The Runnin Mama

thoughts + inspiration for you, mama

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If I’ve been MIA it’s because this is where I’ve been... my little Elle bell needs so much of mama right now (it’s almost not even funny).... I know it will pass and I know it won’t last forever but let me tell you, when you’re down in the trenches with these little creatures day in and day out it’s really effing hard! Over here trying to keep my #mamacool #modernmotherhood #motherhoodinspired #mybeautifulmess #motherhoodthroughinstagram #toddlermom #growingfamily #ig_motherhood #igmotherhood #teammotherly https://www.instagram.com/p/Bwwn5ukgbBh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ny144yr3hxd6

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This mama ain’t been runnin!

Confession... I have no fucking time to excercise. Period. Yes, if I were well rested and super motivated I suppose I could wake up at 6:30am to get a workout in but dayum... I’m so tired. Maybe it’s the cycle. The vicious cycle of starting the lifestyle change.

Idk... or maybe it’s my lack of motivation because the weather has been so yucky, cold, I’m a hibernating beast. Ha.

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60 degrees and rising! Lunges make my legs strong and support my lower back - contracting those abs on each lunge 👌🏻🔥 feel the burn

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The story I gather in my head after having conversations with my friends is, everyone thinks it comes easy! ... it doesn’t. And esp the third time around after being in “ok” shape after the last... bitch, this shit is hard!!! But, we are warriors and we can do it!

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The real deal... yes, most likely your hair will fall out after a few months of giving birth. It will grow back but it's just a testament to how crazy my hormones are right now, my body is not right even 4 mos after giving birth... the realty for me and many other mamas is that t takes at the very least, 9-10 mos to feel back to normal... it usually takes me 13-15mos to feel like myself again... it's a long road. Postpartum depression has def set in.

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Hello, I'm addicted to social media!

It was sort of a split minute decision to de-activate my account. It was about 10pm and I was moody, hormonal, you know those times you feel like you can't even stand your own self.

I deactivated her and immediately felt better. I don't even know why because I fucking love insty!!! The stories? Those are my jam and you know what? It helped connect me to not only my friends from back in the day, but it helped me to connect to new mamas and I even made a few new friends. All good... right?

Well, yes... Until I realized how much time it was sucking from my day. Every spare minute and even when I didn't have a minute so spare, there I was, mindlessly scrolling through (mostly strangers) day to day activities. My friends and families accounts rarely showed up, including my own husbands! I'd be clicking on ads that I had no business clicking on (who's got time or money for that shit?)... slowly my good intentions were tarnished. It reminded me so vividly of when I used to be an office dweller and I'd just black out and find myself on Facebook... "what the hell just happened? How did I get here?"

See, I love social media... a little too much. It's probably because I'm a social person... after all I did receive the "chatty kathy" award in middle school and was crowned with the high school superlative "most likely to speak out" ...

Thing is, I've got shit to do these days. I've got 3 babies 5 and under to care for which is pretty fucking intense most days. I have a house to keep moderately clean and I have errands to run and on top of that... I have about 1,000 photos to cull and edit for my own family per month and on top of that I'd REALLY like to find time to take on some paid client work as well as spend some time with my husband. Another goal is to make friends in the town I live in...

so, I guess what it boils down to is right now I just don't have time to spend on social media. I have too many other goals in life.

But, I do love to write and I do absolutely love all the mamas I've gotten to cheer on and support on instagram... so I'll be here still, cheering you on, just on my blog so it will be a little harder to find me... but I'm still here!

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Where are my abs?

It's been extremely hard this time around... 3rd time my body has created and delivered a baby...

Up 60lbs, down 60lbs,

Up 55lbs, down 55lbs,

Up 60lbs, down 35lbs

... 25more lbs to go

After being up most nights with (or listening to) all three kids, then caring for, playing with and generally... living... the last think of can think about most days is expending any more energy...

I am well aware that excercising will bring me more energy... eventually... but getting started is my current battle. It's cold, snowy or freezing rain... shall I keep going 😂

My list of excuses is endless... but I feel myself when I was in my best shape... when I think hard enough, I long to be that nimble muscular body again... and I will, it's just the "getting started"

So today I did my 1980's Calinetics 45 min workout... and I couldn't even feel my abs burning because... I can't feel my ab muscles. This has never happened to me before. So when I say I'm starting from ground zero... I'm not lying haha.

