: Crash Course Biology

DNA Structure and Replication

DNA, Hot Pockets, & The Longest Word Ever

Mitosis: Splitting Up is Complicated

Meiosis: Where the Sex Starts

Natural Selection

Speciation: Of Ligers & Men

Animal Development: We’re Just Tubes

Evolutionary Development: Chicken Teeth

Population Genetics: When Darwin Met Mendel

Taxonomy: Life’s Filing System

Evolution: It’s a Thing

Comparative Anatomy: What Makes Us Animals

Simple Animals: Sponges, Jellies, & Octopuses

Complex Animals: Annelids & Arthropods

Chordates - CrashCourse Biology

Animal Behavior - CrashCourse Biology

The Nervous System - CrashCourse Biology

Circulatory & Respiratory Systems

The Digestive System

The Excretory System: From Your Heart to the Toilet

The Skeletal System: It’s ALIVE!

Big Guns: The Muscular System

Your Immune System: Natural Born Killer

Great Glands - Your Endocrine System

The Reproductive System: How Gonads Go

Old & Odd: Archaea, Bacteria & Protists

The Sex Lives of Nonvascular Plants: Alternation of Generations

Vascular Plants = Winning!

The Plants & The Bees: Plant Reproduction

Fungi: Death Becomes Them

Ecology - Rules for Living on Earth

Chemistry

The Nucleus: Crash Course

Unit Conversion & Significant Figures

The Creation of Chemistry - The Fundamental Laws

The Periodic Table

The Electron

Stoichiometry: Chemistry for Massive Creatures

Water and Solutions – for Dirty Laundry

WATCHEDAcid-Base Reactions in Solution

Precipitation Reactions

Redox Reactions

How To Speak Chemistrian

The Ideal Gas Law

Ideal Gas Problems

Real Gases

Partial Pressures & Vapor Pressure

Passing Gases: Effusion, Diffusion and the Velocity of a Gas

Energy & Chemistry

WATCHEDEnthalpy

WATCHEDCalorimetry

Entropy: Embrace the Chaos!

Lab Techniques & Safety

Atomic Hook-Ups - Types of Chemical Bonds

Polar & Non-Polar Molecules

Bonding Models and Lewis Structures

Orbitals

Liquids

Solutions

Equilibrium

Equilibrium Equations

pH and pOH

Buffers, the Acid Rain Slayer

Kinetics: Chemistry’s Demolition Derby

Doing Solids

Network Solids and Carbon

Silicon - The Internet’s Favorite Element

Electrochemistry

The History of Atomic Chemistry

Nuclear Chemistry

Nuclear Chemistry Part 2: Fusion and Fission

Hydrocarbon Power!

Alkenes & Alkynes

Aromatics and Cyclic Compounds

Hydrocarbon Derivatives

Nomenclature

Polymers

The Global Carbon Cycle

Anatomy & Physiology

Introduction to Anatomy & Physiology

Tissues, Part 1: Crash Course A&P

Tissues, Part 2 - Epithelial Tissue

Tissues, Part 3 - Connective Tissues

Tissues, Part 4 - Types of Connective Tissues

The Integumentary System, Part 1 - Skin Deep

The Integumentary System, Part 2 - Skin Deeper

The Nervous System, Part 1

The Nervous System, Part 2 - Action! Potential!

The Nervous System, Part 3 - Synapses!

Central Nervous System

Peripheral Nervous System

Autonomic Nervous System

Sympathetic Nervous System

Parasympathetic Nervous System

Taste & Smell

Hearing & Balance

Vision

The Skeletal System

Joints

Muscles, part 1 - Muscle Cells

Muscles, part 2 - Organismal Level

Endocrine System, part 1 - Glands & Hormones

Endocrine System, part 2 - Hormone Cascades

The Heart, part 1 - Under Pressure

The Heart, part 2 - Heart Throbs

Blood Vessels, part 1 - Form and Function

Blood Vessels, part 2

Blood, Part 1 - True Blood

Blood, Part 2 - There Will Be Blood

Respiratory System, part 1

Respiratory System, part 2

Digestive System, Part 1

Digestive System, part 2

Digestive System, part 3

Metabolism & Nutrition, part 1

Metabolism & Nutrition, part 2

Urinary System, part 1

Urinary System, part 2

Reproductive System, part 1 - Female Reproductive System

Reproductive System, part 2 - Male Reproductive System

Reproductive System, part 3 - Sex & Fertilization

Reproductive System, part 4 - Pregnancy & Development

[opheliabpd]

Shoutout to people with mental illnesses who are still studying and working even though it’s incredibly difficult.

Shoutout to people with mental illnesses who can’t work or study, there’s nothing shameful about your situation.

