this is all garbage

no

[raisincelery]

Sometimes it pisses me off when we can’t let disabilities make people bad at something. Autistic people can be bad at talking to people, this can be BECAUSE they’re autistic. These can coexist. It’s still a FLAW we can still call it a flaw that’s why it’s a disability. Sometimes they’re not just different sometimes they are bad at something. I was bad at people and then I learned how to be better through special classes. YES it’s masking but it is also just. A skill that I learned and it’s GOOD that I learned it because I don’t want to hurt people. Killing yourself is selfish! Yes people can’t help it and it often comes from a place of disease but it is still selfish it’s still a flawed thing to do. Oh he was bipolar or depressed. Tragic! She also had a child she was in charge of and LEFT THEM BEHIND not her fault but can still be selfish. Let disabilities DISABLE you. You aren’t different ur broken that’s FINE.

[nymeriaking]

this is very selfish of me, but I want to see a bipolar ilya rozanov. I don't just want him despondent and depressed, I want to see a mixed episode where he calls the police on himself because he can't stop thinking about all the worst things he can do to himself. it's like a storm of thoughts bombarding him, and he can't make it stop without taking dramatic action, and he's scared of himself and what he might do. I want to see him knocking loose his own support system because his brain won't let anyone help him. I want to see his manic side winning and winning and winning during the playoffs. I want to see him chase the highs because he deserves them, because that's the real him, because he isn't real if he isn't dancing and singing and platonically kissing his friends because his heart is so so so full because only he can love everybody this much and nobody understands just how much he can feel. nobody could ever touch him here, and fuck you if you think you know better than him. fuck you if you think he won't win because he already knows he'll win because he just knows these things. fuck you because fuck you. go fuck yourself. he feels fucking amazing, he is fucking amazing. he's a fucking god

[all4vans]

[needyilyarights]

Picturing a post wedding confrontation between yuna and ilya about his absolutely abysmal financial planning where yuna is pressing him so hard and finally Ilya is like “I didn’t think I’d live this long”

[elnotwoods]

bipolar Ilya headcanons

- he is bipolar 1, but it took years to get a diagnosis due to the presentation of his mania; for years his depression was the episode that was the most pronounced and noticed by other, his mania went unnoticed because it was mainly channeled into hockey

- his depressions tend to last longer, around 2-3 months whereas his mania last 2-3 weeks max, with a 1 week peak

- due to his alcohol consumption he tends to crash and get depressed, but it makes him very irritable if manic

- first symptoms started popping up when he was very young (in his teen years) but because of the family history re: mental health it got swept under the rug

- the first psychiatrist he sees tries to pathologize every behaviour of his, citing his sexual history as a big sign of mania (it is not, he has a high sex drive that might fluctuate throughout his episodes but he just likes to have sex)

- when he moves to ottawa, his untreated bipolar changes a bit - rapid cycling rather than longer stretches when he is asymptomatic/no episodes

- when he was younger his mania was mistaken for adhd

- when he is manic, his mood is not always cheerful like a lot of people expect him to be (ilya included at first) - he is rather irritable and on edge, itches to do stuff and be careless, spends a lot of money in a shopping spree (gets two new cars on the same day, reckless driver when driving alone)

- the structure of the hockey season is actually something that helps him stay more stable and grounded, its summers that tend to be more unpredictable

- it takes some time to find the right combination of meds; the first couple of antipsychotics he tries make him feel so disconnected and like a ghost in his own body that he asks for a switch quickly

- notices episodes coming on based on his sleep/dreams

[lunatic-in-disguise]

I haven’t seen many people talk about this scene but I love it. Ilya’s comforting tone but also trying to make Shane understand how everything will truly be ok if he just accepts what’s to come.

There’s so much love happening here even though Shane is spiraling potentially even worse than in the club. Ilya understands Shane so well. Genuinely this like delivery is perfect. 0 notes.

[gayeddies]

Oh my God, I love you so much.

[texasteaparty]

Ilya's gremlin energy, so playful. Growling slightly when he demands a kiss, lips stretched so far out, fingers digging in to Shane's thighs.

Give him kiss!!!

He's legit two seconds away from yanking Shane into the water and taking that kiss for himself!!!

[heatedrivalrysource]

Jacob Tierney, Sophie Nelisse, and François Arnaud attended a Heated Rivalry watch party at Champs in Montreal this evening.

[thisautistic]

Episode 1 -> Episode 6

[chapeldean]

Heated Rivalry 1x06

[blacksheepcolorfulskin]

I love that Shane is surprised about Ilya’s jealousy about Rose. He only knows about Ilya macking on that girl in the club. He didn’t see his man go full bisexual terminator before that. He didn’t hear the Kill Bill siren going off in his head. He didn’t see Ilya staring at himself in the mirror wishing he could cease to exist.

[littlegirlinvisible]

CONNOR STORRIE For Cultured Magazine (2025)

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#Rozanov's Facial Journey As He Continues To Hookup/Sleep With Hollander

[heatedrivalrysource]

I'm still at the cottage. 🏡 The season finale of 'Heated Rivalry' dropped today

[shanehollanderss]

Heated Rivalry | 1.01 ➜ 1.06

[emerlandlady]

Ilya wanted to tell Shane that it had been one of the best days of his life. It had been awkward, sure, but Ilya felt that, if he hadn’t quite been already, he would be welcomed into Shane’s family, and that was no small thing. In fact, to Ilya, who had barely been welcome in his own family, it was huge.

He wanted to tell Shane that the closest he felt to home was when he was with him. It didn’t matter if it was in a hotel room, or Ilya’s apartment, or at that weird hideout building Shane bought in Montreal, or here at Shane’s cottage; he was himself when he was with Shane. He’d left Russia, he was uneasy in America, and he’d spent his entire adult life drifting between continents and between lovers.

But now he had been reeled in by this annoying Canadian, and all that he knew was that he wanted to stay. He wanted to anchor himself to Shane and just...stay.

-Heated Rivalry by Rachel Reid