¡On Fuego! and Jizzed...I mean Jazzed to be here

•MDNI• Profile picture by @wreegis ♡ ⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ 「 ✦ F•29•Sʜᴇ/Hᴇʀ ✦ 」 🇬🇧

[tinydizzydino]

• Dino • 29 • She/Her • Single ● Anxious ● Depressed ● Traumatised

Anon(s): 🦕🦖, 🔥, 💧

So I'm doing one of these little introductory things because fingers crossed I'll get my ass in gear and start writing again and I'm gonna come with warning labels. Little feral, slightly unhinged and my mind is a shitshow so come along for the ride.

Expect a lot of Dispatch as that's my current hyperfixation. AND BOY IT HAS HIT HARD.

*Hyperfixation List: Dispatch, Call of Duty*

MDNI - and I cannot stress this enough. I'm not getting in trouble for your shitty actions kids.

Requests - ehh good luck, I can barely find motivation to do anything at the moment.

Fave Characters - Simon 'Ghost' Riley, John 'Soap' Mactavish, John Price, König, Flambae, Waterboy

Characters I have a soft spot for - Nikto, Sonar, Prism, Malevola, Punch Up, Robert Robertson

[tinydizzydino]

I don't know if I can keep going.

[wreegis]

@littlevandalist // @tinydizzydino

💛❤️‍🔥

[tinydizzydino]

HOLY FUCK I LOOK SO CUTE 🥹 Thank you so much!!

[unstablemachinery]

I think cats are growing on him..

[tinydizzydino]

Tumblr. I'm old af, whaddya mean I need to verify my age to see blogs I follow 😭

[waterboy-sdn]

It's not all the time that my cats enter my room— especially since it's always wet.. wet enough to be considered more than a slippery hazard, haha....!! 😅

So, seeing Misty ( my cat in the photo:D ) stand ontop of my bedside table after waking up was a nice surprise! :-)

(I think she's curious about the alarm clock!)

[tinydizzydino]

[dispatch-lover]

Just saw this on the the Twitter and... Holy Jesus Fuck!! If Herm were to put his hand on my face I'd disappear. 😳

[fineitsa-dispatch-blog]

Herm’s torso is so freaking long

He’s somehow 70% legs and 60% torso

[tinydizzydino]

100% Wet Giraffe

[silverlullabies]

Your friends are texting you. Family too. And somewhere between the first unanswered message and the fifth, you make a quiet decision that the space you take up in any conversation is an imposition. That your voice, when it surfaces, is wrong- too much, or not enough, or tilted slightly off from what the moment needed. You can’t prove this. No one said it outright. But the fear has its own logic, and you’ve been living inside it long enough that it feels like fact.

So you watch instead. You sit at the edge and you observe the way other people say things and people laugh. They say things and people lean in. You watch it with the patience of someone who has decided they are here to witness, not participate.

You tell yourself this is consideration. That you’re thinking before speaking, not speaking before thinking, like everyone always said you should.

The loneliness of it isn’t loud. It just slowly becomes the water you’re breathing, his convincing yourself that the people who love you would love you slightly more, or more easily, if you gave them a little less of yourself to not burden them.

You genuinely believe you’re being generous by going quiet.

[tinydizzydino]

This needs to be framed and cherished for the rest of my life. I laughed then I cried and then I laughed and cried and now I'm just sat here absolutely gross emotional sobbing.

I'm genuinely at a loss for words.

Thank you so much @wreegis, this means the world to me (╥﹏╥) 🧡🩵

[tinydizzydino]

☆ Update ☆

It's now in a picture frame and is displayed pride of place in my bedroom.

Thank you so much again @wreegis 🥹🩵

[tinydizzydino]

This needs to be framed and cherished for the rest of my life. I laughed then I cried and then I laughed and cried and now I'm just sat here absolutely gross emotional sobbing.

I'm genuinely at a loss for words.

Thank you so much @wreegis, this means the world to me (╥﹏╥) 🧡🩵

[tinydizzydino]

Thank you everyone for my birthday wishes yesterday!

It was the first birthday where everything actually went right for once ♡

I'm so lucky to have you guys in my life, the best gift someone could ever ask for.

[tinydizzydino]

I mean... come on if the temptation is there.

You gotta squishy the pecs.

[tinydizzydino]

Oh I'm gonna sleep like a fucking queen tonight

(˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵)

One hell of a workout but, 6ft body pillows do fit in cases.

You uh... Just gotta know where to squeeze.

[tinydizzydino]

My parcel from @wreegis finally came! Yay!

But, nope, nuh uh, I'm not sat here gross sobbing because of this pin.

I didn't put the stickers on the parcel onto my phone case. (I did, who am I kidding.)

I'm not crying whilst typing this because it's wholesome and struck a nerve ಥ﹏ಥ

[tinydizzydino]

April 1st.

A day for the fools.

But it's the first anniversary I was set free from a three year long nightmare.

Unfortunately the nightmares still hit me hard, the cold sweats, nobody to hold me and calm me down, nobody to tell me things are now okay.