Mellow 🍬🍭

23 | he/they | transmasc🏳️‍⚧️ | AuDHD 🌈♾️| 18+ | multistan | chronically ill 😷 | @mellow_drama13 on ao3 !!! | i write filth lol

[tigerhoshirawr]

so uhhhh hey gang... >.<

long time no see !! this acc has been inactive for,,,, at least two years. when i updated my bio it said i was 20 and well,, i'm almost 23 now LMAO a lot of things have happened in my life and a lot has changed, so consider right now a fresh start for me. i figured i'd let y'all in on some life updates as i try to force myself to get past my social anxiety and actually use this account lmao :')

on here, i now go by mellow. if you somehow remember me from before i fell off the face of the earth, i went by the previous pseud bunnie. not bad !! just doesn't really feel like my vibes anymore, and i have recently started posting on ao3 under the username mellow_drama13, so it felt right to keep it all somewhat organized by using the same name here and there. you can feel free to check out my fics here !!

and speaking of big changes, i'm trans !! honestly i think a lot of my social anxiety (aside from just being very chronically and mentally unwell lmao) stemmed from internal issues surrounding my own identity (and, as a result, struggling with being perceived). around this time a decade ago, i'd actually experimented with my gender, but a lot had happened back then both in my personal life and in the world as a whole (just like,, the whole being a trans kid in 2016... yeesh) that i'd suppressed all of my feelings around my own gender. i was a "girl" for a long time but reaching adulthood i think made things especially hard because i could not link myself to the word "woman" or the general concept of womanhood. and so by the time i had made this account, i'd considered myself "girl-adjacent" because it was easier than having to actually unpack my own feelings around gender and the dysphoria i'd tried so hard to ignore that i'd fulled detached myself mentally and emotionally from my body. by i believe 2022, i'd finally gotten to the point that i couldn't not deal with it, and came out as genderfluid, then nonbinary, then transmasc (which i am arguably still most comfortably with as a label). technically all three identities are true on some level, and so is autigender (which no doubt has some affect on my view of gender as whole as well as my own personal identity lmao). i still consider myself feminine, though not at all a "girl", except for when a situation calls for it (ie. making a knee-jerk "i'm just a girl" joke or listening to charli xcx music at full blast). i still like to do my makeup and wear skirts and dresses -- just as a feminine guy might. i identify at my core as queer and i go by he/they pronouns. on many occasions, i have been found to describe myself as a fem/me transmasc or a "transmasc femmeboy" or even simply a "pretty boy" -- i guess i just like to be a bit of a contrarian lol as of writing this post, i just did my 26th testosterone shot, making me 25 weeks on T and about to hit my 6 month milestone. i'm happier than ever, truly.

on the less fun side of things when it comes to my body, i'm not sure i ever mentioned it on here but i am chronically ill. i have POTs, though i don't think i was diagnosed back when i used this account before. i'm currently in the process of being tested for MCAS, as i react to very nearly everything i eat, drink, or otherwise come into contact with, and have had rather extensive allergy testing done to prove that i'm allergic to,,, pretty much nothing. i believe it was three types of pollen, including one plant that doesn't even grow in my state. no food allergies, but my body seems to vehemently disagree with that lol i have to take three different antihistamines multiple times a day, but i'm surviving i guess. i'm actively broken out in hives and a rash all around my mouth as i type this :') there's also a good chance i have the classic trifecta (POTs, MCAS, and hEDS or some other connective tissue disorder) but i haven't even begun to seek out answers when it comes to the last bit. my joints regularly slip out of place, though, and i'm in a good deal of chronic pain unless i'm actively doing nothing in order to prevent a flare up. but !! i'll get a referral eventually and braces and supports are my best friends in the meantime, i just have a lot of doctors as is right now (and likely more if my blood work keeps being wonky lmao) so i'm procrastinating it. if you, now or anytime in the future, happen to be reading my writing or notice i'm inactive for a while here or elsewhere, my body has probably KO'd me. it's fine, i swear lol

