The Randomness That Is Me

33. Girl Dad, Musician, IT Guy, Gamer, General Nerd

[trac3ur]

Man. It's been 8 years apparently since I last posted here. I don't even know if anyone who was part of my core group back in the day is even still here.

I don't know if this is still kosher on Tumblr, if it's still a place to word vomit, but I needed a space to get some thoughts out. So here we are.

I love my life. I'm more successful professionally than I would have thought possible at this point in my life 10 years ago, I'm still madly in love with my wife (who I'll have been married to for 10 years in July), we have an absolutely amazing 5 year old daughter, and we live in a place that people dream about living. Objectively, I have very little to complain about. However, for some reason, I have had a nagging feeling of unfulfillment. I think it's the artistic side of me? I don't really have an outlet for music beyond singing in the car and I don't really have the time for something more structured and that's frustrating.

Just to clarify, this isn't a call to action, it isn't a plea for help, it's just the ramblings of a guy who's privileged enough to where his biggest personal problem is that he feels out of touch with what was once a big part of his identity. It's me coming to a place that is steeped in nostalgia as I feel nostalgic about an era long past.

That's all.

Side note: I unironically used "back in the day". I'm going to go scream into the void as I grapple with that.

[trac3ur]

I just spent an incredible amount of time going through the old recordings I posted here. Boy were some of them rough.

[trac3ur]

Open letter to old friends:

Hi friend that I once had,

Let me start by apologizing for not being the best friend I could be. The past several years have seen my life change dramatically (for the better I like to think), and as such I let things fall. This letter is both to apologize for that, and to help myself recognize and accept that I am not the only one to blame, that I was not the only one who was bad at being a friend.

I still think about you every now and then, I hope you are doing well. I sincerely do. You held a special place in my heart, and always will to some extent. My door will always be open, my ear always ready, my shoulder always there, but I no longer expect to be the go to person for that, nor do I expect to go to you.

I'm sad. Not all the time, not even often any more, but at this moment, writing this, I am. I miss you dearly. I miss the late night conversations. I miss the random adventures. I miss the bond. Perhaps I miss all of that so much because I recognize that I no longer have the time to actively forge new bonds that way.

This collapse was a mutual inaction. For a while I blamed you, then I blamed me, now I realize that there is no point in placing blame. It was simultaneously both of our faults and neither.

Thus, I am sorry that I let you down and I forgive you for letting me down. Life happened and we have all moved on with our lives. I'm happy with my life now, just as happy as I hope you are.

Josh

[trac3ur]

Some highlights from my weekend getting married and having amazing friends around me.

[trac3ur]

O.o

Sometime a month to two months from now, I will be chilling with Cody. [uqjivbeuiphvqw rp08b3gqy h efhaovv280pio

[trac3ur]

Nearly 4 years later. 7 FUCKING DAYS.

[reginaeinferos]

Nothing is going to change. Americans love their guns more than they love people and after Sandy Hook we decided that killing over 20 children was acceptable and not outrageous enough to make reasonable restrictions on guns. This is America, a country that has been around for 200 years, a superpower, a 1st world nation, and one of the wealthiest countries on the planet and we refuse to protect our own people. We respect guns more than we respect the lives of people. 

[therevenantrising-deactivated20]

What specific gun control measures would you propose and how would they directly and effectively make society safer?

[reginaeinferos]

Absolutely get rid of all AR-15′s and the like.

Intense background and criminal background checks and anything violent automatically disqualifies you.

Make getting a gun/gun permit more like getting a driver’s license:

permit to learn

includes an exam with 18 or more questions on the policies, laws, and etc of guns and gun ownership

if you get more than 8 questions incorrect you must retake it.

30 hours of practical experience at a gun range with a licensed teacher

Must take a 5 hour class on the dangers of guns and how to use them safely which will then yield you a certificate that grants you to take the practical exam and lasts for one year. If you don’t gain the license within the allotted year you must retake the class.

A practical exam with a licensed instructor who will grade you on various skills. If you pass you may be granted a permit on the weapon of your choice, the exams may differ on the type of firearm you want.

