The Pro-Beginner

Professional beginner at anything and everything.

[theprobeginner]

M. List

M = Mental

10 Things We Live For

Pt. 1 Pt. 2 Pt. 3

Song Recs [Theme request open✨]

Pt. 1 - While We Are Growing Up

Pt. 2 - While We Are Finding A Home

Pt. 3 - While We Are Daydreaming

Quotes & Inspirations

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Personal Rant

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[solange-annick]

How To Write Grief by Diana Wallace Peach

Common Physical Reactions to Death

Tightness in the forehead, throat, or chest

Dry mouth

Breathlessness

Nausea and/or a hollow feeling in the stomach

Weakness, fatigue

Sleep disturbances, dreams, and nightmares

Appetite disturbances

Disbelief is often a first reaction upon hearing of a death, especially if the death is sudden. Disbelief manifests as an initial numbness, a surreal sense that this can’t be happening, that the world has stopped making sense.

Internal/External Coping: Your characters’ reactions will vary widely. Some will express themselves externally, others internally. This can be a source of misunderstanding – the less emotionally expressive characters accused of coldness or indifference, the more openly expressive characters accused of wallowing in self-pity.

Social Immersion/Withdrawal: Some characters will desire immersion within their social network to gain support or stem loneliness and fear. Other characters may avoid interactions, needing time to process and reflect in solitude. Many will fall somewhere in between, appearing fine until the brittle walls of control collapse at a word or gesture.

The Rollercoaster: Most people will dip in and out of grief, able to handle it in small doses before backing up and regaining emotional control. Your characters will function and grieve, function and grieve.

Reminders: Some characters may avoid reminders of the deceased, finding that places or objects trigger painful feelings. Others may have the opposite reaction—desiring to visit those places and carry keepsakes.

Active/Passive: Death generates a sense of helplessness. Some grieving characters may resort to intense activity (cooking, training, working, painting the house, or shopping). This is a coping mechanism that counters the loss of control. Others will feel lethargic, distracted and forgetful. They’ll have trouble focusing or wander in a fog without the will to complete the simplest tasks.

Spirituality and Religion: For some characters, death may challenge spiritual or religious beliefs and shake faith to its foundations. For others, spiritual or religious beliefs may be or become the lifeline that sees the character through.

Conflicted Relationships: These are relationships shaped by a tangle of positive and negative experiences, wishes, and emotions. Characters are grappling for balance and control, for respect, love, or approval. Death ends all chances for a satisfactory resolution. The feelings left behind are a stew of love, anger, regret, and guilt.

Recklessness: Though recklessness may appear as a death wish, it might actually be angry defiance, a wager that death can be beaten at its game. Characters may also put themselves at risk to make up for a failure to protect others or guilt at their own survival.

Anxiety, insecurity, and panic. Unlike recklessness, anxiety can be paralyzing. A shattered world can leave a character with a heightened sense of mortality, a fear of surviving on one’s own, or an aversion to taking risks.

Characters may feel relief after the death, particularly if the deceased suffered. Relief and a sense of liberation may also occur at the end of conflicted relationship, the battle finally over. Guilt frequently accompanies the sense of relief.

Guilt: Guilt is very common and often completely illogical. All the “I should have’s” and “if only’s” roll through the character’s brain, especially in cases of suicide.

Anger: Anger generally has four sources:

Justified anger at perpetrators and the failures of individuals and institutions. This is fertile ground for thoughts of revenge.

Lashing out at others in response to feelings of helplessness and loss of control.

Anger at one’s self for an inability to prevent the death.

Anger at the deceased for dying, for not fighting harder, not making better choices, or abandoning the survivors (like guilt, this anger isn’t always logical).

Unexpected Death: Death out of the natural sequence of life is generally more tragic than death after a long life. Sudden death is frequently harder to deal with than a loss that’s expected. Death by a purposeful or negligent hand is often more difficult than one by accident or illness.

Previous experience with death can prepare a character for new losses and soften the sharp edges. At the same time, if previous deaths weren’t fully processed, new losses can trigger unresolved emotions and complicate healing.