as mentioned earlier and a good part of while i'm trying to be active on here again: i've started actively posting my writing, after ages of being way too socially anxious to. i figure being active on this account can mean being able to give a space for myself to talk about writing and post about the fics i've updated or am working on. i'll be linking my fics (past and future) to this account, and am hoping this can also be a space for some of my ao3 subscribers to find me since ao3 obviously isn't social media and i don't want to just fall of the face of the earth while promising future fics without them knowing why (again, almost certainly chronic illness). i've been more or less out of commission from writing for the past week because travel had me flared up super bad, so i haven't had a chance to write, let alone post any more fics since the 26th because my body could not tolerate sitting up for more than a few minutes at a time without the room spinning :') i just felt bad that there's no way for me to really give an explanation on ao3 without posting a new fic, so i figured tumblr could be useful in moments like these in the future. so far i have written for groups like nct, svt, and bnd (as well as the occasional mdzs fic). these are all member x member (i have a lot of love and appreciation for our x reader writers on here, but i'm not sure i'm cut out for writing it, myself, love y'all dearly !!! <33) there's a lot more i have planned or in the works (i keep like 15 docs tabs open at all times LMAO) but it is important to be noted that this is almost entirely nsfw kinky content and is oftentimes with a bit of gender fuckery thrown in because, y'know, i'm trans. obviously, with any fic (and especially in october lol) it's a matter of checking the tags thoroughly and reading at your own discretion :)

anyways.... that was a lot. i've been trying to figure out how to word this post for weeks but especially since my body betrayed me this week. finally being brave enough to post and letting people read and enjoy my writing has truly brought back a passion for writing that i'd lost there for a while. i'm happy to have it back :) if you made it down to the end of this post omg !! hi!! thank uuu for reading bye eeeeeeee

[tigerhoshirawr]

hiiiiii guys....

so i fear it’s been long enough now that i owe you all yet another explanation/life update post :’) 

and okay like,,, technically i don’t owe anyone an explanation, but i want to, i think it’s kind of only fair after having not posted since,,, god, december???

last time i posted, it was because i’d gotten covid (for my birthday lmao). I’ve been really, really diligent about avoiding it and actually had for the past five years, and as someone who is already chronically ill, it was lowkey devastating lol i’d been struggling with my physical and mental health throughout the fall of the year (shout out to SAD and the infamous ✨october slide✨ iykyk), and if i remember correctly, i was just starting to get back into the mindset of writing again when i caught covid, which set me back,,,,, so much. i was more or less bedbound for like two weeks, and then the holidays happened, i spent time with family and that was nice, but then by the time the holidays were over two things happened. the mental health ish came back with a vengeance and, from what i can tell, having covid significantly flared up my existing health issues, because of course it did 🙃

if you don’t know, i have POTs, and we heavily suspect i have MCAS as well (probably some sort of connective tissue disorder too but ehhhh we’ll cross that bridge when we can get a referral for it), most likely a result of HαT (Hereditary Alpha Tryptasemia), though we’ve yet to do the genetic testing for it. I’ve been dealing pretty OK with the POTs but oh my godddd y’all the MCAS is the problem child, truly. like, i can deal with the dizziness and the presyncope and the heat intolerance and the blood pooling and everything else that comes from the dysautonomia. what i simply cannot deal with is my body deciding everything i eat, drink, or otherwise come in contact with is trying to kill me and thus try to kill me in its own way. like wtf.

anyone who is also chronically ill can probably relate to feeling so desensitized to your own health and how something that might be a serious medical emergency to anyone else is just,,, another day for you. my allergist changed up my regimen back in mid-january and that, likely along with the fact that my immune system was already oversensitized from the covid infection a month prior, sent me into a pretty catastrophic flare up. I’m so used to mast cell flares at this point, i’m already prone to eating things i shouldn’t and “overfilling my histamine bucket”, that i thought it would go away after a while. y’know, cut out the things you weren’t supposed to be having, give your body a break, and it’ll calm down. it did not. 

I’m only currently being treated with antihistamines, as i have been for over a year now, and, as it turns out, when your mast cells get to the point of being as oversensitized as mine were,,,, no amount of regular allergy meds can really fix it. so i was pretty much reacting to anything and everything, and the like ~10 (YES, TEN) various allergy pills i was taking on a daily basis could only do so much. and by “so much”, it mostly just made me drowsy honestly :’) and that’s coming from someone who is VERY used to taking lots of allergy meds and is generally no affected by the “drowsy” factor. I guess ten is the limit. I was taking two allegra, and zyrtec, and pepcid (because, yes, that do be an antihistamine), and multiple hydroxyzine on a daily basis, just to keep myself afloat.

why was i taking that many pills, you might ask? yeah,,,, so yk how i said what would be an emergency to anyone else didn’t seem like an emergency to me? as it turns out, i was apparently in a ✨perpetual state of pre-anaphylaxis✨ for like,,, a month and a half. My face was constantly flushed and puffy and swollen, i was breaking out in rashes and hives and having tummy issues constantly, and most importantly, my baseline was “throat feels mildly swollen”. It’s funny the things you brush off simply because you’re so used to your body trying to kill you, y’know? 

