Rhys

A 19-year old with ASPD. Here to educate those on what it’s like since everyone likes to categorize us as heartless sociopaths.

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A little bit about me

Hi. I’m Rhys, a 19-year old college student with diagnosed ASPD (Antisocial personality disorder— AKA “the disorder that literally every serial killer has.”)

People like to say that they want to help people with mental disorders, which is great, but it’s not for EVERY mental disorder. It’s only for disorders such as depression, anxiety, eating disorders, etc.

However, people refuse to listen to people with mental disorders such as ASPD, NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) BPD (Borderline Personality) HSP (Histrionic Personality Disorder), and other such disorders. These such disorders are called “cluster b disorders,” which are disorders are characterized by volatile emotionality and often unpredictable behavior.

As someone with diagnosed ASPD, Depression, and anxiety, I want to give a voice to others with these issues, since the mainstream media is too scared to do so.

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BREAKING NEWS: WHAT THE FUCK?

who is asking these questions? i have no joke / punchline to share, just utter confusion.

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Foolish questions, everyone knows that narcissists and psychopaths are demons who are not from this mortal realm and are therefore unable to yawn. Smh…

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Were you fully diagnosed with your cluster b disorders?

Yeah, and I regret it. Therapists quite literally decline helping me. Anything that I do is blamed on my ASPD.

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Who want me 😘

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Oh my god I’m an awful person 🙁

Oh my godddd 😏 I’m an awful person 🥳‼️😫

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The term “narc abuse” is so dumb to me.

Okay, so your ex partner was abusive and they happened to have NPD. Okay? So? People with depression can be abusive, but we don’t call it “depression abuse”

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Why can't people argue without getting their emotions involved? It's annoying.

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I'm not yelling at you, why do you raise your voice? Please, stop. You only complicate things more. I'm talking to you calmly. Think objectively. Okey, I get it, you feel hurt, but you did things wrong too. You can't just ask people to understand your point of view and then not making the slightest effort to understand the point of view of the rest. You're speaking a nonsense. Just admit you were the one who messed things up at first, and don't ask me to remain silent about it because I won't. You're not the victim this time.

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And then when you’re calm and not responding emotionally they’ll say that you’re manipulating them and trying to downplay their emotions.

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One thing that people with mental disorders besides cluster B disorders will never fully understand is that it’s near impossible for us to get help. Not saying that it’s not hard opening up to people about other mental disorders such as depression, but usually if someone opened up about their depression, they’d be responded with sympathy. But for people with cluster b disorders, if we open up about our disorders, we’ll be labeled as fucking psychos who just like manipulating people for pure evil.

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I hope your doing well in life

Genuinely can’t tell if this is sarcastic or not, but I’m doing quite well in life. I hope the same can be said about yours /gen

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How would you react if someone figured out you had aspd?

Honest answer: I’d manipulate them into thinking that they were wrong.

“What do you mean? I don’t have ASPD! Everyone always shows some symptoms of mental illness like that! Haha, so silly.” — I’d say something to that effect.

And if they didn’t believe me, I would keep persisting this narrative until they at least started to doubt what they thought.

I’ve never told anyone in my life that I have ASPD. Why? Because if I do, everyone who I care about would suddenly think I’m out to get them and stay as far away from me as humanly possible.

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Edgy 14 year olds trying not to self diagnose themselves with ASPD because they relate to the Joker

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Psychopaths vs Sociopaths

Psychopaths:

-Are unable to form emotional attachments to anyone no matter what

-Have to fake having emotions at all

-Often tend to “underreact” in situations. For example, a loved one dies and they’re making jokes and laughing a day after the death.

-No morals at all

-No empathy

-More calculated, more thoughtful

Sociopaths:

-Self control is poor or non existent

-Impulsive, erratic, hot headed

-Mood swings

-Able to feel heavy emotions (rage, grief, sadness) but on very superficial and shallow levels

-Able to feel empathy -Able to form emotional attachments

-Are the way they are because of how they were raised

Remember; not everyone with ASPD is a psychopath or sociopath. And not everyone who’s a psychopath or a sociopath are crazy serial killers who torture kittens and want to manipulate everyone. And not every sociopath and psychopath have these symptoms, ASPD is a spectrum. Those are just the extreme examples of differences. Calling someone a psychopath/sociopath are outdated terms, but people need to know the difference.

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Questions I usually get asked about my ASPD usually are, but are not limited to:

”Did you torture animals as a child?” — Nope. That’s a stereotype. It’s similar to the stereotype of people with depression “doing it for attention.” ASPD is a spectrum, meaning that most of us don’t kill animals just for kicks and giggles. However, if someone have really bad ASPD, they may torture animals. It’s similar to the autism spectrum. Some people with autism function relatively normally, while others are non verbal.

“Do you manipulate people?” — Yeah. It’s part of the disorder, after all, and is something the media hides. The media likes to hide the manipulator’s perspective, which is completely reasonable sometimes, but it demonizes those with cluster B disorder. Whenever I manipulate people, it’s often subconscious. I never wake up in the morning and go “wow! What a fine day to go and manipulate some people!” It’s usually more like, “Hm, if I do ___ then ____ will do what I want.”

“So, you have no guilt or remorse?” — Not true. I do feel guilt, just on a very shallow level. If I do something wrong, I’ll feel guilty about it for a few hours at most then get over it.

“Do you cry?” — Yeah. I cry, but not like others do. I cry for short periods of time, 10-15 minutes at most.

“Do you think you’re better than other people?” — Sort of, in a way. It doesn’t apply to everyone, but I’ll sometimes see someone who isn’t very intelligent or very gullible and subconsciously think “Oh wow, that’s someone who is worse than me.” In short, I don’t think everyone is worse than me. Just some people.

If you have any questions, I’d love to answer them.