Delaying grief: Death and grief make characters feel vulnerable. In dangerous situations, it’s common for grief responses to be suppressed or delayed. Then once safe, the emotional blockade opens. If that safe haven for grief is a long time coming, consider that feelings may bottleneck, turn in on the character, or explode.

Children’s Grief – Don’t forget that babies, children, and teens grieve too!:

Babies experience a sense of absence in their lives. They also respond to the stress of the adults around them.

Little children and teens experience the SAME feelings as adults including guilt – believing that they somehow could have prevented the death.

Children also dip in and out of grief, cry and whine one minute, then play and laugh the next.

Children and teens tend to regress to younger behaviors.

Children will frequently delay their own grief until they see that the adults are handling it well and it’s safe to grieve.

In an attempt to fit in, teenagers will frequently hide their grief. Teens may not talk about their feelings with their parents, but will talk to another trusted adult.

[theprobeginner]

Song Recs [Pt. 3] - While We Are Daydreaming

Samson - Regina Spektor

"Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads But they're just old light"

May I Have This Dance - Francis and the Lights

"May I have this dance? To make it up to you Can I say something crazy? I love you"

Pluto - Sleeping At Last

"I rebuild when I break down I wake up more awake than I've ever been before"

Daydream - J-Hope

"Like the hole Alice fell into Like the road that leads to Hogwarts"

Clouds - Before You Exit

"And you jumped on a flight in the darkest of blues Took a trip to paradise through the stars and back over the moon"

The Great Escape - Patrick Watson

"Hey child, things are looking down That's OK, you don't need to win anyways"

Picture Source: Pinterest

[theprobeginner]

The Ocean

The Mountain

The Flower

The Dead Leaves

[heywriters]

lol attempted writing session did not go well. opened doc, played video game, closed doc. really wanted to write tho so closed game and reopened doc. edited the last paragraph i'd written. Hm. picked up tablet, went on tumblr. laptop battery died. going to play a different video game now. wrote nothing

[silvandar]

A successful author once gave me this advice - open your document every day. Doesn't matter if you don't write anything, just get into the habit of opening it every day.

It really works. Even if you only edit a paragraph or write a sentence, that's still a step forward. Some days, you'll write loads.

Most important thing is to keep your writing space positive. Don't clutter it with guilt or shame over "not doing enough", that will only make it worse.

And on the days when Executive Dysfunction or Demand Avoidance kick in? Forgive yourself, move on, try again later, or accept that it's not happening for you that day. Trying to force it will just make you ill, and produce shitty writing.

Be kind to yourself 💕

[theprobeginner]

Some days I feel like I enjoy the idea of writing more than writing itself; but in the end, it's satisfying all the same, so I try anyways. ✨

[theprobeginner]

Song Recs [Pt. 2] - While We Are Finding A Home

North - Sleeping At Last

"Though the storms will push and pull We will call this place our home"

Warm With You - Hayden Calnin

"We could build a house away from here You and me in the middle of nowhere"

Palace - Matthew and the Atlas

"A flashing light above me shone The rain falls like an old song"

Anchor - Novo Amor

"Anchor up to me, love"

Birthplace - Novo Amor

"Be it at your best It's still our nest Unknown a better place"

Picture Source - Pinterest

[theprobeginner]

10 Things We live for [Pt. 3]

Being cuddled by a soft, sleeping baby;

Receiving a birthday blessing the moment clock turns 00:00;

Being recognized for a project you've worked hard on for weeks;

Finding a twenty-dollar bill in the pocket of a long-forsaken jacket;

Getting to the bus station right on time to be the last person to board the bus;

Shuffling a playlist and all of your favourite songs comes on;

Stepping into a room with air conditioning on the scorching hot summer day;

Receiving a paycheck for the first time;

Leaving the first footprint on a fresh field of snow;

Waking up on instinct and thought you'd be late for work, only to realize it's a Saturday.

[theprobeginner]

Song Recs [Pt. 1] - While We Are Growing Up

Halloween - Novo Amor

"I miss my friends that I pretend I don't need But damn it, I needed you this week"

Older - Sasha Sloan

"I used to wonder why, why they could never be happy I used to close my eyes and pray for a whole 'nother family Where everything was fine, one that felt like mine"

Forest - Rogue Wave

"I can't protect you from the course of a life But you know me and you know I was born to try"

Castle on the Hill - Ed Sheeran

"These people raised me And I can't wait to go home"

Postcard from Rome - Corey Kilgannon

"The world is a beautiful place when you're young"

Picture Source: INPRNT

[theprobeginner]

It's alright to not have any dreams.