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On the road again...

Well, we finally had a break in the cold winter weather to squeeze in a run AND a workout outside! This week has been especially good for me, I worked out Monday (gym) Tuesday (nap time outside) and Wednesday (road run)... go me

It hasn't been easy recovering from this pregnancy. I will say, my uterus is still sore. I feel it when I run and I feel it when I do lunges. I wonder why it's so much more sore this time. I just ignore it and keep going, I hope I'm not hurting myself more 😣

I have to keep reminding myself, constantly, that it takes time, it's a slow process and, after all I did just use this body to create 3 beautiful and healthy human beings!

So I currently weigh 157lbs and my goal is to get back to my pre pregnancy weight of 130lbs... I would also then like to start really toning and building muscle mass... since it will only start to deteriorate as I age. My goal is to keep this body thriving for as long as possible.

27 lbs to go!

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Here I go again...

Well it's been 5 years since I first started this here little blog. It's started as a place for me to write about my weight loss goals after giving birth to my first baby, Sienna, who turns 5 in a few weeks!!!

Now, 3 babies later I'm here to do it all over again...

Here is my sweetest little bundle of love - Elle... it was a tough pregnancy but it was so worth the 10 mos of pain and struggle.

This time, 5 years older and a little heavier than the time before, I really have my work cut out for me. Im currently 35lbs over my starting weight. She was born on 11/17/17 so I'm about 2 1/2 mos postpartum.

I've gotten back to the gym in the last month and omg can I feel how weak I am! I've been through this 2 times before and it as never this hard. Every motion is a struggle. (Maybe it's because I suffered from pubis symphasis disruption so I stayed off my feet as much as possible due to the chronic pain. So there goes my muscles.) getting to the gym is definitly a struggle since J and I are officially outnumbered. Someone always needs something. If I do get to the gym it's usually after the kids go to bed and he can hold Elle. My goal is to make it 2 times/week.

This month I mostly focused on cardio - running 1 mile to start and always work in some burpees for a full body workout as well as lunges. I also make sure I have 5 minutes to meditate in the sauna for sanity points haha.

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Mid burpee

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Sleep training my... 4 year old?!?!

Hi friends, me again! Like how I just randomly appear after... months, maybe years? Oye. Life has taken me on a wild ride and quite frankly, I never want to over share and be annoying, clearly a job in the blogging world may not be for me! I digress... Well, I'm still trying to sleep train my 4 year old. Yup, lil stinker is so afraid to sleep alone, we don't even know how to deal. I've read the books, listened to the podcasts and still, to no avail, we have a whiny little person begging to come into our room... I've fixed up her room 6 ways to Sunday... and still, too scared. I have to say, she regularly has night terrors - screaming out in her sleep, disoriented, sometimes sleep walking... it's a fucking nightmare for me to navigate.

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Wicked irritated

Ever have one of those weeks where it's a constant fight to do anything for yourself? Well for me it's been being able to get to the gym this week. Yesterday I brought everything with me BUT my sneakers so had to drive back home to get them... today I dropped sienna at school and Ethan begged for the gym... he fell asleep in the car, then woke, we went in, he actually wanted to play and I was actually going to get to work out... then I see a text on my phone from siennas teacher saying she doesn't feel good and needs to be picked up from school. 😒 yeah sure whatever. Sorry body, you're just gonna have to wait.

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Today I wanted to do something extra special with the kids. So we went to see the ducks in Wellesley. I forget what the name of the park is called... Anyway, they were both total jerks the entire time and made, what could have been a memorable wonderful soft warm memory into a tantrum, screaming crying and pouting filled morning. Ugh... One of the hardest parts about being a stay at home mom is the complete restrictions these little animals have on, what is seemingly, a free day.

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Banana muffins, boiled eggs = snack Chicken, rice, veg = lunch Trying my best to eat healthy... It's so hard when the kids are so little, they demand practically every minute of my time and lately I've been working a lot so that = no time for me, cooking healthy and exercising... So... I'm attempting to get motivated... I really need a good kick in the ass.

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Happy Father's Day @justinobey 🎉 thank you for giving me two beautiful babies... And religiously waking up at 5am every single morning with them to let me sleep! You're simply the best! #mybabydaddy #worldsbestdad #fatheroftheyear