Everyone faces different struggles.

[jwstudying]

the truth

[studyandstorms-deactivated20250]

I cannot stress this enough- Build a routine. Build Habits. Wake up every day and get used to being productive, one day at a time. Do this for long enough and eventually you’ll be at your goal without even realising it. 

[studyblr]

your life can look so different, so much better, in just a few months. keep going.

[theintrovertacademic]

27th January 2019 - 19.23

So I’ve failed today and let the paralysis which catches me when I’ve got too much to do win BUT I’ve got a whole night and I feel somehow recharged and I’m not sleeping until I finish that damn to do list!

[a-disciplined-life]

Four rules for a disciplined life

(Credit to reddit user ryans01).

No zero days. ‘What’s a zero day? A zero day is when you don’t do a single fucking thing towards whatever dream or goal or want or whatever that you got going on. No more zeros. I’m not saying you gotta bust an essay out everyday, that’s not the point. The point I’m trying to make is that you have to make yourself, promise yourself, that the new SYSTEM you live in is a NON-ZERO system. Didn’t do anything all fucking day and it’s 11:58 PM? Write one sentence. One pushup. Read one page of that chapter. One. Because one is non zero.’

Be grateful to the three yous. ‘There’s the past you, the present you, and the future you. If you wanna love someone and have someone love you back, you gotta learn to love yourself, and the 3 you’s are the key. Be GRATEFUL to the past you for the positive things you’ve done. And do favours for the future you like you would for your best bro.’

Forgive yourself. ‘Maybe you got all the know-how, money, ability, strength and talent to do whatever is you wanna do. But lets say you still didn’t do it. Now you’re giving yourself shit for not doing what you need to, to be who you want to. Heads up champion, being disappointed in yourself causes you to be less productive. Tried your best to have a nonzero day yesterday and it failed? So what. I forgive you, previous self. I forgive you. But today? Today is a nonzero masterpiece to the best of my ability for future self. This one’s for you, future homes. Forgiveness man, use it. I forgive you. Say it out loud.’

Exercise and books. ‘Pretty standard advice but when you exercise daily you actually get smarter. When you exercise you get high from endorphins (thanks body). When you exercise you clear your mind. When you exercise you are doing your future self a huge favour. Exercise is a leg on a three legged stool. Feel me? As for books, almost every fucking thing we’ve all ever thought of, or felt, or gone through, or wanted, or wanted to know how to do, or whatever, has been figured out by someone else. Get some books.’ 

[turningtricksbdwozhere-deactiva]

My friend linked this to me on reddit when I was feeling really down and it changed me. Excellent advice!

[theintrovertacademic]

27th January 2019 - 13.01

I’ve got a huge list of things to do and a lot of planning to do. Still I only just managed to get out of my bed. Still my back hurts and I feel weird, not sure if I’m actually ill or if it’s anxiety related. Still I’m eating junk food and it doesn’t really help but whatever gets me through the day at this point. Still the thought of the things I need to do and especially of the consequences of my failure paralyses me. Still I need to do and getting out of bed might seems stupid but it’s an accomplishment. Still I’m going to fight agains myself and work this out somehow.

Still I hate my mind.

[samxcamargo]

“The only person who can pull me down is myself, and I’m not going to let myself pull me down anymore.”

— C. JoyBell C.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Recovery is a process. It takes time. It takes patience. It takes everything you’ve got.”

— Unknown

[theintrovertacademic]

26th January 2019 - 15.19

Following the aspiration to keep this blog as a very honest place where I can write I thought I’d share this. Just one corner of my messy room, my room tends to be as tidy as my mind usually and at the moment I feel very messy and tired.

I’ve got a huge list of things to do and about zero energy, also I’m working from 17 to 2 tonight and I just can’t be bothered. I wish I could just stay home and have a hot bath and then come back to feel myself, regain control.

This is just one corner and I can read so much in it, the cold I’ve been having for a week (that’s why there’s toilet paper), I can see the unearthly food I’ve been eating in my bed, I can see my water (‘cause I get so thirsty at night).

In days like this I doubt myself, I doubt myself everyday, I believe in my potential but I’m terrible at organising and following plans which sucks. But anyway, I can learn, I can get there. Doesn’t matter how tired I am.

Some people are lucky enough to be able to just go through with it and some people struggle with their minds like me, but I’ll get there, I’ll get there.

[coffeeandaesthetics]

“2am is made for writers, painters, poets, over thinkers, silent seekers and creative people. That is my favourite hour.”

— Unknown (via earthangelxo)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“There comes a time in life when you walk away from all the drama, and the people who create it. Surround yourself with people who make you laugh, forget the bad, and focus on the good. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life. Getting back up is living.”

— Unknown