------ Paradise, BTS

[uterak]

Need Financial Assistance

Summary: My sister Sharmaine Ann Flores was diagnosed on Jan 2017 with Primary Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension it’s a well known life time disease. She was 23 years old that time and now 27. We have been providing her medical needs for almost 3 years which is a life time support of oxygen. The oxygen tank last a day or two depending on her condition. We have been asking funds here on tumblr for a year now since I don’t have a job anymore and the expenses is out of my hands. Both of our parents are getting older now and they just can’t provide more for us. So everything is up to me now.

Your Donations go through the following:

Oxygen Tank Refill - Cost 660 php+ 40php transport a total of 700Php A day or two.

Medical Needs, her vitamins and maintenance

Hospital Check ups, follow ups (Monthly)

Our food and house expenses

As time goes by, I am saving up some cash to start a small business here so we can sustain on our own too. All of your help is put in good use.

Reports regarding to our authenticity is already been verified by Gofundme, our account is already verified and confirmed on June 2020.

About the way I send my messages to people/blogs, I am not a big account, I don’t have many followers and help is badly needed for me so sorry If I was forceful or eager somehow to ask, I just need help.

Again Proofs are on this blog.

FOR DONATIONS (If possible send to our paypal instead since we need some funds right away for our upcoming check up)

Remittance/Gcash: 

Full name: Danneil John Tiano Flores Birth: December 3, 1996 Address: La Carlota City, Philippines Contact Number: [phone] 

Paypal Account

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO THE PEOPLE WHO BELIEVE IN US AND KEEP SUPPORTING US I CAN’T THANK YOU ENOUGH ALSO TO THOSE WHO KEEP REBLOGGING AND TAKING THEIR TIME TO READ OUR SITUATION GOD BLESS EVERYONE AND STAY SAFE!!

[theprobeginner]

10 Things We live for [Pt. 2]

Accidentally making something beautiful with a guitar while mindlessly flicking through the strings;

Finding out that you are just in time to buy the last one in stock;

Staying up until two in the morning for work and look out the window to find many lights still on in the opposite building;

Rolling around on a bed with fresh sheets that smell of the Sun;

To be left alone when you need some space;

Watching a person that annoys you stumble over while standing far enough to laugh out loud without getting caught;

Discovering precious memories while sorting through the house;

That unlikely person you have a crush on follows you on Instagram;

Waking up in the morning to the smell of freshly brewed coffee;

Receiving a handful of candy from teachers on Halloween.

Picture Source: Pinterest

[theprobeginner]

Life Question 🔓

If you only have 100 days to live, what would you wish for when you're only given one chance?

[theprobeginner]

I'd rather wallow in my own regrettable decisions than to resent the world for letting another person dictate my life.

Picture source: Pinterest

[writingdotcoffee]

“There are three rules for writing a novel. Unfortunately, no one knows what they are.”

— Somerset Maugham

[theprobeginner]

Yes, I am a Hufflepuff.

But I'll have you know that I'm more of a Tonks, not Cedric.

Meaning: I'm nice, but not that nice. So don't mess with me. I'll hex you.

Picture Source: DevientArt

[theprobeginner]

“It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important.”

------ The Little Prince

[theprobeginner]

10 Things We live for [Pt. 1]

Slowly walking around a beautiful neighbourhood with earbuds plugged in;

Lying in bed all day with absolutely no pressure to do anything;

Humming and dancing to some tunes while brushing your teeth;

Sharing a laugh with random strangers because of a goofy accident;

Being filled up on emotions by a good book;

Listening to the life stories of a Uber driver;

Stepping through a pile of dry leaves in autumn;

Studying peacefully in a quiet library with soft light shining on the desk;

That moment of putting on pyjamas after a long day at work;

Cheating on a diet and enjoy a pack of ramen before going to bed.

Picture Source: Spring Day, BTS