Half-boiled Guy

24. Still jaded, but employed -- which given my B.A. is a miracle. I'm into horror movies, cuddling, snuggling up with a blunt, and hiking. and, of course, lifting. Looking to get bigger here and earn being able to call myself a bodybuilder.    If you are interested in supporting, here is my wishlist:  http://a.co/8ZEx3fG

[handsomeboymodelingschool]

I guess that cunt gettin eaten

[melody-sy-deactivated20260424]

game reviewers are weird

[melody-sy-deactivated20260424]

[cognitohazardous]

[locura-azul]

[jbfly46]

Do a lot of trans people think that they have to identify as a woman, or get a sex change, just to not be homosocial? I’m mostly straight, or “gynosexual”, on their sexual spectrum, and I’m not homosocial, nor do I identity as anything beyond my appearance, if only because pronouns matter little to me.

[notmuchtoconceal]

i absolutely know hetero femboys who gravitate towards gays and transes for this reson.

men are "the bad ones" so instead of looking into your heart and facing your own evil, let's "buy in" to the alternative queer orthodoxy so we can keep coasting by on autopilot under the neoliberal paradigmn, crafting phony consumer identities so we don't need to face the fact it's the ideological impetus to commodify human beings which is the root cause of our system of patriarchal exploitation.

the "himbo" fantasy is the same shit.

you wanna be a male bimbo cause ya prolly got some fucked up read on your own manhood.

you wanna be a genre, not a person.

most gays also low key still secretly crave a daddy or straight projector, so quietly enable men like this to deceive and brainwash em and become complacent with the system. the LGBTQ+ movement is composed almost entirely of individuals who wish to remain complacent in the system cause they're largely unconsciously acting from early abandonment wounds and want to attach.

really, everyone wants and enjoys men, even if they won't admit to it, but also -- caring for people who fear you too much to communicate with you, while being either resented or projected on is mixed company is stressful and if you need to perfect in every interaction, it's not sustainable.

i got told by conservatives growing up that i was a predator for being gay, then when i became a man i got told i was a predator for feminists for being one. i feel women often punish me for caring for them, as if my growing up with domestic abuse and recognizing their pain made me both complicit and weak, like i was both their daddy and their son.

the smartest thing to do, of course --

is to keep making those assumptions forever.

and never talk about it.

our silence has had no far-reaching consequences thus far, and i doubt it ever will.

you're safe and daddy loves you.

[themysteriousmurasamecastle]

this pic is unbelievable

[superchat]

i always remember it being harder than i expect it to be to find video of ramiels screams so heres a little compilation

[superchat]

no salt to the tagger cuz ppl are just hangin out online and i doubt they mean any ill will but i always hate this sentiment cuz if you looked into the history of eva and the community, youd see how this sort of entitled behavior is exactly what made finishing eva so hard for him

this was him talking about the fans response to the end of the tv show

the man goes through a horrible depression, projects it into his work and it gets some attention, and this is how people responded cuz they didnt like the ending, it was with death threats and just absolutely hating on him

eva later goes to be a big hit, and rebuilds get made and theyre much more of a shonen action (like the first half of the show) and then people just kinda...fall into the same mindset, just not as angry but still lxke "were discrediting what you're doing"

mari is one of the most hated characters by die hard eva fans but mari is based off of anno's wife. the person who supported him every day and pushed him to see eva through to the end, because she knew if he never finished it, it would haunt him the rest of his life.

people say they like eva for anno's self expression but i dont think they truly mean it. the treatment he gets by fans has always been so fickle and selfish. if eva is loved by the expression of humanity in it then i dont know how you can truly hate the rebuilds cuz its anno trying to move on

if i ever met anno the last thing i would ever mention was liking eva cuz at this point i wouldnt blame him if he hated the fans. he knows how quickly they can go from "i love your works" to "not MY eva"

[sokuroda]

a companion piece to my previous post

[retrogamingblog]

what it feels like to play pokemon ruby and sapphire on max volume

[floatinglonewanderer]

I will never not reblog this

[mikufanclub]

xhs

[robertreich]

Jeff Bezos's Amazon and Elon Musk's SpaceX are both fighting in court to have the National Labor Relations Board declared unconstitutional. Starbuck's and Trader Joe's joined them in separate lawsuits. All of these companies have a disgraceful history of worker abuse and union busting. All of them have been charged by the NLRB with hundreds of violations of workers’ organizing rights The NLRB is standing up to their union busting. That’s why they’re trying to destroy the NLRB. I'm going to do my best to keep you all informed about this case as it snakes its way through the courts. The future of unions may depend on the final verdict. http://dlvr.it/T49LM1

[zohbugg]

[dinodoodler7]

As Gregor Samsa awoke one morning from uneasy dreams he found himself lying in a familiar ballpit

[ironpour]

[timovdrow]

Words feel like a waste. I'm not sure who will listen, or if I want anyone to listen. Everything feels so free floating as of late -- existing in a vacuum day in and day out. I'm told its choice, at least until you claw your way from not choice. Condition? I think about changing -- being friendlier, seeing more people. I think about how empty I feel when I'm talking to most people too. I'm told its okay, to be busy and absorbed, at least until I continue talking -- let me correct you, I do nothing. Nothing being born out of the empty that is in everything.