Follow the Japanese model where you must have two gun safes in different areas of the house, one to store the gun and one to store the bullets and you must provide the police with information on where those safes are.

No concealed carry and only handguns may be allowed to be out in public.

If transporting a weapon, it must be in the trunk of the vehicle, in a bag or some other case, safety on and unloaded and may not leave the vehicle until you are at the destination.

If you’re a hunter or some other gun hobbyist that requires a functional weapon other than a handgun then the gun must stay on the premises, whether that is a gun range or the Fish and Wildlife facility.

If you live in a rural area where police (and people, for that matter) are few and far between, something akin to a deer hunting rifle should provide plenty of protection from predators and poachers, you still have to follow the aforementioned steps.

This doesn’t cover everything but I think it’s a good place to start.

[therevenantrising-deactivated20]

Can you show me evidence that this would directly and effectively create a safer society?

[reginaeinferos]

[oh-snap-pro-choice]

I have never laughed so hard at a gun law post. Like seriously, the evidence is in fucking reality. The proposed restrictions are just fucking logic.

[khamchej-blog]

also, make it illegal for private owners to sell guns to anyone under 18. if you cant buy fucking cigarettes, what the fuck do you need a gun for ????

[deactivated-blog]

Dick has a very deep V in Kory’s dream. :)

From NTT Annual #4 (1988)

[weloveshortvideos]

[rehfan]

If you are having a bad day, please unmute.

(Huskie puppy doesn’t quite get the howling thing. Sounds like a baby babbling.)

[filbipott]

“Banana!”

[iamallrightfine]

* day is fixed* 

[chileananderson-deactivated2017]

ok. i super needed this.

[stellagibsonisalifeforce]

THIS. The whole world should watch this.

[rhumbarat]

[mathed-potatoes]

Yesterday I went to dinner to catch up with my buddy from the math department, and he told me this story about how he ran the city marathon in 2 hours, 59 minutes. That’s an amazing time. He was 19th out of thousands. 

He was doing pretty well for the first half, but then his ankle started to hurt. He slowed down for a bit, but then this girl he passed before passed him, and he started overthinking whether or not it was awkward to pass the same person multiple times, and, like, what if they small-talked about it? He decided it was better to pass her and stay ahead, so he picked up the pace. A few miles later, he fell in with two dude-bros who started talking to him. Not pleased to find himself in the company of dude-bros, he pulled ahead once again. This continued for a while; every time he got closed to a group of other marathoners, his social anxiety kicked in and he ran faster because he felt nervous being near people. 

TL;DR A mathematician ran an record marathon to avoid making small-talk with randos. He introverted his way into qualifying for the Boston marathon. 

[catbushandludicrous]

[rainnecassidy]

John Oliver: Underestimating fandom since at least this gifset.

[morningwoodz]

Somewhere on a side street in Rome

[kingpinnn]

This guy is practicing smoke bending …LOL

[the-realest-sato-deactivated201]

Yo, this guy is a fucking airbender.

don’t try to say he is otherwise, just look at him go.

[ida-backwards-intherain]

He should do this onstage for money.

[darkseid-deactivated20190806]

I wanna make fun of this person for vaping enough to develop this talent but this is like. beautiful

[dlubes]

is that mac miller 

[commongayboy-deactivated2018082]

Kesha’s rapist, Dr. Luke proves once again that he’s as evil as Kesha says. What kind of monster controls and manipulates someone like this? She just wants freedom and to do what she loves most. Write music and perform! #FreeKesha

[commongayboy-deactivated2018082]

This is EXACTLY why Kesha REFUSES to work with Dr. Luke under ANY circumstances. Even if she doesn’t have to directly work with him he still has control over EVERYTHING and he will keep trying to destroy her career. Kesha needs as much help and support she can get.

[commongayboy-deactivated2018082]

Kesha’s response to her performance being cancelled

[armadyl]

[trac3ur]

The unfortunate side of not checking tumblr in a long time is that a lot of the people that I know and follow have since changed their URL, so I have no clue who anyone is now.

[duskisnigh]

I went to your funeral! I went to your damn funeral!

I’m so sad about the Bat family like seriously stop hurting my boys