I’ve had my bouts of my throat feeling “more swollen than normal” and “fluttery” or “squeezy”, i have epi pens but (unsurprisingly) have not used them, and it eventually got to the point that i had my mom take me to urgent care, where i was told i “really should’ve gone to the hospital” instead. whoops. 

they did the most they could at urgent care though and gave me a shot and a three day taper of prednisone. while it was in my system, it was great, i was genuinely feeling better for the most part. unfortunately, what we did not know is that short steroid tapers like that can have a really bad rebound effect on MCAS. listen, i’m no expert and only know what i do based on the research i’ve done and what doctors have told me—but from what i understand, the steroids temporarily suppress your immune system and with a short taper (like, three days short), your body builds up and releases all of the inflammation that was suppressed all at once after the steroid is no longer in your system, which is why it makes you feel so miserable when you’re done with it. 

so needless to say, things got worse again. urgent care had told me if they got bad again to NOT come back to them and to go to the ER instead. and,,, honestly? yeah, that’s pretty fair. to the ER i went. and yk, i gotta say, it was actually a really good visit. it’s funny because my local hospital is like infamously bad, everyone i know has some story of medical malpractice from there, except for me, apparently. as a trans guy in a very rural, red state, i was terrified i was going to be mistreated for that or simply not believed because i was as calm as i was (because again, being chronically ill can make you VERY calm and unbothered in “emergencies”), but my practitioner was queer and also had POTs, so she was super supportive and understanding and also did extra research about MCAS for me to bring back to my doctors to help. 

they gave me a shot of dexamethasone(?) into my IV, which was,,,, something alright (anyone ever experience the prickly sensation? what the fuck was that about oh my god), and a good round of fluids because POTs, then sent in a prescription for a much longer prednisone taper. that, admittedly, did not get filled because CVS is,,,, CVS, but it’s okay, because i saw my regular doctor two days later, who put in the prescription herself and i was able to start it the same day as the appointment. I’m still working through the taper now and it has truly been a godsend the past couple weeks. 

and then i made the mistake of asking for an appointment at my allergist’s office with whoever was earliest available, which was not my allergist, and because of that, my appointment today was admittedly a bit of a waste. the nurse i talked to (very much understandably) didn’t want to overstep on my allergist’s treatment plan, but she is going to talk to my allergist to get me in with him ASAP because, if i remember correctly, the nearest opening with him was like at least a month and a half away. so hopefully i’ll be able to see him soon so we can figure out something more to stabilize my mast cells long term. otherwise, i’m just,,, a bit too ✨medically complex✨ lol :’)

but anyhow (if you’ve made it this far omg) this is all to say, the past few months have been a MESS. i miss you all dearly and i miss writing SO much. It’s just been kind of impossible to work on my writing recently, y’know? I’m still dealing with my mental health (and some trauma work but i’m not getting into all of that lmao), but it’s my physical health that’s been making things the most difficult for me. I have legit so many ideas (SO many unfinished docs and notes tabs open, just waiting…) and i want so so badly to write them—and believe me i WILL, i will, i promise. I just really really cannot promise when exactly it’ll be, but i just want you guys to know i’m still here, i still have every intention of writing, it brings me so much joy and all of YOU bring me so much joy, i’m just dealing with so much with my health right now that i’ve had to put everything else on hold for the time being. <///3

so i can’t tell you exactly when i’ll be making any sort of “official” return to writing, and even when i start posting again, i cannot promise that there will be any sort of consistency in how often i upload, but i just wanted to tell you all that i’m still here and i miss you all so much !!! 🥺🥺

much love,

Mellow <333

[tigerhoshirawr]

omg, i haven’t posted in,,,, 22 days????

yeah, so uhhhh… by the time i posted part 3 of the accidental pussy acquisition series, i was kind of on a general downward trajectory mental health wise. i had kinda taken a little teeny tiny break from writing at least until i felt up to it and inspired again, which i didn’t expect to take too long, except now i’m sick 🥲🥲

like, i’m having to cancel therapy today (which i rather obviously need lmao) so that i can go see a doctor. might just be a cold, might be the flu, might be covid (fuck i hope not) and no matter what it is, it’s probably gonna turn into bronchitis if i don’t see a doctor now bc i am very very prone to developing it anytime i’m sick.

