Ending and fangirling
I was randomly scrolling on my x when I read the news, I just thought it was a sick joke, I honestly could not believe it so I decided to check on Naver. It was there that confirmed your passing, at the age of 39, you were gone too soon, and I cannot put my feelings into words. How can I mourn over someone I never met, someone who doesn't know I exist; There were days when I checked your social media to see what is new about you, and there were days when I just went on my days without remembering anything about you. I don't know what to feel actually, I just know that a part of me feels sad that you are gone too soon, and I just wish that you know that a lot of people who you have never met are mourning your loss.
I first met you through we got married, I was in my 20's then, and as someone who is a WGM fanatic, I always feel that you and So Eun somehow saved that show for me. I was a big shipper, and honestly just last year I am still swooning over your Sanrio trip with her. Both of you were my source of happiness back then, I love reading fanfic and watching your episodes re-run. I am person that likes familiarity, so if I like a show, I keep watching it on my down days. Recalling it now makes me wonder what push you do it, maybe it just hurts so much and you cannot share it with someone, my heart hurtts that you were helping me survived some down days before, but am helpless on helping you or letting you know that you are loved and adored. Maybe this cruel world is too much for you, and I only wished you a place where you will find your peace and I hope you have it now.
It's weird mourning for someone you never knew personally, I am crying over the fact that as a fan, I cannot do anything about it but just pray that your soul will rest peacefully. Song Jae Rim, wherever you are right now, I hope you will know that many of us are sad right now, how I wish I had the change to watch you in a play or attend a fanmeeting you will hosted, how I wish that I will heard a news about you having a family or doing other things that you love, but maybe this world was hurting you so much, so I will pray that you are happy now wherever you are, and I will always look at you as someone who accompany me on my sad days. Rest well now and I hope on your next life, you will live it until the end.

























