I AM INDEED ALIVE (no i'm not i have a midterm tmw LOL). but i read your fic! lwk when i'm hooked i read shit so fast. i love rivals since childhood. also haha. stem majors being stem majors point and laugh (i am one unfortunately but def could not do o-chem). also when will seonghwa save me from shitty weather?
i have more thoughts but i need to get back to studying lol.
i'm doing ok other than yk crisis about adulting shit and the fact that i'll be 21 soon... why do i feel like this meme still
honestly i come here every so often mostly to check the zb1 x reader tag... it's kinda dead and i'm sad rip but oh well....
synopsis: in which you accept that labels and perception are not always nice and neat things.
cast: gunwook x gn!reader
genre: slice of life, angst
word count: 759
warnings: discussion of morality
a/n: i wrote this in less than a day. it's probably littered with grammatical errors. i hate that it took an experience that actually happened to me recently to write more. y/n understands their flaws on an intellectual level but sucks at emotions ahaha totally can't relate yea. i hope someone sees this and feels like someone understands them.
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the rain outside your window was heavy, creating an unwavering rhythm as drops hit the ground. of course it had to be fucking raining.
you were on the foot of your bed, legs dangling off, head resting on your boyfriend's shoulder, and mind wandering even though you'd asked him to talk with you for a bit. "gunwook?"
"yea?"
"what makes someone a good or bad person?"
he took your hand.
"good and bad are subjective terms."
"of course. but to you, what does it mean?"
"the best people in my life are always trying to improve. it's not that they're perfect or anything, but they're trying to make the world around them better."
tears ran silently down your face. he naturally, went to go grab the tissues on the nightstand.
"honestly? i made a mistake, wookie. i said stuff that hurt my friend. and they've already told me about this issue before. i apologized, but they said our relationship won't be the same as before."
you paused. "i don't think i'm a good person. actually, i know i'm not."
"what makes you think so?"
you thought for a moment. "i tend to avoid a lot of conflict, get emotional when i'm confronted even though i know sometimes it's warranted, and find it hard to exercise empathy at times. i lost some friends because of that and i wouldn't be surprised if people hated me for it."
"well," he countered, "you volunteer frequently at the community garden, you help our friends babysit, you're always trying to bring new projects to fruition, you're passionate about learning and you're very good at giving others advice."
he smiled slightly.
"so, which one is the real you? the you that i describe, or the one you describe?"
you elbowed him lightly. intellectual tests were something you two often liked to do, just to challenge the other. whether it was debates on court cases, or bets on who could solve the daily sudoku faster, he always kept you on your toes.
"ugh, i know what you're doing. of course, two truths can be true at once. it just hurts to look at myself in the mirror some days."
you paused before continuing. "looking at myself after i've done something wrong, it's like focusing a big ugly spotlight on my flaws."
he gently hugged you. "you don't have to be perfect. i'm not either."
you couldn't hold in your emotion any longer and began to sob more violently. you wanted to blame it on the rain, the blistering wind, not your emotions.
"honestly, i feel fucking terrible... i hate not knowing what to do next. i hate when someone hates me. i hate the way i acted."
you trailed off as you realized how snotty your nose was, and you stopped to blow it.
"if you truly apologized, all you can do is change and accept the outcome that comes next," he said. "i trust you."
you could feel him rubbing tiny circles on your knee. "also, it's the first time living for all of us. be a little nicer to yourself, okay? i hate seeing you cry."
still buried in his arms, you nodded. he may not be perfect, but certainly, he was an angel and that you were lucky to have someone like him.
in your heart, you knew maybe some people thought you were a bad person. some probably thought you were a good one. truth was a complex thing.
at the end of the day, you could always try and be better (even though the process was going to be painful, and you were likely going to bitch and moan about it many times.)
you pulled yourself out of his embrace, trying to collect yourself.
"i guess, we're kinda like gems," you whispered. "showing different facets for different people. "
he grinned. "that's the y/n i know. perceptive and smart."
you shrugged. "at least i know that."
gunwook offered you the box of tissues. "feel better now? "
you closed your eyes. "kinda. the guilt's lingering, but i'm going to give our friendship time. talking to you did help."
the rain began to let up, giving way to a rainbow in the distance. you stared at it with him, as if it was there to remind you of the fact that bad and good could go hand in hand.
he gazed at the bedroom door and spoke up after about a minute. "so, did you still want to go bake cookies?"
you instantly perked up at the mention of sweets. "can't say no to that!"
a/n: haha. writer's block is a bitch. it's an old draft and i thought it was kinda eh but might as well post it anyways
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"hey y/n, do you think would we have met in another universe?" jake asks you, his fingertips grazing the grass of the soccer field. you pluck a blade, wrapping it around your ring finger.
such an ordinary day, and yet the question is so extraordinary.
you're not sure what you think about the possibility of there even being other universes. it's an intriguing thought. of course, there's no significant evidence to prove it, but you can disregard that when you're just daydreaming.
"don't know. would you and i even exist?"
he shrugs. "we could be in another form."
you should definitely be studying for your chemistry exam instead of talking about hypotheticals, but being with jake was too good of a time to pass up. it's alright, both of you will probably get a's anyways.
now you're both staring at the cloudless sky, captured by its vast beauty.
you hum thoughtfully. "alright, what form?"
"blobs."
you laugh at the thought. "blobs? really? like those slimes in genshin?"
he pouts and makes those goddamn puppy eyes that you always lose yourself in. "wait hey, those are cute! you don't like it? i think it's possible."
"i guess so. next you'll ask if we would have met as plants or something."
"why not?" he replies with a shrug. "or we could be inanimate objects."
"like what?"
"a lock and its key."
you don't respond, but a tiny laugh escapes you.
"i definitely know which is which," you reply with a laugh.
you know he can be quite the charmer with his words when he wants to, but with you, he seems sincere.
he holds up a dandelion and blows lightly on the petals. some end up on your clothing. you laugh and gently brush them off.
as you stare at the clouds, a strange feeling washes over you, and you smile warmly at him. he grasps your wrist gently.
"forget it. who cares about other universes? you're here in this one."
you run your fingers through his hair, smiling. hypotheticals were indeed such interesting questions.
but perhaps, you two were the same no matter what universe you ended up in. two souls choosing to spend their moments of existence together.
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