and because i’m also so damn predisposed to nosebleeds, i have on 5 occasions in the last 12 hours either blown my nose or simply SNEEZED and my nose just started gushing blood. it is not fun having to hang your head over a sink for five+ minutes while ur nose steadily drips blood down the drain 🥴

and of course, this is all with my birthday being in 2 days ahahahah so like basically, things are just Not Going Well in mellowland 💔💔💔

all to say, it’ll probably be a while before i post anything new on the archive, which i am deeply sorry about, mellow is just doing his best y’all :’)

much love to all y’all this holiday season, stay safe, stay warm and try to stay healthier than me LMAO

[tigerhoshirawr]

what a fuckass birthday present

[tigerhoshirawr]

omg, i haven’t posted in,,,, 22 days????

yeah, so uhhhh… by the time i posted part 3 of the accidental pussy acquisition series, i was kind of on a general downward trajectory mental health wise. i had kinda taken a little teeny tiny break from writing at least until i felt up to it and inspired again, which i didn’t expect to take too long, except now i’m sick 🥲🥲

like, i’m having to cancel therapy today (which i rather obviously need lmao) so that i can go see a doctor. might just be a cold, might be the flu, might be covid (fuck i hope not) and no matter what it is, it’s probably gonna turn into bronchitis if i don’t see a doctor now bc i am very very prone to developing it anytime i’m sick.

and because i’m also so damn predisposed to nosebleeds, i have on 5 occasions in the last 12 hours either blown my nose or simply SNEEZED and my nose just started gushing blood. it is not fun having to hang your head over a sink for five+ minutes while ur nose steadily drips blood down the drain 🥴

and of course, this is all with my birthday being in 2 days ahahahah so like basically, things are just Not Going Well in mellowland 💔💔💔

all to say, it’ll probably be a while before i post anything new on the archive, which i am deeply sorry about, mellow is just doing his best y’all :’)

much love to all y’all this holiday season, stay safe, stay warm and try to stay healthier than me LMAO

[tigerhoshirawr]

need your hands all up on my body, like the moon needs the stars (it's like supernatural)

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Pairing: Jisung x Chenle

Rating: Explicit

Description:

"It’s a few days after the airport incident, exactly a week since the night he and Chenle spent together, and the group is currently backstage for their second show in a row performing in the same major city. Jisung just finished getting his hair done, and the concert begins in less than an hour. He’s only just barely sat down on one of the couches in the green-room, Jeno taking the space he’d just occupied at the hair station, when Chenle is suddenly plopping down beside him, leaning in close to whisper into his ear: 'Jwi, I’m so wet right now.' Jisung feels himself shifting from confusion – blissfully oblivious confusion – to a rather odd mix of dread and arousal that settles heavily in his gut as his brain desperately tries to process the older’s words."

or: chenle is... feeling a bit worked up pre-concert. he wants jisung's help. who is jisung to refuse?

Word Count: 10,163

Chapters (1/1) but part 3 to this series

Tags: Canon Compliant w/ Magic, Porn with Plot, Porn with Feelings, Crack Treated Seriously, Magic Pussy, Bathroom Sex, Semi Public Sex, Cunnilingus, Vaginal Fingering, Coming Untouched, Coming in Pants, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Possibly Unrequited Love

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oh my godddd the threequel. if i sound exhausted writing this post its bc i am, i just wrote and edited this fic in like 3 days so i'm very eepy now omg.

gotta love jisung being a certified Giver. and,,, whatever chenle is doing. rip to jisung's mental health </3 pls enjoy and also goodnight to me

[tigerhoshirawr]

my body is a temple and all of the disciples have abandoned and left it to ruins

[tigerhoshirawr]

docs is always trying to correct me when i write "the other's" or "the younger's" or "the older's" or any other variation of such a phrase, wanting it to turn into "the [other, younger, older] one's" or "the [other, younger, older] man's" but for the first time ever it has mixed up the gender while i'm obviously writing mlm (as i do) and i get the suggested correction of "the younger woman"

...

out loud, baffled, i go "why would a woman be there??" 😭😭😭

hello what there are no women here 💔💔

[tigerhoshirawr]

every time i look at you, i keep turning red

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Pairing: Hoshi x Woozi

Rating: Explicit

Description:

