i can pinpoint moments in our ~relationship’s~ development with certain songs
I Want To Know Your Plans by Say Anything (his skype status from 2011 was “and if they raise that landing gear, will your heart stay here?” i interpreted it as him coming clean about his true identity) our song. saw it performed live and had our like second kiss during the performance. i covered it multiple times to try to impress him. recently he told me he doesn’t like/understand covers. he likes mine to a degree, though.
Under Control by Parachute - college. early college. working in the offices above N Wing as a student worker. got immersed in parachute’s entire discography that year but this song really resonates even still; grasping to normalcy while attempting to get close to people I want to love in a romantic way, but barricaded in my own isolated space where I play whack-a-mole with the fact that I love him more than anyone.
Hurricane by Parachute is my 2012 iheart internship commute song. got to meet them during this record release too. But yeah, reaffirms how useless it is to try to cut him out; he will never leave. if i cut him out he becomes a death i mourn just as hard as a love I can indulge in if I don’t.
Sleepwalking - Cover by This Wild Life. he suggested this to me (fun fact, I ran into this duo when i worked one of my last iheart shifts at TLA for dashboard.) time stands still every time we exchange some type of glance I can interpret as meaningful. Every time.
Everything by MUNA - my time working for mediastar aka my cigarette job. this song and winterbreak are on par with each other, but this one specifically still makes me cry. pretty sure it’s the song that got suggested to me thru spotify when I found MUNA in the first place. crying on the bathroom floor is also fitting.
Never Not - LAUV - to and from my 2018 trip to see him. the one i documented on Billiejoesteeth the instagram lol. cheated on greg w him twice i guess. i will literally always go see him no matter who I am with. my selfishness reminds me I still need to feel, still need to have reciprocated love. but refer back to hurricane by parachute for why I can’t just ditch the fruitless love of my life.
All The Fucking Time by Loote - Halloween 2020 and Thanksgiving 2020. He and I dressed up to go to Linda’s disco party, then changed into waynes world costumes to go to Andy’s afterwards. I blasted this song and screamed along with the lyrics on multiple highways, including the following month when he brought me to his family’s thanksgiving out of pity for when I wasn’t speaking to my mother (lmao we made up and now not talking again so may go there again this year.)
Any song from Excommunication by Tyler Glenn; I rode in my ‘95 Geo Prizm to the camper on the Virginia/West Virginia border with Ryan’s portable speaker perched on the dash, blasting the entire album on repeat. Cried the whole way home listening to the same record.
there are more but i’m about to go to bed.
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