Words feel heavy and awkward. Like shoes that aren't mine, even though I know that they were. Shrank in the wash maybe. I don't wash my shoes though; I'm a dirty person. The answer isn't clear. It feels like someone interrupted a conversation that was never just about to begin.

.

It feels like winter again. The zeal of summer is gone. Friends are cozying up in each other's living rooms. I hear about it. "I'm glad you had fun" pained as if I would've been different if I had been invited.

.

It feels like being wound into a spring.

It being my brother

My brother being not me

Not me being me

Me being upset

Upset being accepting

Accepting being quiet

Quiet being loud

I've punched 3 holes in the wall, brother

Gripping me tight, don't move, fucker

Gripping me tight, it's okay, babe

Gripping me tight, I said don't move

Gripping me tight, it's fine

Gripping me tight, it's fine

Gripping me tight, it's fine

Gripping me tight, it's fine

Gripping

Me

So

Tight

I

Can't

Help

But

.

I just needed to let something out. I need to see my therapist again. It's been a while.

[sewerfight-deactivated20250114]

when I was around twelve I used to sit at the family computer and send hatemail to a white french dude named Jacques who was a self proclaimed communist on Tumblr. This was back in the day when you didn't need a blog to send anon hate. I had no real beef with him but I just didn't like his tone. used to send him "SHUT UP Jacques" periodically. and he'd answer every single one of my asks like "who is this?? show your face or I'll fucking kill you" and I'd be like "now now, that doesn't make sense, jacques" all haughty and he'd get so fucking mad at me. One time he posted a selfie and I sent him an ask claiming I was a psychologist and that his hair parting suggested that he wasn't a communist at all. and he took it deliriously serious and went off on a 2,000 word rant. I can remember going to stay at my grandparents over that weekend, so I didn't even respond to the rant until I came back. I could've chosen to end it there, but when I returned, I sent him another ask which was like "psychologist here again: if you were a communist your hair parting would be in the middle. evenly distributed. All behavioural signs point to someone who doesn't take their own values seriously." and he went ballistic. really swearing at me. all caps type beat. he never turned the asks off, btw. which always made me wonder if he didn't know how to, or if he didn't want to cause he was convinced he was fighting a war, and this action would ensure he lost it. anyway this went on for weeks until one day I completely forgot about him like he was some kind of childhood imaginary friend I'd conjured up in my loneliness. but yesterday I happened to recall the whole scenario, because my buddy was like "remember when you were twelve and I came over to your house, and you showed me on the computer how you'd been terrorizing this random French guy for days on end. And you were laughing like fucking crazy. and I said it wasn't funny because he probably had problems, and you were like 'oh.' and you looked a bit guilty for a second, but then you went and got a grapefruit from the kitchen and threw it out of the second story window at my kid brother, who was playing in the street, and then you started laughing again?" Well. when she put it like that, needless to say I felt bad. so Jacques if you're out there I'm sorry I was such a little shit. you had totally normal hair, and you only wanted people to share stuff. If it's any consolation I know every day of my life that I'm probably going to hell for the sick things I have done

[arcadebroke]

[juelzsantanabandana2]

Oh shit? Go white girl go 😳.

[wcwit]

Her name’s Cynthia Rothrock and you’d better put some respect on it!

[sapper-in-the-wire-old]

she’s part of the old guard of Hong Kong kung fu films where you had to be an honest to god martial artist to play the role correctly. when she started acting in American movies they had to keep telling her to not hit so hard lmao

[startledoctopus]

love watching her sword very carefully and gracefully missing him

[sahonithereadwolf]

Cynthia Rothrock is also the inspiration for Sonya Blade and she started doing work in Hong Kong after Hollywood kept saying there was no room for female action stars.

[sabinmoon]

Cynthia Rothrock is so bad ass and trained her body so much, she defies what a normal body is capable of doing. When she ripped her ACL she turned down the reconstructive therapy because of how much work she had. The doctors told her she wouldn’t be able to walk properly cause her kneecap wouldn’t be held in place anymore. Que their surprise when she walks out, but keeps working without any issues.

Turns out her quadriceps and hamstrings were so strong that they held her kneecap in place even WITHOUT HER ACL. She still hadn’t done so as of 2012 last reported

[etrianodysseyobsession-hd-deact]

Let’s watch Cynthia and Oscar winner Michelle Yeoh kick some ass:

[cleopatrachampagne]

shocked bystander at sydney, australia’s annual mardis gras pride parade (1994)

[3dmonstermaze]

For those who give a shit about it, this is a staged photo, the woman on the left is a drag queen doing a bit. Here's a few more photos of her taking in the beautiful sights and sounds of the parade:

(by Mervyn L. Fitzhenry)

[memeartisan]

[aflo]