“'I’m—fine. I just… Really should have used the restroom before we left the company,' he says, reluctantly grumbling out the words like they pain him to admit. That gives Soonyoung pause. He stops midstep where he’s stood, the soles of his tennis shoes scraping against the sidewalk as he processes Jihoon’s words. 'Wait. You just— You need to use the bathroom?' He asks. Why didn’t he consider that a possibility? It makes so much sense why Jihoon looks so annoyed and uncomfortable right now. He just hadn’t expected the problem to be the simple need for a bathroom trip. Jihoon huffs. 'Soonyoung,' he says as he stops, too, turning around to look back at him. There’s this slight note of impatience to his voice, and a pinch between his brows. He’s clearly trying to glare at him, but Soonyoung can only watch as Jihoon shifts his weight off of one foot and to the other, the restless movement giving away how badly the younger really needs to go. Oh."

or: hoshi is just trying to get woozi home from where the younger has been rotting away in his studio. he MAY have forgotten one simple thing he probably should've reminded woozi to do before they left the company building.

Word Count: 6,151

Chapters: (1/1)

Top Tags: Canon Compliant, No Sex, Domestic, Light Hurt/Comfort, Tired Producer!Woozi, Omorashi, Wetting, Public Wetting, Kink Discovery (one sided), Soft SoonHoon <333

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bbeep beep boop boop another fics from mwah. this was one of the ones that was supposed to be on my wip list but i forgot to add it, honestly wasn't expecting it to be the next finished and uploaded but here we are !! i love them and i love the idea of really anyone taking care of woozi when he's busy rotting in his studio, so this is kinda fluffy and domestic but also lowkey horny and well. piss. it's to be expected for me atp ig LOL

[tigerhoshirawr]

me: uh oh i hope i can get at least 800 more words to this fic before its over

also me, finishing the fic and having over doubled the total word count: ,,huh

[tigerhoshirawr]

do you wanna, do you wanna own my mind?

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Pairing: Taesan x Leehan

Rating: Explicit

Description:

“'Mmnh… I just wanna play with you a little, Baby,' Dongmin responds easily, simply, not the least bit deterred by the question. He presses a kiss to the corner of his jaw, curling himself around him even further. His thumb strokes over Donghyun’s hip with his other hand, just barely under the edge of his shirt, rubbing against his skin in a slow, pacifying manner. 'You keep washing up the dishes, Jagi-yah, let me just… Play with you for a while,' he tells him, words thick with the subtle, double-meaning. Donghyun swallows, then nods wordlessly. He knows his safe words, and he’s agreed to things like these ahead of time. It’s not like he doesn’t know what he’s getting himself into — he just always feels a tingly little surge of nervous anticipation course through him when Dongmin does these things, picks the most mundane, unexpected moments to play with him."

or: donghyun is washing the dishes. dongmin just wants to play with him a little. :)

Word Count: 4,784

Chapters: (1/1)

Top Tags: Canon Compliant, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Explicit Sexual Content, Free Use, Exhibitionism, dom!Taesan, sub!Leehan, Handjobs, Come Marking, Come Used as Lube, Coming In Pants, Dacryphilia

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[tigerhoshirawr]

there’s something extremely fucking satisfying about being queer from ky and knowing that kim fucking davis just wasted the past DECADE of her life.

her whole life’s work has been built through hate. she has spent her life trying to take away the rights of others. she spent the past decade trying to get up to the supreme court in hopes of overturning marriage equality for good — and they refused to even listen to her case.

they didn’t send it for a vote, they didn’t even give it the time of day. they simply dismissed it.

after everything the queer community (in the US in particular, obviously) has been through lately, it’s these major victories (i would normally say small victories but there’s nothing “small” about this one) that mean the most.

genuinely teared up when i heard the news. THIS is why we dance.

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

we’re here, we’re queer, and we won’t be silenced <333

[tigerhoshirawr]

and this is why we dance.

[tigerhoshirawr]

there’s something extremely fucking satisfying about being queer from ky and knowing that kim fucking davis just wasted the past DECADE of her life.

her whole life’s work has been built through hate. she has spent her life trying to take away the rights of others. she spent the past decade trying to get up to the supreme court in hopes of overturning marriage equality for good — and they refused to even listen to her case.

they didn’t send it for a vote, they didn’t even give it the time of day. they simply dismissed it.

after everything the queer community (in the US in particular, obviously) has been through lately, it’s these major victories (i would normally say small victories but there’s nothing “small” about this one) that mean the most.

genuinely teared up when i heard the news. THIS is why we dance.

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

we’re here, we’re queer, and we won’t be silenced <333

[tigerhoshirawr]

me stealing kenny’s husband one fanart at a time :3 /j

[tigerhoshirawr]

DAWG HE ALSO COMMENTED AND I SIDNT EVEN REALIZE HELLO

[tigerhoshirawr]

me stealing kenny’s husband one fanart at a time :3 /j

[tigerhoshirawr]

yeah, i'm gonna dance all night (never gonna stop, never gonna stop)

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Pairing: Myung Jaehyun x Riwoo

Rating: Explicit

Description:

"It is important, Jaehyun thinks, to note that he is not some secret mastermind behind all of his and Sanghyeok’s kinkier endeavors. It’s easy to see it that way, just, it’s just— not true, not in the slightest. Riwoo loves to act all sweet and feign innocence, make Jaehyun look like the freak between them, but god, the older is an absolute menace, a terrible little minx, letting Jaehyun take the lead most of the time so he can sneakily plan out some of their most wild deeds when Jaehyun is the least suspecting of the older."

or: Sanghyeok surprises Jaehyun while they're out for the night

Word Count: 4,767

Chapters (1/1)

Top Tags: Trans Male Character, Trans!Riwoo, No Sex or Implied/Referenced Sex, Watersports, Wetting, Exhibitionism, Clubbing, (light) Drinking, Hyung Kink, (mild) Puppy Play, Light Dom/Sub, Dom!Riwoo, Sub!Jaehyun

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a humble offering from where i'm on bedrest with my knee lol this fic was brought to u by ibuprofen and my rice pack i've been using to manage the pain :')

they're just,,, freaks (affectionate) (derogatory) the clubbing is actually a very minor part of the plot (if you can call it plot LMAO) and jaehyun did have a few drinks but he is still sober enough to very enthusiastically consent to what's happening, even if he's a little slow on catching onto whats happening lol he's just very whipped for his boyfie. can you tell i'm a bit sleep deprived its fine

enjoyyyyyy >.<

[tigerhoshirawr]

hiiiii i’m lowkey in excruciating pain in my knee, the pain from the fall i had on friday snuck up on me and now my leg right above my knee is swollen asf, i’m pretty sure i subluxed it but oh well :’) i’ve done it to that specific knee before but usually it pops back into place by now, it feels like the top of my kneecap just like fucking dug right into my leg 🥴 so i’ve been icing and putting heat on it and taking ibuprofen, been working on writing but it is somewhat slow-going just because it’s hard for me to sit in one position for too long to write but is now also painful to move LMAO

but! current wips include but are not limited to (in no particular order):

- accidental pussy acquisition part 3 and part 4

- more jaehyun x riwoo shenanigans

- maybe some poly!bnd omegaverse??? 👀 lots of pack bonding moments

- some seobsoul kink exploration (omo) + seob in a skirt

- sungtaro omegaverse in the same universe as (and a chronologically continuation directly after) drippin', drippin' love

to be clear i have a very long note in my notes app that has many many many more ideas but these ^^ are the only ones so far that i’m currently working on, have documents for, and all that jazz. some will definitely take longer than others, both in terms of planning and also based on my estimates of how long they’re going to turn out, but just know i’m cooking stuff up !! :))

[tigerhoshirawr]

thinking about my most recent dnd session and how there was a new npc named theo that i had yet to meet and because i hate being left out of things i went to go meet theo.

and important context! in the session before this one, i had, unfortunately, got turned into a wererat. still having some mixed feelings about that because my boy had hella poor constitution (like, a -1 modifier, i nerfed him for the plot) and could really use the immunities being a rat/rat hybrid provides. i was informed though that there are certain tells that, even in your human form, some ppl who know this tells might recognize you for your rattiness and treat you a little odd for it.

so i go to see theo. he’s some sort of mage, so i have him look at a magic item i have. he doesn’t tell me much i don’t already know about it, but the whole time he’s being REALLY weird to me. like i was just chatting at first but HE was acting weird so i ended up being weird back because i felt oddly on the defense. the interaction ends and i ask my dm hey did he like,, know i was a wererat?? i’m told to roll for insight. cool, i roll an 18 in total.

TURNS OUT THEO DIDNT KNOW AT ALL. according to my dm, “yeah so he just thought you were regular weird” i’m like ??? that’s almost worse???

so yeah i guess freyr (my boy) got clocked yet again by an npc for being autistic LMAO